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mxzombie
09-29-2011, 10:44 PM
i was just reading over <a href=http://forums.netphoria.org/showthread.php?t=154582>this thread</a> and found that it's been over 2 years since the last time i made one of these, apparently.

ask me anything, and i'll do my best to give honest, detailed answers whenever possible.

Banana
09-29-2011, 10:49 PM
Which?

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 10:50 PM
which what?

reprise85
09-29-2011, 10:51 PM
favorite ice cream flavor?

how many porn stars can you name off the top of your head?

ever tried any psychedelic drugs?

Banana
09-29-2011, 10:52 PM
which what?


You tell me, you're the one that's supposed to be answering the questions.

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 10:56 PM
favorite ice cream flavor?
i generally go for cookie dough. other options, depending on mood, in.clude cookies and cream, mint chocolate chip, peanut butter cup, or just straight up vanilla.

how many porn stars can you name off the top of your head?
more than i'm willing to type out. i could probably rattle off hundreds of names just having seen them once or twice in writing, but i could put faces to maybe 10 or 20 of them. maybe.

ever tried any psychedelic drugs?
i have done mushrooms three times. the first time was great, i just hung out with my girlfriend (at the time) and talked about how much i hated watching the news for a few hours i think. she didn't seem to pay any attention. more recently, while living with family in panama, my cousin, his friends and i spent a few hours one day investigating cow fields in the area surrounding my family's house in the country. we found a bunch of mushrooms, which were blended with orange juice and drunk by all 8 of us. i didn't feel anything. others claimed to feel something quite profound.

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 10:56 PM
You tell me, you're the one that's supposed to be answering the questions.sorry, you're the one posing a question that has no meaning without context

Banana
09-29-2011, 10:59 PM
The meaning and context is you and your life, to answer it you gotta look deep within.


Now I'm going to ask it again, let's see if you're smart enough to answer it.


Which?

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 11:00 PM
you are a complete tool. please leave this thread at once.

ilikeplanets
09-29-2011, 11:02 PM
Do you enjoy cigars?
What quote would you say best sums up your life?
What 2 colors would you never wear together?
Have you ever let your hair grow past your shoulders?
Would you ever willingly take a dance class?
Do you need glasses?
What is your favorite historical era?

Banana
09-29-2011, 11:03 PM
you are a complete tool. please leave this thread at once.



LOL, you must be pretty fucking dumb dude. Can't answer a simple question. I guess you answered the question on whether you're a mental midget or not though.

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 11:07 PM
Do you enjoy cigars?
not too much. i'll puff on one if the occasion calls for it and a cigar is provided for me, but i don't ever feel the urge to sit on the porch and smoke one by myself. cigar shops always make me gag too.

What quote would you say best sums up your life?
yikes, this is a tough one. "don't be an asshole"

What 2 colors would you never wear together?
black and brown i guess. although i had a short conversation with a co-worker tonight who formerly had a job as a fashion designer. she was wearing brown boots with black jeans and totally disagreed when i said something about it.

Have you ever let your hair grow past your shoulders?
no, and even if it were ever long enough, it's too wiry and curly to bend to wimpy external forces like gravity and wind. i.e. i would have an afro.

Would you ever willingly take a dance class?
maybe as an old man.

Do you need glasses?
yes, since the summer before 2nd grade. i'm nearsighted and have astigmatism in both eyes.

What is your favorite historical era?
to study? i dunno, of all the history classes i've taken i enjoyed studying post-civil war russia and the soviet union the most. modern era i guess.

reprise85
09-29-2011, 11:08 PM
i have done mushrooms three times. the first time was great, i just hung out with my girlfriend (at the time) and talked about how much i hated watching the news for a few hours i think. she didn't seem to pay any attention. more recently, while living with family in panama, my cousin, his friends and i spent a few hours one day investigating cow fields in the area surrounding my family's house in the country. we found a bunch of mushrooms, which were blended with orange juice and drunk by all 8 of us. i didn't feel anything. others claimed to feel something quite profound.

Yeah you gotta do it someday with just one or two other tripping people who are preferably experienced.
One time on some 4th of July a friend who was with me at the last minute decided he wanted some acid. I had more but it was at home so I cut one of mine in half and he took that and I took 1 1/2. He tripped way harder than I did, but he was also less experienced. Never exactly know how it's going to hit anyone.
My favorite tripping ritual was eating the hits (I did LSD the great majority of the time) and playing Uno until no one could keep track anymore. Which usually was about 45 minutes. :)

TuralyonW3
09-29-2011, 11:09 PM
take 1 minute...

5 favorite films
5 favorite books
5 favorite albums

PkPhuoko
09-29-2011, 11:10 PM
if you could get away with murder... anyone you choose.... 100% you will not face any charges at all ever..... would you murder someone?

reprise85
09-29-2011, 11:13 PM
Are your parents (still) together? Do you have siblings?

What would you say your areas of expertise are? (in life, job, or w/e)

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 11:18 PM
5 favorite films
detroit rock city
this is spinal tap
being john malkovich
the karate kid
before night falls

detroit rock city and karate kid eventually became my favorite movies because they were the only tapes i had and i could watch them in my bedroom. so i've seen them both a whole ton of times.

5 favorite books
cat's cradle
fast food nation (eric schlosser)
the dragons of eden (sagan)
cosmos (also sagan, obv)
under the banner of heaven (jon krakauer)


5 favorite albums
circus devils - the harold pig memorial
pavement - crooked rain, crooked rain
pumpkins - siamese dream
washed out - life of leisure
guided by voices - under the bushes, under the stars


that was hard to do. i took more than a minute, sorry.

