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ilikeplanets · 12-22-2022, 01:50 AM

Stay away from online shopping tonight. Last time I got too upset, I sent 4 people gifts with really emotionally charged handwritten letters, and did NOT feel better about things after doing that. Only 3 of them thanked me, too.

redbreegull · 12-22-2022, 03:42 AM

my bank account won't even support me buying gifts for my family this year. Work has been very non-understanding of my absence and they stopped paying me. I'm in the middle of a debacle with HR. my administrator at one point sent me a physical letter in the mail telling me my job was in jeopardy and demanding a form which is about why I am out which is a physician's form. I have since been told this was illegal because my supervisor should never have direct access to doctor/patient confidentiality stuff, and I am not required to tell them anything. When I got the letter I freaked out though and sent her an email and CCed HR and my union rep. I attached the form and specified I felt this was wrong and I felt very uncomfortable that this was being asked of me by admin and not HR/payroll. She tried to cover her ass and lied and said she had previously told me the form could go right to HR. They suspended my pay anyway. I don't even know what to do because I work for county government. It would be very difficult and costly to start a legal war.

Cool As Ice Cream · 12-22-2022, 05:31 PM

My name is Kimani Roberts Shorter. I was born on August 20th in 1980 in D.C.I grew up in Washington, D.C. I first developed my theory in 2005. I attended college from 1998 to 2001. I was helped in developing the test by Irving kelly an office counselor working with Udc, Kevin Williams a child shrink and Matt Cora a group home supervisor

Ram27 · 12-22-2022, 09:59 PM

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Originally Posted by redbreegull

my bank account won't even support me buying gifts for my family this year. Work has been very non-understanding of my absence and they stopped paying me. I'm in the middle of a debacle with HR. my administrator at one point sent me a physical letter in the mail telling me my job was in jeopardy and demanding a form which is about why I am out which is a physician's form. I have since been told this was illegal because my supervisor should never have direct access to doctor/patient confidentiality stuff, and I am not required to tell them anything. When I got the letter I freaked out though and sent her an email and CCed HR and my union rep. I attached the form and specified I felt this was wrong and I felt very uncomfortable that this was being asked of me by admin and not HR/payroll. She tried to cover her ass and lied and said she had previously told me the form could go right to HR. They suspended my pay anyway. I don't even know what to do because I work for county government. It would be very difficult and costly to start a legal war.

sorry you're going thru that....jesus christ, it's insane how militant jobs get over people being sick or just calling off generally

Ram27 · 12-22-2022, 09:59 PM

jobs should have zero access to anyone's medical data whatsoever, and that very much includes sick notes and drug tests

Ram27 · 12-22-2022, 10:07 PM

oh and if this is the gen mental health thread:

fuck winter. i felt my body shut down in november and today i started fantasizing about death again. i have no idea what's coming in my life next year.

graduating in may, probably, then onto the open ocean [connotation: bad]

every time i do a college thing i get PTSD from my last time at college [sorry for being a fucking drunk back then...]. my hope is that i can steel myself from women forever. not in a right wing freak way, but in a fear way.

ilikeplanets · 12-22-2022, 11:42 PM

We're not "one size fits all" evil/terrifying, ya know

ilikeplanets · 12-22-2022, 11:43 PM

I mean, I'm a fucking monster but don't let that tarnish your opinion of the entirety of us

Ram27 · 12-23-2022, 09:27 PM

haha, thank you -- i know this intellectually; what i think i was saying in my angry proto-suicidal state is i can't stand the vulnerability of relationships or the vulnerability required to be in one, and i'm already so goddamn shy irl it just feels over

Ram27 · 12-23-2022, 09:29 PM

and i'm like almost a year sober [from alcohol] which is great but doesn't help the shyness. i'm feeling more confident in talking sober, but incredibly slowly. [like, i'm finally up to 'swooooon' versus others' 'pick your pocket full of sorrow']

redbreegull · 12-23-2022, 10:48 PM

sounds like we have an avoidant attachment style over here

Ram27 · 12-24-2022, 12:51 AM

oh hell yeah

ilikeplanets · 12-24-2022, 01:04 AM

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Originally Posted by Ram27

and i'm like almost a year sober [from alcohol] which is great but doesn't help the shyness. i'm feeling more confident in talking sober, but incredibly slowly. [like, i'm finally up to 'swooooon' versus others' 'pick your pocket full of sorrow']

This resonates with me. I'm at 5 years sober [from like, a lot of things] and though most of the time my tone is authoritative and my body language is composed, every once in a while the brain damage shows itself. Mostly in the form of awkward non-sequiturs.

I'm especially prone to this when around peers. I'm more comfortable when I'm supposed to be either the one in charge or the one taking orders, but if I'm on equal footing with someone I can spazz a little bit. I guess that also boils down to shyness/low self confidence, since I don't have a role to fill in those situations, but have to try to be authentically personable.

FoolofaTook · 01-11-2023, 06:31 AM

I'm into women farting, just not pooping or peeing. I like how a woman's butthole winks when she farts, and I like the idea of her being able to store farts in her butthole and then fart them out in my face. The feel her of her farts coming out, or just the sound of them is awe inspiring to me. Especially if her farts interact with stuff, like she is wearing a dress and her farts move part of the dress like in this video

So basically everything about a woman's butthole when she farts fascinates me. The opening and closing of the butthole, the sound, the smell, just knowing that her butthole is kind of open for a spit second.

If I ever get a woman to fart in my face, I'll just wear swimming goggles so I don't get pinkeye.

I don't think anyone in my circle of friends or family would be surprised to know I am into women's buttholes.

