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06-07-2017, 07:43 PM | #31 |
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My drinking problem is that the drinks always end.
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06-07-2017, 07:44 PM | #32 |
Just Hook it to My Veins!
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riiiiight
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06-07-2017, 07:45 PM | #33 |
Just Hook it to My Veins!
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stopping drinking without getting a heavy buzz feels like a waste in my book. like, i drank alcohol for nothing?!
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06-07-2017, 07:46 PM | #34 |
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It's like there's a hole in the bottles, real weird.
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06-08-2017, 09:57 AM | #35 |
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Edit: wrong thread.
Last edited by MplsTaper : 06-08-2017 at 10:04 AM. |
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06-08-2017, 10:57 AM | #36 |
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I smoke too much weed. When I run out I make scenes and shit.
I know this comes as a great surprise to you. |
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06-08-2017, 10:58 AM | #37 |
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Lemmy once said that the best cure for a hangover was to continue drinking. True story.
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06-08-2017, 11:15 AM | #38 |
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06-08-2017, 11:18 AM | #39 |
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Heh check this guy out
get a load of him |
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06-08-2017, 01:41 PM | #40 |
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I have found that usually drinking a beer in the morning does alleviate a hangover. The great paradox is that when you are sick from drinking, the idea of drinking more is like
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06-08-2017, 06:28 PM | #41 |
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06-08-2017, 10:41 PM | #42 |
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06-08-2017, 11:48 PM | #43 |
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hahaha
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06-09-2017, 01:12 AM | #44 |
Consume my pants.
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I had a really really good night last night. There are some real bright spots here and there in between the crushing sadness.
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06-09-2017, 02:11 AM | #45 |
Consume my pants.
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06-09-2017, 03:47 AM | #46 |
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Interesting guy - ex-addict, now neuroscientist. I read the book and it was very interesting.
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06-09-2017, 06:24 AM | #47 |
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I'm still the 10 year old in that panel... well, I drink
I'd probably be 12 then, but they didn't illustrate that |
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06-09-2017, 07:08 PM | #48 | |
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Quote:
I've always been partial to this one myself: |
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06-10-2017, 01:19 AM | #49 |
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For some reason I just cannot get into Tattoo of the Sun even though I think it's one of their "well known" bsides
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06-10-2017, 06:10 AM | #50 |
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I just listened to 3eb for the first time in ages. tattoo is really good. hey globes whatever happened to slow motion? Wasn't there an unreleased full band version of the song?
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06-10-2017, 06:42 PM | #51 |
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I'll answer this! There is a full band version w vox that was unreleased for years until they finally released it recently.
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06-11-2017, 12:10 PM | #52 |
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They actually officially released it in 2006 on their greatest hits album.
Me, being the cool guy I am, downloaded it on Napster back in the day. |
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07-01-2017, 09:00 PM | #53 |
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i relapsed. it sucked and i wasted $300 in 3 days.
my therapist is away but im not looking forward to telling her. the fucked up thing is if it didn't cost me like 5x what i used to cost to get these pills, and it didn't take like 3 hours each time i wanted them, i'd probably be fucked idk. they used to be $10 a pop. $15 at most. this time they were $30 and i had to hook my friend up with one (3 times). and then the dealer fucked me and said I only gave him $70 instead of $90 and i didn't want to make a THING out of it, so I just gave him $20 more. prick. this friend contacted me on facebook. i havent spoken to him in like 6 years. it was really risky, i mean it was not too shady the way the deal went down, but just putting myself at risk (3 times) was stupid as fuck. he could have wanted to rob me or something. the fucked up thing is the only reason i even have facebook is because i messaged him like a year ago APOLOGIZING for introducing him to pills that many years ago. now he's like oh my birthday is in x weeks you know what would be a GREAT birthday present? dude you are my drug hookup, we don't even hang out, and i just spent more than $100 in getting you pills and gas a shit just to hook me up. wtf. but when i was making my case that i really gave the dude $90 he saw my bank account balance and apparently thinks i'm hot shit. dude i have rent and stuff. just because i have $1000 in my account doesn't mean shit. he still lives with his parents. he's like 36 and barely works. he complained to me about how he's only getting like 20 hours and then one of the days i called him he had called out of work. anyway rant over, it was stupid and i take responsibility and what sucks is like i said, if it was more convenient and not as expensive i'd prob talk myself into it even though i had very little enjoyment. |
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07-01-2017, 10:15 PM | #54 |
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i hope you can forgive yourself. it's okay to fuck up. it's good you realize it and all the repercussions. what are you worried about right now?
