i'm a boring person, who after coming home from work prefers not to hang out with people or do anything social. I like ot sit on the computer and watch tv. play video games.. chill with dan.
a "friend" comes over often to ask me to go out to the bars, go out dancing.. wahthaveyou. i've never said yes. she still comes over and asks again and again. in truth, she annoys the hell out of me, but i like her sometimes.
i smoke marlboro lights. drink whatever red wine, or beer is around.
i really like mushrooms, steaks, cheeses, apples and peanutbutter mixed with honey.
i bite my nails, and pick at my cuticles. i pop zits and twirl my hair.
i go through phases of depression where i feel the need to hurt myself like i used to in high school
i feel myself superior in maturity and life to many, although i know i am naive and often quite blonde (natural brunette)
i love meticulous things and trying ot understand. math, programming, taking crap apart, fixing things, working with my hands (if i wasn't lazy, i'd love to build things or do home improvement type stuff)
i read up and learn in depth about ridiculous things like birth control, illness or animal care.
i have two cats a dog and a whole bunch of fish. if i could i'd have more animals. at one point i had 7 parakeets and two cockatiels, i love animals.
i am a slob, i only clean up after myself when i realize that it's starting to build up.
i love baths, reading and or sleeping in a bath full of lavender bubbles is wonderful.
dan is my first, and i don't regret it, in fact, i think i have one of the best relationships i've even heard of
i own an 80$ mahjong set i've never ever used. i still don't know how to play
i like magic the gathering, rollplay, and rpgs
i believe in karma, ghosts, and dragons.
as superior as i often think i am, i have issues with feeling up-to-par with the world and myself
i thrive off of praise
i'm an optimist.

tl; dr

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i really liked that!

Originally posted by ammy

i read up and learn in depth about ridiculous things like birth control, illness or animal care.


these things aren't ridiculous, its awesome.

this thread was not for you all to read about me persay, but to post about you as well.

but since i'm being honest, i enjoy the attention :o

I already knew most of these things.

-Most of the time, I'd prefer sitting at home with the boyfriend than running all over town like many of my friends do.
-I don't like to drink alcohol- first of all, I think beer is nasty, and also family history makes me think that drinking isn't such a good idea.
-I quit smoking a few months ago.
-I really really enjoy sitting out by the pool or in a park on a nice day with a book.
-I love my lakehouse- it was my grandparents's house, but they passed away, so now it's just like a vacation place.
-I love my cat
-I like sitting by the fire when it's nice and cold outside. I love the cracking sound it makes
-I hate my job. It's quite boring, doesn't pay me enough, nor do I get enough hours.
-I want to be a teacher when I get out of school.
-I'm a packrat.

-i'm confused
-i'm a slob *high five Ammy ;(
-i'm a noob
-i'm not popular
-i love animals
-i am a pessismest, but ironically i have these huge dreams for my future (ex:becoming a professional sports player), but then I realize there's no chance and give up.
-i'm pathetic
-i criticize other people a lot even if i like them (i just have to get things out of my system)
-i feel stupid so grades are really important to me
-i'm kind of a penny pincher

ok ok you convinced me!

-most of the time i like just chatting on the internet during the day. watching tv or reading.
-i love being able to read a book before bed for as long as i want, but class gets in the way of that
-i like alcohol in all forms except in orange juice or tequila or warm.
-ice is the best thing that's ever happened to water.
-i drink water constantly because it makes me feel better
-i get miffed when people act like one day i'm going to be really fat because i finished off two bags of chips this week. i'm the only one i know who eats as much vegetables and fruits as i do.
-at night i get stir crazy and want to go anywhere to do anything.
-life seems so much more enjoyable when you have a tiny cute crush
-i must have a daily coke and my computer.
-the glass is going to be empty eventually so you have to prepare for that. i don't think i'm an optimist but i'm not a pessimist that much either.
-most people find me really easy to talk to once they find out how much of a dork i am.
-i end up with weird bruises and cut my hands/arms without realizing it until the morning.
-sometimes i wish i lived in the 60's.
-i really really really really wish i could stretch like mr. fantastic or be telekinetic like jean grey

Originally posted by Oranjes
-i am a pessismest-add bad speller to the list..
OH and I'm really annoying.

Originally posted by kristin xp

-the glass is going to be empty eventually so you have to prepare for that. i don't think i'm an optimist but i'm not a pessimist that much either.

i feel the same way. i don't expect things to happen, i always prepare for the worst. but even if the worst happens, i realize life is cyclic and karmatic and that it must get better

i love paying bills and budgeting.
doing that right now. i get paid tonight

Originally posted by ammy


i feel the same way. i don't expect things to happen, i always prepare for the worst. but even if the worst happens, i realize life is cyclic and karmatic and that it must get better

blind optimism kinda aggrivates me though. i hate it when people talk about something that might happen as if it's inevitable i.e. "i'm going to get an internship in the west wing next summer" "you'll be fine"

I don't like many people.

I have a complete adoration for family-friendly things and childhood nostalgia.

I want to be a professional writer but I've stopped having good ideas, or being confident with my existing ideas, for a few years now.

I never feel comfortable or safe unless I'm in a relationship.

I like one of my sisters, but not the other.

I hate dogs.

I'm unemployed.

I don't get the hype.

normally i would follow suit but i shall create one of my own "a bit about me" threads one of these days

i'm bittersweet

i gravitate towards male friends than female friends

i like recycled things- i have a trench coat dress, a licence plate handbag and i made a bathing suit from beer bottle caps

i don't like confrontation or competition

i played classical piano for 12 years- but i'll never be as good as my parents

i like hot weather

i have an addictive personality, but i've been smart enough to force myself to curb it

i like lingerie

i enjoy psychology and collect books on that and sociology

Originally posted by alisonmonster
i made a bathing suit from beer bottle caps HEY YA. (Insert OUTKAST picture)

Originally posted by Oranjes
HEY YA. (Insert OUTKAST picture)

aw shit they did that too? i bet it wasent Waterloo Dark caps though.so im not entirely unoriginal (yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss fist pump)

i'm kind of intense
i dislike when i feel lazy
i get into ruts fairly easily
i am pretty hard on myself
i feel really confident sometimes, and other times i have to remind myself that i should be feeling confident
most of my friends are a lot more successful than i
i make myself sick by worrying and not eating occasionally
i get the strong feeling that this is my very first time through life, and that may not be the case for everyone
i'm really emotional but there isn't really a good outlet for that that i know of
i feel really unworthy of my family, i feel like i'm a bad son and a bad brother
i want to be so much better but i keep making myself sick
i waver a lot, meaning that i will feel strongly about something and then kind of ease up on it later on, and then quite often return to something close to my original stance
i think balance is what i need most, yet i tend to stay away from it in several arenas because i fear it will make things less exciting
i always have to remind myself of the fundamentals of health, such as eating properly, exercising, and getting enough sleep
i don't really have anyone to help me with anything, so i'm kind of just out there and i don't have certain things together that i'd like to have together
i feel i am getting significantly wiser, and that i need to work on implementing the wisdom into my actions so i'm not a fraud or hypocrite
there is much more

I have a computer!

you Lie!

NO IXZ TROO!

i can be annoying
i love clutter
i love video games
i hate to cook
i have 2 computers
an extra monitor thats been sitting on the floor for months.
im diabetic but i still eat candy.
i think ammy is awesome
hell i know she is

Originally posted by The Stars Fell
i
i think ammy is awesome
hell i know she is

i need a little desk-kelly to whisper sweet nothings

i'm still pretty depressed about my cat being poisoned in may that i had for close to 6 years. he was all mine, not a family pet, not shared. he only loved me that much, and now he's gone:(

you believe in dragons?

Originally posted by ammy


i need a little desk-kelly to whisper sweet nothings :(

Originally posted by akaneironokaze
you believe in dragons?

sure do.

Originally posted by The Stars Fell
:(

:confused:

i read it wrong. haha. um..

hey ammy.

do you want us to do the same.

Originally posted by pee pee colada
hey ammy.

do you want us to do the same.

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obviously not.

Originally posted by alisonmonster


aw shit they did that too? i bet it wasent Waterloo Dark caps though.so im not entirely unoriginal (yesssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss fist pump) no.. no.. I meant that's really cool. And "HEY YA," was supposed to be my way of saying "AWESOME."

i hate video games

on average i sleep around 10 hours a day

i too like magic the gathering good call on that one ammy

i always feel like im wasting my life whenever i do something like go on the internet or watch television

i often lie to myself and others to make a situation be in my favor

i love cats and loathe dogs

i hate most people i meet sometimes even my friends

i wanted to be a teacher but now im a 19 year old college drop-out instead

i drink mountain dew almost every day

i can never think of anything to say on the phone or on instant messenger though i consider myself a good conversationalist

i like my job
i generally work less than 25 hours per week
come august i'll be living in a hotel room free of charge until i save up money to move out to wherever i want
but really the only place i want to move to is toronto
i dont really do anything as much as i'd like to
i'm convinced that i don't read very much because i can never find a good position to sit in with a book
i never come home exausted so i end up sitting on the computer until around 4am
brian dionisi wants to punch me in the face
i never finish anything.
i don't hate republicans, but i hate that they are republicans.
i have 6 stickers on my the back of my car. "Imagine" "Fuck Work" "Kerry Edwards" "This is Indian Land" "This Town Kills Its Kids" and "Jimmy Chamberlin Complex"
I generally love animals, but pet dogs depress the hell out of me. Not because they are pathetic and vitally/emotionally dependant on their owners but because man fucking domesticated them so they would be that way.
I love waffle house

Originally posted by alisonmonster
i'm bittersweet

i gravitate towards male friends than female friends

i like recycled things- i have a trench coat dress, a licence plate handbag and i made a bathing suit from beer bottle caps

i don't like confrontation or competition

i played classical piano for 12 years- but i'll never be as good as my parents

i like hot weather

i have an addictive personality, but i've been smart enough to force myself to curb it

i like lingerie

i enjoy psychology and collect books on that and sociology that sounds a lot like me, minus the beer bottle bikini.

Originally posted by pee pee colada
i'm convinced that i don't read very much because i can never find a good position to sit in with a book


Good one.

Originally posted by Phobophile


Good one. how do you read?

i read a lot.
i pray a lot even though i am not religious, and don't even particularly direct my beliefs one way or the other. i guess it is more like meditation that praying.
i am affected by other people's energies a lot.
i can be very defensive.
i can't sit still through a movie most of the time.
i have grown to like a few anime shows recently.
i take pictures of my cat.
i don't forget faces.
i forget names.
i am very frugal but also unneccesarily self-indulgent.
i pretty much always know what i want.
i like to walk around naked, swim naked, sleep naked, whatever.
i am a good listener but i want to fix everything.
i have been panicky and anxious lately.
my life sucked for the last few months and is improving now.
i am friends with all my exes.
i love paisley.
i need to take a shower.
i own seventeen hats.
i sleep rarely.
i eat frequently.
i am lucky to have many amazing people in my life.
i am paranoid.
i am calm.
i can pretty much adapt to anything.
except i am a leader and do not do well in subservient positions.
i find it difficult to let people really know me sometimes.
i am very serious yet i find most things funny in one way or another.
my life is going to be changing a lot really soon.
i take comfort in people who understand me, music, and being a workaholic/compulsive neurotic freak in more ways than one.

