New Year 2017 thread

[reprise85]

I am assuming that's a really good movie because while I barely remember it, I remember the act of renting it and where I watched it and who I was with. I do remember the plot and near the end where they're having sex like in a lounge chair or something.

[Disco King]

This was the first New Years' I've actually gone out for. Went to that acquaintance's party after all.

I was really awkward at the beginning of the night, because when I got there, the only people I knew were the person throwing the party and kinda her sister. I greeted everyone, but spent most of the time looking at my phone and watching them play Sociables, adding a casual comment here and there so that I wouldn't be weird and quiet for too long.

Then the people I knew from high school came, and even though I kinda resented them in high school, I was like, meh, I'm not gonna let shit from five years ago sour my interactions with them now, so it didn't go badly, although there was that really weird isolating feeling of how everyone from high school seems to have kept contact with each other and had all these crazy stories to tell, and I've just been alone doing nothing but surfing the internet in that time.

Played some beer bong, and also officially met and socialized with this one guy who added me on Facebook a while ago (looks like he's probably going out with the girl who invited me). We always like each other's statuses because we have similar senses of humour, even though we had never actually talked in real life and only knew of the existences of each other through mutual acquaintances (one of his exes was my friend in high school, but she turned out to be really fucked up and things got weird so I stopped hanging out with her). Kinda a weird way for it to unfold, interacting with a guy online before even actually properly talking to him. Every time we'd pass each other in the hallways (he went to my uni, too), there would be that spark of recognition, but we never said hi to each other until that party. He's pretty chill. I think I'll try to be his bud.

Everyone was drinking and smoking and seemed chill, so I brought out the acid. Except nobody else felt like doing it (understandable; a lot of them had to drive, and the person throwing the party had never done it before and didn't want to). By the time I realized that I couldn't interest anybody else in it, I had already put the blotter in, so I was like, "fuck it, I guess I'm going this one alone."

So, I spent the first half of the night being awkward and shy as fuck, and the second half tripping balls and being "that guy" at every party who is really fucked up and spouting shit that makes no sense and can barely walk anymore. Even though this was more powerful than the last times I've done blotters, there were enough similarities that now I'm sure what I did in the past was acid, but maybe just really weak or degraded. I still didn't get full on hallucinations (so this was probably a bit degraded, too; I've had it for a while), but everything was sparkly and magical and vibrant and warping. Sometimes I'd feel really out of it, but then something would pull me back to reality. Like, when I was leaving, I felt like I was drifting off somewhere, but then I was grounded again by the host hugging me. It was probably the best hug I've always felt (part of that may be that I'm kinda attracted to the host, even though I'd never pursue that because I know her well enough to know that she probably would never like me in that way).

While I was tripping, I couldn't help but text that girl I've gone out with. Probably a bad idea and could had been a disaster, but I managed to not type anything weird and only ask her how her night was going (though it took me forever to actually send the text because operating a phone while that high is difficult). Though it's probably still a little weird to check in with somebody you've only went on one date with during their New Years' partying, I was like, hey, she texted me on Christmas, so she'll probably welcome the text.

So, overall, it was a good New Years'.

Originally Posted by scottytheoneand

This new year already sucks!

I thought it'd be better than 2016, but I woke up and Trump is still president-elect. Also, 2016 obviously wasn't through with killing people, because this year started off with Derek Parfit passing away.

Originally Posted by freshfacedyouth

also got a lot of time in with my jewish friend, who we rarely ever get to see anymore in part because of his girlfriend (my ex-girlfriend.) she wasn't there so she was texting him the whole night about how she wished he hadn't gone because there were girls there or something, and she wanted him to leave by 7 AM or she would break up with him. i'd heard she was manipulative towards him (as she was towards me) and this confirmed it for me.

Lol, once when I was hanging out with a coworker, I met a friend of his. This friend kept on getting texted by his girlfriend things like "omg I'm at a party and I'm really drunk and something bad could happen to me, but you don't even care!" and also things like "leave me alone!" Weird manipulative partner shit. The guy pretty much stayed up all night texting her instead of just relaxing and having a good time. I don't get relationships like that.

Originally Posted by LaBelle

Officially started celebrating new years today. Spent the entire afternoon in a pool with a friend I didn't see for the most part of this year just shooting the shit and drinking some beer.

It was pretty rad.

That sounds like a pretty chill way to spend New Years'. I approve.

