View Full Version : I am the definition of a human bomb.


barden
09-05-2008, 09:42 PM
And I'm desperate to fucking explode.
I'm so angry I'm shaking.
Rage.
Defined.

you have no idea.

i think i could kill a man right now.
a specific one, but still.

duovamp
09-05-2008, 09:45 PM
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Mablak
09-05-2008, 09:48 PM
Sexual frustration can really fuck you up

barden
09-05-2008, 09:49 PM
I have so much anger inside me right now and nothing to do with it.
Argh.

MstrGhost
09-05-2008, 09:52 PM
This is lyrics material, be sure.

duovamp
09-05-2008, 09:52 PM
Some cat come along and scrog your dame? Kill him.

neopryn
09-05-2008, 09:53 PM
there is no definition of a human bomb because it's not a real thing.

barden
09-05-2008, 09:55 PM
I am probably going to be in jail in a few months, folk.

MstrGhost
09-05-2008, 09:55 PM
there is no definition of a human bomb because it's not a real thing.

I see you aren't into "american gothic".

barden
09-05-2008, 09:56 PM
Nah, not my dame.
My familia.
Hmm…
My mother, and brother, and older sister.
Some fucker just….
Argh, I cant talk about it.
I’m going to kill.

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 09:59 PM
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Is this the new zeitgeist single? Thanx man

barden
09-05-2008, 10:18 PM
I have aggression issues.
I’m working on them with a shrink.
Hahaha. How weird is that?

This isn’t helping, god dammit. How can I not get angry?
How can I not want to cause physical harm? To the extreme?

I broke another door today.
I felt pretty bad about that.

wHATcOLOR
09-05-2008, 10:19 PM
simmer down

sickbadthing
09-05-2008, 10:19 PM
we talkin farts here right

wHATcOLOR
09-05-2008, 10:19 PM
ya little wuss!!!

Hate the Hater
09-05-2008, 10:20 PM
www.livejournal.com

barden
09-05-2008, 10:25 PM
haha, yeah, i know!

Hate the Hater
09-05-2008, 10:29 PM
:D

barden
09-05-2008, 10:30 PM
www.livejournal.com

I found this all out today. My family sometimes keeps this kind of shit away from me. That frustrates me a bit too, Iíll be honest, but anyway:
My mom was seeing this guy.
One day he tried to force himself on my older sister, trying to kiss her and such. She told me 15 year old brother. So proud of the little guy, cause he lost it and had a go at he creep. The creep had him around the neck, hitting him into walls and shit. My brother had his fingers digging in his eyes and such, the trooper.
The he went at my mom. My brother said he kept hitting her in the head, and she didnít make a sound. He got in his car, left, and came back. Bet her some more.
Left again. She doesnít remember anything. Was out cold I think.
My sister said her face was so swollen you couldnít see her nose definition. Both her eyes were black and swollen shut.


Glorious, detailed, premeditated rage.
Heís going to fucking burn.

Theyíre on the other side of the country.
The feeling of helplessness is going to drive me. This anger is going to rupture something inside me soon.

Ol' Couch Ass
09-05-2008, 10:33 PM
How long ago was this and did they get the cops involved?


and BTW that is pretty awesome that your little bro stood up like that.

barden
09-05-2008, 10:36 PM
They didnít. apparently my mom didnít want my brother to go to court. Sucks. Happened about a month ago. I only found out today. Itís shit. I got the details of where the guy works and stuff.

Someone can use this thread in court one day.
Hello prosecutors of the future.

barden
09-05-2008, 10:39 PM
Name of business:
Tata Nelspruit
Physical Address:
22 Rapid St
Riverside Industrial Park
Nelspruit
1200



This is where I will either attack the fucker, or from where i intend to follow him home, or to some less conspicious location. not because i dont want to be caught, or witnesses, but because i dont want to be interrupted.

i have no shame regarding my intentions. i will take the consequences willingly.
hello jail anal rape!

exactlythesame
09-05-2008, 10:41 PM
don't kill him

that would be too nice

barden
09-05-2008, 10:42 PM
Nelspruit
013 758 1**3

a slightly edited nuber, just cause, you know.
it's his works.
i think i'll have a chat with him. and perhaps, some colleagues along the way.
may as well get some harrasment nd character assination on this list too.

barden
09-05-2008, 10:43 PM
don't kill him

that would be too nice

Realistically, I wont kill him.
But I donít know how far I will go.
I will beat him though.
I might not want him dead. But I want him hurting.
I want him in hospital with a whole lot of questions to answer from his family and friends.

