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03-21-2016, 11:59 PM | #361 |
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we did drink yesterday if that counts
this is the soundtrack to my soul right now especially the last 2 minutes |
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03-22-2016, 12:00 AM | #362 |
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03-22-2016, 12:17 AM | #363 |
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you think we all chemists in here?
you and reprise stop with those polygons and just say the name of the substance jesus |
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03-22-2016, 12:22 AM | #364 | |
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Disco King strikes again by turning yet another fun thread into a group therapy thread where he overshares about his dull existence. As icing on the dry, lopsided cake of misery, I present to you 9/11. http://wideshut.co.uk/wp-content/upl...6040031680.jpg |
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03-22-2016, 12:26 AM | #365 | |
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03-22-2016, 12:29 AM | #366 |
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03-22-2016, 12:29 AM | #367 |
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i really am giving my all to trying to start a clean slate but even when i manage to do so, for a few moments, it's immediately followed by a landslide of negative emotions that i cannot explain even to myself. always hindering doubts and something pulling downward. fuck this shit already. fuck.
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03-22-2016, 12:30 AM | #368 |
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Did you feel bad leading up to and during sex? Or was it afterward you started feeling like shit?
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03-22-2016, 12:36 AM | #369 |
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afterwards
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03-22-2016, 12:38 AM | #370 | |
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03-22-2016, 12:43 AM | #371 | |
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Or maybe heartburn. |
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03-22-2016, 12:53 AM | #372 |
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I don't have any conception if this is related at all, but I also sometimes experience a huge plunge in my emotional state after something really good happens. It's like when I feel too good about something, my mind has to equalize by making me feel like I want to kill myself
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03-22-2016, 01:11 AM | #373 |
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yeah both those descriptions sound about right.
just trying to take my mind off it and think simply. breaking the loops before they get too toxic. i wonder what it's like to be a normal and person who more or less has things together. that shit must be fucking amazing. |
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03-22-2016, 01:15 AM | #374 |
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yeah
the other day I was wondering if such people actually exist are there people who actually just feel good and positive most of the time? that's pretty hard for me to imagine |
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03-22-2016, 01:20 AM | #375 |
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like, i've only been going out with this girl for a week. there's no real reason to overthink it, but it's so strange to be with somebody after exiting a 7 year relationship the way i did. i stroke her cheek as we just lay there and it feels just like it felt with her, like a deja vu, it's freaking me out.
logic says this shouldn't be anything more than a transitional thing but i'm scared that i might get attached, and that it'll fucking hurt saying goodbye when the time comes. and the clock is winding down (even if only, say, for visa issues). goodbyes just fucking kill me. i remember writing really sad songs about terrible tv shows ending when i was a kid. i'm awful about saying goodbye. i'm not cut out for it. people seem to accept it as a natural aspect of life - even a healthy one, maybe - but it never stops being incredibly painful and difficult for me, with everything. people, places, tv shows, whatever. i don't know what i should be doing. fuck. break the loop. |
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03-22-2016, 01:22 AM | #376 | |
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one of my best friends is just like that. he has no anxieties, no depressions, nothing bothers him, no crippling self awareness at all, fairly self content. of course he'll get bad moods like anyone does sometimes, but nothing comes close to hindering him the way i've been fighting tooth and nail with my whole life. i envy that so much. |
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03-22-2016, 01:23 AM | #377 | |
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03-22-2016, 01:25 AM | #378 |
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i believe you, but i don't see how. you went through seven girlfriends
i absolutely cannot imagine ever having the strength to go through that again, and i'd only had once. |
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03-22-2016, 01:44 AM | #379 |
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in some ways you build emotional callouses each time you go through an experience like that. in other ways it never gets easier. and somehow I have always lived through each one although I was always certain I was going to either kill myself or die of grief
but also your relationship was 7 years? That's 3 on the longest one I was in. As much as the parting hurts, the emotional fallout from a 1 year relationship is not really the same. Probably the only time I have really experienced something like what you went through was when me and my ex of 4 years broke up. I mean I thought I was going to spend my life with her and suddenly she changed the entire course of my future. I imagine that is more like what you went through |
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03-22-2016, 01:47 AM | #380 |
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the night she dumped me I just kept thinking over and over I am literally going to feel like I am dying inside for the next year and there is nothing I can do about it, I HAVE to end it somehow because there is just literally no way I can bear this kind of pain again. and yeah I lost my fucking mind and did the craziest shit I have ever done
but i'm still posting here today http://i.imgur.com/HDF8MUV.jpg now my feelings are like I could never summon the energy to build that kind of relationship again knowing it can just randomly be blown apart at any moment no matter how sure you think it is |
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03-22-2016, 02:12 AM | #381 | |
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For a long time, I thought dissatisfaction and pessimism and whatnot were the normal way to be. Obviously not extreme forms of it, but it genuinely surprised me when I took social psychology and found out that the average person is very optimistic about their future and predicts their futures will turn out better than their peers' will, and appraises their competencies and skills as higher than their peers. I was like, "what, I thought that everybody feels kind of inadequate compared to everybody else most of the time and feels uncertainty about their futures." People even tend to rate their own attractiveness pretty high. I had assumed that everybody would tend to feel insecure about their self image, partly because of how we're exposed to ideal images in the media, and partly because attractive people are more likely to stick out in our minds than non-attractive people, so we would take attractive people to be the representative of the average person, and feel inadequate compared to that norm that is the result of confirmation bias. Nope. It kind of made me resent people when I found out that they all don't essentially have low self-esteem. I dunno, I was like "wow, the average person sounds insufferable, according to empirical research." |
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03-22-2016, 02:59 AM | #382 |
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I know people who are prone to being content in life, but I don't know anyone who doesn't at least sometimes have intense self doubt, imposter syndrome, depression etc.
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03-22-2016, 06:23 AM | #383 |
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i typed a couple of long winded replies but i feel like i'm just grinding everyone's ears (well, eyes) and maybe starting to share a little too much. thanks for being there through another meltdown courtesy of tehbolly. and many more...
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03-22-2016, 06:34 AM | #384 |
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i'm quite content most of the time. the whole anxiety/depression thing is foreign to me. i'm not sure i really understand.
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03-22-2016, 06:34 AM | #385 |
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i don't belong here.
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03-22-2016, 06:42 AM | #386 | |
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That is all IMO past the first few lines |
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03-22-2016, 06:45 AM | #387 |
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Guys I also think antidepressants and therapy can help this a lot. In a big way our brains are just not normal, it's not some kind of moral weakness - our brains are different and at least temporarily need some help. I tend to personify my brain as another person in this regard almost. Like, my poor brain just can't be content by itself.
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03-22-2016, 09:39 AM | #388 | |
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03-22-2016, 09:45 AM | #389 |
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from my (admittedly small) experience, yes, that is correct rbg
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03-22-2016, 09:46 AM | #390 |
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you guys callin me stupid?
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