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Old 12-18-2019, 09:00 PM   #1
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I'm sad.

Not going to elaborate.

Feel free to elaborate or not elaborate.

But, you know. How's it going?

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 09:33 PM   #2
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Taking the Trump news hard, eh?

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:03 PM   #3
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Old 12-18-2019, 10:18 PM   #4
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I'm feeling anxious and overwhelmed.

But I'm also being appreciably more productive than I have been in the past few years, where I've started to respond to these emotions with avoidance.

Still not productive enough to be on track, though.

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 10:52 PM   #5
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I feel good. I've been focusing on all the positive things in my life, so the other stuff just seems manageable and little. I feel like I'll figure everything out eventually. The big things are going well, which is scary because you wonder how long that'll last.

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:30 PM   #6
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I had nice plans for january but they all fell apart because a close friend is getting dumped by her (soon to be ex) husband so I'm worried about her

she was great to me when I was separating from my ex, I hope I'll be as good of a friend as she was

shitty year
I'm glad it's almost over

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:48 PM   #7
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i'm sick. every day i see or hear about something that makes me want to die.

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:49 PM   #8
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i'm sorry took.

hope my oversharing didn't... yeah i mean i'm sure that contributed. sorry dude

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:51 PM   #9
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don't be silly reprise. you have nothing to be sorry about. me feeling a little low for a couple of hours cannot even begin to compare to what you have been through.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 12:15 AM   #10
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don't be silly reprise. you have nothing to be sorry about. me feeling a little low for a couple of hours cannot even begin to compare to what you have been through.
i don't want to add to anyone's misery, regardless of what i went through. you know?

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:52 PM   #11
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I've been riding the sad train a lot lately, too.

Work is okay, my girlfriend of four years is awesome, as always. I'm paying my bills just fine. I just have this overwhelming feeling of sadness and pointlessness. Can't quite settle into a groove. Been drinking more to stave off boredom. All the shit that used to work for me, make me feel good, etc. seems to have dried up in the last year or two.

I think a big part of it is that I need someone or something to take care of. Losing my dog was an unexpectedly heavy blow. I knew it would hurt, but didn't realize how deep and profound it was going to hit me.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 12:20 AM   #12
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I've been riding the sad train a lot lately, too.

Work is okay, my girlfriend of four years is awesome, as always. I'm paying my bills just fine. I just have this overwhelming feeling of sadness and pointlessness. Can't quite settle into a groove. Been drinking more to stave off boredom. All the shit that used to work for me, make me feel good, etc. seems to have dried up in the last year or two.

I think a big part of it is that I need someone or something to take care of. Losing my dog was an unexpectedly heavy blow. I knew it would hurt, but didn't realize how deep and profound it was going to hit me.
Things are good for me generally. Work is going alright, get to work from home which is awesome. I don't make a lot, but more than I ever have, and enough to live in a good area and not need roommates.

But I still have barely any relationships and I have a lot of dissociative symptoms that I am starting to doubt will ever go away. I mean I used to doubt it, but I had some hope at least, because I believe my therapist when she says she's seen people get better with bad derealization. But honestly it's just not better.

Someone posted this on Reddit and it's a really good visual for what it can be like


 
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Old 12-19-2019, 12:47 AM   #13
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Things are good for me generally. Work is going alright, get to work from home which is awesome. I don't make a lot, but more than I ever have, and enough to live in a good area and not need roommates.

But I still have barely any relationships and I have a lot of dissociative symptoms that I am starting to doubt will ever go away. I mean I used to doubt it, but I had some hope at least, because I believe my therapist when she says she's seen people get better with bad derealization. But honestly it's just not better.

Someone posted this on Reddit and it's a really good visual for what it can be like

I wish I had something intelligent or profound to offer. You've been through the sort of stuff that my own experiences don't even touch the tip of. Or something.

That said, I think you're good people and I'm rooting for you. From what I've seen/read, you've worked really hard to achieve some sense of normalcy and happiness, which you totally deserve. I know it can be incredibly hard feeling like you're perpetually rolling the rock uphill, but I hope you keep pushing.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 01:06 AM   #14
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I wish I had something intelligent or profound to offer. You've been through the sort of stuff that my own experiences don't even touch the tip of. Or something.

