I wish we could be IRL BFFS Bonnie.

no not at all.

im sorry, it's pretty hard to explain. i mean emotionally.

pretty sure when you have a prolonged death you accept it in that moment. and if it's instant there's no time to freak out. either way you should be ok. i know it sounds scary but i do believe you come to terms with it quickly once it's happening.

Prolonged death? Like the last 2 days dying of Aids or cancer?

Also let's say suicide by hanging or drowning - you're not coming to terms with or accept it - suvival instinct kicks in and you're going down fighting.

yeah... suicide is something else

but i think accidental drowning, you prob come to terms with it

i dont know, i had a dream once where i IRL couldnt breathe because of asthma and i came to peace with it but it was a dream and i didnt die soo

from what i've seen of cancer they did come to terms with it, doesnt mean it wasn't 'ugly' so to speak or they weren't scared

Accidental drowning - survival instinct - you need to breathe - sooner or later your mouth will open - you swallow water - you're trying to get to the surface - your lungs hurt - you struggle and fight - you lose consciousness.

nvm.

obviously it hurts, but you dont think you accept at all what is happening to you?

i mean i dont know what im talking about i guess but i dont really fear death

I think that acceptance requires a bit of rational thinking and that the survival instinct is somehow stronger. Otherwise why would someone who made the decision to hang himself struggle instead of let go?
Drowning...maybe. A mix of giving up/letting go/acceptance the second before you pass out. I can only speak for myself, I guess not all people drown in the same way. ;)

You censored yourself again, didn't you? Too bad, I somehow agreed. ;)

yes i say the dumbest things. sorry

Well played, sir. Well played.

No, you don't, lady kelsome. I seriously agreed.
My plans / mind games how I'd kill myself never went as far as how I'd kill someone else.
I guess I scored pretty high on the sociopath scale back then.

death is peaceful. a few minutes of pain is nothing compared to the lifetime leading up to it or a few thousand sleepless nights. those guys who set themselves on fire are having the greatest highs of their life.

you created this place. it is awful.

oh my god. thats horrible.

this would make for a nice breakfast right now.

Well played, sir. Well played.

pho makes a great breakfast, doesn't it? craving it right now with some extra tendon.

i'm just ordered some roast duck soup. i normally get pho ga but i wanted to change it up today

:( :(

Hm? I remember more, but chose to not describe it in detail. Too much already? Sorry.

Damn, this happened to you? Glad you're okay

^ shit i didnt realize, im sorry

Don't be, it happened already 3 years ago, so I don't get upset anymore. Strange thing is, I always loved the ocean and being in the water in general, but since then I actually feel nowhere safer and more peaceful than I do while holding my breath and diving. Doesn't make any sense.

We can try

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