[FoolofaTook]

I wish I could try some acid. I'd like to do it with the 18 yr old who takes my bus in the mornings. she's in some.military medic reserve thing and wears unifors and shit and stares at me for some unknown reason. She has delicate earlobes that i wouldn't mind licking.

god i hope she's 18.

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Hey it's just one year. The New Year's day (like it's one year and that is a day of its)

[ohnoitsbonnie]

Aren't you Canadian, disco human?

[FoolofaTook]

He's not Serbian that's for sure.

What else matters?

[teh b0lly!!1]

Originally Posted by Disco King

This was the first New Years' I've actually gone out for. Went to that acquaintance's party after all.

I was really awkward at the beginning of the night, because when I got there, the only people I knew were the person throwing the party and kinda her sister. I greeted everyone, but spent most of the time looking at my phone and watching them play Sociables, adding a casual comment here and there so that I wouldn't be weird and quiet for too long.

Then the people I knew from high school came, and even though I kinda resented them in high school, I was like, meh, I'm not gonna let shit from five years ago sour my interactions with them now, so it didn't go badly, although there was that really weird isolating feeling of how everyone from high school seems to have kept contact with each other and had all these crazy stories to tell, and I've just been alone doing nothing but surfing the internet in that time.

Played some beer bong, and also officially met and socialized with this one guy who added me on Facebook a while ago (looks like he's probably going out with the girl who invited me). We always like each other's statuses because we have similar senses of humour, even though we had never actually talked in real life and only knew of the existences of each other through mutual acquaintances (one of his exes was my friend in high school, but she turned out to be really fucked up and things got weird so I stopped hanging out with her). Kinda a weird way for it to unfold, interacting with a guy online before even actually properly talking to him. Every time we'd pass each other in the hallways (he went to my uni, too), there would be that spark of recognition, but we never said hi to each other until that party. He's pretty chill. I think I'll try to be his bud.

Everyone was drinking and smoking and seemed chill, so I brought out the acid. Except nobody else felt like doing it (understandable; a lot of them had to drive, and the person throwing the party had never done it before and didn't want to). By the time I realized that I couldn't interest anybody else in it, I had already put the blotter in, so I was like, "fuck it, I guess I'm going this one alone."

So, I spent the first half of the night being awkward and shy as fuck, and the second half tripping balls and being "that guy" at every party who is really fucked up and spouting shit that makes no sense and can barely walk anymore. Even though this was more powerful than the last times I've done blotters, there were enough similarities that now I'm sure what I did in the past was acid, but maybe just really weak or degraded. I still didn't get full on hallucinations (so this was probably a bit degraded, too; I've had it for a while), but everything was sparkly and magical and vibrant and warping. Sometimes I'd feel really out of it, but then something would pull me back to reality. Like, when I was leaving, I felt like I was drifting off somewhere, but then I was grounded again by the host hugging me. It was probably the best hug I've always felt (part of that may be that I'm kinda attracted to the host, even though I'd never pursue that because I know her well enough to know that she probably would never like me in that way).

While I was tripping, I couldn't help but text that girl I've gone out with. Probably a bad idea and could had been a disaster, but I managed to not type anything weird and only ask her how her night was going (though it took me forever to actually send the text because operating a phone while that high is difficult). Though it's probably still a little weird to check in with somebody you've only went on one date with during their New Years' partying, I was like, hey, she texted me on Christmas, so she'll probably welcome the text.

So, overall, it was a good New Years'.

disco, dude. i'm proud of you. for real. i don't mean that in a parental or condescending way - just that, having been reading your posts for a while, and knowing how difficult social situations are for you, it sounds like you are taking some big steps forward, and not letting it own you as much as before.

like, for me, the situation you described sounded paralyzing tbh. i almost prefer a much larger scale party than a small, intimate house party where i don't really know the participants, and everybody's already got their interpersonal relationships. or people i resent for being shitty to me from a long time ago. gah. in those situations i never know how to break through the ice, i just sit aside somewhere in the corner and pretend to be looking at something really important on my phone. a bigger party allows you to disappear inside it more swiftly and tuck away those small gestures that feel like they become incredibly inflated once you're in a small, well lit room with lots of other people. where should i put my hands, where should i point my gaze.

not to mention, popping an acid without really needing anybody else to go through it with you. i probably wouldn't have the courage to do that. anyway just out to say i'm honestly happy for you. even though it may not feel that way to you, i think you're powering your way out of your comfort zone a lot recently, and that's admirable.