i relapsed and had pills a few months ago when i was in throes of gout pain. it lasted about a week. i have been off alcohol for 146 days. weed almost every day though. hang in there, i'm down to talk if you need to at all.\ i don't have a psychologist but if i told my psychiatrist would do the same about such a thing he'd totally shame me. they do that. gaslighters too. i mean they can be good. but if telling them makes you feel worse don't. cuz they're gonna make you feel bad about it too. |
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07-01-2017, 10:44 PM | #55 |
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i lied to my therapist about smoking weed for like a year when i was seeing her. and then the sporadic times i've done pills (which never consisted of my actually copping anything). she was pretty upset at me for lying so much over like 5 years. i told her i wouldn't lie about it any more. she told me she would never get upset over me using but if i didn't tell her then it affected how open i was about everything. which is definitely true. and she didn't want to be a part of actually making things worse. since i told her what about all the other stuff i've gotten a lot more done in therapy.
she will be somewhat disappointed but she won't shame me. do you get gout pain a lot? i know sometimes people need painkillers, but i also know you know the difference between that and a relapse. so it sucks to hear you relapsed. good going with the alcohol. funny enough, alcohol doesn't bother me. i barely drink cuz i just dont like it that much. but give me any other type of downer or weed and i'll do it erry day or never. as for what i'm worried about. fucking a lot. i'm gonna graduate in december and i have to do all of these applications and shit and then i'll be ending therapy in a about a year and i dont know if im ready for any of it quite honestly. and im going to have to travel to do interviews. these grad schools are pretty exclusive. and then i'll have to move and shit. how do you move a cat even. without putting them in with baggage on a plane which i refuse to do? or driving? probably i'll end up driving and need to find pet friendly hotels. whatever like #firstworldproblems and like these are good problems to have. the guy hooking me up with pills was like flabbergasted with how much 'success' i've had since he met me. he's still in the same place. worse actually. he's pretty melodramatic about everything. like we were at the store and he was trying to get a certain type of deoderant and was all woe-as-me that they didn't have it. like dude you have no money first off and you're buying $6 deodorant? and why exactly do you need to do this with me with you, i just want to go home and do my shit? i dont even know man. every time we got shit he tried to talk me out of more money. and then he was like 'should i feel bad for contacting you? like i made you relapse?' and I said "no dude i made the choice, it's not your fault." and it's NOT but like yeah it's sorta fucked up to offer someone you know is clean shit. like, yes maybe you should rethink that shit ugh Last edited by reprise85 : 07-01-2017 at 10:50 PM. |
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07-01-2017, 10:57 PM | #56 |
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i think this was going to happen, it was just a matter of when. it's been in my bones for a while now. it's stupid to risk everything i have for this shit. imagine i got arrested? i'd lose my student aid. or i got hooked again and spent all my student loan money, couldnt pay rent, lost my house, where the fuck would my cat go? it's so, so stuipid. and to be clear i'm not blaming my hook up. it's totally my fault
makes me realize how far i really have come, and that i am so past that lifestyle being better than dealing with my own past and feelings. that that lifestyle was better than normal life. and it was for a while. because i couldn't deal with reality. it's not like that anymore. |
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07-01-2017, 11:23 PM | #57 |
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you're not going to buy any more from him, right?
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07-02-2017, 12:35 AM | #58 |
BOTTLEG ILLEGAL
Location: I'm faced with so many changes that I just might change my face
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nope
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07-02-2017, 12:37 AM | #59 |
BOTTLEG ILLEGAL
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although i havent blocked him because i enjoy fucking with myself i guess
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07-02-2017, 07:47 AM | #60 |
Just Hook it to My Veins!
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Reprise this dealer sounds real bad. You should stay away if you can.
Sorry to hear about the pills. But it was only a small slip up and you are sober again. You'll be ok. But I understand your anxiety. Sorry this is a really disjointed post. I am depressed myself. What do you do to stay sober? Me I read. |
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