I Know What You Did Last Chat Thread

[FoolofaTook]

But who cares? After all I am just a hotel maid! Ha.

[ilikeplanets]

some of the worst itt and i haven't even commented until now


hopefully i'm more socially aware but the tracers make it hard to tell. people, guys. they're just people. for better or worse. so what do you expect, really?

[ilikeplanets]

reprise you're really cool, btw. hope that isn't patronizing, i am simple and sincere. you remind me of one of my best friends growing up and you're super easy to talk to. but i also see that you rarely talk back about things of deeper importance so that might make someone feel like they are just dumping all their problems on you (cuz you give good advice from the heart) and no one wants to be THAT person. i'm not as well versed as disco but i generally feel the same as him. i hope you'll get there, if you want to.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by ilikeplanets

reprise you're really cool, btw. hope that isn't patronizing, i am simple and sincere. you remind me of one of my best friends growing up and you're super easy to talk to. but i also see that you rarely talk back about things of deeper importance so that might make someone feel like they are just dumping all their problems on you (cuz you give good advice from the heart) and no one wants to be THAT person. i'm not as well versed as disco but i generally feel the same as him. i hope you'll get there, if you want to.

thanks. in addition to my intimacy issues re: trauma, i also basically lost all of the things you learn in your teenage years about relationship building. i am always worried that i am disclosing too much. not just because i worry people will use it against me, but because i dont want to be self centered. plus i've learned people don't know how to react when i try to explain my experiences. i worry about scaring people or confusing them. i just dont know or dont trust that i know what is appropriate. but i am ready to take more risks. and i have my therapist to run decisions by, or to try to work out if someone is dangerous or if i'm just being triggered. this is actually a big change for me. i used to not be willing, and then i felt like i'd be willing if there was some sort of guarantee that i wouldnt be hurt again. but i know i will try in relationships again. i've made the decision.

thanks again for caring about me and saying what you feel

[FoolofaTook]

It is good to be down, to be at a disadvantage. Then you see the true face of human society. Then you find out who truly values you and has compassion and who are the ones who just want to use you.

It's grim as fuck but it's the truth. Fuck ppl who look down on you because you arre struggling. Sorry I know my "advice" blows.

[FoolofaTook]

Hey guys! I just offered the custodial job at the Community College. . Salary + full benefits

Hooray! (Guess i shall see Boris sober after all)

[fuzzyroes]

Originally Posted by FoolofaTook

Yes that's exactly what happened. Similar thing happened with a female cashier. Now she won't even look at me while Mitchel just stands and stares (its awkward). All the other cashiers know. Including this one super fine one (she looks like she stepped out of sailor moon). It is awful. when i go shopping there I keep my eyes on the floor and my headphones in my ears. smile and thank the cashierand RUN.

i have some issues.

Haha, maybe it's just time to switch supermarkets man!?

[FoolofaTook]

Trust me I would if I could. But I have no car and it is the only close one. Plus there's that super fine cashier... I sneak a glance once or twice a month. Christ on a cross!

[fuzzyroes]

Ahh shitty. Don't worry about it man. All sorts of creeps and scoundrels regularly come into grocery stores, you probably don't even resonate on their radar.

[FoolofaTook]

Ur mom resonates on my "radar".

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by FoolofaTook

Hey guys! I just offered the custodial job at the Community College. . Salary + full benefits

Hooray! (Guess i shall see Boris sober after all)

congrats! thats awesome. are they drug testing you before hire?

