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Old 05-25-2017, 12:47 AM   #1526
teh b0lly!!1
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Yeah any planned interaction I have or appointment on anything I have extreme anciety. Public speaking too. Interaction with most people. I worry I will let him down. I worry I wont be honest or not bring up problems. I worry I'm going to explode. I worry I suck at everything. Worried I'll have a gout flare up and won'tbe able to walk. Worried he'll think I'm something I'm not or increase or decrease rease drugs wrong. Or that I'm on wrong meds.
i relate to this.
when i went to my (abusive) therapist for a short while i would feel like i'm being put to a test every week. i'd be very self conscious about walking in and have to start going on and on about myself and would just not know what to do. i'd just sit there and not say anything or ask my therapist how he was doing and feel stupid about anything i'd say.

i'd rush mental processes and tell him about them to impress him or fill up the session with content.

a lot of saddo stuff. i'm not a very successful human. it wasn't a good experience.

 
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