i can't take it anymore

[Affect]

Originally posted by Samsa


yeah and i can't wait until you kill a family of four one night driving home after drinking 12 shots of that expensive vodka you like to brag about.

That's exactly why I don't drink and drive, Ms. Popular.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by kypper

yeah except i don't do it to myself, not just me, that's not what really hurts. i don't do it to myself, not me. not me and no one else.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by Affect
That's exactly why I don't drink and drive, Ms. Popular.

funny, i remember clearly quite a few posts from you stating the contrary.

[sleeper]

Originally posted by melancholia


it's a mental condition caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain which causes drastic mood swings which vary from mania to depression...it also enhances your emotions. http://my.webmd.com/encyclopedia/article/2950.1300

shit, i think i may have that. nto that extreme, but i rarely ever have a stable mood. in one day i go thru like a hundred different mindsets and moods. certain thoughts can turn everything around. id be happy as shit but one thought wrong and im ready to have a ice cold shower and talk to myself. its worst when im alone, which i am 90 of the time. i definately have very powerful emotions, and im happy for that. i couldnt produce a single shred of art if i wasnt

[beef curtains]

suze, you know we don't get along....
but seriously, there comes a point where you have to just give up on someone.....i had a different situation talking to someone online (that you know quite well), that was somewhat emotionally fucked up, and i finally had to tell them to fuck off for my own mental health.
It might suck, hurt etc....but in the long run you'll be better off for it

[Oblivious]

Originally posted by Graveflower
Do what I did, block his ass. I'll leave him on there until he stops being a dickhead troll. I feel bad enough about myself without this jackass telling me off everytime I sign on.

[kypper]

Originally posted by Samsa


yeah except i don't do it to myself, not just me, that's not what really hurts. i don't do it to myself, not me. not me and no one else.

And yet you do, psycho.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by Mark LeDrew


It's worth it for her martyrdom alone. She has to have SOMETHING to bemoan right?

holy shit mark ledrew, you have some nerve

no i don't have something to bemoan. i know for a fact i don't. i don't want things to be shitty with julio. i love when he's in a good mood and we get along. what is your fucking deal.

listen. you are such a fucking asshole. just because bad things happen to me doesn't mean i *want* them to happen to me. just because my julio is a psychotic jerk doesn't mean i *want* him to be like that. what, me getting upset about him beign a jerk automatically means i want him to be like that? fucking no. that is faulty logic. if i complain about something it's because i'm upset about it. if i have nothing to complain about, THEN I'M REALLY FUCKING HAPPY

i am a horrible pessimist meaning whenever something is going well i know that it's nto going to last but that doesn't mean i don't WANT it to last. there's nothing i want more than to live a life free of conflict and anxiety. just because i have anxiety in my life doesn't mean i NEED it in my life. i don't fucking want people to pity me. i want to live a happy life free of any sort of conflict or trauma. that is my one fucking goal and the fact that you can't get that through your retarded skull, it's so fucking sad. and that's the reason i don't talk to you anymore.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by kypper


And yet you do, psycho.

how does julio acting like a complete ass to me equate ME doing it to MYSELF. it doesn't, psycho. you have no brainpower whatsoever. how about you refrain from judging until you know the situation. you mean i should know better than to *gasp* reply to a topic about webcam girls because i know how fucking pissed julio gets when i even MENTION another female because he thinks it means i'm a lesbian? why don't you just go drink some urine.

[Affect]

Originally posted by Samsa


funny, i remember clearly quite a few posts from you stating the contrary.

No, the entire point of the conversation was that I didn't. You must have been too wrapped up in your pointless and meaningless online drama.

[Fattening Ass]

Page two ensues

[jenn]

Originally posted by Affect
That's exactly why I don't drink and drive, Ms. Popular.

i drink like a madwoman too by the way...i also will not drive after drinking. whee.

