So my dog ended up dying in our arms in our living room last Thurs

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 04:53 PM

Yeah, I'm finally feeling not -so-insane about it - figured I'd let you guys know since some of you care.

It was pretty fucked up - Mark stayed home with him but I had to go to work. I was a mess the whole day, so my boss let me off at 4 thank god. I raced home and it was like he waited for me - because as soon as I walked in the door, he got up and went into shock, we layed him down and held him while he died. It was a lot more heartbreaking and painful to go through than a quick shot - but we both agree that it was so much better than trying to transport his frail sick body to the vet where he'd be scared and confused. Around people he didn't know. At least he was in his bed, in his home, with his family - where he felt most safe and comfortable and he was able to go with us both there by his side.

I can't imagine what I would've done if I hadn't made it home in time or if Mark wasn't able to stay home with him.

Aeroplane · 08-13-2007, 04:54 PM

Aeroplane · 08-13-2007, 04:54 PM

you're a good owner

Caine Walker · 08-13-2007, 04:54 PM

oh, stacy... i'm so sorry.

smurfing · 08-13-2007, 04:55 PM

waltermcphilp · 08-13-2007, 04:56 PM

i got a little teary eyed from that.

sorry for your loss.

Nimrod's Son · 08-13-2007, 04:57 PM

it must have been something you said

skipgo · 08-13-2007, 04:57 PM

this made me sad as well. i'm really sorry about your dog

skipgo · 08-13-2007, 04:58 PM

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Originally Posted by Nimrod's Son

it must have been something you said

...took me a second to get this.

mxzombie · 08-13-2007, 05:00 PM

that's really very sad, sorry for your loss. when my parents moved to panama 2 years ago they brought our dog with them and left her with my grandmother, who keeps her outside. they overfed her and she got fat, which was depressing enough. but today i went to see her and she's got all these infections in her ears and was wearing a cone around her neck. my dad finally decided to get her cleaned up and bring her to live with them in their apartment, thank god. it's so heartbreaking to see her getting worse and worse every time i come to panama. she's 12 now, and i don't want her to go out like that

Nimrod's Son · 08-13-2007, 05:01 PM

sorry to hear about the little fella. at least he had a good end of life

??? · 08-13-2007, 05:02 PM

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Originally Posted by smurfing

i shouldn't, but. lulz.

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 05:03 PM

Thanks guys...I just feel like it's something I need to share.

It was really insane. I had pet rats when I was a kid and I held them when they died - it's so much different to see an animal die how nature intends rather than with euthanasia. But holding Odie - it's like all of that went from my head, I had no idea what to do...I was freaking out telling Mark we need to go! we need to go now! but thankfully he was able to tell me to just calm down, that we need to just be calm for him because it wasn't going to be long. I just didn't want him to lay there suffering, gasping for air for more than he had to - but we wouldn't have made it to the vet in time, he would've died in the car while we were sitting in rush hour traffic. So we both tried to calm down the best we could and we just held him and told him it was okay and begged for it to be over soon. And it was. It was just...insane. That's the only way I can describe it. I've never known pain like that. I feel like something is different in me after going through that.

Luckily Thursday we're leaving with our friends to go to Kentucky to see Mark's family. I'm so glad that at least we get a break for a little while, time to relax and a long drive for me to clear my head.

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 05:06 PM

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Originally Posted by mxzombie

that's really very sad, sorry for your loss. when my parents moved to panama 2 years ago they brought our dog with them and left her with my grandmother, who keeps her outside. they overfed her and she got fat, which was depressing enough. but today i went to see her and she's got all these infections in her ears and was wearing a cone around her neck. my dad finally decided to get her cleaned up and bring her to live with them in their apartment, thank god. it's so heartbreaking to see her getting worse and worse every time i come to panama. she's 12 now, and i don't want her to go out like that

Aww that's a shame. It really sucks when people don't take care of their animals, but that's great that your dad's gonna help out and take her in. Just get her a trip to the vet, get her on some diet food and make sure she gets some walks and she'll be happy. Good luck! What kind of dog is she?

Aeroplane · 08-13-2007, 05:10 PM

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Originally Posted by KrazeeStacee

Thanks guys...I just feel like it's something I need to share.

