I practically woke up one morning this week not depressed or suicidal any more

[Shallowed]

This is without antidepressants or drugs. I'd been prescribed them months ago, but I could never bring myself to take them.

I really hope the same thing happens to each and every depressed Netphorian out there, whether you're regular poster or a lurker. I love you all even if you dislike or hate me.

P.S.

[hnibos]

What's changed in your life?

[Mo]

[Trotskilicious]

okay guy, when it comes back send me a pm and i'll help you out

[ohnoitsbonnie]

It'll come back it always does

[vixnix]

Welcome to summer, Shallowed let's enjoy the reprieve

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by hnibos

What's changed in your life?

I'm motivated to do things instead of shying away because it's too hard. I'm eating more. I'm working out more. My entire day today was productive. My self-esteem and confidence has boosted. I've stopped biting my fingernails, one on them which I haven't chewed off for three weeks.

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

okay guy, when it comes back send me a pm and i'll help you out

My parents, my nana and her husband all now know that I was suicidal, so I'm owning that fact. There's a couple of other people that I pushed away when they tried to help me that I'm going to tell too. If I ever get down again, I won't be afraid to admit it to them.

[Trotskilicious]

i don't feel depressed or suicidal lately...i'm not going to pretend that isn't going to change

how old are you, duder

[duovamp]

When I woke up from that sleep, I was happier than I've ever been.

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by vixnix

Welcome to summer, Shallowed let's enjoy the reprieve

I do love the summer

[Trotskilicious]

oh right it's on your profile

oh man you are in for a hell of a ride bro

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

i don't feel depressed or suicidal lately...i'm not going to pretend that isn't going to change

how old are you, duder

21, 22 in a month.

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

oh right it's on your profile

oh man you are in for a hell of a ride bro

Not if I take babby steps

[Trotskilicious]

well you shouldn't stop taking your meds or start thinking you've already conquered it

i mean i'm glad you're feeling better but please be realistic

[yo soy el mejor]

don't listen to brendan or bonnie- misery looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooves company. there are some well-balanced 21 year olds out there and there isn't a reason you can't be one of them.

[Shallowed]

Did you read the OP properly? I said that I haven't taken any medication for it.

[Trotskilicious]

yeah this one probably knows what she's talking about

[Trotskilicious]

Originally Posted by Shallowed

Did you read the OP properly? I said that I haven't taken any medication for it.

okay

[yo soy el mejor]

i do know why a depressed 30 y.o sack o shit such as yourself has no room to tell someone who is ostensibly happy why they shouldn't be happy.

[Trotskilicious]

yes you're really smart and whatever you got it figured out, i'm just a big dumb guy that doesn't know anything yadda yadda

[yo soy el mejor]

that's the spirit.

[Shallowed]

Also I am realistic. I still have nihilistic beliefs. I just don't care about them enough to want to kill myself for it any more.

[Trotskilicious]

you mean right now

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by yo soy el mejor

i do know why a depressed 30 y.o sack o shit such as yourself has no room to tell someone who is ostensibly happy why they shouldn't be happy.

Please don't start

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

you mean right now

Again, I won't be afraid to ask for help. I'd already told my mum about my nihilistic thoughts.

[Trotskilicious]

this thread is gonna get stupid i'll let the psychonauts give you a run down, let me just say i've been dealing with this for 10 years longer than you have and i took meds off and on beause of it and i had periods of levity without meds and periods of depression etc

it's not something that just changes overnight, and this thread title seems to suggest you think that

also a good rule of thumb is that yo soy doesn't have any idea what the fuck she is talking about, ever.

[yo soy el mejor]

see, he just wants you to admit it's some temporary thing because his life sucks and by golly, yours should too!
what a loser.

[Trotskilicious]

so mature, i bet she has wisdom to share

[yo soy el mejor]

shallowed already conceded to the fact nothing changes overnight. waking up (literally and figuratively) to see you have the ability to change your thinking and actions is just the first step and you may always be a depressive person, but not letting depression rule your life is key. otherwise you'll just become bitter and complain too much a la brendan sweeney.

[Shallowed]

Originally Posted by Trotskilicious

i've been dealing with this for 10 years longer than you have and i took meds off and on beause of it and i had periods of levity without meds and periods of depression etc

it's not something that just changes overnight, and this thread title seems to suggest you think that.[/quote]

I'm willing to bet that there are people who have been dealing with it for ten years longer than you that had it change for them overnight.

I know it comes across like that, but that's just the thread title. I've made a big list of things that I've been putting off or want to achieve and I've been doing about four or five of them a day. I think that is evidence enough that I'm not fighting depression with half of my ass.