I'm really angsty tonight and feel like blowing up on someone.

[obscured01]

I'm angry at all these situations that are going on right now (not angry at anyone in particular) but I really feel like I'd just feel better if I could just bitch someone out really badly.

After typing out this long drawn out thing on why I'm so angry I felt pretty petty so I deleted it.

[obscured01]

whatever.

I'm slightly bitter we're not the only one having a baby (although we're the furtherest along) on his side (I'm the only person still in their 20's on my own side), two of his other cousins that are newlyweds are expecting now too. One of his cousins is due three weeks after us. As lame as it is I feel like what the fuck, we've waited 5 years to have a kid, it's our first and now no one cares.

My mom's memory sucks and she denied all night that she had dementia and accused me of wanting to put her into a nursing home tonight, even though she just bought and paid for her own house here in our area. She wanted me to go to the dr. with her for her first apt here now she's saying if I go with her I'll get into her business and steal her freedom and independence. I'm spending every afternoon over there doing her damn business because she can't handle her bills by herself right now.

I was sick and missed three days of school and have this huge pile of papers to grade, and I've been going at it like mad for the last three days but have barely made a dent in them. I'm tempted to just throw the damn things away the kids did with the sub for those three days.

[Eulogy]

1. I don't understand this but I've seen it my own family. So you're not crazy.

2. Sorry 'bout your mom. That sucks. And it's also why I'm terrified of my parents getting old.

3. Let Netphoria grade them

also feel free to bitch here. that's what this place is for!

[obscured01]

There's a 50/50 chance she won't even remember the 2 hour argument we had tonight. I totally understand moving her 300 miles, getting in a new house, and getting it arranged and un packed and all that stuff is ridiculously stressful. I get it, I know. She's retired though, so at least she can take her time doing stuff, but instead she works herself to death and then is angry and paranoid because she's exhausted.

I wasn't really angry or bitter about the other cousins until tonight, when one of them posted on fb what they were having. They're having a girl too, and I guess that's what really set me off. Boys run heavy on his side so I was sooo excited to be having a girl because it was kind of unexpected. But no, they're having a girl too, so there's that novelty gone. And they already have a name picked out for her and we haven't even come up with one yet.

And that poor baby's name fucking sucks. It's insane.

And we were supposed to have a TEA audit today at school, but thankfully we didn't. I've been stressed about it for two weeks and at the last minute they said our campus was in compliance so we were ok and not getting audited.

/bitch /moan.

[Eulogy]

well obviously you have to tell us the name

it can't be worse than zero or morrissey

[obscured01]

Kryslyn

[obscured01]

Thanks for talking to me Eulogy. I know you've been here ages, but I don't think I know your first name.

[redbreegull]

I can grade your papers

[sickbadthing]

The only way out of all of this is for you to sell your baby and use the money to have your mom put in a home.

Or I guess you could murder your problems away. Please post about it if you do.

[Eulogy]

Originally Posted by obscured01

Kryslyn

oh god

everyone will always think there's a typo in there somewhere

[reprise85]

i can understand being bitter. at least you can acknowledge it bet that goes away the second you see your baby... not that i would know or anything

re: your mom. that's such a tough situation. i lived with someone with dementia for about a year as a pre-teen... ugh it just gets worse and worse unfortunately, i cant imagine dealing with it in my mom i would/will freak out... she's 62

just give all your smart kids As and everyone else Bs

Kryslyn is a ridiculous name... I bet your baby's name turns out to be not only awesome but comprehensible

[vixnix]

How are you going to find time to rest? Are you going to give yourself a break, with work? I thought you had more or less decided on Sofia.

That's too much for a pregnant lady. You should definitely bitch and moan here but maybe work out some help with your mom. You are going to have way too much to do when the baby comes, to help her too, I think. And you need someone to help you too, if your mom isn't going to be there.

My cousin called her daughter Anouk which is pretty bad, too. What's with cousins? My cousin and I even knew someone called Anouk at our high school and she was a bit messed up so I just don't know what she was thinking.

[sickbadthing]

Originally Posted by vixnix

My cousin called her daughter Anouk

Sweet. A Suicidegirl name. Hey obscured01 you should go to Suicidegirls and pick out one of the names there. You will be helping her for her future!

[Shallowed]

Sorry if it's already been mentioned in this thread, but how many months along are you?