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 11:18 PM
if you could get away with murder... anyone you choose.... 100% you will not face any charges at all ever..... would you murder someone?i don't have anyone in mind, so no.

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 11:22 PM
Are your parents (still) together? Do you have siblings?
my parents just celebrated their 29th wedding anniversary. they live in panama. i am the third of four, with a sister (+ 10yr), a brother (+4yr), and another sister (-10yr).

What would you say your areas of expertise are? (in life, job, or w/e)
in life, people seem to find my relaxed demeanor my most defining characteristic. so i guess, i'm an expert in takin' it easy. for work i'm no expert, but my field of study is and soon, my career will be in architectural acoustics. i will begin an internship as an acoustical consultant this winter.

reprise85
09-29-2011, 11:39 PM
That's some coll stuff

reprise85
09-29-2011, 11:43 PM
Do you use an alarm clock, and if so do you tend to hit the snooze button often?

Where have you lived in your life? Which place is your favorite?

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 11:48 PM
Do you use an alarm clock, and if so do you tend to hit the snooze button often?
i use my cell phone as an alarm, and i don't ever use the snooze button. i wake up a while before i need to leave because i like having the flexibility to sleep an extra half hour if i need to, and if i don't sleep later i just get to hang out on the internet and make a nice breakfast.

Where have you lived in your life? What place is your favorite?
let's see.

buffalo, ny (born)
long island (1988-1993)
parkland (1993-2005)
miami (2005-2009)
panama (2009)
buffalo, ny (2009-2010)
troy, ny (2010-2011)

living here in troy has been the best so far--mostly because i'm living alone and was able to walk to school. also i didn't have to work for about 9 months.

null123
09-29-2011, 11:50 PM
what is the last thing that someone did to you that really pissed you off?

in elementary school, did you generally (M) meet or (E) exceed expectations, or did you (I) need improvement?

what is your earliest memory?

what kind of shoes do you wear?

mxzombie
09-29-2011, 11:56 PM
what is the last thing that someone did to you that really pissed you off?\
as i mentioned before i have a pretty even temperament. i can't remember a time when i got unreasonably enraged after the age of 13. that was a fight with my brother, just me screaming at him and throwing shoes and stuff. i ran at him and he stuck his foot out, connecting with my gut and knocking the wind out of me. got so pissed that i chased him into my parents room, where i thought i saw him hiding behind a door. i slammed the door into the wall and the knob went through the drywall.

in elementary school, did you generally (M) meet or (E) exceed expectations, or did you (I) need improvement? my elementary schools worked on the following system up until 3rd grade, when we began receiving letter grades:

(S) Satisfactory
(N) Needs Improvement
(U) Unacceptable

I got all S's.

what is your earliest memory?
i must have been around two or three years old. i was climbing out of my playpen/crib in my bedroom in long island, straddling the wall of the thing trying to get over so i could get my pacifier. i remember a vaguely uncomfortable feeling from the bar getting jammed up into my inner thigh.

what kind of shoes do you wear?
red adidas sambas. like these, but with a different design on the tongue:

<img src=http://peneventplay.com/wp-content/uploads/2010/08/Adidas-Samba5.jpg>

yo soy el mejor
09-30-2011, 12:07 AM
how much do you like me?

yo soy el mejor
09-30-2011, 12:07 AM
how much money do you think you've spent on the weed in the past year?

yo soy el mejor
09-30-2011, 12:08 AM
do you have any hidden talents?

mxzombie
09-30-2011, 12:09 AM
how much do you like me?

ENOUGH.

mxzombie
09-30-2011, 12:10 AM
how much money do you think you've spent on the weed in the past year?it's probably in the thousands of dollars, easily. i don't know, i don't keep track of it.

mxzombie
09-30-2011, 12:11 AM
do you have any hidden talents?i try to make all my talents as public as possible in order to receive accolades and adoration.

PkPhuoko
09-30-2011, 12:38 AM
you can choose 1 hat. please provide a pic of that hat

mxzombie
09-30-2011, 08:21 AM
i'm not much of a hat-wearer, but i've thought about getting a cap. don't have any idea when i'd wear it.

<img src=http://idn.efashionsolutions.com/asset/image/format/NE-ex/id/NE-RTROKLSNPF11-MHR_teamcolor_front>

since i went there.

yo soy el mejor
09-30-2011, 10:35 AM
what is a "dog person," and should we fear them?

Nimrod's Son
09-30-2011, 11:04 AM
have you ever visitied a prostitute

what do you think about russian brides

mxzombie
09-30-2011, 07:08 PM
what is a "dog person," and should we fear them?a person who prefers the company of canines over (or at the exclusion of) any other animal. no reason to be afraid, they just like dogs. i do too.

mxzombie
09-30-2011, 07:09 PM
have you ever visitied a prostitute

what do you think about russian bridesno, i have never visited a prostitute or exchanged any goods or currency for sex. russian brides sound like a last resort for someone who craves female companionship without access to potential brides within the local population. i wouldn't buy one, i can get a gal on my own.

MusicMan4
09-30-2011, 07:17 PM
how are we gonna know who wrote cat's cradle if you don't put his name in parentheses

MusicMan4
09-30-2011, 07:17 PM
<img src="http://img838.imageshack.us/img838/4828/icontwisted.gif">

mxzombie
09-30-2011, 07:26 PM
YOU COULD HAVE JUST ASKED.