[Disco King]

Originally Posted by FoolofaTook

I wish I could try some acid. I'd like to do it with the 18 yr old who takes my bus in the mornings. she's in some.military medic reserve thing and wears unifors and shit and stares at me for some unknown reason. She has delicate earlobes that i wouldn't mind licking.

god i hope she's 18.

If she's military, I would think that she probably gets drug-tested often.

One person at the party was a parole officer and couldn't smoke because she gets tested. In fact, she can't even smoke tobacco. But she can drink for some reason.

Originally Posted by ohnoitsbonnie

Hey it's just one year. The New Year's day (like it's one year and that is a day of its)

Fuck, I dunno why I kept typing "New Years'."

Funnily enough, part of the reason it took me forever to text the girl was that I was trying to make it sound as not-high as possible and kept on going back-and-forth on whether you're supposed to say "Happy New Year's" or "Happy New Year."

Like, the day is "New Year's Day," but the reason we have that day in the first place is that we're celebrating the year. So, am I telling her to have a happy day in celebration of the year, or are we celebrating the coming of the entire year and hoping that it's a good one? I think I went with the apostrophe, but if I were typing it now, I wouldn't.

Originally Posted by ohnoitsbonnie

Aren't you Canadian, disco human?

Yup.

[Elphenor]

So proud of Disco for using drugs to solve his problems or something

I might have done mdma and gone downtown and it wouldn't have mattered what I did I would have had a ball but having exams three days after and knowing the effects it has on me last up to a week I did not

[FoolofaTook]

I was joking about the 18 yr old. I studiously ignore her. Vade retro sathanas.

[Disco King]

Originally Posted by teh b0lly!!1

disco, dude. i'm proud of you. for real. i don't mean that in a parental or condescending way - just that, having been reading your posts for a while, and knowing how difficult social situations are for you, it sounds like you are taking some big steps forward, and not letting it own you as much as before.

like, for me, the situation you described sounded paralyzing tbh. i almost prefer a much larger scale party than a small, intimate house party where i don't really know the participants, and everybody's already got their interpersonal relationships. or people i resent for being shitty to me from a long time ago. gah. in those situations i never know how to break through the ice, i just sit aside somewhere in the corner and pretend to be looking at something really important on my phone. a bigger party allows you to disappear inside it more swiftly and tuck away those small gestures that feel like they become incredibly inflated once you're in a small, well lit room with lots of other people. where should i put my hands, where should i point my gaze.

not to mention, popping an acid without really needing anybody else to go through it with you. i probably wouldn't have the courage to do that. anyway just out to say i'm honestly happy for you. even though it may not feel that way to you, i think you're powering your way out of your comfort zone a lot recently, and that's admirable.

Thanks! Yeah, I rarely get invited to parties, but the few I've gone to, I was always the weird guy sitting alone and not even being comfortable enough to drink or anything because I didn't want to become less inhibited (I still don't drink much, but at least I allow myself to get high these days). In fact, I used to actually bring books with me when I went to parties so that I would have something to read while not talking to people (this was before I had a smartphone).

It was still a bit alienating being there, though. That group of high-school friends, I hung out with them in high school, but I eventually withdrew from them, because I always felt like a hanger-on who didn't really belong. They would just kinda talk about their inside jokes and leave me out of the conversation, and when they hung out outside of school, they would forget to invite me. I'd go the entire summers without hearing from them. Eventually, I decided that it's more dignified to just be a loner and be by myself than to hover around people who obviously don't give a shit about me, so I kind of cut myself off from them and spent a lot of high school alone and resented them.

Seeing them again, it sounds like they have lots of crazy fun stories and incidents, and it kind of just reminded me about how boring and uneventful my own life is, and how uninteresting I am. But at the same time, it seems like there is a lot of drama in their group, and every time I hear about them, their members are in some different permutation of relationships, with this person breaking up with that person and then being with this other person, this person cheating on that person, etc. Like, I dunno if they even date outside their group. It seems kinda weird and I'm glad that I'm not tangled in that bullshit, and I don't think that I'll make an attempt to reconnect with most of these people. But running into them every once in a while like the other night would be okay.

I would bet that being the weird guy on LSD and spouting nonsense made me more annoying than funny, so I kinda feel weird about it, but I dunno. I guess I don't really care if I was weird in front of those high-school people that I don't care much about, but hopefully I didn't put off the host or that new guy I met who was cool. After getting home, I messaged the host some dumb shit that I wish that I didn't.

