Clench ur glutes

you should work on a farm

5:20 and I still haven't really left my bed.

And then I'll have to go back to work tomorrow and hate my job while thinking about how I had the chance to do stuff I actually like when I was at home, but didn't.

I was just going to go out and practice doing some photography, but that would require going downstairs and passing by my mom and having to interact with her, and I'm too anxious to do that right now.

thanks [blue heart emoji]

and thanks took. was hoping for jimbo on a motorcycle lol

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1:30AM just redid the application like he said i might have to. so yay. maybe. that shouldn't make me so excited but hey i'm taking steps to get my shit back on track so look at me now motherfucker

now i am going to learn drain you by nirvana. probably in drop d because i'm lazy

@everlasting gaze

yeah i completely get that having to stay in my room thing. and hating going down when parents are home

for ages and ages i couldn't play drums when other people were home cause i'd have to go downstairs then be loud and express myself and agh

lately i've just been in bed on reddit or some shit

haven't recorded a song since like april which is a big fucking F

FUCK THE ENTIRE UNIVERSE

2nd day in a row having toast topped with ricotta cheese and fried egg for breakfast. should have stuck to one toast and egg tho.

the other day we put broccoli and cooked chickpeas under the broiler for 4 minutes and then dolloped on some ricotta with lemon and olive oil and had it with toasted bread for dinner. y'all can steal that, if u want. i'm trying to do as little cooking as possible but with maximum returns. looking for that equilibrium.

just applied to like 5 jobs. or, rather, tried. because half the fucking motherfucking pages break halfway thru and the other half don't even send a fucking confirmation email and i am going to die in the gutter and be happy about it

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You ever just wake up in the morning (or afternoon), try to brush your teeth, but then have to stop in order to alternate between balling/shaking your fists in rage and holding your face in your hands because you just hate the fact that you have to go through yet another day

I feel this so hard

not quite this but i may have had my moments of yelling at myself in some kind of remorseful & semi-maniacal fit of rage & loathing

but only every now & again!

i'm still waiting to get back into some cool hobbies

Such as yelling at yourself in some kind of remorseful and semi-maniacal fit of rage and loathing?

yes, and painting. =]

i did invest a small sum of money in the stock market and it's proven to be a great distraction AND i made $60 since last week. it would be cool if i could make enough to pay for my school so it's like i got capitalism to pay for my schooling and i only put down $200. it's like gambling but no one frowns down on it.

i peeped out my loan totals yesterday and also canceled my Chase account and am trying to get my money right which includes splitting my shit up and taking some risks with what i can safely lose without dying or starving. i moved everything from chase into an online bank that has a .65% interest on CHECKING (wow wow) and am going to open a money market account when my funds finish transferring.

i timed this all wrong, tho, and i have NO access to money except the $75 in my paypal account, but that's to pay my bill. =[ classic!

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Still liked that post better

that's actually secret internet code-talk for "I love cocks. I love mine as well. And i love my little farm"

I've got some investments in a TFSA, but it's in the least volatile, most conservative portfolio possible.

I have thought about putting some of the money in a higher risk, higher reward portfolio for long-term investment. More risky investments are more volatile in the short run, but you're still expected to make money in the long term. Good for saving for retirement or something.

I'd say it's not like gambling, because there is actual tangible information you can you to make educated predictions, whereas gambling is pure luck. Still, if I were picking my own stocks and bonds to make investments in, it would be gambling, because I'm not educated about investment decisions and I don't spend my time reading annual reports to know what companies are looking good. Some portfolio manager somewhere I've never met who presumably does know this shit handles that.

i was trying to post this actually tho i do love cocks. and my little ...



farm.

yeah, i've been paying more attention than usual to business news. i'm not obsessive, but i generally seem to have pretty good luck with educated guesses, connecting dots, and making predictions. i swear i'm just a little psychic, but even if i am not, i need that confidence. one of my investments has doubled :cool: now i just need to do that over and over again with all my investments by making good choices. know when to hold 'em, know when to fold 'em

i signed up too and my free signup stock was a share of a shitty energy company. i sold it and now i don't know what to do. maybe i'll cash out and buy a pizza puff

I made $40 performing a same-sex marriage today.

Usually I perform same-sex stuff in the tub. And for free. But this was a special occasion.

Hey I want a refund!!

Well you can have this lap dance here for free

clench ur glutes

aw

naw

big slim dogg