AndySlash
10-01-2011, 12:58 AM
what are the circumstances surrounding the greatest you've ever felt in your life

AndySlash
10-01-2011, 01:00 AM
how do you prefer your change for a twenty

AndySlash
10-01-2011, 01:02 AM
do you remember anything about your third grade teacher

AndySlash
10-01-2011, 01:03 AM
if you had a clock store would you set them all to the same time

teh b0lly!!1
10-01-2011, 06:43 AM
if you had a clock store would you set them all to the same time

i was also curious about this

duovamp
10-01-2011, 06:47 AM
What is beauty?

mxzombie
10-01-2011, 07:45 AM
what are the circumstances surrounding the greatest you've ever felt in your lifei don't know, this is a really tough question for me. like i mentioned in another answer, having such an even temperament means that i generally feel pretty good. the only time i can remember feeling anything i'd describe as approaching euphoria was when i smoked a blunt while on mushrooms in college and then had sex with my girlfriend. i wouldn't exactly characterize that as a high point in my life (no pun intended).

mxzombie
10-01-2011, 07:47 AM
how do you prefer your change for a twentyit doesn't matter unless i need quarters for laundry or singles for a vending machine. i usually just get a ten, a five, and five ones. otherwise i'll just get a roll of quarters and a ten dollar bill.

mxzombie
10-01-2011, 07:48 AM
do you remember anything about your third grade teacherher last name. in my memories she looks like elaine benes. i haven't gone through the trouble of looking her up in my old yearbook to confirm or deny that. at least i think she has the same haircut as early elaine

mxzombie
10-01-2011, 07:50 AM
if you had a clock store would you set them all to the same timei would. it seems like an easy way to demonstrate to customers that they are accurate. it would be awesome if i could synchronize them really tightly so all their "tick-tock" sounds are in line.

mxzombie
10-01-2011, 07:51 AM
What is beauty?profoundly confusing and unique to every person? i have no idea.

duovamp
10-01-2011, 08:49 AM
WELL FUCK YOU TOO, BUDDY!

yo soy el mejor
10-02-2011, 04:51 PM
:/

how was work?

mxzombie
10-02-2011, 05:46 PM
straight ballin' all day. lots of questions about a new iphone. i don't know anything!

yo soy el mejor
10-02-2011, 07:25 PM
what are the circumstances surrounding the worst you've ever felt in your life

Dead Frequency
10-02-2011, 07:37 PM
How come people are all about the iPhone even though they've been consistently behind the curve of new technology even before its release(s)?

slunken
10-02-2011, 07:39 PM
do you think it's safe to say that the overwhelming majority of iphone users never go beyond the capacity to take pictures and facebook on their phone?

mxzombie
10-02-2011, 08:57 PM
what are the circumstances surrounding the worst you've ever felt in your lifethis is really hard too. i can't assign the superlative "worst" to any event or time period too definitively, but this past autumn/winter i was pretty depressed (in retrospect) because my friends were out of town and i was bored, lonely, busy with school work, and lacking cash. the time around thanksgiving was the worst i think.

mxzombie
10-02-2011, 08:59 PM
How come people are all about the iPhone even though they've been consistently behind the curve of new technology even before its release(s)?i don't necessarily agree with that but the short answer is ease of use, attractive design and cultural cachet

mxzombie
10-02-2011, 09:00 PM
do you think it's safe to say that the overwhelming majority of iphone users never go beyond the capacity to take pictures and facebook on their phone?for all i know, that may be true. the same can be said for macs. but plenty of people use them for more

Dead Frequency
10-02-2011, 10:04 PM
i don't necessarily agree with that but the short answer is ease of use, attractive design and cultural cachet

I want the long answer

bahnzah
10-02-2011, 10:25 PM
what were the most challenging/most interesting courses when you were at u of m. and how did you finance that.

teh b0lly!!1
10-03-2011, 04:27 AM
her last name. in my memories she looks like elaine benes. i haven't gone through the trouble of looking her up in my old yearbook to confirm or deny that. at least i think she has the same haircut as early elaine

ha, you prompted me to look for my teacher from first grade who i seem to remember pretty vividly. found her on first try. pretty weird.

mxzombie
10-03-2011, 05:31 AM
I want the long answer<a href="http://www.kevinislaughter.com/wp-content/uploads/2083+-+A+European+Declaration+of+Independence.pdf">the long answer</a>

mxzombie
10-03-2011, 05:46 AM
what were the most challenging/most interesting courses when you were at u of m. and how did you finance that.most challenging: my worst class was differential equations. i had a hard time for a while wrapping my head around linear algebra too, but eventually got high and reread the textbook and ended up passing with flying fucking carpets. the entire affair was challenging--engineering school, that is--but it was never a question of challenging material for me (not to toot my own horn. from my first day i had it in my head that i would do well and graduate on time and in retrospect it seems to me to have just fallen into place). the primary issues for me getting through were time management and initiative. i also had to learn how to study, but i was lucky enough to have a classmate and best friend who was in my program and was a phenomenal studier. i would just study when he did.

my favorite courses were:
-history of the soviet union and post-soviet russia: took this my last semester and just really got into it.
-europe in the age of hitler and stalin: we had a lot of good readings for this class, most notably Darkness at Noon (Koestler) and Coming Up for Air (Orwell). The professor was pretty good.
-engineering acoustics: this is the class that steered me away from a more electrical-engineer career path and into architectural acoustics. a nice blend of physics, engineering, and fine arts.
-digital speech and audio processing: we had a lot of discussion in this class about speech production and hearing from a physiological, physical, and computational standpoint. this class was my first taste of the field of psychoacoustics and perception of sound, which ended up being a part of my master's research.

