I haven't left my house since I got out of school on Thursday. I've left my room 4 times since then.

I haven't eaten a thing since Saturday morning. I think I'm becoming anorexic.

BUT WE DONT! http://www.netphoria.org/wwwboard/mad.gif So come on, tell us.

I have an aptitude for learning to play musical instruments, everyone has told me so, but I always quit because I'm lazy. I'm decent enough at bass and piano but I could be a lot better.

I sleep an average of 3 hours a night, the rest of the time I'm lying in bed trying to sleep.

I got an A on my recent midterms at school, but I'll fail the classes because I don't bother doing homeowork or studying.

wow. you guys are intense.

I listen to "emo" bands.

I read www.allmusic.com a lot and use the things I've read there to use in arguments and discussions about music. I've never heard a Husker Du album, but I used the things written on that site and others to back up an assertion that they were one of the best and most influential bands of the 80's. That's one of many examples I could have used.

i'm really surprised at the number of people who said they dont really know themselves...i can't relate with that.

lol! worthless kunt, you make that more than obvious.

-i am thinking of dropping out of college again, and pursuing photography and painting only.
-i've hacked into a friends email account before
-my first real kiss was when i was 19
-i lost my virginity @ 20
-all with my boyfriend of 2 years
-i don't want children
-i suffer from anxiety attacks
-sometimes i eat and throw up (aka bulimia)
-the B-52's where my first favorite band, i was 11 years old
-i play bass, but i honestly don't think i'm that good as i could be

stuff to admit:

*i like ryan tripp.
*i've got about 4 usernames here (although i don't use any of them anymore)

that's all i can think of.

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naw.

aim - FallingNightSky

-i haven't listened to SP in ages, and i've lost any desire to hear them again...

-i consistently try to make guys love me, but i can't even find someone who wants to try...

-the grandfather i haven't heard from in 12 years is dying and i don't even care...

-i blame myself for no one wanting to be near me...yet i can't find motivation to find something to change...

-i watch the olympics a lot...

-i've found i can't stand the majority of my friends here at college...

-the guy i've loved the most is the one who hates me most out of everyone...i still think about him months later after we've last spoke...

-i never feel motivated to form opinions or be inspired...

-i don't think i'll ever be happy or comfortable in my own skin.

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"I'm trapped in my face and I'm changing too much, I can't climb out the way I fell in."
-The Cure

kool.


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fuck it.

aim - AnotherSpaceJam

here goes...


1. i have a crush on a pretty normal looking girl and i'm not really sure if she's into me

2. i'm into big boobs lately and i never have been before; the last three or four girls i've hooked up with have been stacked

3. i had sex with someone i shouldn't have had sex with

4. it was fucking amazing

5. i think The Who are better than the Beatles

6. i don't see why people like radiohead so fucking much; i've really tried to get into them and i've decided they're above me

7. lately, i'v been content to listen to
jay-z, low, beulah (thanks liz), dr octagon, outkast, and the who

8. i look forward to the next time the girl in #1 calls me; not till wednesday at least

9. (edit) why does everyone think hume is so fucking smart?

John
whew, i feel better

"Faith is different from proof" -Pascal

[This message has been edited by mpp (edited 02-18-2002).]

i was going to ask how Radiohead could be above you...and then i read #7.

I hate being with my parents so much that whenever I spend time with them, I end up puking my guts out to avoid violence.
I sometimes skip taking my asthma medication so that I can get sick and avoid my life for a week or two at a time.
I take on more than I can handle, and should never have registered for 9 god damn courses... that's 33 hours a week of college.
I want to major in sociology, but I want to be a journalist.
I have a fear of being lower class, like my parents.
I have a fear of turning out like my parents.
My boyfriend's family intimidates me.
I love my boyfriend very much, but I'm shy to look him in the eye because my mom humiliates me in front of him.
My parents are verbally abusive to me, but I can't afford to move out.
I failed my drivers exam 3 times.
I can't drive a stick shift.
I don't know how to ski, ride a bike, play any musical instrument, or do anything remotely sportive or artistic.
I like girls as much as I like boys, but you can only date one person at a time.
I plan on legally changing my last name so that my family can never find me again.
Every day I come home disappointed to find out that both of my parents are alive.
My mom is stalking me, and calls me no fewer than 5 times a day.

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I'm a member of the thought police and the Junior Anti Sex League. Double think that, BITCH!

AIM: ZeppieLed

geez, what kind of astmha do you have?

are you intellectually opposed to the music or the lyrics (or both) of the artists i mentioned?

or did i misunderstand your reply?

-I hate the way I look. My body repulses me.
-I fucking love Flickerstick.
-All I've ever wanted to do is be in a band
-I'm terrified of my brother
-I haven't the slightest desire to go to my sister's wedding
-I always feel like I'm annoying whoever I'm around, and I feel like people look at me and go "psh... what's she doing here?"
-I don't know how I'll function when I go to college, because I won't see my mom everyday.
-I have a huge inferiority complex
-I haven't the foggiest idea of what I want to do in college or when I grow up, I just know I want to hang out with bands.
-I'll have a lot more stuff to add to this list later

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Confidence is a preference for the habitual voyeur.

