I mentioned that to her and she got like irately jealous actually

wtf

what a crazy lady

you're a blowhard, dude.

just got word via email i was offered the job at the disability access center at the community college i used to attend.

i left my last job after 18 months cause my new boss was an absolute asshole who behaved like a typical white woman with a little bit of power who also fancied herself a progressive. our relationship was tense and unproductive and i ended up getting fired the last day of february. but before any of that, i had taken some issues to my union rep including my boss changing my job duties (thus breaking the contract) without a pay increase. honestly, i might have been okay with this if she weren't so awful.

anyway, my union lawyer still dealt with this for me and ended up getting me 4 weeks of pay and the firing is officially considered a resignation. as if that last part matters...

so i guess this means cee-dub has one less phone bill to worry about

OMGLOL

you pretend to have a problem when he says problematic bullshit yet you revel in and repeat it and aren't so different yourself. eat shit, poor little rich boy.

:D :D :D :D :D :D :D

exactly.

tru

how punk

started listening to podcasts at night again. i really shouldn't be staying awake until 12 or 1 am but i don't have very much down time and i really enjoy them. averaging about 5 hours of sleep though so it's probably not very sustainable. oh well.

I ran into her and she rejected me again

I wasn't trying to run into her

Idk what to do

I can't survive this

Suicide is the only option

To sleep perchance to endlessly run into her only to be rejected again and again.

Not worth the risk.

this time next year you won't care nearly as much, and in 5 years you'll struggle to remember the details of the "relationship"...especially if you keep it up with the one-two memory punch of ecstasy and alcohol. just breathe and get a little meaner.

I am going to kill myself I think

I mean I met some other lady idc though this is it

You were like this about the friend from high school, too, but how important did she turn out to be within a fairly short time frame?

could you give us some 'typical white women behaviour' characteristics please

or examples

i'm not here to teach

dude, elph, hang in there. give it some time. you went for walks: go on longer walks, with music. and give the ecstasy a break. i know you feel crappy and i'm not trying to question your feelings, but at least some of this is due to coming off that stuff.

I'm not asking you to teach, just to clarify what you just described

genuinely interested

elphie come and chat tonight in discord

uh oh you're in big trouble, mister

Yeah, live-stream that shit

Just give yourself one more week; count down the days as they pass

Imagine if you killed yourself and only one week later you would have felt better

Just give yourself one week

i had that song stuck in my head for a year. even tommy was sick of it. god, i hate that song.

chickitty-chine at the chinese chicken

Barenaked Ladies are sinisterly catchy.

Add to that the fact that in Canada, there is this undue reverence for our few popular domestic bands, particularly amongst the middle aged, and it makes bands like this and the Tragically Hip unescapable.

Thankfully even Canadians draw the line at Nickelback, though. We don't typically correct people who mistakenly believe they are American. You guys can have them.

how do you guys feel about moxy fruvous, these days?

I still love King of Spain. I'm ashamed, but I do. There, I said it.

I hit rock bottom

snorting coke with guys that could have easily murdered and robbed me

drank so much and then the Real Sad kicked in as I entered oblivion wide awake...it can all be so much worse

no more drinking

I've actually never heard of them and had to Google them. I assume anything connected to Jian Ghomeshi can't be looked at with much fondness in 2019, though.

Jesus, dude, a breakup after a six-month relationship should not cause you to "hit rock bottom."

You should be snorting coke for fun, not out of despondency.

i did coke in the backroom of a gas station with the owner and his friend after it had closed. i had just purchased beer from the place as it was closing up.

elph is making me remember how much i liked coke.

stop that would you

Received a B at school. It hurts. I’m not dealing with the endless distractions of life very well. In Sydney I did a lot better, because I hired a babysitter to help me. And also my husband was around.

It’s been 47 days since he was here last. And another 28 until he arrives back for good. It looks like he has a job offer and will go straight to work when he gets here, which is a relief, but also quite hard for him. He’s doing his normal job, trying to find a new job, selling all the furniture and household crap, and painting the apartment. He needs a break, but I have a feeling the new job will want him to start straight away.

I’m unmedicated and living with my parents and my kids without my main support person, and I’ve gone back to school full time. I keep flip flopping between “I need to go see someone ASAP to organise these thoughts” and “Is therapy an extravagance? Could I just journal everything and make to do lists? Could it really be that easy?”

In some ways living with my parents had been a helpful trigger to re examine my past traumas and see all the ways my life has been affected by my upbringing. But it is pretty brutal. The kids are OK but not great. We really need to find a house and we keep inching closer...but it’s just so painfully slow.

Twenty years ago I’d be out bingeing like Elph, drowning away the confusion and the hurt and the fear.

Now I just do a shit job on my homework and drink herbal tea and sleep like the dead

Am I middle aged now?

middle aged? we're all fucking geriatric here. even 'young Elph' is about 68

I think the E burned out my serotonin receptors or something

I just woke up that day feeling abysmal

and my depression just takes the form of these obsessive fixations on women that don't want me anymore

I got some other woman's # that night while she was on a date lol

also nah coke sucks I did like 3 bumps though

sympathetic as always, elephant