-i feel like i'm doing anything at all with my life because i'm waiting for school to be over, and i'm waiting to get my own life.
-it seems like i've outgrown nearly every aspect of my current life, therefore ^.
-i judge people really, really quickly, and always notice the negative parts of them first.
-i really don't like meeting new people, i can be very shy sometimes.
-this year i haven't really done any school work, yet i think i'm going to do just fine in exams.
-one of my major aspirations in life at the moment is to post more on netphoria
-i don't have a girlfriend
-i need a girlfriend
-i want to play music after i leave school, yet aside from at band practises i barely touch my guitar or any other instrument.
-i spent all my time dreaming about great songs i am going to write, but never get around to it
-i want to read more, even though i already read a lot
-i try to act as smart as possible, but it doesn't always work.
-most people my age disgust me, i don't understand them at all.
-i like to think that parties suck, and generally avoid socialising, but when i do i always enjoy myself.

great thread ammy

there's so much i could add to mine but i won't

-I'm probably one of the most mature (thanks netphoria) but most fun 16yr old you'll meet.
-I don't smoke (never have)... I drink very rarely
-I know more bands and I like better music and understand music than every person my age I know
-no one really hates me in real life
-I have many friends, but only a few close ones
-the only real genuine reason I have to be depressed is a unrequited love thats been going on for two years
-I'm spending the summer at a place without any friends for a month.
-I'm not political in any way
-I'm unsure about my belief in religion
-I am picky about food, but I like burgers, pizza, sushi...
-I'm a B student, but if I actually tried, it could be better.
-I've loved one person my entire life, it's not shared though (she knows)
-In a period in 8th grade, from beginning to end, I went from a fat kid with braces, glasses, and a shaved head to someone with longer hair, no glasses, no braces, with a 60lb weight loss. its amazing how many people treat you differently based on looks.
-I want to either be a music journalist, a baseball journalist, or teach English in Japan when I'm older.
-I work at Subway for the summer for maybe 25-30 hours a week.
-if you ask anyone in my school, if they knew me, they'd call me the most unique
-I play bass in a band that isn't emo or ska or metal (yes, rare for a high school band)
-I only like a few video games, but when I like them, I'm addicted.
-I'm a night owl... usually up to 4AM at least.
-I don't read any books unless they instruct me to do useful things
-I'm still not content with my body
-I like movies quite a bit, though I rarely watch one
-my family aren't assholes most of the time
-I'm a big sports fan
-I can hate people who don't hate me back rather easily
-Netphoria has probably shaped my attitude quite a bit considering I joined here when I was 11 or 12, and those seem to be influential years. haha.
-I'm friends with a diverse group of people because I don't judge on looks

Originally posted by Ensoul

-I work at Subway for the summer for maybe 25-30 hours a week.
oh me too. i have worked there for waaaay too long. i keep the job around just because.

Originally posted by Ensoul
-I'm probably one of the most mature (thanks netphoria) but most fun 16yr old you'll meet.
-I don't smoke (never have)... I drink very rarely
-I know more bands and I like better music and understand music than every person my age I know
-no one really hates me in real life
-I have many friends, but only a few close ones
-the only real genuine reason I have to be depressed is a unrequited love thats been going on for two years
-I'm spending the summer at a place without any friends for a month.
-I'm not political in any way
-I'm unsure about my belief in religion
-I am picky about food, but I like burgers, pizza, sushi...
-I'm a B student, but if I actually tried, it could be better.
-I've loved one person my entire life, it's not shared though (she knows)
-In a period in 8th grade, from beginning to end, I went from a fat kid with braces, glasses, and a shaved head to someone with longer hair, no glasses, no braces, with a 60lb weight loss. its amazing how many people treat you differently based on looks.
-I want to either be a music journalist, a baseball journalist, or teach English in Japan when I'm older.
-I work at Subway for the summer for maybe 25-30 hours a week.
-if you ask anyone in my school, if they knew me, they'd call me the most unique
-I play bass in a band that isn't emo or ska or metal (yes, rare for a high school band)
-I only like a few video games, but when I like them, I'm addicted.
-I'm a night owl... usually up to 4AM at least.
-I don't read any books unless they instruct me to do useful things
-I'm still not content with my body
-I like movies quite a bit, though I rarely watch one
-my family aren't assholes most of the time
-I'm a big sports fan
-I can hate people who don't hate me back rather easily
-Netphoria has probably shaped my attitude quite a bit considering I joined here when I was 11 or 12, and those seem to be influential years. haha.
-I'm friends with a diverse group of people because I don't judge on looks thanks for making me feel retarded and inferior.

Originally posted by Ensoul


haha what? you're a BETTER human than I am and you've accomplished twice as much.. AND I'm 19.

i started answering this but it was so depressing even i didn't want to read it

i hate you you you and you i don't even know you and i hate you i hope all the bad things in the world happen to you and only you

Originally posted by neopryn
i started answering this but it was so depressing even i didn't want to read it
thats really sad, man.

i made a list. but then deleted it. because it was all like 'I HATE.. ' I HATE.. i suck. suck suiskc !!

:o

I wear a cowboy hat around the house sometimes for the hell of it.
I like to think I dress well.
I smoke a pack a day of cigarettes.
I drive a 97 Toyota Corolla. It's covered in mesquite leaves and sap.
I don't watch the news but I stay abreast of most of the news that matters.
I just said abreast. Tee hee.
I hate giving advice because it seems people do the opposite of what I suggest.
I really like chorizo.
I'm trying to learn to be clean.
I am in a lot of debt.
I was once fired from a job after three days.
I occassionally slip into dialect for comedic purposes.
I eat doritos with cottage cheese.
I like bright shiny contrasting colors in art. Lots of green is good, too.
I think Toccara Jones is scrumptious.
I think a lot of my issues lie in the fact that I'm a black man in a white man's body.
Just kiddng.
No, I'm serious. I'm chocolate on the inside.
Haha, don't believe it.
No, for real.
I like comic books, and anime by extension, but I think most of it is really pedantic.
I fancy myself a steampunk writer.
I know about politics but I think it's extremely impolite to talk about them.
I still haven't found what I'm looking for.

-I am running out of money to pay for college.
-I want to transfer to the university of chicago to study physics, but its too expensive.
-I am in love with this girl since highschool. We are close. but she doesn't like me that way.
-This is ruining my life because I can't seem to let go of her. She's acting like a bitch right now, and that hurts.
-I am very friendly if you get to know me.
-I love my parents.
-I like helping people.
-I don't like attention.
-I love dogs. But I don't like cats too much, because they are very selfish.
-I like Tequila. I hate beer. I used to smoke a little weed from time to time, but I stopped.
-I hate onions.
-I am homophobic, but I'm trying to be more accepting.
-Lesbians are cool though.
-I used to like partying but now its getting dull.
-I am 21 years old.
-I play guitar but I can't sing at all.
-Maybe I need a girlfriend.
-I wouldn't mind buying a $400 iPod and starving for the next couple of weeks.
-I have only two pairs of jeans right now.
-I feel that nobody really knows me.
-I like to daydream.
-I am on holiday on tiny tropical island.
-Daytona Beach sucks nearly all year round.

daytona isn't that bad.

Oh yes it is! Its full of retired old men and highschool girls with STD.
I guess its okay, if your coming down for spring break, but thats about it!

Originally posted by Dr Riot
full of retired old menOriginally posted by Dr Riot
full of highschool girls with STDsThat means...... EWWW. Gross!

- i'm younger than all the people i hang around with.
- i like to think that the music i make is good.
- i'm 16.
- i'm male, for god's sake.
- i smoke.
- i drink alcohol, but not to much, since i don't have very much money.
- i sometimes smoke weed. but not that often.
- i read a lot.
- i think a lot.
- i had a cat, but he got stolen a few months ago.
- i believe in role models.
- i have no style or something.
- actually i'm pretty boring.
- i could be a lot better in school, but somehow i'm too lazy (if lazy is the right word).
- i had the depressions "normal" guys have when they are 17 when i was 13. that sucked.
- i feel like i'm an 18-year-old. then i remember my actual age and feel stupid (so i guess i wish i was older than i really am).
- people say i'm funny. that's not true, tho.
- i like my sense of black humour.
- sometimes i can be a huge asshole. i.e. to my younger brother.
- i'm too fat. even tho i don't eat much (sometimes i don't eat anything in 24 hours).
- i wish i was cool.
- oh yeah, i'm arrogant as fuck. really, really, really arrogant.
- i like to think that i'm more intelligent than most people i hang out with.
- i hate people who say they're more mature than anybody their age. 'cause i think everybody said that when they was 16.
- i like italic fonts.
- my very best friend of 4 or 5 years (and counting), on who i started to have a major crush, turned out to be a lesbian. ugh.

and


-i feel like i'm doing anything at all with my life because i'm waiting for school to be over, and i'm waiting to get my own life.

Originally posted by daydreamer999

you = me

i just made french toast and bacon. good stuff.

i love to cook.

Originally posted by Rockin' Cherub

you = me

it's a hard life

- i feel as though i read far too deeply into things and it frustrates me
- i say ill do things and then dont and then avoid dealing with the problem in an attempt to avoid confrontation
- i feel as though i'm living within 'no surprises', a lot of the time
- i wonder if the real reason that people are so into music (and thus escaping themselves) and are so opinionated in the earlier part of their lives is because they cannot yet acknowledge the hypocrisy and ignorance of their views
- and am afraid of aforementioned possibility
- i'm deathly afraid yet very much looking forward to adult life
- if i had access to every drug on earth, i'd probably do them all without a seconds hesitation
- i still don't understand the rules that surround the use of apostrophes
- i have a bunch of awesome friends with whom i have an amazing time, every time before i go out with them i always ask myself 'meh, do i really want to go out tonight?'
- i wonder if my obvious social 'disorders' are purely conceived from my own insecurity or are actually genuine
- i think i'm amazingly pseudo intellectual
- eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeyeah

cue someone saying 'tl; dr'

cue ':rolleyes:'

Originally posted by daydreamer999


it's a hard life
maybe not

you could keep on going with this sort of thing for a long time

Originally posted by Rockin' Cherub

maybe not

huh? i was just kidding

Originally posted by daydreamer999


huh? i was just kidding
i know. remember? you = me.

Originally posted by Rockin' Cherub

i know. remember? you = me.

just clarifying

Originally posted by The Light
that sounds a lot like me, minus the beer bottle bikini.

its scary how a lot of these sound like me to a large extent. though i'm not a hat person. 17?! is it a variety of hats or like 17 different kinds of beanies or somthing :)

-I just woke up and am tired
-There's an enormous zit near the bridge of my nose...closer to one of my eyebrows. that's cool
-I have a canker sore
-I never create anything (songs, stories, etc.) because I'd be afraid of it sucking.
-I don't have any creative outlets.
-I am more intelligent than everyone I hang out with. I'm not sure if I'm more mature. Sometimes I think I am.
-I get involved with things at school just for the hell of it.
-I think everyone likes me.
-I am a little needy.
-I get pissed off when people say they will call and then don't call.
-I enjoy running, but I don't know that I enjoy track anymore.
-I'm seriously considering going to UCLA because I think there would be a lot of attractive people there.
-I think I look good most of the time. Mostly just from the neck down though.
-If I had a bigger chin, I'd be much better looking.
-I love soccer.
-I love NASCAR, and I love Jeff Gordon.
-This current stretch of Jeff Gordon doing really shitty has made my summer that much shittier.
-It's to the point where I don't just want a relationship anymore...I think I need one.
-I feel like I wasted over two years on someone who never cared much about me in the first place.
-I think she's a lying, manipulative, selfish, arrogant bitch, and I think I'd be better off if I never saw her again.
-I think a lot of girls suck.
-I want to go to a drive-in movie.
-I love the new Crunchwrap Supreme from Taco Bell. w/o tomatoes, of course.
-I applied for a job at Dairy Queen yesterday. I don't know why. Well I guess it's because I know two-thirds of the staff. but eh.
-I secretly really, really want to be an actor. Ha.
-I don't want to go to school anymore.
-I played tennis the other day and am now seriously considering going back to it.
-I am in Spanish IV and don't know any Spanish.
-I hate science classes. all of them.
-I feel like I need to shit.
-My hole is filling in kind of strangely.
-I like to buy clothes and wish I had the money to do so.
-Girls become more attractive to me when they are unavailable.
-I don't have any ugly friends. I don't know why. Maybe I'm shallow for noticing that.
-I hate when people have bad breath, and I always fear that I do.
-I don't wear my retainers, and so my teeth are shifting.
-I sleep in my boxers. For some reason I find sleeping naked a little uncomfortable. I plan on trying it again, however.
-I shave my chest and belly. well not all of my belly. but you know.
-I want to get something pierced. Maybe an eyebrow.
-I was naive to think that my relationships were all great and would never end.
-I am now way way way more open to leaving people behind and meeting new ones.
-I cannot wait for college because of that.
-I have no idea what I want to study in college.
-I think I could be a really good musician if I took some time.