[jenn]

Originally posted by sleeper


shit, i think i may have that. nto that extreme, but i rarely ever have a stable mood. in one day i go thru like a hundred different mindsets and moods. certain thoughts can turn everything around. id be happy as shit but one thought wrong and im ready to have a ice cold shower and talk to myself. its worst when im alone, which i am 90 of the time. i definately have very powerful emotions, and im happy for that. i couldnt produce a single shred of art if i wasnt

it's very common... and it's especially common amongst artists.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by Affect
No, the entire point of the conversation was that I didn't. You must have been too wrapped up in your pointless and meaningless online drama.

point of what conversation? that you didn't drink and drive. dude. you had 12 shots of vodka and drove home. whether or not you *felt* drunk is completely irrelevant.

oh and pointless and meaningless online drama? like you harrassing me and calling me a moron? you're so much better than me, steven. really.

[skippy]

Originally posted by Samsa


i want to live a happy life free of any sort of conflict or trauma. that is my one fucking goal and the fact that you can't get that through your retarded skull, it's so fucking sad. and that's the reason i don't talk to you anymore.

What you want is for people to pay attention to your sorry ass. That much is painfully obvious as you continually work to create conflict where none exists thus creating the illusion that you are being victimized. It's selfish and it's pathetic.

And that's the reason I don't talk to YOU anymore.

[KrazeeStacee]

Suze, I rarely agree with anyone here, and I rarely try to get serious...But you should take into consideration to what they're saying.

It's REALLY hard to tell someone to fuck off, especially someone you're attatched to, and someone you've known for so long. Believe me, I know...I'm going through almost the same shit you're going through now (or so it seems that way).

Being emotionally abused for so long, you start to think that the pros outweigh the cons. You might be completely blind to the fact that you'd be worse off staying than leaving...or you might see it, but be in denial. It's a tough situation, but you should really just take a step back once in a while, take a breath of fresh air and think clearly about your relationship.

You need to be strong and rip it off like a bandage. Maybe try to find someone else that you get along well with, not as a replacement, but more as just a guide, someone to help you, to catch you when you stumble.

If its really as serious as you say, its really hurting you that bad emotionally, it really may not be worth it and you should seriously think long and hard about it.

[Smiley33]

Next time on As Netphoria Turns (into the o-board)...

Will Julio ever forgive Suze for being a big fat lesbo? Will Suze realise she's been taking steroids instead of St. John's Wort all along? WILL NETPHORIANS EVER STOP CLICKING ON THE JULIO - SUZE = A HUGE, PULSING ZIT WAITING TO BE POPPED saga threads? Tune in next time to find out all this and more.

[kypper]

Originally posted by Samsa


how does julio acting like a complete ass to me equate ME doing it to MYSELF. it doesn't, psycho. you have no brainpower whatsoever. how about you refrain from judging until you know the situation. you mean i should know better than to *gasp* reply to a topic about webcam girls because i know how fucking pissed julio gets when i even MENTION another female because he thinks it means i'm a lesbian? why don't you just go drink some urine.

BECAUSE YOU KEEP COMING BACK FOR MORE.
sheesh.
Take something for that growing tumor on your brain ok? I think your parietal lobe is dying.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by Mark LeDrew



What you want is for people to pay attention to your sorry ass. That much is painfully obvious as you continually work to create conflict where none exists thus creating the illusion that you are being victimized. It's selfish and it's pathetic.

And that's the reason I don't talk to YOU anymore.

excuse me? i work to create conflict where none exists?

what the fuck are you talking about.

two major sources of conflict:

mike gaddrow won't let me keep my sig. who is the person that created the conflict? me, who has had the same sig for months, or gaddrow, who suddenly started deleting it for no fucking reason?