Future Boy
09-05-2008, 10:46 PM
Is this the same piece of shit from before or some new piece of shit.

barden
09-05-2008, 10:49 PM
Admit it, every single one of you would want to do it too.
And some of you might.
I happen to be the kind of person who has had a fair association with this violence stuff, and so it makes it a real option for me, and I know I’ll get into shit for it, but honestly, what else could I do? They’re my blood.





Oh well, I fetch my new puppy in a few hours.
I would like to still be excited about that.

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 10:50 PM
Do you know how immature you're being? Is letting down your family by possibly getting into trouble really going to help them any? You're just being the same horrible person as he. Revenge is petty, baden >:[

barden
09-05-2008, 10:50 PM
A whole new piece of shit. And not even only the second.
My mother sure knows how to pick them.
She could recruit an army of scum, I swear.

Banana
09-05-2008, 10:51 PM
Well yeah you definitely gotta go out there and and beat the shit out of him. You'll get in trouble, but I don't see how you don't do that in this situation.

barden
09-05-2008, 10:53 PM
Do you know how immature you're being? Is letting down your family by possibly getting into trouble really going to help them any? You're just being the same horrible person as he. Revenge is petty, baden >:[

I know itís stupid.
But the emotions conume me.
I donít mind letting them go a little in this instance.
An easy way to deal with things I guess. Anger is easy.
But itís beyond me. Itís in my blood. 100 years ago hed be dead and no one would mind. Itís always been that way.
Iím the eldest son. They donít have a father figure around. Itís my duty. Beyond any kind of law.

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 10:56 PM
It's not in your blood. You're a human being and your should do your best to evolve and to also be a good example for your younger family members. We are beyond the eye for an eye concept these days.

Future Boy
09-05-2008, 10:57 PM
Bonnie's one of 'em forgive and forget Christians, ignore her.

Banana
09-05-2008, 10:57 PM
It's not in your blood. You're a human being and your should do your best to evolve and to also be a good example for your younger family members. We are beyond the eye for an eye concept these days.

So evolving is being a pushover and doing absolutely nothing when this has happened to your family?

Future Boy
09-05-2008, 10:59 PM
Seriously. Preach it somewhere else sister!

MstrGhost
09-05-2008, 10:59 PM
That sucks, but it would be worse for your family if you got in trouble for such a bag of scum. It's preferable to put the authorities on him for the time being.

ps: my apologies for the lyrics/sp jokes some posts above.

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 11:00 PM
Uh is taking a matter like this into your own hands really going to change anything? Do you really think it will prevent this man from repeating his crimes?

barden
09-05-2008, 11:01 PM
It's not in your blood. You're a human being and your should do your best to evolve and to also be a good example for your younger family members. We are beyond the eye for an eye concept these days.

it is for some, and not for others

Ol' Couch Ass
09-05-2008, 11:01 PM
Hmm, there is some validity to the point that getting yourself locked up is only going to worsen the situation. Surely there were people in the days after the attack who saw your mom and little bro's injuries. How old is your sister? Though it might not be as vindicating or visceral to have him locked up for felonious assault (and perhaps sexual assault on a minor) in the end he will suffer far worse consequences than a simple beating if you can convince your family to go this route.

Ol' Couch Ass
09-05-2008, 11:02 PM
Bonnie's one of 'em forgive and forget Christians, ignore her.

Seriously. Preach it somewhere else sister!

.

barden
09-05-2008, 11:03 PM
That sucks, but it would be worse for your family if you got in trouble for such a bag of scum. It's preferable to put the authorities on him for the time being.

ps: my apologies for the lyrics/sp jokes some posts above.

maybe he'll be smart. opening up the legal side of things is going to bring a lot of shit into play for him too. i have access, through my younger sisters fiance, to some top lawyers. we'll both rot in a cell for a while.