Maybe I'll add more later. ha

my parents give me, financially, everything i could ever ask for but i'm loved starved from both of them.
i have this sad habit of getting sick of and annoyed by guys i'm involved with when they care too much about me
my best friend in the whole world is a gay boy who is the most amazing person i could ever ask for, and thinking about him moving away makes me want to burst into tears
i'm extremely wary at expressing affection to most people
i haven't had a kitty since october and i really really really want one
i'm an extremely prolific writer who hates almost everything she writes and only shares a tenth of it with others
i really, really don't like myself very much at all
i'm cripplingly lazy and put things off to hell or just don't do them at all
i have an amazing job, supportive friends and great opportunities for the future but i still find things to complain about.

i hate my life
i hate myself
i'm never going to accomplish anything worth talking about to anyone
i can't communicate with people anyway so it doesnt matter that i have nothing worth talking about
i have absolutely nothing to offer the world
i'm a slob
i'm extremely lazy and want everything i want to be handed to me
i'm exceedingly bitter and mean to everyone either blatantly (on here) or in real life, passive agressively
i'm fat and have very little motivation to lose weight because i've done it before and think i'm hideous anyway
i've never had a friend for longer than a few months, this is usually because i get into fights over stupid things and or because im so horribly unconfident and dont believe anyone likes me or wants to have anything to do with me and only hangs out with me because i'm pathetic and they feel sorry for me so i never make plans with people and usually my feelings are confirmed by the fact that they stop seeking me out to do anything
i think i'm stupid and feel completely out of place when i try to comment on anything beyond "this sucks" or "yeah that's pretty good" and i dont bother to learn more about things because i think i won't understand anyway
the only thing i really like doing is sleeping because even when i'm keeping myself occupied i'm still depressed and insecure and upset in some way
i'm pretty awesome
i have no self control (spending and eating)
somehow, despite all this, i'm pretty hardcore arrogant
my speech patterns are influenced to a pathetic degree by owen wilson, boogie nights, and the online comic Achewood
for some reason, i'm writing two different movies, one of which suddenly became pretty good after i recieved some harsh criticism from another board member and i completely revised the plot (in my head) while keeping a lot of the dialogue and situations that i thought were pretty hilarious and yeah, i'm seriously going to be doing a short film in canada this fall, or winter, or the start of next year. either way it'll be done since the person i'm doing this with has necessary equipment and experienced friends.
i seriously sometimes sincerely wish i was gay
i'm a hardcore athiest and i try to be polite about it but most of the time i think to myself that everyone who believes in that shit is just a complete idiot including Einstein and then I feel like a huge dick
i'm obsessed with final fantasy. i seriously tear up thinking about my first experience with a couple of games in the series and i almost cried when i saw the chicago Dear Friends performance. Horrible. they're just as good as pretty much any great novel or movie you can think of and it pisses me off that so many people still don't take the videogame medium seriously.
i sometimes wish i was gay. like i really need just one more strike against me.
i wear really boring and generic clothing because i worry that fat people look ridiculous when they wear anything stylish and i dont want to draw attention to myself. but inside theres a fucking model just waiting to burst out and youll all see when ive lost weight. i'll be so eye catching and ill constantly stop while walking down the street to check my reflection out in the store windows

Since you guys don't know who I am anyway, I guess this is a good start. I am using a really annoying keyboard so ignore typos (stupid 'Virtually Indestructible Keyboards' are virtually impossible to type on)

- I am the only child of a single parent, which made for an interesting childhood.
- I have just begun to notice that I am a 'typical' only child even though I spent a lot of years denying that
- I was born and raised and go to college in the same area (southwest VA)
- The only time I've moved away from home is this summer and it sadly wasn't very hard, although I miss my mother a lot
- I graduate from college in a year, and I have no idea what I want to do... I am just going to go interview with everyone that comes through my dept and hope they choose me becuase they can see me fitting in with their company.
- I normally see myself as unattractive (fat, flabby), but there will be some days where I think I'm hot
- I have two distinct groups of friends, one consists of a lot of older guys who treat me like the little sister, and the other consists of people in my major and are generally rednecks but treat me as more of an equal.
- I used to be attracted to guys I knew were bad news, but that has (thankfully) started to shift
- I have no problem being alone and hold the belief that people shouldn't use relationships to make them "complete" and "happy'
- That being said, I want to be in a relationship right now.
- I love animals
- I love food... more specifically eggs cheese and red meat.
- I don't eat very well.
- I am an engineering major, and hopefully not a 'typical' engineer, although I think am somewhat dorky
- I tend to keep the dorky things I like to myself, seeing as none of my friends are 'dorks'. So I generally party and drink as much as any college student should
- I get good grades and I am generally lazy, but in the opposite way that most people are; I get my work done as soon as it's assigned so I can slack off later.
- I am extremely loyal and generally very polite and sweet (read: southern) but I will be the first to rip you a new one if I feel betrayed.
- I am a clean person, but not a neat freak. I don't mind cleaning up after other people unless its gross dishes.
- I love shopping and decorating, but I hate spending money.
- I wish I was more of a "girl'

Originally posted by vipbrj
- I wish I was more of a "girl'


aaah, so that's why you feel comfortable on netphoria...

Originally posted by ammy

we should hang out.

Originally posted by the antipop



aaah, so that's why you feel comfortable on netphoria...


No girls allowed? :)

-i wear glasses but i fucking hate them. i can't wear contacts anymore 'cause i scarred my retinas.
-i smoke marlboro reds or parliament full flavours
-i'll drink any kind of alcohol that's around
-i bite my nails constantly
-i shaved my stomach, chest, pubes, and taint for the first time the other day
-i'm on myspace too goddamn much
-i play RPGs all the time
-i can't find a job
-adult swim addict 4 LIFE

- I'm 18 yet people always think i'm 20 something
- I'm that tall, I could have been in the SS if women had been allowed to be members
- I like painting and people who know me think i'm talented and stuff but actually i have no clue what i'm actually doing when i'm painting
- I like to confuse people
- I'm rather antisocial
- I'm a chain smoker
- I'm lazy
- I adore Kafka
- I tend to be a grammar nazi when it comes to English... well at least at school
- and I think that my whole life and pretty much everything of what I do is pointless

Originally posted by Eulogy

-I think everyone likes me.

I think if the internet taught you anything it would be that this isn't true.

Originally posted by melislikesartre
- I'm 18 yet people always think i'm 20 something
- I'm that tall, I could have been in the SS if women had been allowed to be members
- I like painting and people who know me think i'm talented and stuff but actually i have no clue what i'm actually doing when i'm painting
- I like to confuse people
- I'm rather antisocial
- I'm a chain smoker
- I'm lazy
- I adore Kafka
- I tend to be a grammar nazi when it comes to English... well at least at school
- and I think that my whole life and pretty much everything of what I do is pointless


that nazi thing really got you, right? :erm

Originally posted by the antipop



that nazi thing really got you, right? :erm

only on the internet.

Originally posted by Trotskilicious


I think if the internet taught you anything it would be that this isn't true.

Everyone I know in real life.

Maybe I should have clarified.

Originally posted by Eulogy


Everyone I know in real life.

Maybe I should have clarified.

Maybe they're faking it.

Originally posted by Trotskilicious


Maybe they're faking it.

Oh shit

Originally posted by xtina
my boyfriend

I was wondering where you went.

I'm bored at work, as always
I like to fill out surveys
I'm very anti-social and have great anxiety in large groups of people or in public, but I'm learning to get over that for necessities sake...after all, I am going to be a real estate agent in a couple months.
I work for my aunt in a real estate company and have for the last 5 years, sometimes I hate it but ultimately I love it, don't let me lie to you.
I hate racism. Can't stand it.
I went to a magent high school in a 6 year gifted program being a minority (white)...I think that was a critical point in the mold of who I am today.
I try to dedicate as much of my free time to helping animals...mainly dogs.
I love to read about dog behavoir and communication...although I can't right now because I'm studying my ass off for real estate.
I used to love the city but now its driving me insane. I want space, I want my own home, I want a backyard for my dog to play in.
I love my dog. He's the only baby I ever need...I'm never having kids.
I'm pro-choice.
I have an incredible boyfriend that takes care of me and makes me feel more comfortable than any other person in my life has ever made me feel and vice versa.
I know how to play the flute and the alto sax, but it make me sad that I haven't played in a few years.
If I won the lottery, one of the things I would buy would be a tenor sax. I want one so bad.
Well, that and I'd buy a house and make my own doggy rehab center.
I feel incredibly comfortable with my body, even though sometimes I pretend the opposite.
The only things I'm ever self-conscious about are my clothes and my hair. But right now I've finally found a style of clothes that fits me and I finally feel comfortable.
I dye my hair black but I really wish it were red...but its too much work to change.
I used to smoke a pack of marlboro reds every day...and now I only smoke a cigarette every once in a while. I quit back in October and its one thing I thought I'd never be able to accomplish, ever.
I don't have very many friends, I learned my lesson that drama just isn't fun. I purposely surround myself only with the few people I feel comfortable with and feel I can relate to.
I have this bad habit of chewing my fingers and making them bleed. Its disgusting but that's the OTHER thing I feel I'll never stop, ever. =\
I have a half-sister I never met.
I have a half-sister and half-brother I haven't seen since their mom took them away from us when I was 7 years old.
I finally found my brother's address and wrote him a letter about a week ago. I'm nervous and excited...but half expecting it to come back to me in the mail.
I can't see for shit and I never realized this until Mark finally convinced me to get glasses. He was scared to drive with me because I couldn't read the street signs heh :o
I love cartoons, comic books, toys, and all kinds of nerdy things and I love to collect...although I don't ever have the money to.
One of my biggest fears is rape.
The next biggest fear is losing the ones I love...I've already lost one (my Grandma) and its been a pain I've carried with me ever since.
I'm an obsessive compulsive
Sunflowers and pomegranites make my skin crawl
I only listen to music that my friends recommend to me. Rarely ever do I find music on my own...I don't watch any music videos on tv or listen to the radio or download music. So my music tastes are pretty much a collective of every one I've ever known.
I attach memories to music (partly because of my previous statement) and scents
I have a headache :(

That's more than you ever wanted to know about me.

Oh yeah...and I have this weird obsession of reading and re-reading everything I write. I like to read the things I write. I say this because I've gone back to what I wrote in this thread about 3 times...I don't really know why. I do this with pictures. I'll just stare at a picture for minutes...sometimes up to 10 or 15 minutes. Studying it. I guess I really try to imagine exactly what it was at that point in time that made me write what I wrote, or take a picture of what I did. I try to concentrate and restore the feelings I had when that moment was taking place. Its a weird obsession, but I'm sure there are others that do the same. This is why I love to write in my livejournal all the damn time, and then go back to read various parts of my life...same with photography.

*shrug* I've never really tried to explain that to anyone before, so it might not make very much sense at all, sorry.

-Everything Sean Casey said except the thing about making movies.

