seriously, i don't think i've ever been in worse shape. and i see it rippling across everyone i know as well. what is going on in the universe?

i miss feeling loved
:( :( :( :(

penis

seriously, i don't think i've ever been in worse shape. and i see it rippling across everyone i know as well.



i hate this too, its like I try to get things off my mind by being social, but I see it in everyone else as well.

Yeah, life does fucking suck. I'm out of school, have a crappy job, and don't know what to do next. It drives me crazy.
Plus I don't think I will ever find a girlfriend.

No, I'm not 16

everyone i know has split up with their significant other, all at the same time. but mine is the worst because they like breed off of chaos and they're all drug-addled and alcoholics so it was sort of like 'oh shocker' but mine was a stable six year relationship that has left me totally fucking empty and spinning.

god damn it, i'm going to kill ashley. no one fucks with our dom-inator and gets away with it

go on a trip / plan a trip, sounds like you really need a change of scenery

i like this board because it reminds me im not the only one with these problem

What happened, Dom?

My two best friends that I grew up with are both getting married. I don't talk to them anymore. One of them I don't talk to because his fiance is an evil bitch, and the other one because we just basically don't talk anymore. Not for any specific reason.

go on a trip / plan a trip, sounds like you really need a change of scenery


yeah thats another thing im broke essentially. i have money but i have more debt so i feel like i shouldnt spend any money until i have the debt down. ashley and our mutual friend want to go to sasquatch and want me to come and i need to figure out basically by today if i want to go

i know i cant afford it but ugh i want to go with her and have fun like we used to i miss her so much

you guys are insane. Earth is fucking cool. My only complaint is that I probably won't be around long enough to reap the rewards that stem cell advancements will provide. I'm gonna miss living on this planet.

My only complaint is that I probably won't be around long enough to reap the rewards that stem cell advancements will provide.
How old are you?

How old are you?

25.. no one currently alive will benefit from stem cells.

hey dom wanna hitch hike with me across the US? i'll meet you in LA.

hey dom wanna hitch hike with me across the US? i'll meet you in LA.

hey Thaniel, what albums will you bring with you? Any SP by chance?

What happened, Dom?

ashley and i broke up, and i know in my heart that everything will be okay in some way its just going to take a really long time and i'm going to have to just swallow my hurt a little and try not to totally freak out...but i still have so many unanswered questions like:

why does it seem like she doesnt care at all? i understand that she can ignore her feelings better than like anyone i know but how does it not manifest itself in ANY visible way?

how can she see me so in pain and not want to fucking help me? ive seen her in the same pain and all it took was like a day for me to realize what i was doing was totally wrong and selfish and stupid and that we belong together.

can i even make it on my own? do i even know what i want to do enough to actually pursue it and make it happen? how can i get over my own limitations / fears / etc. i feel like i dont have any solid ground to stand on. i should take a photo of my living situation its not even funny its so bad



i know we need time to really figure out who we are as individuals before we can even attempt to be together again but i always thought we'd figure everything out together. its naive maybe but i thought we'd grow old together regardless of any little detours we'd take along the way. maybe this is one of those detours and i just have to trust that everything will be okay? i'm so afraid to let go though because what if she doesn't come back? or what if i don't want to come back after so long?

i miss her

buck up. seriously.

Maybe she just doesn't want to let you see how much she's hurt or troubled? I know this sounds kinda out there, but every time I asked myself this question that was the answer.

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25.. no one currently alive will benefit from stem cells.
you don't know that. breakthroughs happen all the time. I'm 24 and I would not be surprised if stem cell research offers something significant to both you and I in our lifetimes.

seriously, i don't think i've ever been in worse shape. and i see it rippling across everyone i know as well. what is going on in the universe?

i miss feeling loved
:( :( :( :(

Your gf was so hot...

yea he probably doesnt need to be reminded of that

Yeah life is basically a shitty way of passing time.
I'm never truly happy, and I'll be lonely and miserable for the rest of my life, I know this for a fact.
At least I have my cats. =)

Who pee on my bed.
But at least I have that.

you know what you have to do.

No not really.

Who pee on my bed.
But at least I have that.
At least you have what? Wondering who pissed on your bed?!

yeah it kind of does. eh.

not always though.

