I Know What You Did Last Chat Thread

[redbreegull]

you love his dad's what?

[ilikeplanets]

i'm grammatically triggered

[redbreegull]

now that marquis is gone, we're all adults here, took. if you mean peen, you can just say peen

[ilikeplanets]

oh shit, he was a minor huh. wow, i hadn't talked to a teenager in years. and never a racist one!

[Shallowed]

I see you shiver, with antici

[LaBelle]

There were some pretty bad teens who were in the same school as me. Even back then I realized they were horrible people.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by yo soy el mejor

i've been stuck in limbo waiting to hear back from university of chicago and university of southern califonia. i haven't even entertained the idea of not getting into either...not because i'm so certain it won't happen but because i know it's a very real possibility and if it's going to happen it's going to happen and won't be affected by my choosing to not think about it. i'm staying optimistic here, in a way.

We have different issues but I told this exact logic to my therapist about when I was worried about getting into the two schools I applied to (which I did not get into) and she thought it was a very dissociative way of acting about it. It's ok to feel anxious about it, who wouldn't, you know? But it's like why should I feel anxious of I don't have to? Dissociation is like a super power in that way. But, according to her, it's a package deal and if I want to feel good emotions there will be some bad to feel as well.

Like I said though we have different issues, I'm not sure if suppressing all emotion is something you tend to do. If not, doing it with this might actually be good for you.

things at work are getting more fun because i've started to do grant research now and was assigned to write an LOI due in april. ostensibly everything is good for now but i'm always sad and distracted (as i've always been). the other day i was ruminating on the bus and asked myself why i'm not happier now. shouldn't i be? it was one thing to be sad and distracted when my life was a mess, but why now? but that's depression, i thought. so this is what it's like to be depressed but know it's not what you want or how you want to feel. before it just fit the narrative of everything being wrong and felt like what i deserved.

in a way, i was able to view my sadness as separate from my actions or how things actually are; the things we need to do and think in order to cope are complex. i really would like to be emotionally kinder to myself and not feel so heavy. i talked to my therapist about it and she thought it was great and then i told her some juicy secrets.

I understand although I am not at this point yet. My depression still feels like it's just who I am. But compared to how it used to be, it's much better. I know some people who have it so under control that they are literally absolutely fine just taking a small amount of some antidepressant. It's that separate from "t**** - their personality. But I'm not really a pessimist or someone who is always wallowing in depression, either. You're right, shit's complex.

fingers crossed for u of c!

good luck. i knew i hadn't made it when it went past the days they advertised as interview days without hearing anything from them. funny enough, i got the rejection letters more than a month after that, on the same day.

[slunken]

college is just a big ol party with an entrance fee am i right?

i get a real charge out of saying controversial things like that.

[reprise85]

i didnt pay anything for college, in the end. but i still have loans cuz i had to eat and stuff

[buzzard]

Originally Posted by vixnix

while we were in NZ

We might have been overlapping in Aotearoa again, as I was in your old haunt a couple of days ago and Dunedin before that.

The hipsters per capita in Wellington is out of this world.

[vixnix]

So close, yet so far....

And yeah. My brother was in town, too (because of my grandpa's birthday) and we were like what in the actual fuck happened to this place. They are everywhere.

Polluting the landscape. THere's this park that used to be super seedy and shitty. It was where teenagers went to drink, and where bums went to drink meths out of mcdonald's cups... now some group of hipsters has opened up some hipster bar and their outdoor seating impinges on the fucking park, it's all roped off with like cushions and shit on the ground, like it's so casual.

No. Casual is a homeless person drinking meths out of a McDonald's cup you asshole. And other people sitting and smoking cigarettes and feeling shitty about their horrible painful meaningless lives, and staring quietly into space. What you have here is a fake edgy establishment for young rich professionals with more available credit than good sense.

I just found out that it's called the Rogue and Vagabond. Fucking assholes. We're gonna name this food and drink establishment, where fries cost $10, the Rogue and Vagabond. Because previously, people who couldn't afford a $2 soup kitchen dinner, used to sleep here on the benches, overnight.

Assholes of the highest degree.

I need to calm down, before my rage from living there and seeing this shit 24/7, gives me a heart attack.

[LaBelle]

The future:

https://am22.akamaized.net/tms/cnt/u...ikebench-1.jpg

[FoolofaTook]

Originally Posted by redbreegull

you love his dad's what?

DAD'S DONG

(new post-punk/black metal band. elph you in on this shit?)

[ilikeplanets]

i'm a sucker for alliteration

[FoolofaTook]

https://images.gr-assets.com/books/1...194l/81424.jpg

I just read this. Not sure what to think. Muhammad first married Khadijah. She was 15 years older than him and through her he got wealth, power, prestige. While she was alive he was strictly monogamous. When she died he went full bore prophet. Also married ten wives + concubines. His favorite, Aisha, was 9 when he married her. He was 53. He also married the widows of his dead comrades and his dead foes. At the last stage of taking Medina over, he killed 700 male Jews of the last clans to oppose him, then took one of their widows as a concubine. Oh and get this, his adopted son, Zayd, offered to divorce his wife so that Muhammad, who fancied her, could have her. At first the noble prophet resisted. Then he got a revelation telling him that the rules for normal Muslims didn't apply to him. So, hooray for Muhammad and his fancy!

One of his favorite sayings was, "I am just a man." No shit, bro.

[FoolofaTook]

Oh and he killed those seven hundred in cold blood, after they had surrendered unconditionally.

[myosis]

now that's a man

[cork_soaker]

a simple man
a sycophant

[vixnix]

When you think about it... Mohammed and Joseph Smith kind of have a lot in common.

[vixnix]

I found out recently that the prime minister of my home country was raised Morman and I have to say it explains a lot about her indefatigable positivity. Hopefully she can fix the country before the breakdown happens and she becomes bitter and angry about the ways that religion has robbed her of a normal life.

[LaBelle]

I hope for apocalypse and obliteration of the human species.

[reprise85]

well i didn't get the job. fuck me for being positive

[LaBelle]

That sucks. Let's hope for the apocalypse together then!

[ilikeplanets]

i'm really sorry, i was very much hoping you would

[yo soy el mejor]

Originally Posted by reprise85

well i didn't get the job. fuck me for being positive

their loss

[FlamingGlobes]

Originally Posted by reprise85

well i didn't get the job. fuck me for being positive

Sucks to hear, but I'm sure you'll find something else. They probably sucked to work for anyways.

[Ram27]

sorry reprise

[reprise85]

thanks guys. i'll get something else. was pretty foolish to think i'd get the first thing i was interviewed for. but i'm getting lots of rejection lately between the job and grad school. trying to fight off the tendency to be hard on myself.

[FlamingGlobes]

I don't think it's foolish; sometimes you knock it out of the park on the first try, sometimes you don't.

Be easy on yourself, you'll find the right fit.

[yo soy el mejor]

sometimes when i think of how much i like my current job, i will also think something like 'it's a good thing i didn't get that other job i thought i wanted'

your future job is out there waiting