The Official Fri/Sat/Sun/Mon/Tue drunk/drugs/sad sex thread

[FoolofaTook]

You're standing in a corridor
Where our paths never seem to cross
The hands of the clock meander
The conversation devolves
Our timing is always off

My time, your time

But we sense the love
Inside the hearts
Of those we're out of sync with

I meet your gaze
From a great distance
Over and over, we fail and then forget
I want to tell you what I'm thinking
Each time we disconnect

My time, your time

A couple out of sync
Finds love in each other's hearts
Finds love in each of their hearts

(dedicated to smashingjj's pussy, "jigs")

[Ram27]

so i have a rehab intake appointment at 11:30 tomorrow morning.

i love you all but i'm scared.

we skipped out on the last one cause it was mostly christian abstinence nonsense

Originally Posted by d'arcy

Billy even told me himself (on the phone- TALKING) that when they’ve toured together (he and Jimmy) since I left he was always the same old Jimmy: meaning drinking drugging womanizing

oh Jimmy DID die on that tour. TWICE!!! and had to be revived.

jonathan too. They just couldn’t revive him the last time.

jimmy went to rehab at LEAST 4 times

[Ram27]

i only look at these quotes to quell the fear.

[FoolofaTook]

good luck ram. isn't there a rehab that doesn't use religious approaches?

[Ram27]

me & parents are trying to find one rn

[Ram27]

the only JC i follow is the one in that pumpkin band. breaking pumpkins, something like that...

[redbreegull]

so my newest dating app friend says, "hey, I know you! you rudely threw a piece of paper at my head!"

I check out her pics and totally do not recognize her. I said, "are you sure it wasn't a balled up note, as in do you like anyone in this class yes/no/maybe circle one?" She thought that was funny so I played along for awhile having no idea what's going on. Eventually I ask, "wait...did I actually throw paper at you? Where do we know each other from?"

Turns out she is this staggeringly beautiful and interesting person I sat across from at Harry Potter trivia last month. We had a disagreement over whether the 7th book sucks which ended in me drunkenly tossing our score sheet at her. and I didn't recognize her because she made such an impression on me at the time and her profile pictures just don't look that much like her.

hooray for living in the age of dating apps, when missed connections just come back around in more awkward ways in the digital world

[Ram27]

[yo soy el mejor]

last night we went to eat expensive tacos and do karaoke with our white friends (a coworker of Tim and her husband) but on our way home we hung out with a woman who works at the liquor store (the only store in our neighborhood) and the local squares kingpin...aka mama J. then we went to the b-day party of our neighbor. he had 3 strippers and it was a spectacle to see them doing their thang in a living room surrounded by people. they had an assistant who was sweeping up money. <--- that's what's up.

[Shallowed]

I'm back on the various dating apps despite still not having a job or a car

Don't expect any further updates

[slunken]

no

[Ram27]

Originally Posted by FoolofaTook

good luck ram. isn't there a rehab that doesn't use religious approaches?

went to this one tonight --> https://www.smartrecoverytest.org/lo...-pm-to-715-pm/

it was really really good

[reprise85]

yeah i like SMART a lot.

the anti-AA

i didn't see your message, sorry

[qwerty sp]

Time for a grunge revival

[smashingjj]

there was one and it was called 3 doors down

[smashingjj]

let's revive something else's dead corpse

[Shallowed]

currently high and blasting orange heavy rocks
on 2 hours of sleep
having my first meal of the day and my meds at about 3:30pm
i'm currently imagining someone that looks like a cross between a hobbit and Varg moshing and thrashing about to this with me

[FoolofaTook]

[Disco King]

Originally Posted by Mals Marola

I remember when somebody posted this back on the Oboard, and then we had a thread where we created our owh "Russian editions" of various Pumpkins albums. I think I still have a couple of the ones I made, though there were some better ones made by the guy who actually had professional training in photoshop.

[Disco King]

Had a pleasant date last night.

Started at an art gallery. I always feel awkward and shy, so I was doing that classic Disco thing of being to scared to make physical contact or even a lot of eye contact, making kinda stilted conversation, etc etc. Even though I always tell myself "I'll do better with the next one," I always revert to this state. It was during this short film in the exhibit that I was telling myself that the date was going like every other date I go on, and if I didn't escalate some kind of intimacy by the end of it, it would turn out like all those other dates: girl losing interest because she feels "no chemistry."

Thankfully, I was able to turn things around when we went to a brewery afterwards. We got into some pretty deep conversation, we have a lot in common, and I found myself really liking her, and instead of that thing happening where the more I like somebody, the less likely I am to initiate physical intimacy because I'm even more scared of rejection, I was able to get myself more comfortable and natural, which led to your standard hand-holding, hand-on-knee, kissing, etc. stuff that happens on dates (excepts rarely happens for me because I'm awkard and shy).

Even though I'm sure everyone will say "it doesn't matter anyway, don't feel pressured to make moves if you're shy, she won't stop liking you," etc etc, my personal experience has not borne this out, and has shown me that, though nobody can control attraction, certain actions you take or do not take increase or decrease the likelihood of sustaining and increasing attraction. And in most cases, if you just treat a date like a friend and don't escalate things and never end up kissing them, they will lose attraction and not feel that spark. Maybe not by the end of the first date, but if you get further dates, it will be very rare that she won't lose interest if nothing happens by the end of the second.

We hopped to a couple of other bars after this one. It was actually her that suggested hopping to other bars, which is a good sign, because it shows that she was interested enough to want to extend the date of her own accord (which ended up being around eight hours). She called me cute and thanked me for being so attracted to her despite the fact that she wasn't wearing makeup and was in "frumpy clothes." I actually thought her outfit was really on-point, and joked that it's actually a good thing that I already know what she looks like without makeup, because it means that I know there will be no surprises later on (this made her laugh pretty hard).

[myosis]

well the realization will come eventually that chemistry leads to intimacy, not the other way around.

[myosis]

the important thing is you had a pleasant date and things look good, good luck with this and have fun!

[Shallowed]

tldr did you find true love yet or not?

[Elphenor]

Originally Posted by myosis

well the realization will come eventually that chemistry leads to intimacy, not the other way around.

very true

[Shallowed]

ok so uh

there was that night that I had two horus of sleep

then the next night I got four hours of sleep

i didn't get any sleep the next night

and i'm still awke from since then

and I can't go to sleep

it's 4:40pm

no I haven't been smoking meth

[Run To Me]

Originally Posted by Shallowed

two horus of sleep

[Elphenor]

I'm so depressed like all the time

goddamn it's exhausting

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Shallowed

ok so uh

there was that night that I had two horus of sleep

then the next night I got four hours of sleep

i didn't get any sleep the next night

and i'm still awke from since then

and I can't go to sleep

it's 4:40pm

no I haven't been smoking meth

this is you brain on mania?

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by reprise85

this is you brain on mania?

Probably. I did get in a couple of manic, wall of text arguments when someone made a minor complaint and I flew off the handle about not being able to do anything right.

My Instagram stories are a fairly good timeline of the descent into madness as well.

I finally got to sleep at about 3am this morning, sleeping for about 12 hours. I feel much better and I'm kind of glad to not have any weed left. I don't feel like I need it right now.

[reprise85]