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you should have at least read something good like a song of ice and fire

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by jeff O)))

it sucks because now you probably associate that awesome juvenile shit with the bad experiences huh

yeah i do, it bugs me out

kids in general trigger the fuck out of me, i cant be around them without dissociating like crazy. its really pretty horrible, my friends are all getting married and having kids and i'll probably just never be able to handle that

not to mention i've never had "another" serious relationship, or any relationships really

lol trigger warning

reprise my parents are on vacation in florida for two weeks
i could have gone with them and one of the reasons i considered it was possibly meeting you ;_;

[jeff O)))]

why'd you puss out

[reprise85]

yeah do i need to actually add that

(re: trigger warning)

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Graveflower

reprise my parents are on vacation in florida for two weeks
i could have gone with them and one of the reasons i considered it was possibly meeting you ;_;

aw

well if you ever want to come you've got a place

[reprise85]

only netphorian i've met is aladango or whatever his name is but i didnt know it was him at the time

i was supposed to meet turdlion in 2010 at the SP show in ft lauderdale but that was the last time i was in the crazy bin

[reprise85]

everyone once in a while, well this has happened three times, i find some vampire chronicle books in my possession and i dont know how/where i get them

[jeff O)))]

interview with the vampire was a great book. couldn't get past the first 100 pages of lestat though

[reprise85]

reading those books warps my mind in some weird way. lestat actually reminds me a lot of louisiana dude. he just feeels things soooo strongly even though he's a fucking sociopath. he is really convinced

as long as you shitheads arent reading sookie stackhouse books

[jeff O)))]

oh you know what I remember I actually listened to the memnoch the devil audiobook...it was pretty badass...I was still pretty young and it kinda blew my mind when lestat drank the nun's mences or whatever

[reprise85]

yeah thats a pretty interesting book from what i remember

aldongo sucks

[reprise85]

there was a picture of us in the palm beach post from the 2008 boca raton show

[reprise85]

i wish i would have bought more beer

Originally Posted by reprise85

there was a picture of us in the palm beach post from the 2008 boca raton show

[reprise85]

its not there anymore. even the wayback machine cant get the slideshow anymore. boo

[reprise85]

holy FUCK i just found my geocities page from 1998!

[kelsome]

this is way better than the confessions thing.

[Dead Frequency]

Originally Posted by reprise85

i wish i would have bought more beer

I'm at the bar now. Also have you checked out confessions of a justified sinner?

[reprise85]

never heard of it

[reprise85]

so now you all know the short version of one of my fucked up stories

but some milestone was reached today with getting a job for the first time since 2008 when everything started catching up to me so yay\\

the last time i was inpatient i voiced some homicidal wishes towards him and the therapist told me if i expressed any real ideation she had to try to contact the police so they could contact him (which was a lie) and it made me laugh for hours, that she'd contact the police for some thought in my head and yet he does what he does every day and right this second he's doing some fucked up thing to someone either IRL or virtually and no one care. he's only 32 now, i think he'll get caught but who knows how many people he's fucked over in the meantime. it's maddening

[jeff O)))]

sounds like a shit therapist

[reprise85]

yeah she was a jaded worker at a mostly involuntary hospital. i mean i understand how therapists get that way but for gods sake you owe the people something. its like she was so used to psychotic people that when she got someone like me who understood what was happening her incompetence just shined and she promised to help me with all kinds of things and then did absolutely nothing

that hospital sucked, the psychiatrist almost poisoned me by more than doubling a medication that needs to be upped slowly because it can cause a potentially fatal rash that makes your skin separate from your body. i refused to take it and the nurse on duty threatened to shoot me up with haldol and i just kept saying i was refusing it i have a right to refuse it. and then the next day the charge nurse who actually knew what the fuck was the problem with that medication change wrote out an incident report. shit's scary, i was probably literally the only one who knew and cared what they were taking and that would even realize if something was wrong with their med orders

Jdbtthedhun

[reprise85]

and so the thread has come full circle: psych hospitals suck

if you disagree you think leno is better than conan

erica did you have patients screaming "nigger" at black guys who worked in your psych wards
of all the shitt there that was the most unbelievable to me
just yelling fuck you nigger at people like malcom x never happened