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[noyen]

churches contain people who go to church. all the same to me.

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by vixnix

It just gets you used to a different crowd of people, most of who will be sober

Most of them, huh?

[noyen]

better off with a bunch of openly addicted people you can relate to rather than closeted homosexual, meth addicted, food storage freak, judgmental and gossipy church people.

[Trotskilicious]

Vixnix fuck off

[Trotskilicious]

But for real doe churches provide a lot of that stuff she need

[Trotskilicious]

She was a stoner you guys her life was out of control

[vixnix]

I hope you make up your own mind Alexis. It probably does seem unlikely that church would offer support, I accept that. But a good church would. And yes, most people are sober - some are alcoholics, some are addicted to other things - I don't know, but statistically speaking it's likely. And I do know of one alcoholic in recovery who works for the church.

I have been where you are - getting high on anything I could get my hands on, and not knowing how it could be any different. My sobriety didn't start with regular church attendance as it happens... But I do honestly think yours could. You have nothing to lose by trying it for a couple of months... And at worst it will be another experience to add to the bank before you settle down and start giving back to the world with your creative gifts...just PM me if you are interested and I'll scope a few out for you. I'm a veteran liberal progressive theologically open church spotter now...

[null123]

And if you want me to find you a good conservative church Planets I will do that for you as well

[slunken]

i accept paypal gifts

[Trotskilicious]

This guy is super funny

[fuzzyroes]

Vixnix, I think it's really kind that you'd be willing to go thru the trouble of finding a church that might benefit ILP. I think it is a caring suggestion, but it's the kind of support system that'll only benefit her if she's clean.

ILP I think you really should seek help before it's too late. You're knee deep in your addiction and it's only going to get worse over time if you don't come to a realization and deal with it. What have you got to lose? Lifes a beautiful and spiritual thing and you should be thankful that you're a species that just so happens to be at the top of the food chain and has the brain capacity to realize how mesmerizing the universe is. Lifes short and life is a magical thing... You just have too many things clouding your judgment in order to realize this.

You know in your heart that what you're doing is wrong and that you're leading a life of a person that you know deep down isn't really you. The first step is the hardest, yet in actuality the easiest. Drugs aren't your answer.

Seek therapy help from psychology text-books if you can't afford therapy or rehab. Your life may be in shambles, but if you don't put in a solid effort of fixing it, nobody will.

[fuzzyroes]

The force is with you

[noyen]

*throws up in mouth* the patronizing oblivious naive hipster post.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by ilikeplanets

Opiates and hallucinogens helped snap me out of anorexia. I don't know what my mind would do if I stopped all the things I get pleasure from, seems awful. I cross-addict a lot :| My arms look like I left them in a beehive though...this is why I don't think Jimmy did that much heroin. Sometimes I shake so bad I can barely fix the hit. How the fuck could he drum with shit like that going on?! It's still better than endless degrading thought loops....and no pain is a fabulous thing. I just wish I didn't crave it so bad. I would have so much money if I didn't spend $30-$60 on it every day, as a bare minimum. I can easily go through $150 a day if I find the money, and wish I did.

It's time for rehab, planets.

Seriously, I never shot up drugs but I had enough of the shaking and shitting etc from withdrawal to know you must be in some kind of spectacular hell.

The idea is to not just stop your addicting behavior but to replace the behavior with other things that give you pleasure.

But that is not what you need right now, you need to detox and get some intensive therapy.

[noyen]

Originally Posted by ilikeheroin

I would have so much money if I didn't spend $30-$60 on it every day, as a bare minimum..

this is more than enough to pay for "rehab", methadone, cup o noodles and save starving child in africa.

[reprise85]

[reprise85]

My friend died a few months ago from relapsing on some opiate or another after a few years clean.

I haven't been physically addicted since 2010 and I've done opiates a handful of times in those years. I hope I'm ok and will never go back but whenever I have a chance to get drugs it's very hard for me to not take the opportunity. Like when I busted my nose etc... though I somehow got rid of them and never did anything.

I do believe I'll never get addicted again but I do worry about taking some stupid dose during a weak moment and killing myself. I just can't take pain killers or benzos responsibly, it's not possible for me.

[noyen]

i think i will die from a massive relapse, soon as i can afford it. catnip catnip catnip catnip

[reprise85]

nah don't do that noyen

[ilikeplanets]

First suspicious thing about his job: they are mailing his paycheck. What?

[ilikeplanets]

And it's been a couple of months since I've had actual heroin...been doing rc 30s and opana. It's a lot more expensive and I don't know why.

[MyOneAndOnly]

Originally Posted by ilikeplanets

Opiates and hallucinogens helped snap me out of anorexia. I don't know what my mind would do if I stopped all the things I get pleasure from, seems awful.

you probably need an SSRI. You're medicating yourself with opiates to deal with the anxiety that causes your disordered eating.

I do the same thing with alcohol

[ilikeplanets]

SSRIs keep me up all night and ruin sex. I've tried several of them. But you're right, being smacked out was the only way I didn't have panic attacks after eating. It evolved into its own monster though.

[MyOneAndOnly]

i would not want to be your therapist that's for sure

[hnibos]

I wouldn't want you to be anyone's therapist that's for sure

[slunken]

edit: i can't read

[yo soy el mejor]

i guess i didn't practice enough with you.