That said, I think you're good people and I'm rooting for you. From what I've seen/read, you've worked really hard to achieve some sense of normalcy and happiness, which you totally deserve. I know it can be incredibly hard feeling like you're perpetually rolling the rock uphill, but I hope you keep pushing.
Thanks man. I am very grateful things have gotten better. I really did not foresee living this long and being off disability and generally in the mild spectrum of depression. Ten years ago I was in and out of hospitals and 10 years before that I was enduring some really terrible shit.

So it feels whiny complaining but you know, life is empty as fuck still. I do have my cat who is FANTASTIC and keeps me sane for sure.

I hope you can feel better as well. I'm glad things are going generally well. But, like, wasn't life supposed to be different by now?

Also I am very sorry about your doggy.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 07:09 AM   #15
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Thanks man. I am very grateful things have gotten better. I really did not foresee living this long and being off disability and generally in the mild spectrum of depression. Ten years ago I was in and out of hospitals and 10 years before that I was enduring some really terrible shit.

So it feels whiny complaining but you know, life is empty as fuck still. I do have my cat who is FANTASTIC and keeps me sane for sure.

I hope you can feel better as well. I'm glad things are going generally well. But, like, wasn't life supposed to be different by now?

Also I am very sorry about your doggy.
I totally get this sentiment.

Regarding my dog, I think a big part of the hurt was not having a second animal to love in his absence. If I can suggest something, it would be to get another cat in the near future, that way when your current kitty's day comes, you'll have a companion who will help you through it.

And I don't think you sound whiny. Existence is pain. It doesn't discriminate. If it keeps you sane in the real world and keeps you from ripping into real people in your real life, I say vent away with reckless abandon here.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 11:48 AM   #16
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Someone posted this on Reddit and it's a really good visual for what it can be like

this is art.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 02:36 PM   #17
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I know what this is. Don't you guys know dignity when you see it?

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 03:30 PM   #18
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I know what this is. Don't you guys know dignity when you see it?
We didnít all go to Gudger College.

 
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Old 12-20-2019, 12:58 PM   #19
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Someone posted this on Reddit and it's a really good visual for what it can be like

this hit harder than expected

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:52 PM   #20
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Anyway, here's Wonderwall.

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:53 PM   #21
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Sorry for everyone's pain. ***hugs***

 
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Old 12-18-2019, 11:55 PM   #22
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Imma get a cat or a dog as soon as I settle down. that should help.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 12:15 AM   #23
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Imma get a cat or a dog as soon as I settle down. that should help.
my cat fucking loves me and i love her she's awesome

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 12:21 AM   #24
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Basically things have improved a lot but they still suck and I'm grateful but also disappointed.

I think my inner peace can probably grow but I don't think I'm going to be socially close to anybody. I could meet a person that somehow really likes me and puts forth some kind of gigantic effort to overcome my walls but it seems like a low probability and I totally understand that.

It's funny how all kinds of bad shit happened to me but the worst thing is what I actually lost developmentally and not certain traumatic events in particular.

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Old 12-19-2019, 12:48 AM   #25
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I put on a playlist of some of my favorite Mountain Goats songs.

Mountain Goats always make me feel better, somehow.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 01:07 AM   #26
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I put on a playlist of some of my favorite Mountain Goats songs.

Mountain Goats always make me feel better, somehow.
imma give them a listen. never have. where should i start? or just roll with popular on spotify?

oh wait yeah i've heard this before

 
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imma give them a listen. never have. where should i start? or just roll with popular on spotify?

oh wait yeah i've heard this before
I would start with Tallahassee and The Sunset Tree. Those are their big ones. We Shall All Be Healed and Heretic Pride also. Their early stuff (pre All Hail West Texas) can be an acquired taste, but they have a pretty large and pretty incredible body of work to choose from.

If you're looking for a single song or songs to get started, give This Year, Cotton or No Children a spin.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 07:20 AM   #28
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I feel sick with worry because I have a final interview for a job tomorrow. Iím really worried Iíll screw it up. Iíve prepared but my brain is so broken I canít keep all the information and answers in my head

Sorry to hear people are feeling crummy.

 
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Old 12-19-2019, 07:20 AM   #29
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u postin while poopin again?

 
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not u vixnix that was for flobes

 
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