A Second Adolescence

[radiohead33]

Feels like I am going through one.

I am 24 , I graduated college, and just felt like I had a breakdown and a quarter life crisis. I am trying to find myself.

But all the old teen feelings of angst, insecurity, doubt, not knowing who I am, trying to belong and fit in, trying to be part of a community or group and feeling alienated are primary in my feelings right now.

But I also feel like I am coming out of my shell. I was and always have been a good kid, I am still at 24 a straight edger. And am not about to go and drink and do drugs, but I almost feel like I needed to spice up my life.

I cut my long hair, I got a job, I was always shy, and now volunteer at a local music venue several times a week, and my job at a grocery stores requires me to be social as well. I feel this second lease on life. I feel as full of life as I ever, but still feel the same way i did in terms of the feelings outlined in the above paragraph. I was always a picky eater but have branched out and am frequently trying foods, something I wouldnt ever have done before. I am reading and watching shows that i wouldnt have in the past. I feel like I am putting myself out there more. Its all new.

I feel part of a movement and scene (indie rock) and identify with many bands for the first time since grunge, and I feel alive and awake. But as lost and confused as ever.

How is this possible? Am I really have a second adolescence? How does one like me go about it, as I want to remain a straightedger, and feel like my first adolescence wasnt all that exciting?

[Hate the Hater]

I hesitate to post this but the reponse from surfbum was out of line and unwarranted. I didnt attack him or anyone else on the board. So please back off surfbum. You know nothing about me, save my 1 post. And thats not even a life story! Dont pretend to know anything about me! Just because I am straight edge doesnt mean I go and tattle on people who use drugs and am a narc or something. Although to infer that I would be a narc or a person who believes all people who use are evil, you yourself would have to be high on lsd or something. Read my post. Where do I say anything like that.

I love to get responses on threads. But what pisses me off to no end is people who post crap threads in response to someones obviously important to them thread. Either post something constructive or dont post at all.

I could go into more detail, but based on how you treat me, and how you presume to know me, when you dont, surfbum, you’d be lucky if all YOU were, was a troll. I think I could think of worse things to infer. I will leave it at that. not saying, just saying, surfbum!

[Eulogy]

wtf

[PeppermintHippo]

I went through a quarter life crisis myself following my college graduation and then fell into a deep dark hole of depression.

[hnibos]

awww yea, i probably wont have a second adolescence phase, just one very long one

[Thaniel Buckner]

you were like 7 when grunge ended.

[Travis Meeks]

I just want to wear flannel again. Do you get to wear that during a second adolescence?

[PeppermintHippo]

I wore flannel my whole 7th grade year.