Dead Frequency
10-03-2011, 06:14 AM
<a href="http://www.kevinislaughter.com/wp-content/uploads/2083+-+A+European+Declaration+of+Independence.pdf">the long answer</a>

oof

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 03:31 PM
favorite ice cream flavor?
i generally go for cookie dough. other options, depending on mood, in.clude cookies and cream, mint chocolate chip, peanut butter cup, or just straight up vanilla.

how many porn stars can you name off the top of your head?
more than i'm willing to type out. i could probably rattle off hundreds of names just having seen them once or twice in writing, but i could put faces to maybe 10 or 20 of them. maybe.

ever tried any psychedelic drugs?
i have done mushrooms three times. the first time was great, i just hung out with my girlfriend (at the time) and talked about how much i hated watching the news for a few hours i think. she didn't seem to pay any attention. more recently, while living with family in panama, my cousin, his friends and i spent a few hours one day investigating cow fields in the area surrounding my family's house in the country. we found a bunch of mushrooms, which were blended with orange juice and drunk by all 8 of us. i didn't feel anything. others claimed to feel something quite profound. .

yo soy el mejor
12-09-2016, 03:36 PM
scandalous!

yo soy el mejor
12-09-2016, 03:37 PM
was this thread made before or after you sent nanner nudes?

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 04:35 PM
After. That was in 2008, when I was 17

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 04:40 PM
Tim likes his porno (nothin wrong with that)

yo soy el mejor
12-09-2016, 04:41 PM
oh, it was hardcore you sent nudes to after you turned 18. too many boys to count.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 04:42 PM
There are no netphorian doled out nudes of me that aren't technically child porn. You oughta delete them, lawwn.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 04:44 PM
oh, it was hardcore you sent nudes to after you turned 18. too many boys to count.

And considering Matt himself admitted that I was underage, why would you claim otherwise? What do you know and have?

yo soy el mejor
12-09-2016, 04:46 PM
lol

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 04:46 PM
For what it's worth (not much, she can do what she wants) the list of "netphorians ****** has fucked" is longer than "netphorians that victimized Bonnie when she was underage". Glad that is the case or I'd be even more fucked up. Don't insinuate that I was promiscous when I was underage, because worse can be said about you and the whole argument is sexist nyway.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 04:47 PM
(Quotes of ****** using the "n" word)

yo soy el mejor
12-09-2016, 04:48 PM
just cause you've always been willing to show your body to anyone who asks, doesn't mean i want to see it. don't flatter yourself.

yo soy el mejor
12-09-2016, 04:49 PM
i bet you're just as ugly on the outside.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 04:55 PM
Oh is this what it's come to

FoolofaTook
12-09-2016, 05:05 PM
How old were these dudes when they got your underage pics bonnie.

sry if this is none of my business. also i was a whoremonger in korea so I'm not trying to moralize or anything.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 05:08 PM
I turned 18 in feb 09 so all of this happened before then, while I was underage (15-17). If any netphorians recieved nudes of after that, it was because I was dating them.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 05:09 PM
Or sexually involved in some way.

yo soy el mejor
12-09-2016, 05:37 PM
you ain't gotta lie to kick it.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 05:54 PM
I was underage, ******.

vixnix
12-09-2016, 09:03 PM
so were ****** and tim together yet, when this thread was made?

it's unusual to see someone else have a massive problem with ******. I'm so used to it being me.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 09:21 PM
I wouldn't know.

I remembered he was from Albany/Troy in another thread and she made sure to correct me.

fuzzyroes
12-09-2016, 10:48 PM
we're all a united: fucked up, degenerate band of lost souls. Why must we set out to try and humiliate and knock down other users from a peg?

We're all a team of fuck-ups here... Lets forgive our mistakes and allow a 2nd chance and embrace the quality qualities that we have

ohnoitsbonnie
12-09-2016, 11:32 PM
**** continues to harass people here offline and off of netphoria.

myosis
12-10-2016, 10:06 AM
like whom?

scottytheoneand
12-10-2016, 10:17 AM
i have never had a sexual relationship with any netpho boarders

scottytheoneand
12-10-2016, 10:17 AM
just making that clear

redbreegull
12-10-2016, 03:16 PM
it's unusual to see someone else have a massive problem with ******.

really? I feel like a lot of people have problems with her

reprise85
12-10-2016, 03:32 PM
we should have a general beef thread and leave it all in there

ohnoitsbonnie
12-10-2016, 03:41 PM
i have never had a sexual relationship with any netpho boarders

I don't recommend it

FoolofaTook
12-10-2016, 04:07 PM
**** harrases me. I like it tho. :blush:

FoolofaTook
12-10-2016, 04:08 PM
Sry bonnie she's cute tho her heart is black as sin

FoolofaTook
12-10-2016, 04:11 PM
I think **** should be perma banned. Lots of neg reps and when I shared my felonious mischeviousnesses she said she was sorry for my mother.

unforgivable.

wHATcOLOR
12-10-2016, 09:29 PM
we should have a general beef thread and leave it all in there

Seems like a good idea, what are the chances this doesn't end up going well

LaBelle
12-11-2016, 03:23 AM
Oof what a time to be alive and reading netphoria.

teh b0lly!!1
12-11-2016, 03:34 AM
really? I feel like a lot of people have problems with her

tbqh i was genuinely surprised to see some people, namely reprise, going as far as defending her

teh b0lly!!1
12-11-2016, 03:37 AM
for me i'll just say adding her to my ignore list has been the best thing for my netphoria experience since trotskillicious was fucked off

reprise85
12-11-2016, 04:20 AM
tbqh i was genuinely surprised to see some people, namely reprise, going as far as defending her

It's not so much defending as playing peacemaker. Unless you have some example I'm forgetting/overlooking?

