play with fire and live in your car, have babies or watch the secret life of walter mitty.
sorry to hear about your loss... i also had a friend just die. she had attempted two suicides in the past year. days before she was to head off on a huge tour after coachella she died from a very aggressive cancer. i was basically packing my bags to drive and see her when i was told over twitter she had died. it sucks. this was someone i looked at and always thought "how could you be depressed?" but she was. very much so. and had every reason in the world to be. the only thing i am happy for is that she did not take her own life as she wanted and instead was on the brink of bouncing back from it and actually got there. then the cancer took her without even asking.