Whenever I think of names that I'd like to name my children if/when I have any, they're always girl's names. Kryslyn has never been one of them, though. They tend to have at least one vowel

[Cool As Ice Cream]

Originally Posted by obscured01

Thanks for talking to me Eulogy. I know you've been here ages, but I don't think I know your first name.

his name is kryslyn.
he's really upset now.

[MyOneAndOnly]

you need to do what's necessary for your mother and ignore her anger for now. if she's sick her treatment of you is out of fear. She needs you to be the adult now and do what needs to be done for her. you should consider finding a therapist to talk to about it. It's a really tough thing to deal with and you ought to have someone who you can talk to about it.


btw, there's a banner add on this page for the movie "October Baby" kind of weird.

Originally Posted by obscured01

whatever.

I'm slightly bitter we're not the only one having a baby (although we're the furtherest along) on his side (I'm the only person still in their 20's on my own side), two of his other cousins that are newlyweds are expecting now too. One of his cousins is due three weeks after us. As lame as it is I feel like what the fuck, we've waited 5 years to have a kid, it's our first and now no one cares.

.

[JokeyLoki]

Originally Posted by obscured01

Kryslyn

Holy crap, lol

At least you can take solace that most people probably think the name is stupid, but are too nice to say anything, haha.

That's a lot of crap to deal with while pregnant, ugh. Hope it gets better for you soon. Ask for help at work if you need to, stress can throw you into preterm labor, that wouldn't be good

[hnibos]

Originally Posted by Graveflower

[pale_princess]

and now please welcome to the stage.... krysssslynnnnnnnn

*dr feelgood starts playing over loudspeaker*

[Trotskilicious]

Originally Posted by Graveflower

yeah i pretty much stopped reading after that

obscured01 i don't want to sound cruel or anything, being mad nobody's paying attention to you because someone else is having a baby does not matter. You gotta break your problems down into little chunks and realize which ones are emotionally driven and which ones are logical issues and do your best to throw out the emotionally driven issues.

[sppunk]

If your mother has what appears to be the onset of dementia, why did she buy her own home? She'll unfortunately soon be a danger to herself. This happened with my grandmother, it's horrific to witness. Sorry. :/

[obscured01]

That's exactly why I said I felt petty about posting it. Do I know it's emotional bs and not logical? Yes, totally.

If it makes any sense though, I'm an only child, and my mother is my only parent I have contact with (never met my father but I'm working on the courage to contact him soon) and she's totally aware I'm pregnant, but because of what's going on with her and her mind she's not doing any of the normal mother/daughter things you do when your daughter's having her first baby. We haven't talked about names for the kid, what she wants to be called, gone shopping, looked at clothes, prepared for a shower etc. She was a huge part and help planning for our wedding, every step she was there helping plan and totally excited. I know if she were herself she would be the same way in being excited and helping prepare for the baby. The only time she gets excited is when we show her sonogram pics, but then it's fleeting.

So the one person in the world you're supposed to be able to turn to when going through this because obviously she's gone through it herself is incapable of comprehending this like a normal mom would. So I'm looking to other family to fill that void.. And now it's like no on cares...

Not that it's an excuse. It's still petty and stupid, I know. But I think that's the reasin why I was so upset about it yesterday.

[JokeyLoki]

That's not stupid at all.

[reprise85]

its not petty and stupid at all except perhaps superficially

[Order 66]

if i were having a kid i'd be worried about ... other things. like, lots of other things that can go wrong, short- and long term. i mean the mom situation is tragic but we're all dealt a shitty hand now and then

and be careful what you ask for. i've witnessed grandmothers who care a little *too* much if you know what i mean. my cousin's husband had to kick the in-laws out when they had twins

[D.]

four months after we had out kid, my brother and his now-ex had their second. but we have different family dynamics and the ex doesn't like my mom, etc. so we don't see her/his kid very often.

but there's never too many kids for my parents; they have like 6 grandkids and would be happy having more. (too bad on that count, ma and pa.)

so... that doesn't really help with anything but hopefully all the new arrivals won't be competition, just think that your kid is going to have a ton of playmates. or something.

[Nimrod's Son]

Originally Posted by obscured01

Kryslyn

please tell me this is a joke. it sounds like an ancillary character from a poorly written fantasy novel.

[JokeyLoki]

Having other kids their age to play with is a big plus. It's irritating to try to find a play group that doesn't suck.

[ilikeplanets]

I'm glad to see it's not your baby being named Kryslyn, because I hated it instantly.