I'm also into women putting icing or cake batter into their cornhole and farting it out, like storing it inside them and then squeezing it out. Just seeing the batter go in and then being squeezed out is also something I'm into, along with women sitting on cakes and farting.

I think it all goes back to when I was a kid and I found a prono mag in the woods that had a picture of a guy using a long wooden popsicle stick to pull poop out of a woman's asshole. Also the first time I had sex the girl I was with asked me if I wanted to fuck her in the shitter and I declined. I later found out that I would have had the chance to take her anal virginity and I've always regretted it, my first time putting my cock in a woman could have been into her pristine unspoiled virgin turdcutter, and I've always regretted it.

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12-22-2022, 01:50 AM	#121
ilikeplanets Braindead Location: Ignore List Posts: 15,912	Stay away from online shopping tonight. Last time I got too upset, I sent 4 people gifts with really emotionally charged handwritten letters, and did NOT feel better about things after doing that. Only 3 of them thanked me, too.

12-22-2022, 03:42 AM	#122
redbreegull Just Hook it to My Veins! Location: WILD BOY Posts: 32,212	my bank account won't even support me buying gifts for my family this year. Work has been very non-understanding of my absence and they stopped paying me. I'm in the middle of a debacle with HR. my administrator at one point sent me a physical letter in the mail telling me my job was in jeopardy and demanding a form which is about why I am out which is a physician's form. I have since been told this was illegal because my supervisor should never have direct access to doctor/patient confidentiality stuff, and I am not required to tell them anything. When I got the letter I freaked out though and sent her an email and CCed HR and my union rep. I attached the form and specified I felt this was wrong and I felt very uncomfortable that this was being asked of me by admin and not HR/payroll. She tried to cover her ass and lied and said she had previously told me the form could go right to HR. They suspended my pay anyway. I don't even know what to do because I work for county government. It would be very difficult and costly to start a legal war.

12-22-2022, 05:31 PM	#123
Cool As Ice Cream Just Hook it to My Veins! Location: František! How's the foot of your turtle? Posts: 32,520	My name is Kimani Roberts Shorter. I was born on August 20th in 1980 in D.C.I grew up in Washington, D.C. I first developed my theory in 2005. I attended college from 1998 to 2001. I was helped in developing the test by Irving kelly an office counselor working with Udc, Kevin Williams a child shrink and Matt Cora a group home supervisor

12-22-2022, 09:59 PM	#125
Ram27 dumb Location: blissed out Posts: 10,263	jobs should have zero access to anyone's medical data whatsoever, and that very much includes sick notes and drug tests

12-22-2022, 10:07 PM	#126
Ram27 dumb Location: blissed out Posts: 10,263	oh and if this is the gen mental health thread: fuck winter. i felt my body shut down in november and today i started fantasizing about death again. i have no idea what's coming in my life next year. graduating in may, probably, then onto the open ocean [connotation: bad] every time i do a college thing i get PTSD from my last time at college [sorry for being a fucking drunk back then...]. my hope is that i can steel myself from women forever. not in a right wing freak way, but in a fear way.

12-22-2022, 11:42 PM	#127
ilikeplanets Braindead Location: Ignore List Posts: 15,912	We're not "one size fits all" evil/terrifying, ya know

12-22-2022, 11:43 PM	#128
ilikeplanets Braindead Location: Ignore List Posts: 15,912	I mean, I'm a fucking monster but don't let that tarnish your opinion of the entirety of us

12-23-2022, 09:27 PM	#129
Ram27 dumb Location: blissed out Posts: 10,263	haha, thank you -- i know this intellectually; what i think i was saying in my angry proto-suicidal state is i can't stand the vulnerability of relationships or the vulnerability required to be in one, and i'm already so goddamn shy irl it just feels over

12-23-2022, 09:29 PM	#130
Ram27 dumb Location: blissed out Posts: 10,263	and i'm like almost a year sober [from alcohol] which is great but doesn't help the shyness. i'm feeling more confident in talking sober, but incredibly slowly. [like, i'm finally up to 'swooooon' versus others' 'pick your pocket full of sorrow']

12-23-2022, 10:48 PM	#131
redbreegull Just Hook it to My Veins! Location: WILD BOY Posts: 32,212	sounds like we have an avoidant attachment style over here

12-24-2022, 12:51 AM	#132
Ram27 dumb Location: blissed out Posts: 10,263	oh hell yeah

01-11-2023, 06:31 AM	#134
FoolofaTook Just Hook it to My Veins! Location: soy peor Posts: 37,116	I'm into women farting, just not pooping or peeing. I like how a woman's butthole winks when she farts, and I like the idea of her being able to store farts in her butthole and then fart them out in my face. The feel her of her farts coming out, or just the sound of them is awe inspiring to me. Especially if her farts interact with stuff, like she is wearing a dress and her farts move part of the dress like in this video So basically everything about a woman's butthole when she farts fascinates me. The opening and closing of the butthole, the sound, the smell, just knowing that her butthole is kind of open for a spit second. If I ever get a woman to fart in my face, I'll just wear swimming goggles so I don't get pinkeye. I don't think anyone in my circle of friends or family would be surprised to know I am into women's buttholes. I'm also into women putting icing or cake batter into their cornhole and farting it out, like storing it inside them and then squeezing it out. Just seeing the batter go in and then being squeezed out is also something I'm into, along with women sitting on cakes and farting. I think it all goes back to when I was a kid and I found a prono mag in the woods that had a picture of a guy using a long wooden popsicle stick to pull poop out of a woman's asshole. Also the first time I had sex the girl I was with asked me if I wanted to fuck her in the shitter and I declined. I later found out that I would have had the chance to take her anal virginity and I've always regretted it, my first time putting my cock in a woman could have been into her pristine unspoiled virgin turdcutter, and I've always regretted it.