It was really insane. I had pet rats when I was a kid and I held them when they died - it's so much different to see an animal die how nature intends rather than with euthanasia. But holding Odie - it's like all of that went from my head, I had no idea what to do...I was freaking out telling Mark we need to go! we need to go now! but thankfully he was able to tell me to just calm down, that we need to just be calm for him because it wasn't going to be long. I just didn't want him to lay there suffering, gasping for air for more than he had to - but we wouldn't have made it to the vet in time, he would've died in the car while we were sitting in rush hour traffic. So we both tried to calm down the best we could and we just held him and told him it was okay and begged for it to be over soon. And it was. It was just...insane. That's the only way I can describe it. I've never known pain like that. I feel like something is different in me after going through that.

Luckily Thursday we're leaving with our friends to go to Kentucky to see Mark's family. I'm so glad that at least we get a break for a little while, time to relax and a long drive for me to clear my head.

dammit, Stacey, I'm at work and tearing up.

My dad held our dog when she died. She got hit by a car. She was the best dog ever. I saw him an hour after it happened. My dad can be very stoic. He held her in the car while my grandpa was rushing them to the vet. When he came home, he simply walked to the bedroom and shut the door.

I still have a picture of her on my fridge.

wHATcOLOR · 08-13-2007, 05:14 PM

ruff ruff ruff!!!

pale blue eyes · 08-13-2007, 05:14 PM

That really stinks but at least he died around two people who obviously cared for him a lot. I am sure that does not make you feel any better me saying it right now, but I am sure it made a difference to your dog.

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 05:17 PM

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Originally Posted by Aeroplane

dammit, Stacey, I'm at work and tearing up.

My dad held our dog when she died. She got hit by a car. She was the best dog ever. I saw him an hour after it happened. My dad can be very stoic. He held her in the car while my grandpa was rushing them to the vet. When he came home, he simply walked to the bedroom and shut the door.

I still have a picture of her on my fridge.

Aww, I'm sorry - that's so sad. It's so hard. I never want to go through that again but like I said, it was the best way it could've worked out for him. I just thank god, or whoever is out there watching over me, that we were able to be there. I just keep thinking what if Mark wasn't home and what if I didn't get off early. He would've died alone...and that's the worst thing I can think of. Being there for them is the only thing that matters. But damn does it hurt...I felt like my chest was going to explode, and then I had to try to compose myself enough to drive with Mark holding his body in his arms to the vet.

I kinda just feel crazy. I snapped on my boss today because all her bullshit just seems so trivial. Everything seems so worthless, you know?

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 05:19 PM

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Originally Posted by pale blue eyes

That really stinks but at least he died around two people who obviously cared for him a lot. I am sure that does not make you feel any better me saying it right now, but I am sure it made a difference to your dog.

No, it does, thank you. That's really all I can focus on without losing it. It's pretty much the only thing that makes me feel better about it all. I know he felt so safe with us.

Esty · 08-13-2007, 05:20 PM

Haven't read the thread, but the title alone is all that matters.

Sorry Stacy.

mxzombie · 08-13-2007, 05:21 PM

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Originally Posted by KrazeeStacee

Aww that's a shame. It really sucks when people don't take care of their animals, but that's great that your dad's gonna help out and take her in. Just get her a trip to the vet, get her on some diet food and make sure she gets some walks and she'll be happy. Good luck! What kind of dog is she?

she's a yellow lab. i'm sure she's not gonna be walked properly, but at this point any level of care is good, because as far as i can tell she's basically left to herself at my grandmother's house

Caine Walker · 08-13-2007, 05:25 PM

our family dog passed away about five years ago or so... he was pretty old and was starting to have seizures. i was really good about being sitting with him as he got through them, and it broke my heart every time. the last time the seizures happened, i came back from being out really late to find him laying on the cold basement floor, frozen in place, gasping for air. i knew that something was going to happen the next day, and i just put my head on his to say it would all be over soon.

the next day my dad, brother, sister, and i came back from eating and found a trail of thick blood running up the stairs, down the hallway, leading to our dog draggin his ear to the carpet, bleeding like crazy. i imagine that it's what a violent murder scene looks like. we took him outside, and when i looked in his eyes i felt like i got a slight glimpse of the pain he was going through. we immediately called the vet, and she confirmed that he had probably had an aneurysm and that there was nothing else we could do... we immediately went to the vet. they gave us a few minutes to be with him and say our goodbyes, but i insisted on going in when they put him down. i was the only one who didn't cry... i'll never forgot the way he recoiled when the needle went in and how his eyes went empty in a matter of seconds... i tried to close his eyes and the vet looked at me and said, "that only happens in movies..."

fuck, now i'm tearing up.

again, i'm so sorry stacy. it must be incredibly painful.

wHATcOLOR · 08-13-2007, 05:25 PM

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Originally Posted by Aeroplane

My dad can be very stoic.

when he's not hiding in the closet at thanksgiving

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 05:26 PM

Is there any way you could go and walk her every once in a while? Maybe try to see if you can talk your dad into it? Either way, good luck, I hope it works out for her.