[teh b0lly!!1]

Originally Posted by Elphenor

So proud of Disco for using drugs to solve his problems or something

must you always be this dense

[Disco King]

Originally Posted by Elphenor

So proud of Disco for using drugs to solve his problems or something

Haha, yeah, this is probably the beginning of a pattern of me not being able to get comfortable in social situations without getting fucked up, and gradually getting fewer and fewer invitations.

One of the reasons I don't get drunk is that one time I did, I think I was being really dumb and trying to be funny and annoying everyone, and that one friend who invited me never invited me to anything again. Me on weed is more tolerable than me on alcohol, so I don't mind doing that with people. LSD me was probably closer to drunk me than weed me.

[Elphenor]

well it's honestly not any different than people drinking a whole bunch so they can overcome their anxieties

or the bigger crutch bringing a date

[teh b0lly!!1]

i see your point, but a) i don't see any harm in using 'social lubrication' as long as you're not absolutely dependent on it

and b) my entire point to disco was that i'm happy to hear that he didn't really give a shit what people thought about him, and just decided to be himself and do what he wanted without looking for approval. knowing him, i think that's a major step and that's what i meant to encourage, or at least compliment.

[Elphenor]

Originally Posted by Disco King

One of the reasons I don't get drunk is that one time I did, I think I was being really dumb and trying to be funny and annoying everyone, and that one friend who invited me never invited me to anything again. Me on weed is more tolerable than me on alcohol, so I don't mind doing that with people. LSD me was probably closer to drunk me than weed me.

Yeah I did some of this when I was 18 and made an ass of myself and tried to play it off like it's all cool I was just drunk

[redbreegull]

drugs have brought me many friends

[Elphenor]

Also the people in that party never moving past their high school friends is funny like the takeaway should at some point be that everyone is as anxious as you probably

Disco posts make me reflect on myself

[Disco King]

Originally Posted by Elphenor

Also the people in that party never moving past their high school friends is funny like the takeaway should at some point be that everyone is as anxious as you probably

Disco posts make me reflect on myself

I dunno, they've probably made more friends since high school, but have kept each other, as well. Meanwhile, I lost all my high-school "friends" (if I could even call them that in the first place), and haven't really made any university friends. I guess I made some work ones, though, and those guys are cool, but it's a small group.

Also, interacting with people sometimes just reminds me of my loneliness because it reminds me that everybody is having more fun and is doing cooler things and knows more people and has had more experiences and travels and sex than me. Sometimes it's only when I'm around other people that I remember how weird I am, and I don't have to reflect on it when I'm just in my little bubble reading comic books or something.

[Elphenor]

I could be wrong but I feel like a lot of your displeasure comes from feeling social pressures to do things that you didn't really want to do anyway and constant comparison to people you probably don't even like

[Elphenor]

Originally Posted by Disco King

everybody is having more fun and is doing cooler things

like this is pretty subjective based on what you like to do you know what I mean

[LaBelle]

Originally Posted by Disco King

That sounds like a pretty chill way to spend New Years'. I approve.

Yeah that was the day before the actual new years. It was real pleasant tho.

The actual new years party ended up being also a party at someone's apartment, we played Fiasco and then drunk karaoke'd into the night. The final minutes of 2016 were pretty funny, especially because there'd be stray fireworks being let off in anticipation and some people were so out of it by that point they kept thinking it was already midnight with each one of those.
Then when midnight finally came we yelled some nonsense as if insulting the previous year will make the next one better? Idk, it was pretty funny at the time.

[Disco King]

Originally Posted by Elphenor

I could be wrong but I feel like a lot of your displeasure comes from feeling social pressures to do things that you didn't really want to do anyway and constant comparison to people you probably don't even like

Yeah, I probably do engage in upward too much instead of just living my life. Even with people that I probably don't hold in the highest esteem.

Originally Posted by Elphenor

like this is pretty subjective based on what you like to do you know what I mean

That's true. But I guess it just feels like so many other people are doing what they want to do and working on interesting stuff. Like, one guy I knew is in a band (something I've always wanted to do but haven't), others travel to cool places, one guy directs short films, etc. Even something as simple as, like, going camping or hiking or something that most people seem to engage in from time to time, I never do. I don't even drive. I just feel like I'm boring and unaccomplished.

Originally Posted by LaBelle

Yeah that was the day before the actual new years. It was real pleasant tho.