[ilikeplanets]

Originally Posted by reprise85

thanks. in addition to my intimacy issues re: trauma, i also basically lost all of the things you learn in your teenage years about relationship building. i am always worried that i am disclosing too much. not just because i worry people will use it against me, but because i dont want to be self centered. plus i've learned people don't know how to react when i try to explain my experiences. i worry about scaring people or confusing them. i just dont know or dont trust that i know what is appropriate. but i am ready to take more risks. and i have my therapist to run decisions by, or to try to work out if someone is dangerous or if i'm just being triggered. this is actually a big change for me. i used to not be willing, and then i felt like i'd be willing if there was some sort of guarantee that i wouldnt be hurt again. but i know i will try in relationships again. i've made the decision.

thanks again for caring about me and saying what you feel

all that is hard to deal with! irl i am really introverted and don't really speak to anyone about anything, because my life is so weird and I've had so many different types of "unusual" problems, both inflicted by myself and others that I don't feel relatable to any healthy person. I don't make eye contact and have a very low volume. My kid will probably get her way with everything! so in tiny part I understand where you're coming from about not knowing how people will react to you or if it's possible to have a meaningful connection in an appropriate way. but the process is worth it cuz like it or not that's something i still crave. (I'm not the right kind of mentality ill to not want human relationships at all). I feel like you'll find great success if these kinds of things are what you want, because you are very likable and trustworthy and people value that. that was possibly a repeat of what i said earlier but just wanted you to know other people feel that way too.

[FoolofaTook]

Originally Posted by reprise85

congrats! thats awesome. are they drug testing you before hire?

Probably. But I will tell them that I need to give Goodwill their two weeks notice. So I should be OK right?

[ilikeplanets]

depends on how much you smoked. stop now and you'll probably jusssst be fine. that shit lasts too long in your system proportionally to how harmless it is.

congrats though, knew something would work out!

[redbreegull]

Hard to say whether you would pass a test tbh. If you are scrawny and have little fat on your body (which I think is you Took), you are more likely to pass. Frequency and amount of smoking also obviously impacts whether you will pass. You passed a test for Goodwill, right?

So you're just worried about the one day you smoked?

[FoolofaTook]

I smoked two grams of 20%.

Fuck. I will be fine in two weeks. But what if they call me in this week?

[redbreegull]

Originally Posted by FoolofaTook

I smoked two grams of 20%.

Fuck. I will be fine in two weeks. But what if they call me in this week?

damn son. yeah tell them you must give 2 weeks notice because you are a responsible adult and I assume you haven't used Goodwill as a reference or contact?

[FoolofaTook]

Smoked the last bowl yesterday.

FOOL OF A TOOK!!

[FoolofaTook]

Originally Posted by redbreegull

damn son. yeah tell them you must give 2 weeks notice because you are a responsible adult and I assume you haven't used Goodwill as a reference or contact?

No of course not. And I told them at the interview aboiut the two weeks notice.

But I am worried they will drop me on Friday or Monday after the background check. Fucking hate my weak self. And ram27. He's the one who advised me to get drunk the night I relapsed.

its all your fault ram!!!

[redbreegull]

although I'm not sure how much it really helps, I would be drinking a lot of water, tea, and cranberry juice if I were you as well as going on some runs

[FoolofaTook]

Oh I will believe me. And lentils and salads galore.

[FoolofaTook]

Thank Satan for my Skeletoresque physique.

[buzzard]

I'm sure you could put some sort of pee-collecting device in your parents' bathroom.

Try to time its installation for when your father has to go because I don't really want my DNA showing up in the results.

[FoolofaTook]

I get it: its a you're mom joke!!

[FoolofaTook]

I will trade you food stamps for clean urine buzzard.

[buzzard]

Can they be used to purchase cigarettes and alcohol?

This is not an Oasis reference.

[teh b0lly!!1]

how about Coffee & Cigarettes tho?

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by FoolofaTook

No of course not. And I told them at the interview aboiut the two weeks notice.

But I am worried they will drop me on Friday or Monday after the background check. Fucking hate my weak self. And ram27. He's the one who advised me to get drunk the night I relapsed.

its all your fault ram!!!

just because they think you are giving 2 weeks doesnt mean they'll wait two weeks for a test. i think you have to assume as soon as you sign the papers you are dropping that day. but they might do saliva which would be best for you

[reprise85]

also might try googling the college "does xxxx drug test?"

[FoolofaTook]

They test their nursing students.

can't figure out if they test custodians but i am guessing they do.

o well i have five other job applications pending. but this one is the best. sigh.