Aeroplane · 08-13-2007, 05:26 PM

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Originally Posted by wHATcOLOR

when he's not hiding in the closet at thanksgiving

hahahahaha. damn, you're good.

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 05:35 PM

Quote:

Originally Posted by Caine Walker

our family dog passed away about five years ago or so... he was pretty old and was starting to have seizures. i was really good about being sitting with him as he got through them, and it broke my heart every time. the last time the seizures happened, i came back from being out really late to find him laying on the cold basement floor, frozen in place, gasping for air. i knew that something was going to happen the next day, and i just put my head on his to say it would all be over soon.

the next day my dad, brother, sister, and i came back from eating and found a trail of thick blood running up the stairs, down the hallway, leading to our dog draggin his ear to the carpet, bleeding like crazy. i imagine that it's what a violent murder scene looks like. we took him outside, and when i looked in his eyes i felt like i got a slight glimpse of the pain he was going through. we immediately called the vet, and she confirmed that he had probably had an aneurysm and that there was nothing else we could do... we immediately went to the vet. they gave us a few minutes to be with him and say our goodbyes, but i insisted on going in when they put him down. i was the only one who didn't cry... i'll never forgot the way he recoiled when the needle went in and how his eyes went empty in a matter of seconds... i tried to close his eyes and the vet looked at me and said, "that only happens in movies..."

fuck, now i'm tearing up.

again, i'm so sorry stacy. it must be incredibly painful.

Awww god, I'm so sorry. You got me crying too! I couldn't imagine coming home to that, I just couldn't - you're so strong for being there for him and being there with him when his time came. That's such an admirable thing. I know it's REALLY hard to be there when your pet passes...and a lot of people just can't do it, they leave their pets with the strangers so they don't have to go through the heartbreak. To me, that's selfish, it hurts but imagine how much better they'd feel with you there...how could people just abandon them like that? I was telling my Mom I think it makes us stronger people to be able to be there.

That's so sad, I really feel for you. It sucks so bad. And I know what you're talking about with the eyes, god dammit I hate that part.

The Pashing Smumpkin · 08-13-2007, 05:37 PM

Sorry to hear about your loss Krazee, i can't imagine actually being there while your pet dies. But the one thing that I can think of that will help (at least, this helped when we lost our dog cassie which im not going to get into because I was the reason why she died) was to go out and get a new puppy. It might seem selfish at first because your still in mourning but man, for me, it helped take my mind off of Cassie.

Anyway, hope you feel better soon.

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 05:43 PM

I appreciate it but we actually already got a fuzzy pup at home still, he's about a year old and even though he might be lonely now, he's gonna have to deal with it cuz we can't afford another dog - not financially, not emotionally. Not right now. Maybe in a few years, for now we need to concentrate on training Simon and making him into a good pooch. He's diggin' the extra attention and cuddling anyway.

KrazeeStacee · 08-13-2007, 05:44 PM

This was the two of them playing.

Red Scarlet · 08-13-2007, 05:46 PM

that is the saddest thing i heard all day

08-13-2007, 04:53 PM	#1 (permalink)
KrazeeStacee Immortal Location: Sherwood Forest Posts: 21,007	So my dog ended up dying in our arms in our living room last Thurs Yeah, I'm finally feeling not -so-insane about it - figured I'd let you guys know since some of you care. It was pretty fucked up - Mark stayed home with him but I had to go to work. I was a mess the whole day, so my boss let me off at 4 thank god. I raced home and it was like he waited for me - because as soon as I walked in the door, he got up and went into shock, we layed him down and held him while he died. It was a lot more heartbreaking and painful to go through than a quick shot - but we both agree that it was so much better than trying to transport his frail sick body to the vet where he'd be scared and confused. Around people he didn't know. At least he was in his bed, in his home, with his family - where he felt most safe and comfortable and he was able to go with us both there by his side. I can't imagine what I would've done if I hadn't made it home in time or if Mark wasn't able to stay home with him.

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waltermcphilp Socialphobic Location: I DO C-C-C-COCAINE Posts: 10,618	i got a little teary eyed from that. sorry for your loss.