AIM - elegantsomething

-I pretend that I know what most of you are talking about, although the majority of the time, I don't really have a clue who/what you are talking about.
-I don't like the Beatles.
-I don't masturbate because it doesn't feel right. I mean, it felt great on the few occasions that I did, but I didn't feel right doing it.
-I have a fetish for younger girls. I don't find most of the older girls I know attractive, even though my friends all say they are amazingly hot.
-I pretend to be a lot older than I really am.
-I am a very good student, but I see no reason to try. right now I'm really struggling to find a reason why we go to school at all. the only reason my dad pushes me to do good in school is so I go to a good college. and I think the only reason he wants me to go to a good college is for his own ego to grow.
-I don't listen to REM, and I don't want to.
-I've never really even seen a Nirvana or Pearl Jam video. in fact, before I got the SP Greatest Hits DVD, I had only really seen the Today, Tonight Tonight, BwBW, and 1979 videos. oh yeah, and SIYL.
-I used to like punk rock. but then it got all popular and now I hate it. I have come to the conclusion that I only like things that other people hate. and once they like what I like, I don't like it anymore.
-I like to write lyrics, and I don't really think I'm that bad at it. but I'm too shy to ever show anyone anything that I've written. on the same token, I never read my essays in English class, even if I think they are really good, because I don't feel comfortable with what I wrote.
-I want to play a musical instrument but I can't get myself to ask my parents.
-I have no idea why I can't ask my parents for a musical instrument.
-I never really fully listened to Behold! The Nite Mare until a month ago.
-I got OK Computer a couple of weeks ago.
-The only reason I post here is to cure boredom. I really want to stop because I feel like a loser, but I want 2,000 posts.
-I'm too embarrassed/scared to ask my parents to give me a ride to my girlfriend's house.
-I still haven't given my girlfriend her Christmas gift.

that was a lot more candid then I expected.

http://www.netphoria.org/wwwboard/frown.gif

- Up until 10th grade, I was really ugly.
- I'm submissive
- I'm lazy
- I'm not what I could be
- What I desire often turns out to be what I cannot have
- I have no long term plans
- I have no short term plans
- I'm failing almost every class in school
- As of late, the idea of looking at a mirror image of myself a pulling a gun on it often enters my mind.
- I have friends, but I still feel alone.
- I'm crying right now

- Musn't forget the identity crisis I'm having at the moment.

[This message has been edited by ****** (edited 02-18-2002).]

waaaaaahhaaaaa http://www.netphoria.org/wwwboard/frown.gif

waahhh waaahhhh waaaahhhhh http://www.netphoria.org/wwwboard/frown.gif http://www.netphoria.org/wwwboard/frown.gif http://www.netphoria.org/wwwboard/frown.gif

*pats your back*

it's okay buddy

-oh yes, I also can't throw a curveball for crap, but I claim that I know how to.

uh oh, keep your kid sisters away from nate

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Your Time Will Come

-I'm a goth who listens to country.
-I'm in love with a guy who usually ignores me, but I still adore him.
-I boss around all the guys that I work with, and they actually do as I say!
-Whenever asked about my weight, I automatically take off ten pounds.
-the sight of (other people's) blood/spit/vomit makes me queasy.
-I can't remember the last time I've read a newspaper.
-I discourage people from becoming friendly with me now, b/c I expect them to have an ulterior motive.
-I dream of becoming a famous actress, yet hate it when people even look at me.
-I need to wash my hair. It's looking pretty nasty...

SCORE!!!!!!!!!:-x

P.s: don't be silly.

conclusion = grow a brain

What about jizz?



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"In the mud, on your knees
Trying hard not to please
Anyone, all the time
Being a rebel's fine
But you go all the way to being brutal"

I have a great family and incredibly supportive parents who I appreciate very much, but I would never really tell them that.

I have an average above 95% in school.

One of the biggest issues in my life right now is that it's my sister's birthday tomorrow and I haven't bought her a present yet.

This is my 1500th post. http://www.netphoria.org/wwwboard/biggrin.gif

Never seen it.

-i can't stand myself, mostly due to my weight
-i smoke and drink way too much
-i have been thinking about cutting/burning myself agian lately, but am doing all i can to avoid it. i was going ot get another peircing a night or two ago just to relieve the need for pain
-i burn bugs when i'm smoking outside by myself (ok, not always, but enough to be afraid they're going to come and get me at night in revenge)
-i've spent more time crying in the last week than not (at least when it comes ot awake hours of the day)
-i'm on the verge of tears now
-i hate myself because of it
-i can't wait to get drugs from the psychyatrist tomorrow
-i'm horribly codependant
-I'm a straight A student (even the first three semesters of college) and i'm probably going to just barely pass this semester
-i have been seriously considering dropping out of school for a semester