Cool As Ice Cream
12-11-2016, 05:16 AM
we're all a united: fucked up, degenerate band of lost souls. Why must we set out to try and humiliate and knock down other users from a peg?

We're all a team of fuck-ups here... Lets forgive our mistakes and allow a 2nd chance and embrace the quality qualities that we have

fuck you, you fucken retard.

Poots
12-11-2016, 03:08 PM
i have never had a sexual relationship with any netpho boarders

we could start something up if you want to ol' buddy

Poots
12-11-2016, 03:10 PM
I'd like to respond to what fozzy said and let everyone know that I'm not retarded.

mxzombie
12-11-2016, 05:53 PM
will you people get a room

JESUSNEEDSAHIT
12-11-2016, 07:25 PM
****** is a shit human. not really surprised to see her fail to even legitamize the the hurt of a victim and take no responsibility

also it's not normal to date a pedophile and and not thin it is a big deal. if ****** was 15 at the time I might get it but wasn't she about 22? she';s always been scum

reprise85
12-11-2016, 07:42 PM
i actually did date a pedophile at 15 and even moved in with him 1000 miles away
at 19 i finally was able to leave, he was a pedo but also very abusive in many ways and i was kinda trapped there. oh and he tried to get me to help him kidnap children and stuff uhhhhh yeah there was a lot more too it. for a while i felt obligated to stay if nothing else to sabotage his efforts and because of my cats (that i had to leave behind)

but one day i kinda had an epiphany and knew it was going to end soon, either with me killing him, him killing me, me killing myself, or me trying to escape.

anyway my point is yeah at 22 one should know better but even at 15 i should have known better at some level, a lot of it has to do with your own past and what you've been subjected to. that's not an excuse but at 15 i didn't realize how fucking abnormal the entire thing was and he even fooled my parents (who of course didn't know he was a pedo except for the fact that he dated me starting when i was 14 and he was 19, lol) who were obviously much older.

but yeah if I were to ever find any evidence of that kind of thing anywhere the police would be my call right away, of course. if **** actually found that stuff and was just annoyed and didn't do anything at all (even confront) that is very disturbing, and yes police would be the right call there

Poots
12-11-2016, 07:53 PM
****** is a shit human. not really surprised to see her fail to even legitamize the the hurt of a victim and take no responsibility

also it's not normal to date a pedophile and and not thin it is a big deal. if ****** was 15 at the time I might get it but wasn't she about 22? she';s always been scum

"Have you met ******?"

"No I don't believe I've had the pleasure"

"She's a shit human"

"That's very interesting; ****** how does one become a shit human?"

JESUSNEEDSAHIT
12-11-2016, 08:17 PM
i actually did date a pedophile at 15 and even moved in with him 1000 miles away
at 19 i finally was able to leave, he was a pedo but also very abusive in many ways and i was kinda trapped there. oh and he tried to get me to help him kidnap children and stuff uhhhhh yeah there was a lot more too it. for a while i felt obligated to stay if nothing else to sabotage his efforts and because of my cats (that i had to leave behind)

but one day i kinda had an epiphany and knew it was going to end soon, either with me killing him, him killing me, me killing myself, or me trying to escape.

anyway my point is yeah at 22 one should know better but even at 15 i should have known better at some level, a lot of it has to do with your own past and what you've been subjected to. that's not an excuse but at 15 i didn't realize how fucking abnormal the entire thing was and he even fooled my parents (who of course didn't know he was a pedo except for the fact that he dated me starting when i was 14 and he was 19, lol) who were obviously much older.

but yeah if I were to ever find any evidence of that kind of thing anywhere the police would be my call right away, of course. if **** actually found that stuff and was just annoyed and didn't do anything at all (even confront) that is very disturbing, and yes police would be the right call there

your experience makes sense it's more her attitude now like oh yeah it was weird I didn't leave him for being a pedophile oops lol

fuck you laren

JESUSNEEDSAHIT
12-11-2016, 08:22 PM
i hate when im on the train just chillaxin and reading a book and a group of niggers decide to bang on windows or whatever to keep the beat while the head nigger raps badly. not only that... they scatter all over the train so they can give themselves even more of a reason to be loud.


that fucking nigger. keeps me tossing and turning at night.


listen nigger. you've said other creepy things. so deal with it like i have.

as a person of color, i say person of color when talking about all non-whites or sometimes 'brown people' to be a little more specific. i say latino where others would use hispanic. i also use black and have never heard a black person be bothered by its use.
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buzzard
12-11-2016, 08:27 PM
Do you have another account for posts that do not describe anybody as a shit human or something?

JESUSNEEDSAHIT
12-11-2016, 08:30 PM
not c urrently

Poots
12-11-2016, 10:49 PM
I wish there were still mods so I could create a Shit Human alt.

myosis
12-12-2016, 08:59 AM
i actually did date a pedophile at 15 and even moved in with him 1000 miles away
at 19 i finally was able to leave, he was a pedo but also very abusive in many ways and i was kinda trapped there. oh and he tried to get me to help him kidnap children and stuff uhhhhh yeah there was a lot more too it. for a while i felt obligated to stay if nothing else to sabotage his efforts and because of my cats (that i had to leave behind)

but one day i kinda had an epiphany and knew it was going to end soon, either with me killing him, him killing me, me killing myself, or me trying to escape.

so you escaped at 19. did you call the cops?

reprise85
12-12-2016, 10:29 AM
No I did not. At the time I was still very much brainwashed and I just wanted it all to go away. I was intoxicated by my new freedom and started numbing my memories with drugs. I should have called the cops, but I did not.