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mxzombie Socialphobic Location: buffalo Posts: 12,463	that's really very sad, sorry for your loss. when my parents moved to panama 2 years ago they brought our dog with them and left her with my grandmother, who keeps her outside. they overfed her and she got fat, which was depressing enough. but today i went to see her and she's got all these infections in her ears and was wearing a cone around her neck. my dad finally decided to get her cleaned up and bring her to live with them in their apartment, thank god. it's so heartbreaking to see her getting worse and worse every time i come to panama. she's 12 now, and i don't want her to go out like that

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Nimrod's Son ٩(●̮̮̃•̃) Location: I like short girls with long straight hair who dress like boys and like to drink. Posts: 68,537	sorry to hear about the little fella. at least he had a good end of life

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KrazeeStacee Immortal Location: Sherwood Forest Posts: 21,007	Thanks guys...I just feel like it's something I need to share. It was really insane. I had pet rats when I was a kid and I held them when they died - it's so much different to see an animal die how nature intends rather than with euthanasia. But holding Odie - it's like all of that went from my head, I had no idea what to do...I was freaking out telling Mark we need to go! we need to go now! but thankfully he was able to tell me to just calm down, that we need to just be calm for him because it wasn't going to be long. I just didn't want him to lay there suffering, gasping for air for more than he had to - but we wouldn't have made it to the vet in time, he would've died in the car while we were sitting in rush hour traffic. So we both tried to calm down the best we could and we just held him and told him it was okay and begged for it to be over soon. And it was. It was just...insane. That's the only way I can describe it. I've never known pain like that. I feel like something is different in me after going through that. Luckily Thursday we're leaving with our friends to go to Kentucky to see Mark's family. I'm so glad that at least we get a break for a little while, time to relax and a long drive for me to clear my head.

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pale blue eyes sproutsy Location: :/ Posts: 14,427	That really stinks but at least he died around two people who obviously cared for him a lot. I am sure that does not make you feel any better me saying it right now, but I am sure it made a difference to your dog.

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Caine Walker Socialphobic Location: janice! janice! janice! Posts: 14,297	our family dog passed away about five years ago or so... he was pretty old and was starting to have seizures. i was really good about being sitting with him as he got through them, and it broke my heart every time. the last time the seizures happened, i came back from being out really late to find him laying on the cold basement floor, frozen in place, gasping for air. i knew that something was going to happen the next day, and i just put my head on his to say it would all be over soon. the next day my dad, brother, sister, and i came back from eating and found a trail of thick blood running up the stairs, down the hallway, leading to our dog draggin his ear to the carpet, bleeding like crazy. i imagine that it's what a violent murder scene looks like. we took him outside, and when i looked in his eyes i felt like i got a slight glimpse of the pain he was going through. we immediately called the vet, and she confirmed that he had probably had an aneurysm and that there was nothing else we could do... we immediately went to the vet. they gave us a few minutes to be with him and say our goodbyes, but i insisted on going in when they put him down. i was the only one who didn't cry... i'll never forgot the way he recoiled when the needle went in and how his eyes went empty in a matter of seconds... i tried to close his eyes and the vet looked at me and said, "that only happens in movies..." fuck, now i'm tearing up. again, i'm so sorry stacy. it must be incredibly painful.

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KrazeeStacee Immortal Location: Sherwood Forest Posts: 21,007	Is there any way you could go and walk her every once in a while? Maybe try to see if you can talk your dad into it? Either way, good luck, I hope it works out for her.

08-13-2007, 05:37 PM	#27 (permalink)
The Pashing Smumpkin Apocalyptic Poster Posts: 3,129	Sorry to hear about your loss Krazee, i can't imagine actually being there while your pet dies. But the one thing that I can think of that will help (at least, this helped when we lost our dog cassie which im not going to get into because I was the reason why she died) was to go out and get a new puppy. It might seem selfish at first because your still in mourning but man, for me, it helped take my mind off of Cassie. Anyway, hope you feel better soon.

08-13-2007, 05:43 PM	#28 (permalink)
KrazeeStacee Immortal Location: Sherwood Forest Posts: 21,007	I appreciate it but we actually already got a fuzzy pup at home still, he's about a year old and even though he might be lonely now, he's gonna have to deal with it cuz we can't afford another dog - not financially, not emotionally. Not right now. Maybe in a few years, for now we need to concentrate on training Simon and making him into a good pooch. He's diggin' the extra attention and cuddling anyway.

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KrazeeStacee Immortal Location: Sherwood Forest Posts: 21,007	This was the two of them playing.

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Red Scarlet Demi-God Posts: 343	that is the saddest thing i heard all day