I practically woke up one morning this week not depressed or suicidal any more
 

This is without antidepressants or drugs. I'd been prescribed them months ago, but I could never bring myself to take them.

I really hope the same thing happens to each and every depressed Netphorian out there, whether you're regular poster or a lurker. I love you all even if you dislike or hate me.

P.S. :)

What's changed in your life?

okay guy, when it comes back send me a pm and i'll help you out

It'll come back it always does

Welcome to summer, Shallowed :) let's enjoy the reprieve

I'm motivated to do things instead of shying away because it's too hard. I'm eating more. I'm working out more. My entire day today was productive. My self-esteem and confidence has boosted. I've stopped biting my fingernails, one on them which I haven't chewed off for three weeks.

My parents, my nana and her husband all now know that I was suicidal, so I'm owning that fact. There's a couple of other people that I pushed away when they tried to help me that I'm going to tell too. If I ever get down again, I won't be afraid to admit it to them.

i don't feel depressed or suicidal lately...i'm not going to pretend that isn't going to change

how old are you, duder

When I woke up from that sleep, I was happier than I've ever been.

I do love the summer :smoke:

oh right it's on your profile

oh man you are in for a hell of a ride bro

21, 22 in a month.

Not if I take babby steps

well you shouldn't stop taking your meds or start thinking you've already conquered it

i mean i'm glad you're feeling better but please be realistic

don't listen to brendan or bonnie- misery looooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo oooooooooooooooooooooves company. there are some well-balanced 21 year olds out there and there isn't a reason you can't be one of them.

Did you read the OP properly? I said that I haven't taken any medication for it.

yeah this one probably knows what she's talking about

okay

i do know why a depressed 30 y.o sack o shit such as yourself has no room to tell someone who is ostensibly happy why they shouldn't be happy.

yes you're really smart and whatever you got it figured out, i'm just a big dumb guy that doesn't know anything yadda yadda

that's the spirit.

Also I am realistic. I still have nihilistic beliefs. I just don't care about them enough to want to kill myself for it any more.

you mean right now

Please don't start :(

Again, I won't be afraid to ask for help. I'd already told my mum about my nihilistic thoughts.

this thread is gonna get stupid i'll let the psychonauts give you a run down, let me just say i've been dealing with this for 10 years longer than you have and i took meds off and on beause of it and i had periods of levity without meds and periods of depression etc

it's not something that just changes overnight, and this thread title seems to suggest you think that

also a good rule of thumb is that yo soy doesn't have any idea what the fuck she is talking about, ever.

see, he just wants you to admit it's some temporary thing because his life sucks and by golly, yours should too!
what a loser.

so mature, i bet she has wisdom to share

shallowed already conceded to the fact nothing changes overnight. waking up (literally and figuratively) to see you have the ability to change your thinking and actions is just the first step and you may always be a depressive person, but not letting depression rule your life is key. otherwise you'll just become bitter and complain too much a la brendan sweeney.

it's not something that just changes overnight, and this thread title seems to suggest you think that.[/quote]

I'm willing to bet that there are people who have been dealing with it for ten years longer than you that had it change for them overnight.

I know it comes across like that, but that's just the thread title. I've made a big list of things that I've been putting off or want to achieve and I've been doing about four or five of them a day. I think that is evidence enough that I'm not fighting depression with half of my ass.

no u.

You're only going to turn this into a flame war if you keep going.

yeah you got it, how much is the wager and how do you intend to prove it

edit: I'd like to point out that yo soy is making a lot of assumptions and it's plainly obvious she's doesn't understand this issue at all

You know what I mean. It's not like what's-his-face's teapot orbiting the sun. There is a finite number of people and a finite number of 40 year olds that used to be depressed. Interview all of them until you find one who got over their derpession overnight, then I win the bet.

I think people with depression have a lifelong battle with it and it doesn't just change overnight. Of course, some times things are better and you have to keep in mind the things that are making it better, for the next depressive "episode". I'm not saying this to belittle your situation or by golly, I want your life to suck too!

yeah if you think one day you're not going to battle with your demons then you aren't being very realistic

again, i'm glad you're happy and life doesn't have to be shitty all the time but if you actually have a mental illness it doesn't just go away one day, you just learn how to deal with it better and know how to recognize what's happening to you. we are not as smart as we think we are...

there's going to be a lot of people like the unmentionable one in this thread that seem to think that people who are depressed choose to be that way or that you're the one that controls your own destiny and you can choose to be happy and blah blah blah but they usually have incredibly debased veiws of themselves, e.g. believing they possess qualities they do not have, and don't really know much about mental illness in the first place.

but yes! you're right. You don't always feel like shit all the time. You don't always think about killing yourself all the time. It's nice isn't it?

this is what i said, ya ding-dong. no need to mock me.

just because you and brendan are more vocal about your depression doesn't mean people who aren't vocal about it have no room to say anything. what exactly did i say that was so wrong?

nothing. because that is my experience and obviously some other people have the experience of just moping, putting others down, and not being pro-active. i started keeping in mind the things that made me feel better a few years ago, like you said. i started to be able to tell when i would start to feel unusually down for no reason and i would liken it to a cold in the sense i had to get out of the house and do something before it got worse. i would run or volunteer or write or even just open the blinds. when i moved here i was working as an office manager in downtown but i realized if i was going to make a change by moving here i may as well go even further and make anther change for the better so i went to depaul and am now certified in grant writing and am working with a non-profit and hope to continue because it's what makes me happy. and my drinking no longer negatively affects my life (and hasn't for the past year. one whole year today) but depression is a life-long battle.. i'm just better equipped for it now.

thanks for this. i love stephen fry.

Maybe I will battle my demons. Let them come, I've been there before. If it ever does happen, I'll be in a much better place and I'll have the support of those who care about me. One of those people could even be a loving girlfriend.

If I'm choosing to be happy, then it's only by wanting to hold onto feeling great about myself, which I woke up to without even trying. The last time that happened was only after I'd slept with someone.

I mean shit, I'm taking daily showers and brushing my teeth twice a day now. It feels so good just to be doing normal things. Baby steps.