I can kinda see it...minus the hair and I only have that expression when I'm stoned. Like REALLY stoned. heh

i like this thread a lot



I really don’t mind being at work, to me it is about as good as anything else I do in my life. My bosses and the people I work with seem to respect me as much as I respect them and this is a great place to work. However, sometimes I feel like I am doing work fit for a monkey.
The fact that I waste lots of work time at Netphoria makes me feel like a failure, a real failure, but I do not let that change my ways. But I get my work done, and the fact that that my bosses give me “excellent” on my yearly reviews makes me feel even worse, instead of making me feel okay about the internet habit.
I love the fact that when I get off work at 5 every day I become a completely free person, and this year I started doing things alone after work, like going to a bar or out to eat or going shopping or walking around parks or museums, or just laying on my couch and watching the sky for an hour.
I rarely feel lonely but when I do, I really need human contact ASAP.
My friends and family are amazing and I love and value them so much.
I have a phone phobia and I rarely answer the phone or return calls but everyone keeps calling, which comes as a real surprise to me. I guess they know me.
I am sickened by how much time I spend on Netphoria but I really love you guys and I feel like you have taught me so much.
I was in a relationship for over two years and something has happened in my brain that makes it very hard for me to remember anything about us together during those years.
I often gather up a wad of my skirt or bed sheet and hold it in my hand and imagine that I am holding someone’s hand who loves me and it makes me happy.
Now that I’ve fully realized that I am getting older and this is my life and it will end soon enough, I really want someone kind and fun to share the rest of it with.
I have a weak will and I let that fact about myself really get to me but I cannot muster up the strength to change myself even though I often try.
I do not seem to know what is important to me and why.
It means a lot to me for people to like me.
Every morning when I wake up I go right out to my porch and look at my plants and then sit down for a few minutes, and I do the same thing as soon as I come home. Those moments in the morning are probably my favorite time of the day.
I am super extra lazy about getting some things done, like fixing my computer for example, but I am the least lazy ever at a lot of other things.
I think meat is murder but I eat it anyway.
My opinions about things are subject to frequent change.
Day to day my opinion about my physical appearance fluctuates between me being perfectly fine with my body and other days feeling as if I am entirely obese.
I honestly feel that I am too overweight for any decent guy to like me, but I am pretty sure that’s untrue. However, I can’t seem to get it out of my head.
I often let people walk all over me without really realizing it, and I don’t mind it much.
I hate confrontation.
I feel like I need more “successful” friends but I don’t really want to go out looking for them and in my mind I imagine that we would have nothing in common.
I think I hold a very devalued opinion of myself, which is pretty ridiculous because I bet I am a pretty cool and good person, I just can’t seem to take that for what it’s worth.
My favorite passtime is reading intellectual literature and using it as a jumping point for pondering why people do the things they do.
I think our world is amazing and beautiful.
I waste scads of money. I buy whatever I like as long as I feel I can afford it.
I feel very free and I basically do whatever I please every single day, and I have really enjoyed being single again.
I am subject to unwarranted bouts of depression but I know they always pass.

Originally posted by pink_ribbon_scars


You and I have a lot of things in common.

Originally posted by vipbrj


You and I have a lot of things in common.

Originally posted by vipbrj
- I love food... more specifically eggs cheese and red meat.
- I don't eat very well.

- I've always been around a large group of friends, even when I was small. My father had a large network that would always be at our house or we'd be at dinner with.
- I am most happy on a vacation, looking for newspapers of the region and learning about local styles and templates.
- I think traveling is the only way to truly learn about history, yourself and each other.
- I hate animals, bugs, insects, etc. Mainly because I can't see what they are.
- Uncorrected, my vision is 20/600. Corrected (glasses + contacts), my vision is 20/400.
- My wife is the complete opposite of my fiscally and emotionally.
- I love museums and history, but could care less about any history before, say, 1750.
- I think black's are less able to succeed than white's as a whole, mainly because the blacks in America were sent here by blacks in Africa (the losing tribes were sold as slaves - hence the blacks sent to America where not welcome/wanted in Africa).
- My job defines me.
- I love my brothers and sisters, but hardly ever talk to them and no nothing about their personal tastes, opinions, etc.
- My father is my role model, as is Hunter S. Thompson.
- I've never smoked a cigarette or used any drugs aside from alcohol.
- I was a borderline alcoholic for a year and a half, but I hid it from everyone I knew. Most still don't know.
- I have to be in constant connection with society or I feel completely helpless.
- I use the Internet as a sidekick to my personal writing. They intertwine in a giant web of misconceptions.

Originally posted by Krazee's Ghost

I hate racism. Can't stand it.

The only things I'm ever self-conscious about are my clothes and my hair.

I love cartoons, comic books, toys, and all kinds of nerdy things and I love to collect...although I don't ever have the money to.

The next biggest fear is losing the ones I love...


Me too!

Originally posted by vipbrj
this used to be such a nice thread :(

Yeah. =\

Either way I just wanted to say that I think this thread is really awesome.

Me, personally...I'm sure others are the same way...lately (meaning, the last year) I've been trying to define myself. Not necessarily "find myself", I'm already found and here and I am what I am and I know that and accept it. But I've been trying to define and explain everything about myself to myself...because there's so much shit I never think about or consider or even know about myself. I'm sure a lot of people feel that way. You so rarely get moments to focus on yourself and analyze yourself, so to speak.

Reading everyone else's makes me think of more and more things that define me. Its a pretty cool feeling. I used to be so shy and embarrassed and had very low self-esteem, but once I started to define these things about myself, I started to see the good and not just the bad, which in turn has made me a MUCH more out-going and confident individual. I learned to accept myself for who I am.

But then again, maybe that's just a part of growing up. I feel like I'm just touching the waters. Its a pretty cool feeling.

Originally posted by ammy

this thread was not for you all to read about me persay, but to post about you as well.

Heh I just looked at this thread, I had thought it was 6 pages of bits about you. :D

I used my superpowers to fix your thread, Ammy.

Originally posted by Trotskilicious
I used my superpowers to fix your thread, Ammy.

but you had to leave in your dig at me.

classy.

Originally posted by Eulogy


but you had to leave in your dig at me.

classy.

Of course.

<font color="dab9ea">- I'm technically an only child, I was raised as one, but I have an older half brother who I've never met, and who my mother says probably doesn't know I even exist.
- I have never met my father, even though he lives in the same city, but I just don't have the guts to put forth the effort or risk to try to meet him
- I am extremely insecure about both my intelligence and my physical body
- I am a B/C student and really lazy with school... I don't enjoy it. Honestly the only reason I'm going to college is because if I didn't I would never ever ever hear the end of it from my family and Zach's family. But deep down I know if I don't then I won't get very far with my plans for life.
- I am fat. Plain and simple. I am probably the fattest girl on this board but I try to hide it when I take pictures and stuff. I put on a ton of weight for reasons that I can't quite figure out after I graduated high school. I used to be a cute size 9 :( I don't have the will power or self controll to loose the weight for good. I did back in 2003, I lost 50lbs and looked fucking fantastic. Then I put it all back on plus some. :/
- If I could loose this weight and keep it off I think that would solve a lot of my confidence issues.
- I have three closets packed full of clothes because I can't make myself throw away the clothes I can't fit into anymore in the hopes that someday I might be able to.
- I often think people are looking and talking bad about me, so I try to be overly nice to people and I think that just creeps them out.
- I try to be a nice person to everyone, but I have few friends.
- The three most important people in my life are my mom, Zach and my grandmother.
- I love my mom more than just about anything, she and I get along great, and I think she's just awesome. We fought a lot when I was growing up and she was really strict but I honestly thank her for that because it made me who I am and kept me away from bad choices.
- Zach is the greatest person in the world to me. He loves me more than I've never seen a person love someone. He makes me laugh, and listen to me complain and cry and when I'm around him I am totally comfortable, because he loves me for who I am and all that other crap doesn't matter. I feel so totally lucky to have found someone that I can love and that loves me so much. I couldn't ask for more, he is just everything I would ever want.
- I get these little obsessions with things... like movies, or music or whatever, and that is all I will focus my spare time to for like a couple of weeks or a month.
- I'm still a hardcore pumpkins fan... but not as obsessive as I used to be.
- I have two major character flaws... I am the laziest person I know... and I procrastinate to no end. I put stuff off until the very last possible moment before doing it.
- I am kind of messy... but not as bad as I was while living at home with my mom.
- I love my apartment, and I love decorating.
- Sinatra is my baby and he's the best cat anyone could ask for. I love him. And Zach loves him now too, and that makes me really happy.
- I have a crush on Ewan McGregor.
- I love going to concerts. It's one of my favorite things ever.
- Riding in the car with the windows down and rocking music is ones of the best things. I love it.
- I have a horrible temper. HORRIBLE! But I've been praying about it and hopefully that will get better with time.
- I am confused about my faith. I was brought up knowing the difference between right and wrong, and this and that, and was raised in a southern baptist church. But I don't really know God. It's like I really only turn to God when things are bad... and I really want this relationship with him but I think I'm just too lazy to try on my part. :(
- I have a cursing problem... but I've gotten better about that...with trying.</font>
</font>

Originally posted by obscured01
<font color="dab9ea">
- I am fat. Plain and simple. I am probably the fattest girl on this board but I try to hide it when I take pictures and stuff. I put on a ton of weight for reasons that I can't quite figure out after I graduated high school. I used to be a cute size 9 :( I don't have the will power or self controll to loose the weight for good. I did back in 2003, I lost 50lbs and looked fucking fantastic. Then I put it all back on plus some. :/
</font>


we can be the fattest netphorian females together :)

Originally posted by ammy


we can be the fattest netphorian females together :)

:)

Originally posted by vipbrj


You and I have a lot of things in common.

i think it may be an educated, early/mid-twenties woman thing

Originally posted by ammy

i love meticulous things and trying ot understand. math, programming, taking crap apart, fixing things, working with my hands (if i wasn't lazy, i'd love to build things or do home improvement type stuff)
i read up and learn in depth about ridiculous things like birth control, illness or animal care.

i'm an optimist.

me too

Originally posted by pink_ribbon_scars


i think it may be an educated, early/mid-twenties woman thing

The world is at our fingertips! So they say... Don't they?

- im an only child, but i was never spoiled. i learned to be more resourceful, and to this day i seldom get bored when i spend time by myself
- i have a strange and faint memory, from when i was about 7 years old, about one of my cousins doing something sexual to me...but i can't pin point exactly what it was, and i am too afraid to ask him. actually this is the first time i have ever mentioned this to anybody.
- i wanted to be a musician since i was very little. i loved rock music since i was 6. nobody in my family had before
- one of the biggest challenges i've had to overcome, has been learning to love myself with curly hair. it sounds odd, but once i accepted it as part of me, my life changed.
- i have very vivid dreams. i often wish i could photograph them. i also wonder what they mean, and what signs they're trying to tell me. i've also dreamt things, to later learn that they have happened in real life.
- i'm brutally honest. sometimes too much for my own good. i can't lie to anybody, you can immediately see it in my face.
- i have never shoplifted, done drugs, run away from home, etc etc.
- sometimes i feel i get along better with animals than humans.
- i love spending time alone. in fact i prefer to be alone most of the time. i like going to movies, restaurants, shoppping alone. my parents find this disturbing and often tell me to find friends.
- music is solace to me. i don't know what the fuck i would be in this planet if it didn't exist. the pumpkins have touched my heart beyond explanation. i owe so much to them.
- i've lived with panic disorder for many years and i'm finally coming to the end of that awful stage
- i used to binge and purge, just like my mother. she was bulimic for many years.
- rides scare me. carrousels, roller coasters, anything that moves. i'm too scared to go on that shit.
- i never consider my art good enough. i try to improve and advance, but i always feel it's stagnated.

Originally posted by twilightfadez

- i have very vivid dreams. i often wish i could photograph them. i also wonder what they mean, and what signs they're trying to tell me. i've also dreamt things, to later learn that they have happened in real life.


<img src=http://www.zverina.com/images/990311-bts.jpg>

"i wanna seeeeeeeeeeeeee moooooooooovie of my dreeeeeeeeeeeeeeams, i wanna seeeeeeeeeeee mooooooooooovies of myyyyyyy dreaaaaaaams, i wanaaaaaa seeeeeeeeeee movieeeeees of myyyyyyyyyyyyy dreaaaaaaaaams, i wanna seeeeeeeee moooooooovies of myyyyy dreaaams"

It was my birthday yesterday but I pretended that it wasn't so I wouldn't have to deal with it
I'm a failed environmentalist
I'm stuck in a horrible rut right now and I don't know how to get out of it
I feel like I've been in school forever
I am having a good time being in a management role at work, moreso then I ever thought. The novelty hasn't quite worn off just yet.
I've been in a really bad mood lately.
I like animals a whole lot.
I'm not very reliable anymore.
I have this urge to disappear into the sunset and assume a new identity
EVERYTHING pisses me off
I wish I could have a proper garden as opposed to a bunch of vegetable plants crowding my whole balcony.
One of my employees is suing me/my company for psychological harassment because I politely asked him if he could work one Sunday per month (our employees have to work one weekend day per week, their choice, but we have too many people available Saturdays and not enough Sundays, so people keep whinning that their shifts are cut while not being willing to work on days that there <u>is</u> work)

Originally posted by Lucy Sky Diamonds
One of my employees is suing me/my company for psychological harassment because I politely asked him if he could work one Sunday per month (our employees have to work one weekend day per week, their choice, but we have too many people available Saturdays and not enough Sundays, so people keep whinning that their shifts are cut while not being willing to work on days that there <u>is</u> work) i dont understand! What's wrong with that?

great thread ammy and great read you guys. this thread would be even longer and more boring than it will be if i posted all the similarities i spotted.