Once I started getting bad PTSD and entered therapy, a little less than 4 years later, I called the FBI and told one of his family members. However, it was too late for them to arrest him just based on my experience, unless I possibly wanted to prosecute him for what he personally did to me (which might have been hard to prove, except for the actual age difference would have been statutory rape, however he probably wouldn't have gotten much or any time b/c our age difference was only 5 years and it had been so long ago). Which I was not ready to do at that time.

Not calling the cops while I was there or right after I left is one of my biggest regrets. He had me convinced that he could pin everything on me. He raped me every day and I spent the first 3 years I was there with him almost 24/7 (we had a job where we worked together) - literally, I spent maybe 10 hours not in his presence through that time. I had stockholm syndrome to some degree.

Anyway, it's not an excuse. I fucked up.

myosis
12-12-2016, 10:37 AM
you're only human, erica.

smashingjj
12-12-2016, 11:22 AM
i bet you're just as ugly on the outside.

Going for the Julio approach here?

smashingjj
12-12-2016, 11:32 AM
No I did not. At the time I was still very much brainwashed and I just wanted it all to go away. I was intoxicated by my new freedom and started numbing my memories with drugs. I should have called the cops, but I did not.

Once I started getting bad PTSD and entered therapy, a little less than 4 years later, I called the FBI and told one of his family members. However, it was too late for them to arrest him just based on my experience, unless I possibly wanted to prosecute him for what he personally did to me (which might have been hard to prove, except for the actual age difference would have been statutory rape, however he probably wouldn't have gotten much or any time b/c our age difference was only 5 years and it had been so long ago). Which I was not ready to do at that time.

Not calling the cops while I was there or right after I left is one of my biggest regrets. He had me convinced that he could pin everything on me. He raped me every day and I spent the first 3 years I was there with him almost 24/7 (we had a job where we worked together) - literally, I spent maybe 10 hours not in his presence through that time. I had stockholm syndrome to some degree.

Anyway, it's not an excuse. I fucked up.
Holy shit that's heavy. I mean you were 15, haven't you somewhat forgiven yourself?

FoolofaTook
12-12-2016, 11:57 AM
Wow **** is evil. she's like the. tula tequila of phoria.

yo soy el mejor
12-12-2016, 04:15 PM
Yeah I get that trash like me can't be victimized and nothing I feel is valid. I am so blank

you keep saying stuff like that as if i don't have any sympathy for victims of sexual abuse. and it's another way to victimize yourself.

i don't look at you as a victim so much as a stupid sixteen year old who sent nudes online. especially since you did it well into your 20s. i did the same at fifteen, too, but my mom found out and i got an earful.

and now you're a stupid 26 year old who wants to blame what transpired between you and alex on me (cause we were dating? or were we broken up? i have no idea when you sent him nudes) cause he's not around and you're trying to act like you had no responsibility for your actions.

vixnix
12-12-2016, 05:19 PM
http://49.media.tumblr.com/c35c1f423d671d84c5ca4521a620a80b/tumblr_o2k024Sp8n1untprdo1_250.gif

redbreegull
12-12-2016, 07:51 PM
Wow **** is evil. she's like the. tula tequila of phoria.

tila sieg heila

reprise85
12-12-2016, 09:41 PM
you're only human, erica.

Holy shit that's heavy. I mean you were 15, haven't you somewhat forgiven yourself?

Thanks guys. Yes, I have forgiven myself to some extent and I do realize that I was brainwashed and lost a lot, personally, form the experience.

He was excellent at making me lose sight of two basic things: 1. that it was possible for me to leave and 2. that I could actually call the police on him and they would care/do something. Either of things were physically possible (most of the time) while I was there, but psychologically he somehow was able to make me not see them as possibilities.

reprise85
12-12-2016, 09:50 PM
i don't look at you as a victim so much as a stupid sixteen year old who sent nudes online.

How can you say that, could you honestly look at a 16 year old now who was doing the same thing and think they were just stupid and know exactly what they are doing and weren't being victimized? Of course she's a victim of your ex, and of course he took advantage of her age and whatever made her vulnerable to exploitative people like him. You are literally blaming the victim.

teh b0lly!!1
12-12-2016, 09:53 PM
Thanks guys. Yes, I have forgiven myself to some extent and I do realize that I was brainwashed and lost a lot, personally, form the experience.

He was excellent at making me lose sight of two basic things: 1. that it was possible for me to leave and 2. that I could actually call the police on him and they would care/do something. Either of things were physically possible (most of the time) while I was there, but psychologically he somehow was able to make me not see them as possibilities.

this is really fucked up erica, sorry you went through that.
also, sorry if it sounds really creepy, but tbqh i can't help but be really curious about how one goes about brainwashing another person like that. kind of in the same way i'm interested in reading about fucked up shit on the internet. what are the mechanics behind that? how is it done? it just boggles my mind that it's real, and it's so fucked up and cruel.

reprise85
12-12-2016, 10:05 PM
Well, it starts by picking a good victim. Young and already fucked up works best. Check.

