God thread

[ohnoitsbonnie]

God knows Took is restless and weak, full of piss and vinegar

[Trotskilicious]

note: "I SEEN 'IM" is one of my favorite throwaway lines of all time

[Run To Me]

Originally Posted by vixnix

it was five and a half years, all up. I first smoked pot when i was 14, but I didn't really go off the rails until I was 16. I barely graduated from high school, and failed a lot of papers at uni due to non-attendance. And I spent a bit over a year travelling during which time I gradually became a heavy weed smoker. An addict. I smoked about a gram a day by the end, which for me personally, was not a good idea. It ended in psychosis and involuntary hospitalisation. I've tried most other stuff but nothing sang for me like the reefer.

But I've also had quite a few prescription drugs. They're much worse because I take them every day, non-stop, for years at a time. I have no idea what kinda holes they've burned through my grey matter

Woah that's a lotta per day ... yknow I think the reefers more dangerous than many give it credit in terms of addiction/abuse, glad you were able to quit

Do you ever crave it? Sometimes I'll still crave some stuff I quit

[buzzard]

Originally Posted by vixnix

He always wore a trench coat and he would lay it down on the ground.

Owning a trench coat in Wellington sounded seedy enough before its direct incorporation into an outdoor sexual routine, I have to say.

His strolling routes didn't happen to thread their way past all the local netball courts, did they?

[Trotskilicious]

Originally Posted by Run To Me

I think the reefers more dangerous than many give it credit in terms of addiction/abuse

its not tho

[vixnix]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

i mean honestly i wish i could believe in a benevolent omnipotent skyman it would make me feel way better

believe actually has the same root as lieben in German, meaning "to love".

Some scholars argue that in times past, belief was less about intellectual assent to various propositions....and more about commitment to certain ideas, and honouring that commitment through actions and thoughts.

Faith is actually listed as a spiritual gift in the New Testament, among others. It isn't something everyone naturally has. Discernment is also a spiritual gift. As a Christian I think it's OK that I don't believe in an invisible benevolent sky man.

The narrative of Israel and Jesus as Messiah has a transformative power, for me. It allows me to reframe my life in a way that is less upsetting, more manageable. I don't mean because I believe that kids who die from cancer are in heaven. More that kids who die from cancer leave behind hurting families, and I should consider them before becoming obsessed with my own selfish ambitions. And consider what kind of a world I could create that would allow families to remember and honour their dead, and have time to heal. That kind of thing. I dunno, it's hard to explain. For everybody, I think.

[redbreegull]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

it doesn't require faith either

I would say that if someone holds an ironclad belief that there is no God, that is a faith-based belief.

I see myself as a de facto atheist and live my life like there is not a skyman, but I mean I can't say for sure there is no God. It seems amazingly unlikely and ridiculous, but I don't know for certain

[vixnix]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

lol you didn't even do hard drugs? holy shit you are never boring

Yeah, I did. I smoked crack in Harlem when a guy asked me outside a liquor store if I wanted to smoke. I thought he meant weed and then he brought out a glass pipe. In the end I was kind terrified because he told me he was going to get some more, and to not move, and if people said hello to me I should tell them I didn't speak English, and that I was his. He was like "Wait right here. Wait RIGHT HERE." So I waited until he was out of sight and then ran for my life.

ANd I did heroin in Melbourne like everyone else. And MDMA one new years, acid a few times with friends who liked it. Ecstasy a few times. Ice a few times. I dunno, I just liked weed better than anything else.

[buzzard]

I'm undecided as to whether "Ice" or "P" deserve the award for Most Ridiculous Name for Methamphetamine.

[vixnix]

Originally Posted by buzzard

Owning a trench coat in Wellington sounded seedy enough before its direct incorporation into an outdoor sexual routine, I have to say.

His strolling routes didn't happen to thread their way past all the local netball courts, did they?

He was sort of an early, proto-hipster. It was 1998, he wore a trench coat, and plaid trousers, and vintage t-shirts. He played bass and liked to slap. He had a record player in his bedroom with these vintage speakers and listened solely to 70s David Bowie, "yazz flute" and folk stuff from the 70s, and ninja tune releases. and because his father owned the local radiology practice as well as being a radiologist himself, they lived on the fringe of the city and his bedroom window had an amazing view over the city.