-my family and my friends are the most important thing to me in the world.
-im an insomniac, especially this summer. ive been sleeping at 7 and waking up at 2.
-i like to think im smarter than my grades, even though i get pretty good grades.
-im too arrogant, and i like to think im not. but even in thinking im modest im overtly arrogant.
-music has saved my life, countless times.
-ive fallen in love once, and had the girl who i fell in love with change. since then ive appreciated my friends more and had the girls come and go attitude moreso. i dont think i could be any happier than with that mentality because im still so young.
-unless someone i knows dies, its hard to get me very depressed nowadays.
-ive been disgustingly obsessed with the pumpkins and news of their reunion ever since i heard about it.
-my first cd was nevermind by nirvana. my second cd, and favorite cd of all time, was in utero by nirvana. i had in utero in my pocket when i closed a car door and the cd broke in half. i was 9, and i think it was the last time i had a long, long cry.
-i want to become a doctor for stability, but im also an aspiring music who loves making music and loves, LOVES performing. while i dont like admitting it, i like the attention.
-if you're a good person, and honest and real, i will love you. it doesn't matter what you look like. i probably love you already.
-i think people dont have enough sympathy and love for human beings in general.
-im extremely sarcastic.
-i can be very mean at times, and i hate it when i actually hurt someone. generally in my life the closest ive come to crying is when i see someone else cry.
-i love my ipod
-i love johnny depp movies.
-i go out all the time, im never home.
-i love the beach. i like mountains, hate mosquitoes.
-i dont think i can ever really hate anyone.
-i love cigars and hookah.
-i think the world would be a better place if people knew that they were never alone. ive seen too many relationships broken up because of girlfriends/boyfriends.
-im going to ucriverside next year, and im very nervous. i picked it over UCs people think are "better" and i want to show people that i picked it for the right reasons.
-sometimes i love people too much, but ill never stop. ill always be there for you, no matter who the fuck you are.
-my favorite color is blue, favorite book is the catcher in the rye
-i wanna learn how to swing dance.
-i curse waaaaay too much, ive almost just sort of accepted it.
-i played basketball until one of my best friends died playing it when i was in 8th grade. its been hard for me to play seriously ever since.
-im a miami heat diehard who lives in los angeles.

thank you for reading.

Originally posted by Oranjes
i dont understand! What's wrong with that?

I don't get it either. :(

this reminds me of that thread, i think actually ammy started it years ago that was "an open letter to your parents" or something where people were just completely vulnerable and poured out their darkest parent secrets. i remember crying while reading some peoples stories and there's still some of them that stand out to me. i love when we drop the bullshit and get honest on here, i really do.

oh, so we can talk about ourselves in this thread?

-im a recovering addict/alcoholic. i think i've upgraded to to borderline alcoholic now.
-im suffer from acute depression
-im very short for a guy
-i live with my parents and i dont have much money, which factors into why i dont have a girlfriend
-i oversee transcript production for a texas-based law firm
-i really want to be a professional writer at some point before i hit 30
-im training to be a court reporter
-im obsessed with women
-im semi-obsessed with thomas pynchon ... and a handful of other authors
-GOLD COAST

- i miss not having been an athlete when i really had the chance. i wish i could muster the discipline to get into really good shape. :/ my roommate wants to buy a punching bag but...
- im broke. i have like 60$ in the bank and a check out for 147. i just got a job that pays minimum wage 5.15$/hr for the first 32 hours and then 8.50 an hour. i wish i had gotten it much sooner.
- my parents kind of think i have a job and still have a girlfriend and i dont >_< ill tell them soon enough :s
- ive been to church thee times since ive been on my own. it wouldnt bother me if i was successful
- i dont really believe in a god or anything
- 6'3"
- i weigh like 170. the "freshman fifteen" for me was weight loss :( it wasnt fat, either. ugh.
- i havent really been eating well due to the money situation
- i would do just about any drug i could get my hands on. unfortunately im broke and lazy as far as procuring them goes
- i havent been reading and that bothers me
- over the years my taste in music has changed and broadened and ive been more and less interested in different types and bands but the smashing pumpkins have always been #1
- this is the second message board ive ever posted on. i posted on the korn message board in like 7th or 8th grade, though i mainly just read it >< ive got like 200 posts on blamo and 40 on livingwithstyle but i dont go to those anymore and never really frequented them
- thinking back there was at least one point in my life where i thought goths were cool. i still kind of do. the good looking ones are interesting. i wouldnt want to be one at all now though
- i dress pretty plainly. if i was rich i probably still would
- i guess i could say ive had problems with depression since 7th grade. ive never attempted suicide
- i dont want to die without ever killing anyone. sorry :I i dont even know why i feel that way. i used to think about blowing up a building and stuff like that when i was younger, just to do something big in the world. i cant really explain it
- im pretty shy
- i play halo 2 too much. gamertag jediborg2

im an abercrombie model

- when i am in a public place and i hear laughter, i immediately assume it's me they're laughing at. always.
- i don't believe there are truly evil people in the world. only severely misguided ones.
- it depresses me to think about the future knowing that there's nothing/nobody i can rely on to be there forever
- i'm getting evicted tomorrow
- from my point of view, i think my parents live a lifestyle i never want to have anything to do with.
- i'm constantly trying to decide whether to pursue a music career or go the direction of the yuppie. the latter is a fairly guaranteed path. i have the a ability to be a middle-upper class droning fuckedhead yuppie, but i would fucking hate it. or i could take the risk and pursue music at the risk of having stupid shit get in the way. like...i don't know, having the wrong hairstyle or whatever. being totally ignored because of the way i look, by people my music would matter to otherwise if i wore a stupid fucking trucker cap or some gimmicky shirt with a slogan on it. thats the only thing i worry about. not being listened to because im ugly.
-someone is going to yell at me for posting this instead of cleaning out my apartment.

- when i am in a public place and i hear laughter, i immediately assume it's me they're laughing at. always.
- i don't believe there are truly evil people in the world. only severely misguided ones.
- it depresses me to think about the future knowing that there's nothing/nobody i can rely on to be there forever
- i'm getting evicted tomorrow
- from my point of view, i think my parents live a lifestyle i never want to have anything to do with.
- i'm constantly trying to decide whether to pursue a music career or go the direction of the yuppie. the latter is a fairly guaranteed path. i have the a ability to be a middle-upper class droning fuckedhead yuppie, but i would fucking hate it. or i could take the risk and pursue music at the risk of having stupid shit get in the way. like...i don't know, having the wrong hairstyle or whatever. being totally ignored because of the way i look, by people my music would matter to otherwise if i wore a stupid fucking trucker cap or some gimmicky shirt with a slogan on it. thats the only thing i worry about. not being listened to because im ugly.
-someone is going to yell at me for posting this instead of cleaning out my apartment.

Originally posted by obscured01
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we have a LOT in common.

*i'm going to be 25 in about 3 weeks and it scares the hell out of me.
*i've always had a pretty low self-esteem. probably because i've been overweight most of my life. also, i've gained a whole bunch of weight in the last 5 years (about 40lbs.) and i blame that partially on my laziness, partially on smoking way too much pot, and partially on my job because i just sit here and stare at a computer screen, and i don't exercise. and i don't make good choice in the food i eat. i don't overeat, i just don't eat very healthy.
*my life consists of sleeping 'til 1-2pm everyday, going to work, coming home from work and either watch tv or a movie, or play on the internet, then fall asleep and do the same thing over again. and sometimes in between the mundaness(sp?) i'll go to a concert or possibly go out with a friend??
*i only have 2 friends besides my boyfriend and family. one of my friends i've known since i was 12, the other i've known for the last 4 years. it sometimes bothers me that i don't have many friends, but that's the way it's always been so i'm used to it.
*i've been dating my bf dusty for the last 4 1/2 years. i love him a lot. he was my first, teehee.
*my brother killed himself a year and a half ago. i'm the one who found him. he hung himself in his garage. i've never been the same since. and it's sad because even tho i have 3 brothers, i feel like i have none. he was more of a friend than a brother. he's the one that introduced me to music. i remember when i was 13, he gave me his headphones to put on and siamese dream was playing. i love him so much and think about him everyday.
*i was brought up in a fairly strict christian family. we went to church every sunday. i think i was about 14 when things at our church started to get weird.... the services started to get wild, and people would start rolling on the ground and convulse. they would laugh hysterically, or a pastor would pray over them and they'd fall down. this really scared the shit out of me and i was so confused. i never did anything like that. i never had a good feeling about it and i thought why would something from God or at church make me feel so uncomfortable? i knew it wasn't right. i just knew. i never talked to my parents about it... as of now, i still believe in God, but i don't go to that church or church at all.
*that's it for now....

awesome thread, Ammy :)

i'm pretty weird sometimes, because I get too sensitive/emotional about things
i think i think too much sometimes
i feel too much most of the time
i associate moods and feelings with colours
i cry easily
many of my friends feel like they can talk to me about a lot of things, and they do - I don't know what inspires their confidence, because I don't think I give great advice, I just listen and I don't judge them
i love love love music, and I think it's the one thing that has helped shape my life the most
i'm very shy and self conscious sometimes, and I'm really happy when I have the courage to ignore those feelings and just say or do something
i would really like to be able to express a larger portion of my thoughts/feelings etc. with words
i have what i think are pretty cool ideas for animations/drawings, but they are useless because i have no artistic ability
i could stare at the sky, at trees or at blades of grass for hours
i like plants, and nature, and i know a few things about trees and flowers, but i'd like to know more
i have very vivid childhood memories, and i think i've been very fortunate to have a happy childhood
i've never really had a best/closest friend other than my sister
i have close friends, but when i'm in a relationship, i also expect my boyfriend to be my best friend, and i think that can be overwhelming at times
affection, sensitivity and a sense of interest and understanding mean a lot to me. a lot more than physical attraction.
i think i have a lot of mixed feelings about my family, love/hate/guilt/can't stand them/love/and so on.. i don't think i've learned how to deal with them, not yet.
i have a lot of respect and admiration for my dad, and i hope he knows that. it's always been much easier for me to talk to him than to my mom, and i think she's pretty jealous of that.
i like reading a lot, and i really wish i had more time for that
i'm making this too long, so i'll stop here..

- I'm really apprehensive about the fact that I will graduate Law School in less than a year.
- I don't have a job right now, and I really should. I'm overly insecure about my shitty resume, while at the same time I know that the fact that I haven't gotten some kind of legal clerking job is just making the problem worse. I'm afraid its gonna be rough going for me in getting a real lawyering job.
- At least my grades are good and I'm on Law Review. That'll help my chances I hope.
- I'm horrible about procrastination. I should be working on the first draft of my Law Review article right now. Its due at 5 tomorrow.
- I would gladly have a beer with any of the people who post over on the Politics board. Somehow, I don't think the feeling is mutual though.
- It takes a lot to get any extreme emotion out of me. I don't take much personally. I tend to bottle things up though.
- I'm a lot more skeptical than I used to be. As a kid, I used to believe in all the usual spooky things like aliens, ghosts, Bigfoot, etc. Some of them I think are still plausible, but I won't make arguments for them anymore.
- I can't understand pessimism.
- The high point and low point of my life came when I was standing two feet away from Billy Corgan with no one else around and I couldn't bring myself to speak to him.
- But I got his autograph last weekend, so that kinda eases the pain.
- I'm generally too shy and nice for my own good.
- I've been dating my girlfriend for two years now. She's the only one I've had, and its only because she was brave enough to ask me out. She's the greatest.
- I have no idea why I decided to post all this. I guess maybe to dispel the whole "right-wing asshole from the Politics board" label a little bit.
- But I do have to admit that I do revel in that label at times.