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 11:05 PM
del

Banana
09-05-2008, 11:07 PM
Uh is taking a matter like this into your own hands really going to change anything? Do you really think it will prevent this man from repeating his crimes?

It'll stop him from repeating those crimes on his family. That's all he's got to worry about.

Bonnie you are perfect proof as to why a woman should never be President of the United States.

barden
09-05-2008, 11:15 PM
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sorry dad!

i tried to fix it afterwards. alas! there was a wee amount of blood. but the fist is holding up strong, my buddy. it is well trained!

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 11:16 PM
It'll stop him from repeating those crimes on his family. That's all he's got to worry about.

Bonnie you are perfect proof as to why a woman should never be President of the United States.
Lol

barden
09-05-2008, 11:22 PM
it appears that this door handle was previously replaced before. i wonder why and by whom.
see? my little outburst has opened this mystery up for me! i would never have known.

they did a shit job!

cork_soaker
09-05-2008, 11:23 PM
http://img50.imageshack.us/img50/9559/attachmentzp0.jpg

Mablak
09-05-2008, 11:25 PM
I suppose fucking him up a bit would serve to make him less liable to repeat crimes, but I don't know if it'll be that effective. I'm not sure to what extent I could call it self-defense, just make sure you don't do it out of eye for an eye justice.

barden
09-05-2008, 11:25 PM
haha

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 11:25 PM
del

wHATcOLOR
09-05-2008, 11:26 PM
don't call his number and stuff. that'll spook him and he'll have his guard up, probably start carrying a weapon or something.

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 11:26 PM
del

barden
09-05-2008, 11:27 PM
the haha was for corck soakers response, not yours mablak!

Sigh. It's a tricky situation.
We'll see how it pans out.

at least i cant go there right now and it'll be a little bit before I can, so maybe i will settle.

barden
09-05-2008, 11:28 PM
corck!
ouch.

alexthestampede
09-05-2008, 11:30 PM
A whole new piece of shit. And not even only the second.
My mother sure knows how to pick them.
She could recruit an army of scum, I swear.

this is liek the third time it's happened and youve posted about it. maybe you should just emancipate yourself emotionally from her bad-man loving self

alexthestampede
09-05-2008, 11:31 PM
id get your siblings out of there, too. your mom is just gonna keep bringing these guys home

barden
09-05-2008, 11:31 PM
At times like these I look at photos of my girlfriend and tell myself how lucky I am.

And I’m listening to Talib Kweli…
WAITING FOR THE DJ TO… LET YOUR BODY ROCK… SO I CAN SHOW YOU JUST WHAT I GOT!

I’ve always loved this song. it has just been added to my collection.

barden
09-05-2008, 11:32 PM
this is liek the third time it's happened and youve posted about it. maybe you should just emancipate yourself emotionally from her bad-man loving self


Well, it was one guy previously that I mentioned, and then probably my brothers father, who I grew up with, and who was abusive with us for a few years.

Yeah, it's a pretty stupid cycle.
I have a strange relationship with my mother. it is very tense.

barden
09-05-2008, 11:35 PM
id get your siblings out of there, too. your mom is just gonna keep bringing these guys home

Well, my older sister was visiting when the shit happened. Shes 29 this year, has her own place and kid and such. But sheís a strange one that.

My mom looks after my brother. Sheís just lonely and stupid sometimes and it drives me fucking crazy. I told her Iíd take him if it happened again with the same guy. If she let him back.
Iím his legal guardian if anything happens to her, before his father, so maybe Iíd have some clout.

barden
09-05-2008, 11:36 PM
This life has been an interesting ride so far.

cork_soaker
09-05-2008, 11:57 PM
del

Well I certainly didn't notice

ohnoitsbonnie
09-05-2008, 11:59 PM
(.)(.)

cork_soaker
09-05-2008, 11:59 PM
you have lovely eyes

ohnoitsbonnie
09-06-2008, 12:05 AM
(I)(I)