The actual new years party ended up being also a party at someone's apartment, we played Fiasco and then drunk karaoke'd into the night. The final minutes of 2016 were pretty funny, especially because there'd be stray fireworks being let off in anticipation and some people were so out of it by that point they kept thinking it was already midnight with each one of those.
Then when midnight finally came we yelled some nonsense as if insulting the previous year will make the next one better? Idk, it was pretty funny at the time.

Sounds like you had a good time. I remember when the TV was on and the New Year's thing Ryan Seacrest was hosting was showing, I was all like, "fuck, are all those people coming to 2017, too? How are they all going to fit?"

[LaBelle]

Originally Posted by Disco King

I remember when the TV was on and the New Year's thing Ryan Seacrest was hosting was showing, I was all like, "fuck, are all those people coming to 2017, too? How are they all going to fit?"

[freshfacedyouth]

Originally Posted by Disco King

Lol, once when I was hanging out with a coworker, I met a friend of his. This friend kept on getting texted by his girlfriend things like "omg I'm at a party and I'm really drunk and something bad could happen to me, but you don't even care!" and also things like "leave me alone!" Weird manipulative partner shit. The guy pretty much stayed up all night texting her instead of just relaxing and having a good time. I don't get relationships like that.

that sounds particularly awful. i didn't get to hear exactly what my friend's girlfriend was saying to him. it was probably more serious, passive aggressive remarks than overly dramatic "poor me!" remarks, but it's unhealthy in both cases for everyone involved

my one friend said to him, "damn, that sucks" and like, he was right, but i could tell he was looking at it from the wrong perspective. he probably figured it was normal relationships woes. i wanted to tell our friend he should get out of that situation but i knew he's definitely more attached to her than he is to me, and i could kind of empathize because i was in the same rough spot with the same girl less than two years ago. when i was with her you couldn't have told me to give it up.

in the end i just joked with him about it a little, like "7 AM? that's in an hour and almost everyone's asleep. the rest of us need you here!"

good on you for being yourself at the party btw. i genuinely enjoy reading about your progress in social situations, especially as a person who went from being reserved to confident. i still have a long ways to go though. i'm the quietest person at my work place yet the rowdiest of my friends

[LaBelle]

Gotta love the old "hey let's go to different parties for whatever reason and then i'll spend the night terrorizing you over the phone" routine.

Even worse are partners who are all like "hey it's fiiiine, you should go out and have fun by yourself, I really don't mind" but don't actually mean it and will lose their shit when they realize you didn't back out on it.
You either trust your partner or you don't, no reason to keep playing these dumb games.

[redbreegull]

Originally Posted by Disco King

Yeah, I probably do engage in upward too much instead of just living my life. Even with people that I probably don't hold in the highest esteem.

That's true. But I guess it just feels like so many other people are doing what they want to do and working on interesting stuff. Like, one guy I knew is in a band (something I've always wanted to do but haven't), others travel to cool places, one guy directs short films, etc. Even something as simple as, like, going camping or hiking or something that most people seem to engage in from time to time, I never do. I don't even drive. I just feel like I'm boring and unaccomplished.

Elph might be right that you suffer from trying too hard to meet social expectations, I don't know. But keep mind it's also good to push yourself outside your comfort zone and try new things. Personally, I think the experience of trying new things, even if they don't stick, is one of the things that even makes waking up worth it. You have to switch up the routine. Hang out with different kinds of people. let them introduce you to things you wouldn't have otherwise done.

Like anything else it's a matter of balance I suppose, and wanting to try new stuff for the right reasons as opposed to because you think it will make you cool or part of the right crowd or whatever. You just also don't want to be the guy whose ideas about himself cement at 21 and never evolve.

[redbreegull]

sorry if you are older than 21 that I forgot tbh

[FlamingGlobes]

Originally Posted by reprise85

I am assuming that's a really good movie because while I barely remember it, I remember the act of renting it and where I watched it and who I was with. I do remember the plot and near the end where they're having sex like in a lounge chair or something.

Funny you say that, because while watching it, I had thought it was the first time I had seen it. But afterwards, I went on IMDB to give it a rating, only to find that I had apparently already watched and rated it (same rating, so yay for consistency?). I had no memory of ever watching it, ever.

[D.]

Originally Posted by FoolofaTook

This will be followed by parents shielding the eyes of their infants from the sight of you.

this already happens. young tots can't take the sight of me in all my glory