Originally posted by alexthestampede
- i miss not having been an athlete when i really had the chance. i wish i could muster the discipline to get into really good shape. :/ my roommate wants to buy a punching bag but...
- im broke. i have like 60$ in the bank and a check out for 147. i just got a job that pays minimum wage 5.15$/hr for the first 32 hours and then 8.50 an hour. i wish i had gotten it much sooner.
- my parents kind of think i have a job and still have a girlfriend and i dont >_< ill tell them soon enough :s
- ive been to church thee times since ive been on my own. it wouldnt bother me if i was successful
- i dont really believe in a god or anything
- 6'3"
- i weigh like 170. the "freshman fifteen" for me was weight loss :( it wasnt fat, either. ugh.
- i havent really been eating well due to the money situation
- i would do just about any drug i could get my hands on. unfortunately im broke and lazy as far as procuring them goes
- i havent been reading and that bothers me
- over the years my taste in music has changed and broadened and ive been more and less interested in different types and bands but the smashing pumpkins have always been #1
- this is the second message board ive ever posted on. i posted on the korn message board in like 7th or 8th grade, though i mainly just read it >< ive got like 200 posts on blamo and 40 on livingwithstyle but i dont go to those anymore and never really frequented them
- thinking back there was at least one point in my life where i thought goths were cool. i still kind of do. the good looking ones are interesting. i wouldnt want to be one at all now though
- i dress pretty plainly. if i was rich i probably still would
- i guess i could say ive had problems with depression since 7th grade. ive never attempted suicide
- i dont want to die without ever killing anyone. sorry :I i dont even know why i feel that way. i used to think about blowing up a building and stuff like that when i was younger, just to do something big in the world. i cant really explain it
- im pretty shy
- i play halo 2 too much. gamertag jediborg2
aw. wut a qt pie.

- i went to a catholic school from kindergarten through eighth grade. i'm still mad at my mom for it. she could be spending the money wasted on that (and my 3 little sisters) on college.
- most people seem to have bad memories of high school. i don't have any. i really don't think any period in my life is going to rival that. i had no worries, didn't give a shit about anything, had money, friends. shit.
- i don't really have any friends at all now, and i'm only 13 months removed from that blissful period i just described. this crushing social incapability gives me no reason to suspect i have any chance of succeeding in life.
- i'm paying for college 100% thru loans. i don't want to be there at all, but if i drop out my mom will kick me out of the house and i don't have enough money to live anywhere else. if i work as much as i do now during the school year i'll have no chance of succeeding academically because i am piss-poor at studying and time management and things of that nature.
- if i ever posted my cd collection, i'd never be able to post on the music board again.
- yes, i like bright eyes. yes, i am a virgin. it'd be nice if someone could flame me one day without bringing up either of these. i have a lot of greater faults.
- i have a lot more experience with girls than i've led people here to believe. probably the biggest regret of my life is not more actively pursuing one i met senior year of high school. we became great friends of course but there was probably more there. and of course i've lost touch with her, just like everyone else.
- i'm surprisingly content with life given all the whining i just did. i'd still welcome the apocalypse though. i really hope that happens in my lifetime.

Originally posted by neopryn
- i went to a catholic school from kindergarten through eighth grade. i'm still mad at my mom for it. she could be spending the money wasted on that (and my 3 little sisters) on college.
- most people seem to have bad memories of high school. i don't have any. i really don't think any period in my life is going to rival that. i had no worries, didn't give a shit about anything, had money, friends. shit.
- i don't really have any friends at all now, and i'm only 13 months removed from that blissful period i just described. this crushing social incapability gives me no reason to suspect i have any chance of succeeding in life.
- i'm paying for college 100% thru loans. i don't want to be there at all, but if i drop out my mom will kick me out of the house and i don't have enough money to live anywhere else. if i work as much as i do now during the school year i'll have no chance of succeeding academically because i am piss-poor at studying and time management and things of that nature.
- if i ever posted my cd collection, i'd never be able to post on the music board again.
- yes, i like bright eyes. yes, i am a virgin. it'd be nice if someone could flame me one day without bringing up either of these. i have a lot of greater faults.
- i have a lot more experience with girls than i've led people here to believe. probably the biggest regret of my life is not more actively pursuing one i met senior year of high school. we became great friends of course but there was probably more there. and of course i've lost touch with her, just like everyone else.
- i'm surprisingly content with life given all the whining i just did. i'd still welcome the apocalypse though. i really hope that happens in my lifetime. you'll be a netphorian great one day.

Originally posted by neopryn
- i went to a catholic school from kindergarten through eighth grade. i'm still mad at my mom for it. she could be spending the money wasted on that (and my 3 little sisters) on college.
- most people seem to have bad memories of high school. i don't have any. i really don't think any period in my life is going to rival that. i had no worries, didn't give a shit about anything, had money, friends. shit.
- i don't really have any friends at all now, and i'm only 13 months removed from that blissful period i just described. this crushing social incapability gives me no reason to suspect i have any chance of succeeding in life.
- i'm paying for college 100% thru loans. i don't want to be there at all, but if i drop out my mom will kick me out of the house and i don't have enough money to live anywhere else. if i work as much as i do now during the school year i'll have no chance of succeeding academically because i am piss-poor at studying and time management and things of that nature.
- if i ever posted my cd collection, i'd never be able to post on the music board again.
- yes, i like bright eyes. yes, i am a virgin. it'd be nice if someone could flame me one day without bringing up either of these. i have a lot of greater faults.
- i have a lot more experience with girls than i've led people here to believe. probably the biggest regret of my life is not more actively pursuing one i met senior year of high school. we became great friends of course but there was probably more there. and of course i've lost touch with her, just like everyone else.
- i'm surprisingly content with life given all the whining i just did. i'd still welcome the apocalypse though. i really hope that happens in my lifetime. you'll be a netphorian great one day.

I believe that Elvis is dead, but that he did not die on August 16, 1977.
Yes, they are among us.
Movies about aliens cause to me have to sleep with the light on for a few nights.
I used to love being independent and doing everything on my own (concerts, movies, road trips, restaurants, etc.). Now, I feel rather uncomfortable with it. Maybe that is just what happens after you get married?
I still kinda prefer going to concerts alone. Which is clearly a case of the grass is always greener, as I used to feel a twinge of jealousy when seeing all the couples at concerts. However, note that I said "sometimes".
Concerts just aren't as big of a deal for me anymore. I have no clue why. I guess I am getting old?
I finally got my picture taken with Billy Corgan on Saturday.
I hate Modesto. No, I loathe it. I am incredibly unhappy here.
At times, I feel like I am going crazy. I yearn for in-person interaction with people that I can relate to. I want to be around people who are smart, analytical, and give a shit about the world.
I really really really miss my friends.
I like most of my husband's friends, but they just aren't my type or whatever. I don't feel comfortable around them and I am never truly myself around them.
I feel extremely uncomfortable around people I don't know/don't know well. At least in social settings anyways. In job settings, I have no problems with it.
I actually enjoy campaign field work. However, I think I become burned out with it. I love writing field plans and managing staff. I just hate doing any of it myself anymore.
I enjoy telling people what to do.
I miss reading good books. I haven't felt motivated to read at all lately.
My life is on my palm pilot. I have been without my palm pilot for far too long. Thankfully, a new palm pilot is on its way to me.
I am always paranoid that people are saying and thinking bad things about me.
Once in awhile, I think my husband has serious anger issues.
I was horribly tormented in junior high. I have had low self-esteem ever since.
I went to Catholic schools almost my entire life, from preschool through undergrad. The only exception was grad school. I am incredibly thankful that my mom insisted that I go to Catholic school and that she always found a way to pay for it.
I went to an all-girl Catholic high school. I will forever be a huge proponent of single-sex education.
Everyone in high school assumed I would go on to be a professional ballerina. And I was good enough to do so.
I miss dancing. I look forward to the day when I once again live in a major city and can afford dance classes.
I hate my body. I hate my face too. I view plastic surgery as the only answer.
I feel fat right now. I always lose a lot of weight during campaigns (despite pretty much only eating fast food). And then the campign ends and I put weight back on. Note: I didn't say that I am fat, just that I currently feel fat.
I don't travel well. I always feel all icky for at least a day afterwards, no matter how short the trip.
I sometimes fear that I am not going to be able to do anything great with my life.
I'm a pessimist. The glass is not only half-empty, it is also dirty and cracked.
I have quit smoking, except for times when I am upset/angry/stressed or drunk. I figure it is a good step on the way to possibly fully quiting.
I really really want an iPod.

Originally posted by mirrar
you'll be a netphorian great one day. :)

i smeel trouble in paradise in this thread.

im bored. so whateva.

i have anger issues. like whoa!
i hate my body. i mean.. its shaped okay. i guess! but i still cant stand it. my face bugs me, too.
im am soooo shy. it sucks. one time i went over to alex's house and like these people came over and i hid in his room until someone came and got me.
i have to pee constantly.
i constantly smile. it sucks and i cant help it.
i think avril lavigne is really hawt.
ive been in two abusive relationships.. eli has hit me before. the last time was around december of last year. i think it has something to do with me not having temper tantrums anymore (anger issues). i used to break shit when i got mad. and if he tried to leave i would hide his shoes. i ran out of out hiding places. :[
i smoke way too much.
i enjoy getting drunk but not the taste of alcohol.
i almost died from an overdose. i swear i will never ingest a pill ever again. except birth control or something.
ive done it with a netphorian. lol. :erm
im finally going back to school after 2 years. my last attempt ended when i did drugs everyday and went to school high. until i stopped going all together. thank god i have residency in arizona now.
im really scared. because eli got really drunk the other day and assaulted our next door neighbor/roommate(he got kicked out. and is here all the damn time). plus he got charged with disorderly conduct. his arraignment is on wednesday and im praying he doesnt have to go to jail.
i dont believe in god either. i just pray when im desperate.
i hate cooking. but like baking.
i dont really like making new friends.

http://www.alavigne.org/gallery/albums/miscellaneous/Awards/WorldMusicAwards2004/normal_jpi_091504wma_alavigne18313.jpg

i find saltwater fish tanks, and house plants relaxing
most of my friends are girls, but i have never had a real girlfriend "only friends with benefits" but i really want a girlfriend.
IM a felon, I went to a minimum security federal prison in W Virginia for distributing huge amounts of LSD.
i flew on con air "its nothing like the movie"
the government conciders me a supervisor in drug distribution 1 level below kingpin "sick i know, but im proud of it":D
i dont say very much on here because i actually care what you people think.
im an alcoholic, somtimes i drink everyday sometimes i dont drink for weeks.
i have done every drug out there besides licking a frog.
i think the worst grade i ever got was a B.
i spent all my teenage years living in the hospital.
i have never met my father.
my mom had me when she was 16.
when i was in elmementry school, 4th grade i called my teacher a fat bitch.
my favorite toy was always a hammer i smashed all my toys/everything.
i have never left the USA, but i have been to all states but oregon,montana,alaska,hawaii,washingoton, and new mexico.
im a pyro
i dont watch much tv but if i i do its usually the history channel.
i belive in karma
i do anything i can for anyone,even a stranger.
one time i gave this crack whore, beat up, crying prostitue a ride home "she offered head but i turned her down" she said i was an angel.
in rl people think i am listening to them talk,but usually im not.
i dont eat animals, but my car seats are leather and so are my shoes.
Some girls think IM gay, but IM not. Only time I get drinks bought for me is when guys are hitting on me at the gay bars.
LA and NYC are a couple of my favorite cities. fuck Ohio and Kansas.
i was born in Michigan
i never know what state i will be in tomorrow
i sometimes cry at the movies,i sometimes cry for whatever reason as well.
i just deleated half of what i was going to post because you guys would realize im nutz.

what was it? 2200 hits of acid?

Originally posted by aspecialkid
I went to a minimum security federal prison. do they have conjugal visits there?

Originally posted by neopryn
do they have conjugal visits there?
nope, but some of the female staf would hook a brotha up.

i cant imagine the female staff of a prison being hot. at all.

:*

Originally posted by yo soy el mejor
i cant imagine the female staff of a prison being hot. at all.

:*

i met this girl at the SF pumpkins signing in 2000.
she was ultra awsome and ultra hot.

i totally didn't believe her when i found out she was a prison guard.