Secondly, you act and make them think like the relationship is perfect and that you believe they are perfect and you're soulmates and stuff. Take advantage of their naivety. I've heard it called the 10 and 0 approach. At first, they are perfect - 10 good things about them, and 0 bad things. Gradually, it becomes 9 - 1 but hey, they treat you really well 90% of the time and think you're 90% perfect. That's pretty good. And then 8-2. Etc. It's gradual.

He also introduced me to his 'problem' of looking at child porn pretty early in the relationship. However, he limited it to the idea it was of people my age and older, and that it was this terrible thing he'd done like twice and he hated himself for it and could I help him with it?

Ok so for me at this point when we met in person for the first time, which was like 6 months maybe after we started talking more seriously, he started some process of trying to convince my parents it would be OK for him to live with us/for me to live with him. And they were cool with a lot of it somehow, except him possibly living in the actual house. Which paved the way for, if they aren't going to help us be together and live together, why don't we go back to where his family was where we could do that (because, cheaper or whatever). And then he somehow convinced everyone in my family and his family that it was OK.

At this point I was fucked. We spent literally 24/7 together except for a few times we each went into a doc's office until I turned 18, a bit after, when I got a job outside the house/him.

You can really fuck up a kid when you're their only exposure, they are naive enough to think love conquers all, and you purposefully try to fuck them up. But if you can isolate them at the age I was, from their entire previous life, you can basically make them into a lot of things. I think I was a bit too old to be able to turn completely, and I never would have gotten to the point where I thought what he wanted to do was OK (kidnap children) but if I had been younger or had some kind of predisposition to exploiting others myself, it might have been different. I was his first long term project. I'm sure he's tried other things with other people.

It's all really individualized at a micro level but the induction of stockholm syndrome is a bit easier to explain. If you deprive someone of everyday things, like positive emotions, food, sleep, etc (all things he did to me), eventually the person starts confusing anything you do give them or let them do (like take a shower) as "favors" or them being "nice." So you confuse normal human behaviors with benevolence b/c you are so used to malevolence that it seems normal. Does that make sense?

It's like you go in with good intentions and you want to make it work out and everything. And all of a sudden your stakes are all in this one person - you've moved away from your family, you're not even really an adult and have never done the normal transition things that people do in their teens, are being slowly pushed towards accepting more extreme behaviors, don't think you have another choice so try to find a way to mediate the behaviors but it's a losing battle. At some point it gets irreconcilable though, I wasn't going to help him kidnap others and I kept on sabotaging his efforts to do things like surreptitiously record girls, so it reach a boiling point where something had to happen. Luckily it was me getting away and not extreme violence. I mean he hit me and shit but I'm talking murder or suicide, which is where it would have led to within months I'd say. There was always the lose script where there would be some kind of 'problem' he had with me, which would lead to him hitting me etc, and I knew that if I let him have sex with me and watched what he wanted me to or whatever it would lead to a period where I could actually maybe sleep for an hour or pretend things were normal for a little while. But this cycle kept getting shorter and shorter until he was just pissed at me all the time about the last year I was there.

teh b0lly!!1
12-12-2016, 10:51 PM
your parents really fucked up horribly, didn't they
(sorry to say so but it's true)
:(

crabshack
12-12-2016, 11:06 PM
You are literally blaming the victim.

I realize the touchiness of this subject but you're also taking away the agency of someone allowed to get behind the wheel and propel a motorcar.

crabshack
12-12-2016, 11:13 PM
i'm just saying words, obviously.

what's the end game to this quarrel?

bonnie, what do you hope to achieve here?

reprise85
12-12-2016, 11:30 PM
your parents really fucked up horribly, didn't they
(sorry to say so but it's true)
:(

yes, they did. i also had a therapist who knew i was moving away. i was "being defiant" and would come right back

reprise85
12-12-2016, 11:39 PM
I realize the touchiness of this subject but you're also taking away the agency of someone allowed to get behind the wheel and propel a motorcar.

I'm not saying she was as helpless as a younger child, but 16 year old girls (plus I believe she was actually younger than this) are easily manipulated. And even if it was completely of her own volition to send them (doubtful), him accepting and encouraging them is just as serious as soliciting them in the first place.

In any situation where someone is hurt, they could have done something differently. Not went to that place. Not worn that thing. I don't think this is any different. Yes she had personal agency but someone else is still actively perpetrating abuse on her.

I never sent my guy nudes but it was before that became as prevalent online. I was 14 when I started seriously talking to my ex and I was absolutely unable to grasp how inappropriate our conversation was. At first it really scared me off but in time it becomes normalized and fucked up things can happen. I doubt bonnie just was like here's some nudes!!! from day one

redbreegull
12-12-2016, 11:50 PM
16-year-olds are children. their brains still need the better part of a decade to finish developing

crabshack
12-13-2016, 12:04 AM
16-year-olds are children. their brains still need the better part of a decade to finish developing

Lynndie England was barely 23

ohnoitsbonnie
12-13-2016, 12:38 AM
you keep saying stuff like that as if i don't have any sympathy for victims of sexual abuse. and it's another way to victimize yourself.

i don't look at you as a victim so much as a stupid sixteen year old who sent nudes online. especially since you did it well into your 20s. i did the same at fifteen, too, but my mom found out and i got an earful.

and now you're a stupid 26 year old who wants to blame what transpired between you and alex on me (cause we were dating? or were we broken up? i have no idea when you sent him nudes) cause he's not around and you're trying to act like you had no responsibility for your actions.

