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10-12-2018, 02:40 AM | #811 |
Minion of Satan
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This settles it
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10-12-2018, 02:41 AM | #812 |
Minion of Satan
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We can all rest easy knowing that this is in fact the best band
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10-12-2018, 02:41 AM | #813 |
Minion of Satan
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Asked and answered
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10-12-2018, 02:42 AM | #814 |
Minion of Satan
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And what's more we did it together
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10-12-2018, 02:43 AM | #815 |
Minion of Satan
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I mean really
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10-12-2018, 02:44 AM | #816 |
Minion of Satan
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Please go see the Body
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10-12-2018, 02:45 AM | #817 |
Minion of Satan
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10-12-2018, 02:46 AM | #818 |
Minion of Satan
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10-12-2018, 02:49 AM | #819 |
Minion of Satan
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The view from the window hurts
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10-12-2018, 02:50 AM | #820 |
Minion of Satan
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Only I don’t know where I want to go
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10-12-2018, 02:59 AM | #821 |
Minion of Satan
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Sometimes when I get up and emerge from the mists of slumber, my whole room hurts, my whole bedroom. The view from the window hurts. Kids go to school. People go shopping. Everybody knows where to go. Only I don’t know where I want to go. I get dressed, blearily, stumbling, hopping about to pull on my trousers. I go and shave with my electric razor. For years now, whenever I shave, I’ve avoided looking at myself in the mirror. I shave in the dark or around the corner. I don’t like looking at myself anymore. I’m scared by my own face in the bathroom. I’m hurt even by my own appearance- I see yesterday’s drunkenness in my eyes. I sit at the table, sometimes my hands give way under me and several times I repeat to myself, “I’ve victoried myself away, I’ve reached the peak of emptiness, I’ve reached the peak of emptiness and everything hurts."
Even the walk to the bus stop hurts, and the whole bus hurts as well. I lower my guilty looking eyes. I’m afraid of looking people in the eye. Sometimes I cross my palms and extend my wrists, because I feel guilty even about this once too loud a solitude which isn’t loud any longer, because I’m hurt not only by the escalator which takes me down to the infernal regions below, I’m hurt even by the looks of the people traveling up, each of them has somewhere to go, while I’ve reached the peak of emptiness and don’t know where I want to go. I’m hurt now. I’m hurt by this whole town in which I live. I’m hurt by this whole world- because towards morning, certain beings come to me. Beings not unfamiliar to me. They come slowly, but surely, up the escalator of my soul and not only the faces come into focus, but also certain horrible events. Just like a portrait. Or a film. A documentary not only about how I was ever madly in love, but also how I failed people. Everything I ever said, everything I ever did. Everything is always against me. The whole world hurts, and even the guardian angel of mine hurts. How many times I felt like jumping from the fifth floor, from my apartment where every room hurts, but always at the last moment, my guardian angel saves me. He pulls me back. I victoried myself away. I’ve reached the peak of emptiness |
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10-12-2018, 03:03 AM | #822 |
Minion of Satan
Location: i am volatile, a free spirit, a rogue agent
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I victoried myself away
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10-12-2018, 03:03 AM | #823 |
Minion of Satan
Location: i am volatile, a free spirit, a rogue agent
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I’ve reached the peak of emptiness
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10-12-2018, 03:17 AM | #824 |
Minion of Satan
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10-12-2018, 09:47 AM | #825 |
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Somewhere in some kin roots with fifths I'll find the hollows there and follow Where the fit do not go A subtle wind always blows me back Well water black Spigot spitting nothing But some frustrated air I'd put the hollows against tomorrow's Many sicks and sorrows Or a sinking ship with cargo And men on deck Well water black |
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10-12-2018, 11:26 AM | #826 |
Just Hook it to My Veins!
Location: František! How's the foot of your turtle?
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10-12-2018, 11:54 AM | #827 | |
Minion of Satan
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Quote:
Part of me’s like “yeah i can recognize this feeling as a feeling i’ve had” The other part’s like “OMG fuck off, and have you tried volunteering” |
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10-12-2018, 12:26 PM | #828 |
Just Hook it to My Veins!
Location: Donald Trump of Netphoria
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i have
got some free socks |
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10-12-2018, 01:41 PM | #829 |
Minion of Satan
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10-12-2018, 01:42 PM | #830 |
Minion of Satan
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But this is my trash thread so please go easy on me
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10-12-2018, 01:42 PM | #831 |
Minion of Satan
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I actually was going to try volunteering but then, you know
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10-12-2018, 01:43 PM | #832 |
Minion of Satan
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I just got an email asking if I could still help. Maybe I'll go through with it
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10-12-2018, 02:13 PM | #833 | |
Minion of Satan
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Quote:
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10-12-2018, 02:13 PM | #834 |
Minion of Satan
Location: i am volatile, a free spirit, a rogue agent
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Thinking about pulling the trigger
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10-12-2018, 02:14 PM | #835 |
Minion of Satan
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on that volunteering opportunity
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10-12-2018, 06:20 PM | #836 |
Demi-God
Location: Some area where the Canadian dollar is far more valuable than my own.
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I read that whole thing too and it was not a good idea. Then I went to sleep and I woke up and it's all good.
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10-12-2018, 07:55 PM | #837 |
Just Hook it to My Veins!
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have u thought about moving to a first floor apartment, ty-ty?
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10-12-2018, 08:59 PM | #838 |
Minion of Satan
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10-12-2018, 09:01 PM | #839 |
Minion of Satan
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It's a lightly edited version of a passage from a letter that was written by Bohumil Hrabal in case anyone is interested in keeping this party going. It's from a collection of letters he wrote but never sent. It was perhaps never meant to be read
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10-12-2018, 09:02 PM | #840 |
Minion of Satan
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