i probably should've clarified the statue was next to the window. i picked up thinking it was like 50 lbs lighter than it really was and i wobbled around a bit and CRASH

i'd like to say oh man i was crazy back then but within the last month we had a meeting at work about dicks i drew on the calender and me and my lady friend got drunk and stole a santa statue. i'll probably be doing this in my 40s too

when i joined this board.

this is a low point, but in a different way:

when i was with my extremely abusive boyfriend, he used to threaten to kill me and/or myself basically daily (started after a year or so of living with him). i was so distraught and it was so traumatic, and one day after he threatened my i literally begged him to kill me. he just beat me up though, and laughed a lot.

i've mentioned this before, but part of me thinks he did kill me and the rest of this is all some kind of dying hallucination or dream or something

I was pretty convinced for a couple weeks after my worst suicide attempt that I couldn't have possibly survived and maybe I was going through that but then it was like no that's stupid and shouldn't dying hallucinations be more pleasant than a goddamn metal hospital

Who knows where to buy smack in Las Vegas

METAL HOSPITAL FUCK YEAH :rockon: TEH MOTHERFUCKIN DAVSTER :rockon:

or waking up in a stairwell with wine stains on my smiths shirt and my backpack missing. i was in a familiar area so i went to a winn dixie's and inside to use the phone. as i sat waiting for my ride a woman handed me a dollar thinking i was homeless.

you best believe i took it and bought a soda. you could get one for 50 cents back then. kekeke

Being admitted into a mental hospital. Being kicked to the curb by friends because my depression was overwhelming me. Waking up next to a wastebasket with dark vomit caused by alcohol and painkillers. Spending 10 dollars on a meal at arbys during lunch break while I was working for an evil bank. No specific order, all equally as low.

seriously though you guys are easily picking these out

i honestly don't know where to begin

oh, i see! so you were just being a perv.

it could have been you, though, and i wouldn't have even know.

Yeah we've never met. I vaguely recall something about this - wasn't it at Rubber Gloves? Had to have been 12 or so years ago, crazy.

why do you think they would be more pleasant than that

i mean i've been to mental hospitals a lot, but not for three years and hopefully never again.

once i was going to crash my car to kill myself. so it's like rush hour and it's something i've been thinking about but just decide right then i'm going to do. so i speed up and start veering off the road, when i see a road crew cutting the grass right as a start to swerve around the car in front of me. i swerved back and hit the car in front of me. then i faked pain to score painkillers at the hospital.

i was in the loony bin once and they gave me something called librium.. shit was off the chain.

When I used to take large amounts of DXM...
Lol

k

sometimes life is good
other times it isn't

When I persuaded Bingley not to marry Jane, even though I knew he was madly in love with her.

lol

2010 into 2011 was a pretty low time. Graduated college which I wasn't at all looking forward to or ready for especially since the economy was full on in it's collapse at that point. I was living with my serious gf at the time. Could not find a job for the life of me, couldn't even get a job at a retail store. This caused huge tension and trouble in the relationship and it boiled over to me breaking up with her in July, going home for what was to be a couple of days to cool off and ultimately I decided I didn't want to end it. She had other plans and did want to end it. Tried for a few months to get back together and moved back home to let her have her space at our apartment all the while helping pay all the bills. She kept stringing me along for basically that reason until she out of nowhere to me started dating someone whom until that point I had considered a friend. That crushed me. I was on the lease so I had to keep paying my rent until the end the lease which made it hurt all the more. They eventually got married.

I had a job though which was nice. But I was living at home and it was in a field I had no desire to be in. I eventually got laid off from that job in early 2011 but quickly wound up in another job in the same field since I had license and what not but I had absolutely no desire to be working there or doing that work. I was miserable at the job and eventually got laid off from that job in July bringing me full circle to the year before. So that was not a fun 12 months.


Went to Alaska for a couple of weeks after that at the end of July and when I got back I had unemployment to refresh myself with before grabbing a new job and getting a place to start 2012. 2012 was probably one of my favorite years of life thus far so that was a nice rebound year that I needed.

Where in Alaska? I've been looking into moving to Juneau.

One of my best friends lives out there. At the time he was living on this families "farm" about 40 minutes north of Fairbanks. It wasn't really a farm just their house and two cabins on a huge amount of land at the base of a large hill/small mountain. Only the house had some electric but nothing really besides lights, a fridge, and a radio to play npr. No running water. That's the true roughing it way of life especially there where it gets so cold and dark in the winter.

But that farm was basically just our base. Drove all around the state. Worked our way down to Valdez and back and then to some other places as well stopping at any given mountain along the way that looked like fun to climb/hike and camping out on it. That whole state is absolutely gorgeous. So devoid of people too. Fairbanks is the second largest "city" in the state and it was a just a large spread out town with hardly anyone filling it except for the eskimos/natives stumbling around drunk 24/7 on the sidewalks. You get out of there and you don't see anyone except for Denali and other extremely rare towns.

i'm feeling this

sounds exactly like my life without that kind of heartbreak i'm sure that makes me the real loser or whatever

Jeez banana that sounds pretty shitty. Sorry that happened to you. Do you still talk to the friend? I'm assuming not...

although my job still is incredibly pointless and stupid i'm doing well at it

TROTS get me a job where you work and we can live together

it would be like a funny 80s coming of age movie