two, julio constantly being a psychotic jerk to me. exactly how am I creating conflict by having a friend who is a total FREAK to me

that's your fucking problem mark ledrew. you always sit there fucking blaming me for my problems when they're NEVER my fault and you sit there fucking accusing me of CREATING conflict when it is fucking obvious that none of this conflict is MY doing. how CAN it be my doing. did i fucking ASK gaddrow to delete my sig? no. did i fucking ASK julio to call me a pervert? no. your logic is completely fucked. i don't talk to YOU anymore because every fucking time i had a bad day you accused me of being whiny or attention-seeking when really i was just having a bad day. and not only that, you'd IM me asking me how i'm doing, and when i TOLD you, you accused me of being whiny and looking for your pity. if i wanted your fuckign pity don't you think i'd im you? no. i never fucking talked to you when i was feeling like shit because i knew you'd just be an obnoxious jerk to me. yet you continued to im me asking me how i'm doing and when i didn't say 'fine' you'd get mad at me and call me self-centered or some shit. you stupid jerk.

[mirrar]

Originally posted by Samsa




just because bad things happen to me doesn't mean i *want* them to happen to me. just because my julio is a psychotic jerk doesn't mean i *want* him to be like that. what, me getting upset about him beign a jerk automatically means i want him to be like that? fucking no. that is faulty logic. if i complain about something it's because i'm upset about it. if i have nothing to complain about, THEN I'M REALLY FUCKING HAPPY

i am a horrible pessimist meaning whenever something is going well i know that it's nto going to last but that doesn't mean i don't WANT it to last. there's nothing i want more than to live a life free of conflict and anxiety. just because i have anxiety in my life doesn't mean i NEED it in my life. i don't fucking want people to pity me. i want to live a happy life free of any sort of conflict or trauma. that is my one fucking goal and the fact that you can't get that through your retarded skull, it's so fucking sad. and that's the reason i don't talk to you anymore.

Suze, what everyone is trying to tell you is that you do it to yourself BECAUSE you keep on talking to julio no matter how shitty he makes you feel or how much of an ass he is to you. I understand how you love the way you two get along when he's not being a jerk, but the fact that it seems he is so often and he makes you feel like shit so much says that it's NOT worth the pain.. At least thats the way it seems here.. The fact that you can justify the rewards being greater than the drawbacks is really none of anyones buisness here but it's still something i don't really think anyone gets and thats why they get frustrated.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by kypper


BECAUSE YOU KEEP COMING BACK FOR MORE.
sheesh.
Take something for that growing tumor on your brain ok? I think your parietal lobe is dying.

maybe i keep coming back for more because i love him and don't want to lose him.

but nooo. that would make too much SENSE. instead it's this whole long theory about how i ONLY talk to julio so he can give me a nervous breakdown so i can post about it on netphoria and hav epeople PITY ME.

of course the number one fallacy of YOUR logica dn the logic of mark ledrew is i NEVER get any fucking pity from any of you people. all i get are insults. so therefore, WHY would i create drama? because i like being insulted? i don't fucking think so.

[skippy]

Originally posted by Samsa

that's your fucking problem mark ledrew. you always sit there fucking blaming me for my problems when they're NEVER my fault and you sit there fucking accusing me of CREATING conflict when it is fucking obvious that none of this conflict is MY doing. jerk.

lol. This part was pure gold. That's just about all you need to know to understand how deluded Suze is.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by Mark LeDrew


lol. This part was pure gold. That's just about all you need to know to understand how deluded Suze is.