At least you have what? Wondering who pissed on your bed?!

:erm: No my cats.

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i had hoped we wouldn't ever see this day

What day

i had hoped we wouldn't ever see this day

well, what are you going to do about it now?

:erm:

Women - the greatest scam in the universe.

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What day


the day ashely and dom aren't together

well, what are you going to do about it now?


you're a horrendous boarder

you're a horrendous boarder

you are one of my heroes

6 years is a long time, breaking up over something little will drive you nuts... If she doesn't really care maybe she was just getting bored? becoming too much like bros+sis? nevermind..

but yeah I totally feel for you... what you're going through just sounds like a triple fold of the shit I could get into (i.e. g/f for two years could break up with me...I'm broke but not in debt...)

Hope things work out.

<3 S'okay, Dom. Look at outside and take a deep breath and drink some tea and enjoy what you've got. It's gonna be soooooooo hard to not think about her, but you can do it. *hug*

i know she cares i just cant understand why she doesnt let her guard down ONCE to say something like 'god i miss you' or anything....i know shes just doing her best to ignore it caues thats how she deals with her emotions. i just know shes hurting too and i want to be there around her and help her and it would help me too but i know what we need is space. she said shes afraid of like just being like fuck it we miss each other too much and getting back 'together' but none of the underlying problems (too codependant, basically) will be solved so this will just happen again in the future and by then there may be TOO MANY resentments and the relationship will really grind to a complete halt. and i see the truth in that but i .... want to get inside her head and see that YES I DO STILL LOVE DOMINIC TO DEATH you know what i mean?

and i miss her laugh and i miss all of the little couple things that we did or even just those like really really quiet moments where we could just sit next to each other not saying anything and its just so fucking comfortable and good. i feel like i took it all for granted and im really stupid for not stopping and saying 'these are the things you need to remember cause one day it wont be here'. i feel like someone died and ive had too many people die in the last year - i dont want to be forced to mourn our relationship when theres still a chance it could be okay, you know?

i'm such a woman

being a woman at a time when she needs a MAN (read: me) is not good.

someone called me 'emo' today :erm:

that fucking sucks man.
it really does seem like any relationship at all, will always end in heartache sooner or later.
its only a matter of time

how can she see me so in pain and not want to fucking help me? ive seen her in the same pain and all it took was like a day for me to realize what i was doing was totally wrong and selfish and stupid and that we belong together.


so if both of you would fuel your own selfish needs by being apart, were you together for the good of mankind or what was the reason?

i really think our bond is stronger than all of these petty things though, i just cant freak out to her too much because what this needs is true space. she even said that she still knows we are 'soulmates' , not the hallmark-esque idea but that we have a connection that transcends all labels. ive been her best friend for 11 years, together as a couple for 6. that kind of bond doesnt go away over night. its a combination of factors, i'm just having a hard time dealing with the transition especially since i dont really understand what we're transitioning into. i guess i just have to trust that everything will be okay eventually and that she still loves me regardless of how miuch hurt i feel right now.

it just really sucks not to sleep in the same bed as her, or come home to find her reading or sewing or whatever. i miss it so much.

hey dom, lets sit around and talk about all the depressing relationship shit together!
I'm starting to feel pretty crazy because of a guy, and I don't like it. I don't like it at all... no matter how hard I try, I just can't not be paranoid. BAH!

so if both of you would fuel your own selfish needs by being apart, were you together for the good of mankind or what was the reason?

im not really sure i understand this question but i'll take a stab at it?

if you are asking 'if you both want to be apart why were you ever together'...

well, of course relationships ebb and flow and at one point i wanted more space (didnt break up with her for it though) and now she wants more space but this time its more of a combination of like 5 different things....only 1 of which is really our relationship. so yeah we stayed together because....we love each other? its not that we desperately wanted to be single the entire time, but we have been together since we were 16...our entire adult lives have been spent together and our identities have been so blurred. i dont even think of myself as 'dominic' i think of us as a unit. its really difficult to alter that so suddenly. but then again, its not like we both dont have our own interests and stuff to fall back on. i know what i want to do, she knows what she wants to do. hopefully in the future our interests will realign and we can be together again?

