I practically woke up one morning this week not depressed or suicidal any more

[Trotskilicious]

haha just kiddin homei

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Sonic Johnny

Has anyone here ever used 5HTP? Like with any kind of regularity?

No, but anecdotally I've heard of it helping people with mild depression and sleep issues.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Shallowed

This is the first time I've felt like "fuck it, it's no big deal" about taking antidepressants.

Good. It isn't a big deal and it doesn't change your personality or whatever people like to say. If it does, try another one, because that's an unacceptable side effect.

[Trotskilicious]

yeah but reprise isn't it changing your personality when it makes you feel more positive and outgoing whereas if you weren't taking it you'd be a sad sack that focuses on the negative so much that you can't even have a good time?

i mean that's how i feel, like...if i'm not on these dumb things i can ruin anyone's day but when i have been taking them...i just feel more positive and full of life and lately, people are responding to that once again.

[Trotskilicious]

of course what am i saying i'm such a poisonous misanthrope that i deserve to be miserable because i'm so full of anger and misogyny and homophobia and etc whatever

[Sonic Johnny]

Lovephoria extends to self love y'know trots

[Sonic Johnny]

Masturbaphoria

[Trotskilicious]

i'm a pretty cool guy, i make fun of douches and doesn't afraid of anything

[Sonic Johnny]

Has anyone really been far even as decided to use even go want to do look more like?

[Trotskilicious]

it's too bad we're a world apart SJ, we'd be thick as thieves

[Sonic Johnny]

Fuck yeah holmes. When I get done studying and I've had a years work with real income i'm heading stateside for a holiday, we'll have to kick it then.

[Trotskilicious]

hells yeah!

[teh b0lly!!1]

re: depression types
i've always known i have a tendency for bipolarity but lately shit is fucking crazy. i'm having really heavy downs for no apparent reason. i know myself so well by now that i literally see it coming before it hits. like everything is basically alright, or at least not that different than usual, but i just feel it stirring and once it kicks in it's almost like waiting for a bad trip to be over. waiting for the brain chemicals to rebalance, actively knowing that this is not all driven by any reasonable rationale. still i can barely talk to anyone and am basically worthless for the day.

[teh b0lly!!1]

i just don't know about antidepressants
my lady friend had used them in the past and there was definitely a perceptible difference in her personality. her entire conduct and behavior became more synthetic. detached.
i'm not that sure that what i have going on, and have had since i was 16, is better but i just don't see myself experimenting with medications to get the best results. also people with ocd (which of course i also possess) often refuse to take medication for pretty much the same reasons i'm reluctant about. and no trots it truly isn't about being smug i just don't know

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

it's really not, don't let creeps make you think it is

You misunderstand, it's not like that at all. I'm fine with other people needing and taking them, I don't judge or care about that at all. When I was severely depressed there was no way I couldn't judge myself, though. I didn't care if other people knew I needed them, I was the only one who was against me taking them, really.

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by Sonic Johnny

Masturbaphoria

I haven't masturbated for about two weeks. I woke up this morning from a dream that I was watching really crazy porn and then I woke up masturbating. Never happened before.

[Trotskilicious]

yeah thanks for sharing i can sleep better at night now

[Shallowed]

That's the reason why you check this thread, isn't it?

[Shallowed]

I practically woke up one morning this week reflexively masturbating.

This is without viagra or drugs. I'd been prescribed them months ago, but I could never bring myself to take them.

I really hope the same thing happens to each and every sexually frustrated Netphorian out there, whether you're regular poster or a lurker. I love you all even if you dislike or hate me.

P.S.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

yeah but reprise isn't it changing your personality when it makes you feel more positive and outgoing whereas if you weren't taking it you'd be a sad sack that focuses on the negative so much that you can't even have a good time?

i mean that's how i feel, like...if i'm not on these dumb things i can ruin anyone's day but when i have been taking them...i just feel more positive and full of life and lately, people are responding to that once again.

No, I don't think so. When I was depressed I didn't focus on negative and I wasn't misanthropic to a great degree. I mean, like I'm glad you are feeling better but you seem to still have the same personality - you do your thing on Netphoria, and yeah you don't have meltdowns, but you're the same person and focus on the same things - they just don't bother you as much. And when I'm depressed I still have the same personality, I just want to die. It really doesn't do much else to me... yes I'm more positive on meds, but I really do think that's who I am and the meds just level my brain.

If anything, depression changes your personality and meds return your personality, you feel me?

I am really glad you're feeling better. I had a really good day at work today, and I just thought hey, today I had a better day than I had in like a decade from 2000-2010. Literally. That's some powerful shit.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by teh b0lly!!1

re: depression types
i've always known i have a tendency for bipolarity but lately shit is fucking crazy. i'm having really heavy downs for no apparent reason. i know myself so well by now that i literally see it coming before it hits. like everything is basically alright, or at least not that different than usual, but i just feel it stirring and once it kicks in it's almost like waiting for a bad trip to be over. waiting for the brain chemicals to rebalance, actively knowing that this is not all driven by any reasonable rationale. still i can barely talk to anyone and am basically worthless for the day.

I am definitely not bipolar, but I think it is a good sign that you realize what this is.

Originally Posted by teh b0lly!!1

i just don't know about antidepressants
my lady friend had used them in the past and there was definitely a perceptible difference in her personality. her entire conduct and behavior became more synthetic. detached.
i'm not that sure that what i have going on, and have had since i was 16, is better but i just don't see myself experimenting with medications to get the best results. also people with ocd (which of course i also possess) often refuse to take medication for pretty much the same reasons i'm reluctant about. and no trots it truly isn't about being smug i just don't know

I don't mean this in any kind of way but straight up. If it gets bad enough, you'll try anything. Including medication. You'll use it and pray to the god you don't believe in that something works.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Shallowed

I practically woke up one morning this week reflexively masturbating.

This is without viagra or drugs. I'd been prescribed them months ago, but I could never bring myself to take them.

I really hope the same thing happens to each and every sexually frustrated Netphorian out there, whether you're regular poster or a lurker. I love you all even if you dislike or hate me.

P.S.

this happens to me sometimes

[Shallowed]

We should sleep together.

[reprise85]

I do want to stress again that I'm not bioplar but I have had periods of sleep deprivation enduced mania and if you're comparing your personality to that outgoing, creative, manic personality then yeah, you're going to feel more detached than when you're manic.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Shallowed

We should sleep together.

[Shallowed]

PM me ur address

[Shallowed]

[reprise85]

dont you live like 8000 miles away

[Shallowed]

My dick could probably reach. Just gotta put my mind to it.

[cocksure]

i was healed by the power of jesus