i can't take it anymore
 

last night he comes online and starts bitching me out because i replied to some thread about webcam girls. i REPLIED. he told me i'm a pervert and he doesn't want to talk to me.

and then today he comes on and it's fine i'm tired and upset about my sig and still sort of scared of him from last night and he's all bla bla bla and then he just goes 'nevermind' and he starts accusing me of hating him and he's all 'why do i even try being nice to you, you never forgive me for anything' and he accuses me of not liking him and being mean to him WHAT is his problem/ i can't fucking take it anymore. i can't TAKE it. it's not my fucking place. and. it's just bullshit. he's just pulling it out of thin air. the thing that 'i won't let him be nice to me'. he espects me to be all "hello julio how are you today :)" like less than 12 hours after he's been a total jerk and mean mean person to me what the fuck is his problem? and then he accuses ME of not beign nice for just not really talking and i wasn't eman i didn't insult him i just sat there i didn't do shit i didn't do shit and then he accuses ME of not being nice to HIM. and heg ets mad at me for saying 'fine' and 'nevermind' even though he ALWAYS says nevermind. he'll start saying something nice and then he'll go 'nevermind' and i say 'fine' because i'm so fuckin gpissed at him for NEVER being nice to me adn then he getse mad at ME for saying fine because he wants me to like beg him to be nice to me or something.a dn just now i got back from getting my haircut and i im him sayin g'yeah' and he's all 'if you don't want to talk to me you don't ahve to'b ecause apparently iming him saying 'yeah' instead of 'hi' is some grave fucking offense and then i get annoyed with him and he goes 'fine. don't make up with me' and then i closed aim and now he's gone. he's probably cutting his fu cking neck with a razor because he's so fucking miserable because i make him feel like shit or somewthing. i can't take it.

Rhino, who won the pool?

you know what? if you don't fucking like me, how come youd on't fucking click on my posts. you KNOW what the content is gonna be. it's not some fucking surprise or anything. i SEE you people. i look at who's online all the fucking time. all you people that claim to HATE me and wish i'd shut up just go from post to post to post of mine reading them. if you dont' like it, don't fuckoing read it. i NEVER bother you. i fucking HATE you why woudl i spend time reading your fucking ass rants. why don't you just leave me the fuck alone. it's not that hard. actually. yeah. i just put lament on my ignore list and i'm goign to add you now.

*wonders*

shucks

pretty soon everyone will be on Suze's iggy list...except for Julio.

i think its more a question of like "whos your audience here?" who are you talking to? why are you posting this? things like that. your probably just posting this stuff for your own good, to vent or whatever, and thats up to you, but i think why people get mad at you is because your not really talking to anyone and it comes off as whining. everyone has the right to turn the other way, sure, but the change should start with you, i think.

i personally think that suze is the most elaborate troll ever to grace netphoria. maybe i'm the only one, but that's my take on it. i don't think anyone can *really* be like that in person.

yeah well i think you're the stupidest person ever to grace netphoria. do opinions matter? no. fuck off. i'm so glad you care so much about me to read all my threads and post lame insults about me. i'ms o glad you have nothing better to do with your wasteful pathetic bipolar life. fuck off.

i think that too. im not ruling out the fact that she could be real, but i wouldnt be surprised if the truth came out that she wasnt

God, you're a fucking moron. I seriously can't wait until you get married.

suze- so what, i'm bipolar? at least i ADMIT that i have a PROBLEM and I GET HELP for it. I'm on meds...I act like a SANE human being. You don't. Haven't you been told that yet?

all that text hurts my eyes
 

:mad:

NP: Radiohead - Just

whats bipolar? i heard of it before but what does it mean

Re: i can't take it anymore
 

Umm...no offense...but who were you talking about?

WHY DON'T YOU JUST STOP FUCKING TALKING TO HIM?

NP- "Binary"- Cruxshadows

"as things will happen in this life
with no resolution
the duality in ben
requires constitution
for the shame of hatred spent
might endure your sorrow
if your higher self is shackled
by your binary soul"

yeah and i can't wait until you kill a family of four one night driving home after drinking 12 shots of that expensive vodka you like to brag about.

excuse me bitch, but here you go again projecting things that are BEYOND MY CONTROL onto me.

my best friend in the world is a fucking psycho who manipulates my emotions. and then you accuse *me* of not being sane. do you knwo why i'm so fucking pissed off right nowe?

1) this retarded excuse for a netphorian refuses to allow me my right to self-determination

2) julio continues to be a fucking freak with me

neither of these have anything to do with me, but with the ridiculous and idiotic nature of the world around me. i'm like fucking yossarian. i'm a sane person stuck in a completely insane environment. i'm sorry you can't fucking understand that i'm REALLY FUCKING UPSET RIGHT NOW because this JERK of a julio is driving me out of my mind. maybe if you'd actually read my post you'd understand. or i have a better idea. why don't you leave me the fuck alone.

it's a mental condition caused by a chemical imbalance in the brain which causes drastic mood swings which vary from mania to depression...it also enhances your emotions. http://my.webmd.com/encyclopedia/article/2950.1300

because he's been my favourite person in the whole world for two years and when he's actually acting normal it's the most wonderful thing in the world.

seriously. but then he gets so fucking sad and hurt that you don't want to talk to him and i imagine him sitting there on im waiting for someone to im and it makes me feel really bad for him and i imagine his mom tsking going how come julio doesn't have any friends :( and it kills me and i im him and apologize for hurting his feelings.

if he is really that fucking terrible, then why do you still talk to him? why do you talk to him engagement rings and shit? hmm? you put yourself in a position to be abused by him. if you don't like the way he treats you... then forget about him and find someone better.

it's not that easy. i've tried 100 times and it doesn't work. it's like quitting heroin. he's everything

ha ha. that midi's funny.

It really doesn't seem like it's worth it.

From the department of: "Oh-Yeah"
 

i thought i was the stupidest person? well, i was yesterday. jesus girl you are a neurotic fuckup. go ahead call me stupid and tell me to die. hahahahaha.

It's worth it for her martyrdom alone. She has to have SOMETHING to bemoan right?