I practically woke up one morning this week not depressed or suicidal any more

[ilikeplanets]

I like external stimulus for pleasure, I have no self esteem

[duovamp]

When I got out of my bed of 100 dollar bills this morning, first thing I did was thank White Jesus I had a cock, then I beat my wife and had some breakfast prepared by my (minority) personal chef. Typical boring day for a whitey white boy.

I tried to dance my way out the door but instead I just got richer and let off the hook for a violent sex crime I committed.

[anonadieu]

As a neutral party in all this, I'd just like to add my verdict that this yo soy el mejor character is oblivious and dreadful.

[ilikeplanets]

Originally Posted by duovamp

I tried to dance my way out the door but instead I just got richer

This is a thing I think I am going to say now

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Shallowed

This is without antidepressants or drugs. I'd been prescribed them months ago, but I could never bring myself to take them.

I really hope the same thing happens to each and every depressed Netphorian out there, whether you're regular poster or a lurker. I love you all even if you dislike or hate me.

P.S.

ok i know this thread is going to get stupid so before i read it:

congrats on feeling better. i think those of us who have been down that road for an extended period of time can really take "normality" with grace and not take it for granted. and it feels great

it is possible your depression could come back, and it seems like you are making some plans for how to handle it if that happens and i think that's great. it doesnt have to come back but it wouldn't be rare if it does

however it is possible it will never come back, since you feel better without meds and it seems to have been months long (right?) and not years.

definitely enjoy feeling better, i know i do. i have some ups and downs but i do need medication and since i've found the right combo and got some results from my years of therapy, i feel sooo much better and i'll never take for granted feeling good

P.S.

[reprise85]

one more thing. 21 is a ripe age for mental illness to start. i know when i started feeling better i almost felt like i was experiencing mania. now i know i wasn't, but that does happen to some people. have you considered seeing your doctor (even just your GP) and reporting your feeling better and have him do a little quick evaluation? it can't hurt

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by yo soy el mejor

probably have more reasons than anyone of you to still be depressed

of course depression has to due with life events, but people with severe biological depression don't need a reason to be depressed, their brain doesn't work like other people's brains in regard sto neurotransmitter transmission. it has very little to do with what is going on in your life

[reprise85]

like my ridiculous life events surely worsen my depression but even when my depression is better i have ptsd symptoms, they aren't the same thing

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by reprise85

of course depression has to due with life events, but people with severe biological depression don't need a reason to be depressed, their brain doesn't work like other people's brains in regard sto neurotransmitter transmission. it has very little to do with what is going on in your life

yo soy's rep to me: duh. cause everything seems worse than it is when you're depressed.

i dont understand how this has to do with this post...? things don't seem "worse" when you struggle to take showers, you just have no energy or motivation to do so

you do sound pretty clueless, sorry to say. if someone has a reason to be depressed, it's grief. if they're depressed biologically, life events don't mean shit (except perhaps as a trigger to it in the first place, along with biology, but current events don't mean shit), they're depressed because their neurotransmitters are out of whack.

[reprise85]

i mean yeah i learned ways to cope with depression and when i feel myself getting worse i know how to get help but all of that wouldn't do shit if i didn't have medication because my brain is fucked up. that's not a weakness, that is how it is

[Trotskilicious]

other than one minor issue those were some good posts reprise

i've had times in my life where everything's goin super and i hate myself and i want to die, and then i fuck it all up.

[yo soy el mejor]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

other than one minor issue those were some good posts reprise

you have trot's approval. woowoo.

[Trotskilicious]

SHUT THE FUCK UP YOU LITTLE CRETIN

[duovamp]

SEX CAULDRON?!

