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Old 10-12-2018, 02:40 AM   #811
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This settles it

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:41 AM   #812
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We can all rest easy knowing that this is in fact the best band

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:41 AM   #813
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Asked and answered

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:42 AM   #814
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And what's more we did it together

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:43 AM   #815
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I mean really

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:44 AM   #816
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Please go see the Body

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:45 AM   #817
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:46 AM   #818
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:49 AM   #819
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The view from the window hurts

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:50 AM   #820
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Only I don’t know where I want to go

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:59 AM   #821
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Sometimes when I get up and emerge from the mists of slumber, my whole room hurts, my whole bedroom. The view from the window hurts. Kids go to school. People go shopping. Everybody knows where to go. Only I don’t know where I want to go. I get dressed, blearily, stumbling, hopping about to pull on my trousers. I go and shave with my electric razor. For years now, whenever I shave, I’ve avoided looking at myself in the mirror. I shave in the dark or around the corner. I don’t like looking at myself anymore. I’m scared by my own face in the bathroom. I’m hurt even by my own appearance- I see yesterday’s drunkenness in my eyes. I sit at the table, sometimes my hands give way under me and several times I repeat to myself, “I’ve victoried myself away, I’ve reached the peak of emptiness, I’ve reached the peak of emptiness and everything hurts."

Even the walk to the bus stop hurts, and the whole bus hurts as well. I lower my guilty looking eyes. I’m afraid of looking people in the eye. Sometimes I cross my palms and extend my wrists, because I feel guilty even about this once too loud a solitude which isn’t loud any longer, because I’m hurt not only by the escalator which takes me down to the infernal regions below, I’m hurt even by the looks of the people traveling up, each of them has somewhere to go, while I’ve reached the peak of emptiness and don’t know where I want to go.

I’m hurt now. I’m hurt by this whole town in which I live. I’m hurt by this whole world- because towards morning, certain beings come to me. Beings not unfamiliar to me. They come slowly, but surely, up the escalator of my soul and not only the faces come into focus, but also certain horrible events. Just like a portrait. Or a film. A documentary not only about how I was ever madly in love, but also how I failed people. Everything I ever said, everything I ever did. Everything is always against me. The whole world hurts, and even the guardian angel of mine hurts. How many times I felt like jumping from the fifth floor, from my apartment where every room hurts, but always at the last moment, my guardian angel saves me. He pulls me back. I victoried myself away. I’ve reached the peak of emptiness

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 03:03 AM   #822
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I victoried myself away

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 03:03 AM   #823
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I’ve reached the peak of emptiness

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 03:17 AM   #824
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Old 10-12-2018, 09:47 AM   #825
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Somewhere in some kin roots with fifths
I'll find the hollows there and follow
Where the fit do not go
A subtle wind always blows me back
Well water black
Spigot spitting nothing
But some frustrated air
I'd put the hollows against tomorrow's
Many sicks and sorrows
Or a sinking ship with cargo
And men on deck
Well water black

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 11:26 AM   #826
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I'm listening again and it's like an immediate reaction. I'm gonna listen to this record. Please don't be a stranger
awesome.
i love this record.

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 11:54 AM   #827
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Sometimes when I get up and emerge from the mists of slumber, my whole room hurts, my whole bedroom. The view from the window hurts. Kids go to school. People go shopping. Everybody knows where to go. Only I don’t know where I want to go. I get dressed, blearily, stumbling, hopping about to pull on my trousers. I go and shave with my electric razor. For years now, whenever I shave, I’ve avoided looking at myself in the mirror. I shave in the dark or around the corner. I don’t like looking at myself anymore. I’m scared by my own face in the bathroom. I’m hurt even by my own appearance- I see yesterday’s drunkenness in my eyes. I sit at the table, sometimes my hands give way under me and several times I repeat to myself, “I’ve victoried myself away, I’ve reached the peak of emptiness, I’ve reached the peak of emptiness and everything hurts."

Even the walk to the bus stop hurts, and the whole bus hurts as well. I lower my guilty looking eyes. I’m afraid of looking people in the eye. Sometimes I cross my palms and extend my wrists, because I feel guilty even about this once too loud a solitude which isn’t loud any longer, because I’m hurt not only by the escalator which takes me down to the infernal regions below, I’m hurt even by the looks of the people traveling up, each of them has somewhere to go, while I’ve reached the peak of emptiness and don’t know where I want to go.

I’m hurt now. I’m hurt by this whole town in which I live. I’m hurt by this whole world- because towards morning, certain beings come to me. Beings not unfamiliar to me. They come slowly, but surely, up the escalator of my soul and not only the faces come into focus, but also certain horrible events. Just like a portrait. Or a film. A documentary not only about how I was ever madly in love, but also how I failed people. Everything I ever said, everything I ever did. Everything is always against me. The whole world hurts, and even the guardian angel of mine hurts. How many times I felt like jumping from the fifth floor, from my apartment where every room hurts, but always at the last moment, my guardian angel saves me. He pulls me back. I victoried myself away. I’ve reached the peak of emptiness
Gosh

Part of me’s like “yeah i can recognize this feeling as a feeling i’ve had”

The other part’s like “OMG fuck off, and have you tried volunteering”

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 12:26 PM   #828
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i have

got some free socks

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 01:41 PM   #829
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Gosh

Part of me’s like “yeah i can recognize this feeling as a feeling i’ve had”

The other part’s like “OMG fuck off, and have you tried volunteering”
Look I get it ok. I really do. I have both of those parts as well

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 01:42 PM   #830
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But this is my trash thread so please go easy on me

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 01:42 PM   #831
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I actually was going to try volunteering but then, you know

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 01:43 PM   #832
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I just got an email asking if I could still help. Maybe I'll go through with it

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:13 PM   #833
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Somewhere in some kin roots with fifths
I'll find the hollows there and follow
Where the fit do not go
A subtle wind always blows me back
Well water black
Spigot spitting nothing
But some frustrated air
I'd put the hollows against tomorrow's
Many sicks and sorrows
Or a sinking ship with cargo
And men on deck
Well water black
This is great. Thanks sir

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:13 PM   #834
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Thinking about pulling the trigger

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 02:14 PM   #835
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on that volunteering opportunity

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 06:20 PM   #836
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I read that whole thing too and it was not a good idea. Then I went to sleep and I woke up and it's all good.

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 07:55 PM   #837
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have u thought about moving to a first floor apartment, ty-ty?

 
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Old 10-12-2018, 08:59 PM   #838
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I read that whole thing
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Old 10-12-2018, 09:01 PM   #839
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It's a lightly edited version of a passage from a letter that was written by Bohumil Hrabal in case anyone is interested in keeping this party going. It's from a collection of letters he wrote but never sent. It was perhaps never meant to be read

 
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Then I went to sleep and I woke up and it's all good.
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