I've repeated facts with dates (I'm not even 26 yet!) but you know what it's ok just keep being terrible, ******. I should have never expected anything more from you

ohnoitsbonnie
12-13-2016, 12:40 AM
How can you say that, could you honestly look at a 16 year old now who was doing the same thing and think they were just stupid and know exactly what they are doing and weren't being victimized? Of course she's a victim of your ex, and of course he took advantage of her age and whatever made her vulnerable to exploitative people like him. You are literally blaming the victim.

I just wanna shoutout to reprise for being a good person and repeating the sentiments and morals we gotta stick to. I feel like I'm insane for feeling this way at times but comments like this are a beam of light

ohnoitsbonnie
12-13-2016, 12:50 AM
I'm not saying she was as helpless as a younger child, but 16 year old girls (plus I believe she was actually younger than this) are easily manipulated. And even if it was completely of her own volition to send them (doubtful), him accepting and encouraging them is just as serious as soliciting them in the first place.

In any situation where someone is hurt, they could have done something differently. Not went to that place. Not worn that thing. I don't think this is any different. Yes she had personal agency but someone else is still actively perpetrating abuse on her.

I never sent my guy nudes but it was before that became as prevalent online. I was 14 when I started seriously talking to my ex and I was absolutely unable to grasp how inappropriate our conversation was. At first it really scared me off but in time it becomes normalized and fucked up things can happen. I doubt bonnie just was like here's some nudes!!! from day one
I WILL REPEAT IT.

Age 15, 2006: joined netphoria, alex talked to me inappropriately, sometimes on the board. **** said that in 2005 (1 year before I joined!!!) she found "straight up cp (child porn) on his pc and they broke up kinda sorta but were still friends (as interaction on the board proves I guess?). Everyone knew my age and made a big deal about julio talking to me but not alex. **** found "straight up cp" but didnt think it was weird or alarming he was talking to a 15 year old? She treated me with abuse and dirision for years past. Her and hnibos (he's since apologized, so I'm not calling him out) posted public pics of me on facebook that were less than flattering or they weren't because I'm just a human being but she has a way of making you feel bad. Oh man like that time I did a conference call with julio and **** and julio said something about my voice and **** said "that's just how all fat people sound". Also there were no nudes exchanged because i did not, at this point, have access to this. If that somehow makes me less of a victim then i don't care because it all is what it is
Age 16: i'm hardcore and that mess. We would chat about sex stuff on aim and he'd say it's legal in new zealand and send me pics and I sent him pics. I don't feel great about it and weve gone over it.
Age 17: i trolled banana with pics of my feet, my bf's butt (the exchange was like, he gets the pic and was like "mmm show me more baby" and i was like "r u serious thats a mans butt" and he was like "i was wondering about the hair". i did it for you netphoria. In retrospect i feel like it was cruel.

After age 18: it doesnt count and i havent complained. Ive had sexual relationships with people from netphoria and the oboard and they are what they are. Not predators. I mean these usually went kinda badly but you know.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-13-2016, 12:54 AM
Sorry for bad format and write i am not good at

redbreegull
12-13-2016, 01:51 AM
Sorry for bad format and write i am not good at

who amongst us is?

ohnoitsbonnie
12-13-2016, 02:05 AM
I'm sure there were and are a few.

I guess I don't want to get too into what my childhood was like in context because ****** treats it like it is relevant. I'm basically just appalled that as a 20 something she didn't do anything (I mean, I had a pretty good idea that she knew, because why else would she treat me with scorn? + stuff julio said, stuff she said, etc.) and she did nothing productive. Even if she really didn't know or whatever she has called me "lolita" and outright said that I seduced all these men and they under no circumstances did not prey on me. I think regardless of who a person is/how mature/etc. I''d default on the opinion that 15 year olds are children.

I mean it took me a long time to realize that the tricks I learned from Julio were wrong. For a long time I just walked around thinking jealousy/abuse/codependence/destructive behavior/all the bad things were normal and useful and I have had to relearn everything.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-13-2016, 02:05 AM
Even 20 year old me would have taken issue with that tbh

yo soy el mejor
12-14-2016, 03:23 PM
bonnie is a pig. always saying perverted and jerky things to me. i don't much care for it.

yo soy el mejor
12-14-2016, 03:28 PM
I'm basically just appalled that as a 20 something she didn't do anything (I mean, I had a pretty good idea that she knew, because why else would she treat me with scorn? + stuff julio said, stuff she said, etc.)
oh, i thought you knew because alex told you i did (lol); your pretty good idea doesn't hold up. and i've never behaved any differently towards you than you have me (so that explains the "scorn"). and why should i? you've always been a major little bitch.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-14-2016, 04:34 PM
bonnie is a pig. always saying perverted and jerky things to me. i don't much care for it.

Oh yeah what is this based on

ohnoitsbonnie
12-14-2016, 04:38 PM
Let's see the pervy things I say

yo soy el mejor
12-14-2016, 04:41 PM
don't play stupid with me, stupid. leave me alone. sheesh!

ohnoitsbonnie
12-14-2016, 05:14 PM
Insane

yo soy el mejor
12-14-2016, 05:19 PM
ya i'm just like anyone who doesn't appreciate being blamed for the actions of others or dragged into anyone's personal mess. how totally insane.

ohnoitsbonnie
12-14-2016, 05:29 PM
:rolleyes:

Poots
12-14-2016, 06:04 PM
what are you ladies getting each other for Christmas?

FoolofaTook
12-14-2016, 08:10 PM
The 5x Siddartha Opus, duh.