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Old 11-24-2017, 11:02 PM   #91
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i never cared for it much at the time of the album's release, but it's fantastic.

the notes/chord structure do well embodying a sense of alienation, but the overall feel of the song, production wise, is an opiate blanket. mmm

thematically, i'd always assumed it had something to do with the conflict-heavy portions of glass' character arc. perhaps:





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I concur. There is a strange sense of alienation I feel when I listen to this song. and it feels so good. Especially on a dark winter day.

I recently bought my first guitar, and IMB and Come As You Are have been the first songs I've played. They're really simple and so great.

 
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Whatever it means, the prechorus/chorus really gets to me because it is so reminiscent of how I felt during abuse episodes



where you kinda of retreat into your mind and protect some kind of essence/core of yourself that they can't touch. and that core feels very... primitive. creature-like
Exactly! Reminds me of when I was younger. I was, apparently, very confident. On account of having the shit beaten out of me almost every single day not much later, I lost literally all my confidence, and yeah, "where you kinda of retreat into your mind and protect some kind of essence/core of yourself that they can't touch. and that core feels very... primitive. creature-like". I've always been very anxious since and don't really have friends, partially because most people around me happen to be pretty fucking stupid. The song makes me feel good now, for some reason, lol.

 
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Old 11-24-2017, 11:31 PM   #93
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Who beat you up? That is awful. Hope you are far away from them or at least safe.

 
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Who beat you up? That is awful. Hope you are far away from them or at least safe.
I'm safe now. thanks.

It was my dad, mainly. He's cool now though. Although he lives somewhere else now, he's always good to me, and he genuinely feels sorry. I'm okay with him now. He's the smartest person I know too, haha.
And bullies. So. Many. Bullies. But dad first. I kind of started believing that letting people hit me was an okay thing to do. Good thing I realised that it isn't. Better late than never. Although it has left a mark on my personality for good, but meh.

 
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Old 11-25-2017, 01:46 AM   #95
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Old 11-25-2017, 03:08 AM   #96
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Exactly! Reminds me of when I was younger. I was, apparently, very confident. On account of having the shit beaten out of me almost every single day not much later, I lost literally all my confidence, and yeah, "where you kinda of retreat into your mind and protect some kind of essence/core of yourself that they can't touch. and that core feels very... primitive. creature-like". I've always been very anxious since and don't really have friends, partially because most people around me happen to be pretty fucking stupid. The song makes me feel good now, for some reason, lol.
I'm sorry you got beaten. I had something different happen, where I was very very emotionally sensitive, and then I started dissociating a lot instead (which I still do).

 
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I'm sorry you got beaten. I had something different happen, where I was very very emotionally sensitive, and then I started dissociating a lot instead (which I still do).
I still dissociate a lot. Like I said, it left a mark on my personality. I don't know what happened with you, but I hope you're doing better now.

I too was incredibly emotionally sensitive. Because of this, I was functionally mute for ~1 year. I cried when the smallest things happened. I'd literally duck or cover my face when anyone would reach out their hand, even to give me something or just make a (non-violent) gesture. I always felt threatened. I still do, sometimes, but I've toughened up a little, which I'm happy about.

 
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I am so sorry marquis. people can be so awful. i hope you get better and it never happens again.
Are all the bullies gone?

something happened to me but i don't know what. all i know is i hate being touched. it feels like a burning sensation. so i stay far away from others, usually.

 
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My mom used to hit me every other day. nothing like a beating but still. it left a mark, emotionally. and there's no one on the planet i am closer to.

strange humanoids.

 
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My mom used to hit me every other day. nothing like a beating but still. it left a mark, emotionally. and there's no one on the planet i am closer to.

strange humanoids.
My mom used to hit me too! Every other day. I'm in the exact same situation, my mom is the person I'm closest to, more or less. As a matter of fact, as she has pointed out several times, she's the only one I ever make eye contact with.

 
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I am so sorry marquis. people can be so awful. i hope you get better and it never happens again.
Are all the bullies gone?

something happened to me but i don't know what. all i know is i hate being touched. it feels like a burning sensation. so i stay far away from others, usually.
you're right, they can be very awful. sigh.

They're gone. I pretty much create the first impression that I am not to be fucked with, with most people I meet now. I usually have to be a bit of a dick in the beginning, but it's for the best.

I don't like people touching me either. I also don't like phoney, pretentious people. Therefore, I don't like most people I meet. Oh well, I'm perfectly fine with not having friends. I'm comfortable by myself.

 
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Old 11-25-2017, 02:28 PM   #103
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Loners rule.

 
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Old 11-25-2017, 02:34 PM   #104
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you're like 16 aren't you maquis?

 
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~17, yeah. lol I'm probably the youngest guy here on Netphoria. Youngest active user, at least.

 
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that is really amazing to me. I joined when I was 18, that was in 1934.

 
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Fuck yeah. B-)

 
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that is really amazing to me. I joined when I was 18, that was in 1934.
Wow. That is truly fascinating. What does it feel like to be 101 years old?

 
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boring. converge.

 
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I still dissociate a lot. Like I said, it left a mark on my personality. I don't know what happened with you, but I hope you're doing better now.

I too was incredibly emotionally sensitive. Because of this, I was functionally mute for ~1 year. I cried when the smallest things happened. I'd literally duck or cover my face when anyone would reach out their hand, even to give me something or just make a (non-violent) gesture. I always felt threatened. I still do, sometimes, but I've toughened up a little, which I'm happy about.
ah i'm sorry to hear. i also have the defensive reaction when people put their hands out. and then i remember when someone would taunt me with hitting/pretending he was going to hit me and back and forth and he would laugh at me being scared and trying to put my hands in front of my face etc.

usually when anyone touches anything but my arms i get muscle spasms. arms are weird but i don't spasm. this is fun at the doctor.

things will get better. i used to be much worse. but i think i'm ruined as far as romantic relationships go, unfortunately

 
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Marquis I am old enough to be your mother.

 
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Yeah having a gf (i actually had one once!!!) was weird. i can't stand being touched on my sides for some reason.

and when my neighbor came up and put her hand on my shoulder (she did it in front of her friend a CASHIER in safeway lol) i almost fell over. i hate that. especially in public. Kept my headphones in turn around and fled.

 
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i can't stand being touched on my sides for some reason.
same.

 
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I guess we'll just have to spoon.

 
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Am I being homophobic?

 
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Fuck wrong thread. I meant to ask that in the thread where I mentioned dogpiling.

 
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JUMP! JUMP!
I did. Like a jackass. Anyway, good on you for taking up guitar. I really really wish I'd done it when I was at that age. I'm in my thirties and have been playing for maybe two years. I suck still, but it's so goddamned liberating.

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Wow. That is truly fascinating. What does it feel like to be 101 years old?
In even weirder news, depending on your birth date, i've been a netphorian slightly longer or shorter than you have been alive. Kill me.

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Kill me.

that's the wrong approach, 17, he says?
we could be his parents. there is only one thing to do. but not until we successfully ruined any enjoyment he can find and shit on any hopes he might have. then, then we do the usual.

welcome to netphoria, marquis, say hi to your new parents!



 
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