and it's just proof of how accusatory and hard-headed you are for calling me 'deluded' just because you want to. even though i've explained a thousand times that it is not my fault some jerk wont' let my have my sig, or it's not my fault some jerk insists on making me feel like shit the time. but nooo. no matter what i fucking say you still call me 'deluded' because you can't handle the fact that you're a BAD FRIEND. i think you would've figured this out by now considering your present situation but obviously not. and the fact that you continue to reply to my threads insulting me although i've basically been ignoring you for months because i'm so fucking fed up with you and your awful, bitter self yet youc ontinue to reply to my threads calling me 'deluded' even though you have no fucking idea what you're talking aboute. go on mark ledrew. keep replying to my threads and insulting me because you're so bitter about your whole screwed up life. see if i fucking care. i'll continue ignoring your threads because i could really give a fuck about you after the way you've treated me. yes, the way you've treated me. every time i said something to you you'd go 'wtf? that is so fucking wrong. bullshit. total bullshit' as if my feelings or opinions aren't valid. while i sat there listening to you talk about your morally-corrupt opinions, like it's okay to download a coupon four times and get 4 free pairs of boxer shorts, or how it's okay to switch price tags just as long as no one notices, bla lb alb al bla bla. but noo. the moment i mention anything about my beliefs in regard to religion or anything else i'm suddenly full of bullshit. whatever mark ledrew. you are such a bad friend. and a judgmental idiot at that.

[jenn]

archive?

[Squashing Pineapples]

You write too much! Make your text more pleasant to read

[Affect]

Originally posted by Samsa


point of what conversation? that you didn't drink and drive. dude. you had 12 shots of vodka and drove home. whether or not you *felt* drunk is completely irrelevant.

oh and pointless and meaningless online drama? like you harrassing me and calling me a moron? you're so much better than me, steven. really.

Yeah, it's called sobering up. I don't know if your daft brain can comprehend that one can metabolize liquor.

Har(r)assing you? I'm just calling it as it is. I think that might be why this entire post is against you. Maybe, okay?

[Samsa]

Originally posted by Squashing Pineapples
You write too much! Make your text more pleasant to read

i made my sig really pleasant to read (except unfortunately th epicture is now sideways in order to save room ) but unfortunately if i post my sig i'll be banned. yep. that's what mike gaddrow pmd me saying. real nice.

[skippy]

Originally posted by Samsa
while i sat there listening to you talk about your morally-corrupt opinions, like it's okay to download a coupon four times and get 4 free pairs of boxer shorts, or how it's okay to switch price tags just as long as no one notices

That bit was very chuckle-worthy.

Originally posted by Samsa
whatever mark ledrew. you are such a bad friend. and a judgmental idiot at that.

Yeah Suze, and you were such a WONDERFUL friend. Why if only i had lots of friends just like you my life would be so very enriched.

[Samsa]

Originally posted by Affect
Yeah, it's called sobering up. I don't know if your daft brain can comprehend that one can metabolize liquor.

Har(r)assing you? I'm just calling it as it is. I think that might be why this entire post is against you. Maybe, okay?

sobering up 12 shots of vodka in what, 2 hours?

*thinks*

oh and if it really was just a long period of time that elapsed between you drinking all that liquor and driving home then it would just be proof of how full of shit you are, considering your original post was about how you are such a heavy-weight that you can drink 12 shots of vodka and feel sober enough to drive home. yet if you'd just had enough time to sober up enough then it would make your bragging rights completely pointless and therefore deny you of any credibility whatsoever. but it's just the internet, right?

and calling it as it is? doesn't matter. it's still pointless online drama. right?

[Smiley33]

lol, I can't get this song out of my head when I read this thread.

*OLDSKOOL*

I wrote her off for the tenth time today
And practiced all the things I would say
But she came over
I lost my nerve
I took her back and made her dessert
Now I know I'm being used
That's okay man cause I like the abuse
I know she's playing with me
That's okay cause I've got no self esteem
We make plans to go out at night
I wait till 2 then I turn out the light
All this rejection's got me so low
If she keep it up I just might tell her so
When she's saying that she wants only me
Then I wonder why she sleeps with my friends
When she's saying that I'm like a disease
Then I wonder how much more I can spend
Well I guess I should stick up for myself
But I really think it's better this way
The more you suffer
The more it shows you really care; Right ?
Now I'll relate this little bit
That happens more than I'd like to admit
Late at night she knocks on my door
Drunk again and looking to score
Now I know I should say no
But that's kind of hard when she's ready to go
I may be dumb But I'm not a dweeb
I'm just a sucker with no self esteem