[bardy]

so that guy. I talk to him on the phone and in the back of my mind I'm screaming at myself "uuuuuuuuuuuugh I dont like this guy AT ALL" and I can't tell if it's because he is too nice to me (I'm used to assholes) or I really dislike his personality.

but I don't want to drag this out because I dont want to hurt anyones feelings... but I am honestly not sure what my reason for being hesitant is. If it's the former then I think I need to force myself to stick around a little bit becuase I'll probably get used to being treated well

but ugh I don't know I'm sure he can tell I'm very uncomfortable around him sometimes. I am fucking insane. he's smart, has a good job, everyone likes him, outgoing, nice, attractive, likes me... what's wrong with me. I don't want to end up chasing assholes my entire life and die alone.