another reason why i think she can deal with this a lot better than i can, in addition to being the one who initiated the space apart, is that she still lives in her own house so she has all of the same comforts she always had. i had to move out, i sleep in my dads living room, i dont ever get any privacy at all, im living out of plastic bags, etc. so yeah i'm taking it hard

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:erm:

seriously, i don't think i've ever been in worse shape. and i see it rippling across everyone i know as well. what is going on in the universe?

i miss feeling loved
:( :( :( :(

a little piece of random info - as animals, emotions can be sent out and "shared"

so when you are feeling bad, others (especially close friends) can subconciously bring themselves to the same level of emotion as you

probably not but I was just having fun being a boffin haha

just go out!! ..or think? thinking always helps

penis

hell yes penis red bull saves the day penis

a little piece of random info - as animals, emotions can be sent out and "shared"

so when you are feeling bad, others (especially close friends) can subconciously bring themselves to the same level of emotion as you

probably not but I was just having fun being a boffin haha

just go out!! ..or think? thinking always helps



yeah i know that people feed off each others energy
but i was kind of in hiding the first month after i moved out
and simultaneously all of my friends who were couples all split up as well
so now we're all in the same place i guess

your whining only shows how weak you are and that you never deserved to be loved in the first place

yeah i know that people feed off each others energy
but i was kind of in hiding the first month after i moved out
and simultaneously all of my friends who were couples all split up as well
so now we're all in the same place i guess

I bet you if you go to a friends (specifically perhaps a friend of a friend) house party you will have the time of your life and get laid and wasted all in one night

thats what I used to do after breaking up

seriously, i don't think i've ever been in worse shape. and i see it rippling across everyone i know as well. what is going on in the universe?

i miss feeling loved
:( :( :( :(

Why can't we say this all the time? I love you.

*boop*

I want to shout it from the rooftop.

you're a horrendous boarder

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<i>Part of Speech: adjective</i>
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unholy :rockon:

i think i overuse the word "horrendous."

kind of takes the edge off it.

grab that one girl she's jealous of and nail it solid.

everyone i know has split up with their significant other, all at the same time. but mine is the worst

selfish

i think i overuse the word "horrendous."

kind of takes the edge off it.



i really got into saying it a few years ago when i heard my friend's (then) 16 year old brother call deanna troi a horrendous slut when we were watching the next generation. i think she was breaking up with riker or something on the show, and he was imitating her voice and syaing 'well, i just want to not be with you.. because i am a horrendous slut'

btw dom sure it sucks but sack up

why would she want to take back a crying little daddy's boy who lives out of garbage bags, doesn't have a place of his own, and acts like a little girl about everything?

two words: sack up.

maybe he had a rough childhood

my life is fantastic. should i start a different thread?

ashley and our mutual friend want to go to sasquatch and want me to come and i need to figure out basically by today if i want to go

i know i cant afford it but ugh i want to go with her and have fun like we used to i miss her so much

Don't do it. She is trying to be sympathetic, but it is a hollow gesture that will only serve to prolong the inevitable.

Do yourself a favor and cut all ties with her.

oh by the way

'tis better to have loved and lost blahblah

chin up

Don't do it. She is trying to be sympathetic, but it is a hollow gesture that will only serve to prolong the inevitable.

Do yourself a favor and cut all ties with her.



i guess no one really fucking understands that the vast majority of our relationship has been pretty unconventional, and that we've been BEST FRIENDS for half our lives, so advice like this is doesnt work in our situation and just plain won't happen. this isnt a 'dude this chick ive been dating has gone batshit crazy fuck that imma get a new one', our lives have been like completely intertwined since we were like 12. we love each other beyond being a couple, shes family to me and despite anything that happens i will always be there for her and i know she would always be there for me...its just right now we need space and i...cant handle it because my comfort zone has been completely stripped from me.

what if shes perfectly fine with how things are now? what now? i dont think its a good idea for you to keep telling yourself that you guys are basically soulmates either.