Originally posted by yo soy el mejor
i cant imagine the female staff of a prison being hot. at all.

:* tootsie.

god, i remember the stupidest shit.

Originally posted by pee pee colada
tootsie.

god, i remember the stupidest shit. i was gonna say this too =/

Originally posted by yo soy el mejor
i cant imagine the female staff of a prison being hot. at all.

:*

i never had sex with any of them but some of my friends did. some looked good some did not. there was a school there with a couple decent looking chicks in there mid 20s. one girl up in the main office was a super hot redhead.


EDIT:
when you hear the word "prison" that place was nothing like you would think. more like college, dorm rooms, no bars or cells, no locks,no fights, indoor and out door weight rooms,tennis courts, running track, pond with ducks, no fence around the place. people would sneek off and go to the store to buy alcohol and stuff. people would sneek burger king and KFC back in. like 100 pool tables all over the place. movie theater.....

if you look it up on a map, its called kennedy youth center. the kennedys built it in the 60s for kids, its was a camp for kids, converted into a prison.

mainly big time drug deals with lots of money,cops,lawyers,doctors, business owners in for taxes. military people, computer hackers, identity theft. stuff like that, totally non violent offenders only.

I'm a pretty negative person
Which is probably apparent from the fact that it was the first thing that came to mind when I started thinking about things about me
I'm 16 years old, and I hate being a teenager
Sometimes I feel I'm way too femenine
I have been very close to committing suicide...Today by the Pumpkins actually caused me not to
I always view myself as the victim in all situations
My parents try very hard to make me happy and they do wonderful things for me but somehow they can't
I have always looked down on religion and superstition, but often mind myself talking to God in my head, or thinking supersticiously, or beleiving that karma will kick in
Sometimes I connect non related events in my head (maybe if I sleep with my window open I'll have a good day at school tomorrow)
I have anxiety problems, but have never been diagnosed with such
I have always believed since I was a little kid, that I was in some way minorly mentally ill because I know I am very neurotic
I want to be a musician and have somehow convinced myself I am going to be famous
Sometimes I stay up all night just to watch the sunrise over the townhouses across the street
I love storms, I love being caught in storms
I try to take on an artsy persona at times, and a goth persona at others because I interest myself more this way
It is widely believed that I have a superiority complex because I think I'm better, or have a stronger vision of life/morality/people than most people, but when I confront people about my disagreements with them, I actually feel very inferior inside
I'm stopping now to go read harry Potter

Originally posted by redbreegull

I have been very close to committing suicide...Today by the Pumpkins actually caused me not to

you truely do belong here

yeah. he just signed a lifetime membership with that one.

Originally posted by ammy


you truely do belong here

:)

Oh, I should have added that my secret ambition (I have actually never told anyone this before) is to thank Billy Corgan for saving my life. Seriously. I chickened out at the poetry reading. I'm sure he hears it from time to time though.

- I was born two months premature. I had a collapsed lung and Jaundice and very low chance of surviving.
- When I was a child I used to take handheld mirrors and walk around the house with them facing up, pretending I was walking on the ceiling.
- Also my parents used to find me every morning asleep in the living room with the Tv on (newscasts, static), drooling on my shrit with cups of yogurt and/or cheerios.
- My favorite toy was a pound puppy, of which I never named. I used to have dreams that he came alive.
- The earliest dream I recall was of my sitting on a bed and having both my eyes fall out. I found them under the beds, they were rubbery, and looked like those bouncey ball things.
- For about two years as a teenager I was addicted to Days of Our Lives. Marlena was possesed by the Devil, that was awesome.
- I had insomnia until I was 16 and yet I still have dark circles under my eyes. So the problem was never the insomnia, just poor circulation.
- My Mom has been gay for 6 years now.
- My Dad has battled drug addiction off and on for as long as I've been alive, its the reason my parents split up. He is an awesome person and I look up to him. He was never an asshole.
- For most of my life I'd frequently sleep with the light on because I was afraid of aliens and ghosts. In one of our houses my door locked automatically from the outside when it closed and furthermore the lightswitch was in the hallway, so I woke up from a nightmare once and was trapped screaming in my room in the dark. I still have to turn the light on eveyr once in a while because I psych myself out.
- I have a piss poor memory, I don't even remember all the lyrics to Pumpkin songs I've heared/ sung along to hundreds of time.
- Everyone always thinks I"m stoned out of my mind when I have actually never taken a drag in my life. I have heavy eyelids I guess. I don't drink or smoke either.
- I am excruciatingly shy/self conscious and it is destroying my life.
- My favorite thing in the whole world is camping.
- The happiest moment I can remember is a dream I had when I was thirteen. In the dream, I must have been in some corner of heaven, because i was overwhelmed with feelings of euphoria. I woke up sobbing uncontrollably.
- I have had sleep paralysis since I was 16.
- Every night before I go to sleep, for as long as I can recollect I am filled with despairing thoughts about mortality, and that I will die alone.

Originally posted by redbreegull
Oh, I should have added that my secret ambition (I have actually never told anyone this before) is to thank Billy Corgan for saving my life. Seriously. I chickened out at the poetry reading. I'm sure he hears it from time to time though. Wow. :)

GO YOU! <---That's probably the gayest thing that can be posted on a messageboard, but I think you deserve the embarrassment I just caused myself!

& LOL at pee pee colada.

Edit: I keep having to edit this! :GRR:

Originally posted by Fathoms (unadored)
- Every night before I go to sleep, for as long as I can recollect I am filled with despairing thoughts about mortality, and that I will die alone. Wow, everyone has interesting stories.

I just wanted to comment that I used to "have" the same thing. Especially when I was really young. I used to sit and think and think about death, other people dying, me being alone when I some day move out, and other stuff. Whenever something good would happen, I'd start thinking about why it ended and the fact I can't stop time and blah blah. I'm having trouble remembering exactly what I was thinking. I'd like to quote you one more time; I have a piss poor memory

I am melodramatic and everything bad that happens is a tragedy to be engraved on my mind in the great book of me.
I get bored with routine and get depresessed when everything seems normal.
I alternate between loving and hating myself, but in the last few months I've started to care less and less, I feel sort of dead. I've stopped playing guitar on a regular basis, i'ts been months since I've painted or drawn anything.
I'm a slut, and I wish I wasn't.
I have a low - non-exsistent self esteem.
I cry less now that I'm on medication.
I'm bored.
I'm so hung up on the past, that I almost forget what year it is.
I torture myself with memories and constantly berate myself.
I act without consideration of the consequences.
I'd rather have money to spend on beer than set some aside to buy shoes.
I hate washing the dishes and skip it for a whole week sometimes.
I don't know what I like or dislike anymore, I sometimes forget what it means to have fun. At times I'm too lazy to play computer games or read. I get so lazy and bored with life that I'll go straight to bed after work.

Originally posted by virago

I'm a slut, and I wish I wasn't.


Talk dirty to me.

Originally posted by MeAndMyLlama
i hate video games

on average i sleep around 10 hours a day

i too like magic the gathering good call on that one ammy

i always feel like im wasting my life whenever i do something like go on the internet or watch television

i often lie to myself and others to make a situation be in my favor

i love cats and loathe dogs

i hate most people i meet sometimes even my friends

i wanted to be a teacher but now im a 19 year old college drop-out instead

i drink mountain dew almost every day

i can never think of anything to say on the phone or on instant messenger though i consider myself a good conversationalist

Wow... everything except the mountaindew, age and I didn't want to be a teacher.

Originally posted by Trotskilicious



Talk dirty to me.

Fuck you Trotsky. Or wait, on 2nd thought, I'd rather not

Originally posted by virago


Fuck you Trotsky. Or wait, on 2nd thought, I'd rather not

:cry:

virago what do you look like.

What are you wearing?

i would like to confess that neopryn is awesome

Originally posted by pee pee colada
tootsie.


<img src="http://myspace-392.vo.llnwd.net/00059/29/37/59097392_l.jpg">

Originally posted by pee pee colada
virago what do you look like.

why

Originally posted by Trotskilicious
What are you wearing?

A pink bunnysuit and black boots. I fuck with my boots on.

Sounds hot. What's a bunny suit? Are you actually dressed like a bunny?

Originally posted by thischarmingman
I want to be a professional writer but I've stopped having good ideas, or being confident with my existing ideas, for a few years now.

Originally posted by Trotskilicious
Sounds hot. What's a bunny suit? Are you actually dressed like a bunny?

On the internet you can be dressed any way you like, anytime of the day. Yes, I'm at work and have pink floppy ears. My boss is pulling on them right now:o

I don't care with how you're dressed on the internet, jeez.

I like the boots though.

Originally posted by Trotskilicious
I don't care with how you're dressed on the internet, jeez.

I like the boots though.

I don't care about what you care/don't care about but thanx

Originally posted by neopryn

- i have a lot more experience with girls than i've led people here to believe.

well fuck, now i feel even worse

alexthestampede, what was your user name on the korn board

Sean loves Korn.

Originally posted by virago


why because you said i was the second hottest netphoria, and i want to know what the kind of person who says that looks like.

- I, too, am an only child. I also have no cousins. I'm the last hope for this part of the family.

- I was raised by a single mom and basically we lived off of welfare for, I'd say, 90% of my entire life from 0-18. Now that I'm older I realize, and more importantly resent, how lazy she was. She could have worked. She could have done SO much more. But she didn't. I think she has some mental issues that are undiagnosed, like ADD or something, but she had the ability to be far more responsible than she was. This has rubbed off on me, too, mainly with my spending habits. My disdain for her is pretty much something that I have yet to get over. I can't be around my mother for five minutes without wanting to be away from her because I can't stand being around her. Which sucks, because I could be a much worse person than I am. She raised a good kid and she at least deserves to have me treat her with some respect. I can't bring myself to do it yet, though. She tells me she loves me and I know she means it. I tell her I love her and I know I don't.

- Some of you already know this, but I have never seen my biological father. My last name is that of the man who my mom married AFTER my dad left her. They got divorced shortly after I was born. I did have a father figure in the sense that my mom dated the same man from when I was 3 or so until around my 18th birthday. He wasn't fatherly, though. He did support me and took me on motorcycle trips and stuff like that, but he was/is an alcoholic, didn't/doesn't make too much an effort to be a part of my life, and generally should not be held to the standard of a decent father. My upbringing this way has me fearful that I'll be a poor husband and father.

- The fire at my building a couple weeks ago has really messed with my head, mainly stemming from helping the guy out of his apartment. Last I heard, he was in danger of having his arms amputated, and will have to have a lot of skin grafts. I'm most fearful that one day he's going to come to my door, not to say thanks, but to ask why I didn't leave him there to die. I don't know how I could bear knowing that he'd rather be dead and it is my intervention that prevented that from happening.

- As an aside to that, I feel kind of selfish for hoping that I'll get some sort of karma boost for doing that.

- Speaking of being selfish, I do think I have "only child syndrome". I'm a giving person a lot of the time, but it's usually marked by materialistic things- I buy dinners, buy this, buy that. When it comes to being there emotionally for someone, or even in normal discussion really, I somehow relate it back to myself. I say "I" a lot. I feel real guilty when I catch myself because I know I should be a better person than that.

- I have a job that I really take advantage of. I'm treated with the utmost respect by my employer and I do not reciprocate. I don't mean that I treat him bad, but I do not do my best for our company, which is something I have prided myself on in most of the jobs that I have had. The lax attitude of the workplace is the problem, but I can't bring myself to tell him he needs to have tighter control and higher expectations if I'm going to be a better employee. My addiction to this community does not help.

- I haven't spoken to the girl, Julie, I dated back in high school and through most of college in three years. I would really like to know how she is doing. I still have a friend that was a mutual friend of ours, but I can't bring myself to ask her- she dealt with a lot of "in-the-middle" shit when we were together and I don't think it's very fair. I wouldn't have even gone to college if it weren't for Julie and her family. I miss them. I don't miss the relationship though- it had run its course. If I could have those last three years together (out of six) back, I'd take them in an instant. I feel I missed out on a lot of colleg experiences because I was still in the relationship unnecessarily. I bet she feels the same. I just realized her birthday is tomorrow, too.