[noyen]

speechless. merry christmas. happy new year.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

other than one minor issue those were some good posts reprise

i've had times in my life where everything's goin super and i hate myself and i want to die, and then i fuck it all up.

i went from 45 remeron, to 30, to 15 - no problem. six weeks in between each reduction. went to 0, a week later i'm depressed as fuck. wait 6 weeks, still feel like shit, go to doctor, go back to 15, start feeling better. go down to 7.5 after a week of feeling better on doctor's advice (because remeron makes me eat, otherwise i wouldn't give a shit). start getting depressed again. go back to 15. a week later, i feel better.

all during the same time period, with the same stressers (holidays, first job off disability in 4+ years, fucked up family).

all through this my PTSD symptoms are worse than normal. they always are this time of year. no matter the medication changes, that stays the same.

tell me it's not medication.

[reprise85]

and yes it is sad as fuck and if there's some kind of global disaster i am FUCKED but you know what i'm glad that at least something helps or i'd be dead like 50 times over

[reprise85]

if someone has diabeties you dont tell them to stop taking insulin. dont put me down because i need mental insulin. it is that necessary.

[reprise85]

but anyway i dont want to argue, WTG pasta of muppet i am glad for you

[hnibos]

Originally Posted by yo soy el mejor

this is what i said, ya ding-dong. no need to mock me.

just because you and brendan are more vocal about your depression doesn't mean people who aren't vocal about it have no room to say anything. what exactly did i say that was so wrong?

nothing. because that is my experience and obviously some other people have the experience of just moping, putting others down, and not being pro-active. i started keeping in mind the things that made me feel better a few years ago, like you said. i started to be able to tell when i would start to feel unusually down for no reason and i would liken it to a cold in the sense i had to get out of the house and do something before it got worse. i would run or volunteer or write or even just open the blinds. when i moved here i was working as an office manager in downtown but i realized if i was going to make a change by moving here i may as well go even further and make anther change for the better so i went to depaul and am now certified in grant writing and am working with a non-profit and hope to continue because it's what makes me happy. and my drinking no longer negatively affects my life (and hasn't for the past year. one whole year today) but depression is a life-long battle.. i'm just better equipped for it now.

First off, saying that I'm more vocal about my depression is like saying you're vocal about your alcoholism. I don't talk about my depression anymore through any medium really, and haven't for awhile, mostly because it's not as crippling as it used to be, also, it's really cringeworthy when I did, I know. Secondly, your posts were just the typical antagonizing trots. I don't think you truly believe he came in here just to try to make the OP feel worse. Maybe he could have used more tact, but, whatever. That's why I mocked you. At this point, I'm pretty sure Trots can say literally ANYTHING and you'll have something negative to say about it. It's pretty annoying.

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by yo soy el mejor

you have trot's approval. woowoo.

well i'm obviously not bitter about being depressed and dont want to bring people down to my level so what's your excuse about why i need to point out that his depression likely will come back in some form?

[duovamp]

Originally Posted by reprise85

if someone has diabeties you dont tell them to stop taking insulin. dont put me down because i need mental insulin. it is that necessary.

Definitely using that the next time my girlfriend mentions me having a beer accompany me in the bathroom.

[Nimrod's Son]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

"A tendency to melancholy.... let it be observed, is a misfortune, not a fault." ~ Abraham Lincoln

said the guy who married a crazy woman

[Order 66]

mmmm bathroom beer

[Nimrod's Son]

btw i think shallowed is proving that you don't need medications to get over your depression, just make some efforts to improve yourself

which is what i've been saying all along

[hnibos]

Originally Posted by Nimrod's Son

btw i think shallowed is proving that you don't need medications to get over your depression, just make some efforts to improve yourself

which is what i've been saying all along

ermahgerd biological reasons, troll r u?

[Trotskilicious]

Originally Posted by hnibos

I don't think you truly believe he came in here just to try to make the OP feel worse.

yes she does

[Nimrod's Son]

Originally Posted by bardy

Why cant everyone just get along?

seriously a thread about how someone is doing much better in life has turned into this?

[Trotskilicious]

lol this guy over here

[reprise85]

Originally Posted by Nimrod's Son

btw i think shallowed is proving that you don't need medications to get over your depression, just make some efforts to improve yourself

which is what i've been saying all along

he apparently didn't take medication or take measured efforts to improve himself (as what "overnight" implies)

so what then

also you can't feel empathy of course you can't fathom that not all people are the same