because she isnt fine, tells me we are soulmates, and just wants to get the fuck off this island to be alone. shes kind of freaking out, and its a long freak out , totally uncharacteristic, she keeps telling me she knows shes treating everyone like shit including her mom and sister that she lives with, and even said she thinks shes trying to destroy herself and her relationships and stuff. so i'm not going to let that happen. just like a couple days ago when we were hanging out she said she misses me being around but if we just got back together, the underlying thing which is really 'can i do shit on my own completely independant of another person?' will still be there -- for both of us. and that won't fix anything.

i know all of this intellectually , that the best thing for both of us to do is to stay separate but not angry or bitter at each other, realize that we both need to get strong as individuals prove to ourselves that we can handle our own lives without the crutch of a significant other, then maybe if we do that one day we'll take a look at each other and be like 'yeah its time again' and gravitate towards one another. i know thats the right thing to do, and i know i have to do it, but it still fucking really really hurts and right now i'm totally lost and afraid and wondering about all of the whatifs and questioning if she actually loves me still and if not, when did she stop loving me, and what if she finds some 'straight' guy who would be better for her etc etc -- you know all of the bruised ego kind of questions that i know are stupid and i could never get answers to that would satisfy my curiosity so why even bother. IT JUST FUCKING SUCKS

and everyone who knows us both really well is like 'listen everyone knows that you and ashley are meant for each other and that you guys will always be together in some form' the whole thing is just so weird, and i KNOW ashley in and out and she can tell me whatever she wants and put up a bravado but i know that this whole thing is wreaking havoc on her. she even said she just cant let herself think about any of it or else she'll just cry all the time, so she just keeps ignoring it and pushing it aside and thinking of the next thing to do or place to go. i know that isnt healthy at all but i cant help her with it. its something she needs to deal with herself. i just hope she deals with it the right way and doesnt end up shutting me out for good

because she isnt fine, tells me we are soulmates, and just wants to get the fuck off this island to be alone. shes kind of freaking out, and its a long freak out , totally uncharacteristic, she keeps telling me she knows shes treating everyone like shit including her mom and sister that she lives with, and even said she thinks shes trying to destroy herself and her relationships and stuff. so i'm not going to let that happen. just like a couple days ago when we were hanging out she said she misses me being around but if we just got back together, the underlying thing which is really 'can i do shit on my own completely independant of another person?' will still be there -- for both of us. and that won't fix anything.

i know all of this intellectually , that the best thing for both of us to do is to stay separate but not angry or bitter at each other, realize that we both need to get strong as individuals prove to ourselves that we can handle our own lives without the crutch of a significant other, then maybe if we do that one day we'll take a look at each other and be like 'yeah its time again' and gravitate towards one another. i know thats the right thing to do, and i know i have to do it, but it still fucking really really hurts and right now i'm totally lost and afraid and wondering about all of the whatifs and questioning if she actually loves me still and if not, when did she stop loving me, and what if she finds some 'straight' guy who would be better for her etc etc -- you know all of the bruised ego kind of questions that i know are stupid and i could never get answers to that would satisfy my curiosity so why even bother. IT JUST FUCKING SUCKS


Sorry to hear all this mang, its fucking brutal to loose some you you truly love, you are going to take it on the chin, get on with things and trust she gets her shit together. Besides its not good for you to be around some one who doesn't know themselves.

PM me if you want to rant and rave

let her get a couple of other dicks in her system before you try to win her back

just what the doctor ordered.

no one is made for each other. what a naive and immature concept.

she is strong and you are weak. she defeated you. let's go smoke some weed, weakling.

you could always go back to smoking pole

i'm sorry, i don't know why i said that.

no one is made for each other. what a naive and immature concept.

she is strong and you are weak. she defeated you. let's go smoke some weed, weakling.

ass

"ass". could you back up this argument a bit? amplify your response? i won't waste time on interpreting your juvenile position, "smashingjj".

Why can't we say this all the time? I love you.

*boop*

I want to shout it from the rooftop.

this made me smile :)
I was going to rep you for it instead, but apparently I haven't spread enough around yet.

"ass". could you back up this argument a bit? amplify your response? i won't waste time on interpreting your juvenile position, "smashingjj".

well quite frankly - you are bit on the no feelings what-so-ever arnold swartzenegger side

please stop speaking for smashingjj, he is much more capable of self defence than you are

:^[