But you know. He was weird. He came second in the country for scholarship chemistry, his parents were divorced, his mother had an open dislike for him because he reminded her too much of everything she hated about his father. It was a mess.

He HATED me smoking pot. I didn't smoke for about 18 months, while I was with him. But yeah. I forgave the tench coat because I loved him, because we had similar amounts of terrible family shit going on and had found each other in that horrible loneliness, somehow. (at a party, drunk. We walked back to his house and had sex. It was his first time. His Dad walked in halfway to tell us to shut up).

[vixnix]

eugh. youth. what a fucking write off

[vixnix]

Originally Posted by Run To Me

Woah that's a lotta per day ... yknow I think the reefers more dangerous than many give it credit in terms of addiction/abuse, glad you were able to quit

Do you ever crave it? Sometimes I'll still crave some stuff I quit

I agree about it being more addictive than most people would think.

I do think about it sometimes. But for me it's like smoking cigarettes - the first few times are terrible, and it doesn't get good again until I'm already hooked. The first few times are just pure paranoia and guilt, for me.

[FoolofaTook]

Listen: Lord Vishnu bones hella cow girls (young married womans) in the youth pf his Krishna incarnation. His great love affair with one of the cowgirls is probs his most famous story.

If the Sustainer of Humanity can get down surely the Tooksterite can be allowed a little dillydallying?

[FoolofaTook]

Ice is an awesome name for meth. Haven't you ever listened to Sons of Northern Darkness, you fool!?

[redbreegull]

7 beers deep, ima smoke this bowl and go meet god

[buzzard]

Originally Posted by vixnix

We walked back to his house and had sex. It was his first time. His Dad walked in halfway to tell us to shut up.

Okay, I am now experiencing a light wave of understanding towards his somewhat more questionable sexual proclivities.

While it's obviously far from comparable, I did once experience the horror of a flatmate walking in on myself and a bedroom companion. It was her first morning in the household, too, where she'd apparently forgotten which door was hers. Sadly, the moment took me by surprise and I didn't think quick enough beat the retreat with, "Don't go."

[FoolofaTook]

Abbath worships Chaos. How fucking badass is that? Too badass for me that's for sure. So'll I just worship Abbath, indirectly paying homage unto Azathoth Sovereign Lord of the Primeval Void.

[FoolofaTook]

Originally Posted by Poots

You claim to be a Christian but you don't believe in God? Am I reading that correctly?

Pootz: champion of sense

[LaBelle]

Almost like someone who fallen out of love but is still married.

[FoolofaTook]

Originally Posted by LaBelle

Almost like someone who fallen out of love but is still married.

Yep. So now she's falling in love with me. As soon as I write my fantasy epic poem and earn a bazillion dollars I will buy her emeralds and we will fly to Paris and live happily ever after.

This is my plan.

[FoolofaTook]

Also its 6:41 and she still hasn't told me if I work today.

O Cruel Mistress of Dark Desires!

[FoolofaTook]

Aw she just texted me to give me the day off. Aw.

I like Yesi. When she puts up her hair you can see her neck and she looks so sexy. When she puts her hair down its frizzy and wild likke Mauis in Moana so cute aw Yesi!!!

[FoolofaTook]

[FoolofaTook]

The trulu fucked up part: while I'm rejoicing in my prospective latina lover my brother is about to do some serious time in a southern california prison. he is 24 and decent looking. if he makes it out sane/alive I will be surprised.

plz don't ask me questions about him his cases are so bad I can't talk aboit them. yeah. so you can guess what they are. sorry guys i have no one to talk to.

[FoolofaTook]

Originally Posted by Poots

you're acting like a creeper

Ur just jealous of Yesenia. As you should be. Do you want to fight?

[FoolofaTook]

Damn I was hoping you'd back down.

Now I'm fucked. Take it easy on me. I have fragile wrists and I sustain contusions easily.

[FoolofaTook]

Lol a punch in the face.

I've had my face stomped in, motherfucker. In prison, bitch.

Yeah! Hell yeah!

[FoolofaTook]

and i never snitched

just really really wanted to lol

[FoolofaTook]

Not really. I just drank a lot of dxm until I broke my leg. Then I drank more dxm and wrote corny fantasy stories and watched hella live boris. its was aight tbh

[LaBelle]

Originally Posted by FoolofaTook

and i never snitched

just really really wanted to lol

Snitches get stitches.