Friday/Saturday drunk or otherwise thread

[ohnoitsbonnie]

I am going to the auto show tomorrow and I'm gonna pretend to drive in the cars

[reprise85]

work at 6am holla

[ohnoitsbonnie]

I don't miss working retail opening shifts

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Sweeping out the fertilizer bays each morning

[fuzzyroes]

Originally Posted by ohnoitsbonnie

I am going to the auto show tomorrow and I'm gonna pretend to drive in the cars

gonna go look at some cars are ya?

Lemme guess? It's a boyfriend thing

[FoolofaTook]

Originally Posted by redbreegull

what's up you fuckers it's FRIDAY fucking night

I have to work tomorrow but I'm about to make a beer run anyway.

Smoking dabs bitches bout to go get wine and ingredients for bogumbab

ballin like a boss yo

[FlamingGlobes]

Originally Posted by ohnoitsbonnie

I am going to the auto show tomorrow and I'm gonna pretend to drive in the cars

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Yes it was like that. I got into a jeep and gestured to mike to come over and whispered that I was an asshole now. Same for the chevy and fords and dodges

[redbreegull]

that moment when you go to the beer store too much and the guy behind the counter says, "see you tomorrow"

[teh b0lly!!1]

haha really?

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Reprise did you continue to use Flonase and did it help at all

[redbreegull]

yeah what a smartass

[FoolofaTook]

Originally Posted by redbreegull

that moment when you go to the beer store too much and the guy behind the counter says, "see you tomorrow"

I'm sure lord fuzzrod can relate.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by ohnoitsbonnie

Reprise did you continue to use Flonase and did it help at all

yes i am continuing to use it and yes it is helping, thanks.

with the tubes in i'm actually able to hold my nose and breath hard enough to pop my ears manually. when my ears are clear enough i'm literally creating a channel of air from my lungs through my sinuses and out the hole in my eardrum. so far i've only been able to do this with one side a few times but it's kinda amazing. i can hear the fluid going through the tube and it starts leaking out. my ears have been clogging and leaking a bit, especially one side, although my hearing hasn't been affected yet i probably will need to call and get an antibiotic or another small course of steroids just to help the fluid clear a little more.

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Yes great so glad to hear! I still have a lot of congestion from my head cold or upper respiratory tract infection or whatever. Still the Flonase has helped so much. Why can't it all work properly though?

[reprise85]

for me the answer is allergies. mysterious allergies that somehow got worse in the past few years even though i still live in the same place.

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Yes my symptoms manifest themselves as allergies yet I have been allergy tested and don't have them. And I honestly do better outside than inside. My life style has changed so I'm inside more and it's gotten worse and worse.

[Trotskilicious]

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Right now I'm thinking that the only way out of the hell of never having a functional family or losing my sister is to end it first. Like sure maybe mike will miss me a little but I don't contribute much to society anyway. I'm a coward haha

And I'm nothing to her so nobody say I need to stick around for her.

It is this or completely cutting contact. If I try to be her caretaker I will be arrested. My family sees me as the enemy. I can either live my life or have it intertwined with theirs which will always make me fail and feel horrible pain.

Please don't tell me life is pain

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Everything seems so futile

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by ohnoitsbonnie

Yes my symptoms manifest themselves as allergies yet I have been allergy tested and don't have them. And I honestly do better outside than inside. My life style has changed so I'm inside more and it's gotten worse and worse.

that's weird. i was allergic to about 90% of what they tested for but not cats!

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Obviously I'm not going to kil myself but it helps to express that feeling of wanting out of a situation that seems to have no resolution or end. Family is bullshit ok. Theres a lot you can go through before reaching your breaking point. Their management of her illness is abuse and nothing else but it's so subtle and indeterminate that it won't get attention or be resolved.

[Trotskilicious]

i'm sorry i didn't know you were in the middle of that

[ohnoitsbonnie]

My sister was involved with a man once accused (not convicted, somehow) of stalking a woman (he was caught outside her home with a loaded gun and 12k in cash). I think she didn't want to continue the case. He didn't deny it happened. Yet, because they agreed politically and ideologically, he was allowed to have a relationship with Shannon (whereas if I want to have sushi with her and paint her nails I can't because I'm the root of her illness). This guy ended up drugging her multiple times. He manipulated Shannon to convince her friends to have sex with him. Terrible things.

Before all that- I had called her therapist and tried to tell her because I was extremely concerned about the stalking thing. I got an "okaaay" and my family was very angry at me then. Yet now Jeremy is also blamed as the root of Shannon's illness rather than an exacerbation after the abuse he did came out. Nobody wanted to listen to me before that. That was two years ago.

[ohnoitsbonnie]

There is no way out and no resolution because I try to be rational. My mom complains about the mess she's on and how they're what's making her ill and I say "trust the doctors". My dad meddles with them. If I told her psychiatrist that THEY WOULDNT BELIEVE ME BECAUSE MY DAD'S BEEN THERE FIRST. That's like the story of my life: gaslighting and manipulation. I don't want to try
To do anything anymore

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Letting her go is something my mom would do and seems to have done and I'm not my mom. I'm going to stay up all night worrying. I don't know how I'll go to work

[FoolofaTook]

Sorry bonnie.

I think I'll be up all night too. Was feeling so low i slept all day.

[reprise85]

im so sorry to hear all of that, bonnie :/

i dont know if it would be helpful, like you said, but have you considered contacting adult protective services? they could look into the situation or at least give you advice on what to do considering everything

[ohnoitsbonnie]

I am scared

[ohnoitsbonnie]

That would be excellent way to piss off my dad to the point of doing something very bad with her mess and claim that it upset Shannon. lol I can see it