- Back in middle school a friend and I were playing Street Fighter II on my SNES. This guy is the most uncoordinated person I know. All he did in the game was play Blanka and jump and kick. He beat me something like ten times in a row. I got so mad I punched him and threw his controller. We're still friends today. In fact, I think I'm the oldest friend he has. He's getting married in September and I'm kind of disappointed I wasn't asked to be the best man. Not upset- I understand why he picked who he did- but I got kind of excited about the possibility.

- I cried when Johhny Cash died. And Mr. Rogers.

- I wish I was more in touch with myself. I don't know who I am or what I want to be or do with my life. I envy those of you here who seem to have the ability to be introspective. I don't have the patience. Posting this is about as introspective as I get. It makes me feel like I'm shallow... all show and no substance. I know theres something down inside me that is waiting for me to discover it, but I'm not even looking. When I do, it's not for long.

- I miss Fat Boy. I had this realization just a couple days ago. I miss his meow. I miss him sitting on my lap or stomach. I miss him waiting at the door for me when I got home. I never realized his devotion to me until a friend said one day back in December that "he watches you wherever you go." He was such a wonderful cat.

- I teared up writing that.

- If you haven't guessed, I'm a sensitive male.

- The only person close to me that has died in my lifetime is my best friend when I was 7. He drowned. My mom didn't let me go to the funeral. I think her reason was that she didn't think I could handle it. Looking back on it now, I don't know that I believe that. I never did go to his gravesite. Today I don't really remember anything about him. I do know that for some unexplainable reason, when I was 15 or so, I cried about it.

- I have so much crap that I don't need. I really just want to throw it away. But I know it has value and keep it around with the hope that I might get something for it. Apparently the pack-rat thing runs in the family. I wish I could be a minimalist liver. If that makes sense. No way would I get rid of my CD collection though.

- All you people saying how you like/hate video games reminds me of how I barely get to play them anymore. I own many games that I've played for less than an hour total. Another thing is that I feel the industry has passed me by. I'm an SNES guy in a PS3 world. I hate the PS controller because it has way too many buttons. That makes me feel old just by saying that.

- I dated my best friend's (he's still my best friend today) sister Shannon back in high school. I was a junior and she was a freshman. After courting for the better part of the school year, we "officially" started dating. A week later she wrote me a note saying she couldn't handle it and didn't want to date. This sent me into a deep depression. I lost 20 pounds because I could barely eat anything. I holed up in my room and moped. My friends weren't much help. Part of my coping was writing letters to most everyone I knew telling them how much I valued them in my life. I think I'd laugh if I saw one now. Jason (my best friend) says he still has his. In the summer prior to my senior year Shannon started liking me again. At this time I was getting to know Julie. So I had a choice of who I wanted to date and I picked Julie. I found out a couple years later that she had hoped we didn't work out. This was difficult because I still wasn't over her. Julie was always (rightfully, in hindsight) jealous of her. In fact, even today I wouldn't say I'm totally over her. Maybe it's that first love thing or whatever. But her and I went out for dinner last Friday and she really is a different person, one whom I'm not sure I'd like if we hung out regularly. So maybe I'm better off holding on to the fonder memories. Man, when all that shit was going down it seemed like an eternity. But looking on it now it was less than a year. Heh.

- I don't care about religion. I'm agnostic, I guess, but I don't like that term because that implies that I care enough to have decided that no one has proven their side. The bottom line is that I just don't care. I've got other things in my life that take priority over whether or not I think there's a god. Like what I want for breakfast.

- Alright, last one as this is way long already... I feel like I'm on the cusp of a personal movement of self-discovery. I'm actually genuinely excited about the prospect of such. I think it stems from my road trip. I didn't have any major epiphanies or anything, but I think it gave me the opportunity to just relax and not care about anything, which gave me time to recharge. As much of a pessimist as I am, I have a positive outlook on the next few months. We'll see what happens.

Originally posted by spring
awesome thread, Ammy :)

I'll contribute some more when I get home, but for now...

i'm pretty weird sometimes, because I get too sensitive/emotional about things
i think i think too much sometimes
i feel too much most of the time
i associate moods and feelings with colours
i cry easily
many of my friends feel like they can talk to me about a lot of things, and they do - I don't know what inspires their confidence, because I don't think I give great advice, I just listen and I don't judge them
i love love love music, and I think it's the one thing that has helped shape my life the most
ok, i gotta go now, but I'll edit this and continue later

you also fuck on a whim aint that right jizzy

AndySlash.

that made me well up a little.

AndySlash.
I bow.

Originally posted by AndySlash
- Speaking of being selfish, I do think I have "only child syndrome". I'm a giving person a lot of the time, but it's usually marked by materialistic things- I buy dinners, buy this, buy that. When it comes to being there emotionally for someone, or even in normal discussion really, I somehow relate it back to myself. I say "I" a lot. I feel real guilty when I catch myself because I know I should be a better person than that.



It's nice to see that I'm not the only one. I just *can't* relate to people and their proximity to family. I don't feel close to my family at all, and I think that's cause there was no one even remotely close to me in age around. :)

andyslash reminded me of some stuff i could write.

-i'm an only child. i think this is pretty obvious already to people who don't know that. though of most of my friends who had siblings growing up, i acted least like the only child.

-speaking of siblings, my mom had a miscarriage when i was seven. it was going to be a girl. she would be thirteen now. and her name would have been jennifer. in a totally selfish way, i wish she was around. it makes me wonder how different things would be. my parents would have a smaller house. and they probably wouldn't have a couple of chihuahuas like they do now. life would probably be funner. though 7 years is a big difference. still. i would like it.

-ace of aces described me as having a textbook case of white middle class guilt, which is true. i don't have enough to worry about, so i worry about everyone else. all my life i've been around people who haven't had to worry about money. and since being flung into the 'real world' two years ago, it's still really hard for me to comprehend how people get by on minimum wage.

-i'm not an entirely strict vegan. i've modified my ethos to become what they call a freegan. for instance, at work the customers often leave behind entire platefuls of food that they barely touch and more often than not it's a meat dish. none of my coworkers will eat it, so instead of throwing it away, i take it and eat it myself so i won't be hungry for another 12 hours. the other night i had spaghetti and meatballs. and the night before that a 6oz sirloin steak. i don't believe this conflicts with my principles. after all, it's a matter of which i would rather see happen. an animal die only to have its flesh be thrown in the trash, or an animal die so i can not be hungry for another 12 hours. i still don't purchase animal products.

Originally posted by pee pee colada
AndySlash.

that made me well up a little.


Why, if I may ask?


I love this thread, folks. It'd be great if it didn't die.

Originally posted by xtina


Principles or not, doesn't it make you sick? the beef products make me really really tired, but sick, no.

the johnny cash part.

i cried when dimebag was killed. and i don't even like pantera or damage plan.

Originally posted by xtina


huh.

You have to be away from the meat for a really long time. John hasn't been vegan or vegetarian for *that* long (what, a year now?) so it makes sense that it doesn't make him sick. I'm sure if Nikki ate meat, she'd be vomiting for the rest of the night.

Originally posted by mirrar
you'll be a netphorian great one day.

neopryn is already one of the best of all time

Originally posted by pee pee colada
the johnny cash part.

Whoa...

His song "Spiritual" just came on when I read that...

(edit: I should note- I have 9000 songs on my WinAmp and it is on random...)
...


"Jesus... Jesus... I don't wanna die alone..."

"Don't leave me here to die a lonely death."

:(


I listened to his duet with June Carter, "Far Side Banks of Jordan" thats on her Press On album the weekend after he died. I hadn't listened to the words before, but I was alone in my car on a boring drive. It basically predicts the circumstances of their deaths. I cried the rest of that trip.

Originally posted by xtina


Ah, for some reason I thought he'd been veggie for way longer than that.

Maybe he has, I'm not the best with time, but it seems like maybe 2 years ago he was at McD's... meh.

I ate a pastrami sandwhich in New York last year, and I don't generally eat meat... Ugh... I spent the next day in the bathroom vomiting.

Originally posted by AndySlash
I love this thread, folks. It'd be great if it didn't die.

- my forehead is starting to break out really bad 'cause i've been sweating so goddamn much lately. fuck this heat.

-i'm going to do day labor tomorrow

-i live in the ghetto

-i went to a rave on acid saturday

-i masturbate at least 3 times a day

-i'm a Kashi Go Lean! Crunch addict

-i don't have a license anymore

-i'm obsessed with Hello Kitty

yeah i had only been fully vegan for about 8 months. stopped eating meat a year ago.

I lived in a guest home the last year of high school. since i left the place, i never spoke to anyone from my guest family ever since. everything was extremely fucking confusing back then and i wasn't sure about how i thought about the family.

when i didn't have an internet connection until januari '04, i often went to school in the evening, travelling for an hour to get there, including a train trip.

my parents are half vegetarians: they have always eaten fish, but not other meat. but since my mother found out she has some kind of food allergy, they eat a lot of meat now. that was before i left my parents' place. i was 17 when i did that and ate all the meat you could imagine

i once stole money from my mother and made my parents believe i knew nothing about it even though they didn't believe me at first. i bought News of the World by Queen of it and hid it at first, so my parents wouldn't notice

a gay guy hit on me the other day. it was fucking awkward.

i remember having some kind of superpower when i was a child, or at least thinking i had it. i thought i was able to open sleeping people's eyes, by opening mine very slowly, looking in their direction.

i love cats so fucking much that i want to stroke every one i see on the street. i have never been able to have one; my mother is allergic to them and my landlord doesn't allow animals.

even though my grandparents and me have always kept contact and they help me out financially, i forgot their birthdays the first 3 or 4 years i lived on my own (and had no toilet door calender to my disposal to see birthdates on)

my grandparents didn't know I existed until my mother told them when I was 11

even though i could really use the money, i still haven't changed my insurance. i have like the most expensive one there is, and there's really no reason for me to keep this one and not change to a better one.

my mother caught me jerking off once when I was 14 or 15. I had the light out and said that i just was sleeping when she entered the room. not sure what she believed...

even worse, my former (female!) roommate caught me once when i just had my pants down. she even knocked on my door and i still don't know why i said "enter!" when i meant "hold on...!"

i really don't have a clue how my life will look in 5 years, let alone in 10. i'm very much afraid that my extreme laziness will keep me from studying and that i won't graduate for another few years.

i've been on antidepressants for the second time in my life, for the last half year. i still don't know what to think of it. i'm quite ok now, and i wasn't before. man, i was so fucking anxious in class that i eventually stopped going to school for a quarter of a year. i really need to work on myself now in order to make life worthwile enough in the future. which i don't. i just sit here for no obvious reason, while it's 4 am. it goes like this a lot. i have no disciplin at all whereas i'll be needing it a lot the next year on school: i won't have any classes anymore, but still have things to hand in and exams to make (with no real deadlines). i'll have to do everything myself.

even though i broke up with my ex girlfriend in march 2003, I still think about her every day and I think I see her walking everytime when someone resembles her in the slightest. sometimes i'm not even sure if it's not her and i freak myself out. i love her still and i don't think that will ever really stop. i don't have contact with her at all anymore, though i really wonder how's she's doing. but i can't start having contact with her again at this point, it would make things only a lot harder. i fear she hates me or stopped caring about me.

netphoria has influenced my opinions about music and people a lot in the past.

i was hopelessly in love with a netphorian after having chatted with her only a few times. i told her i was and it wasn't mutual (of course). i think she doesn't visit this site anymore.

<font color="dab9ea">It's slow at work... and the computer in the tech shop I'm working on is scanning right now so I'm going to do this again.

The first or second year we were together (I don't remember because the years run together now), I was either 15 or 16, and I had a friend online, who truthfully I didn't care about, was just someone to pass the time with, and she was like 14 or something and said she was bi and really liked me or something. And I didn't have the heart/guts to tell her to leave me alone, and she knew about Zach, and knew we were together but didn't care anyway, and we would talk daily, and she'd always say "I love you" and "kisses" and this and that when she'd email me, and I always did the same just because she did. I guess I liked the attention or something, but really I think back on it, and I don't think I would've cared less if I would've never spoken to her again. Zach had an online friend or something (who was an ass) who somehow got into my email account and there were like two emails from her and sent them to Zach, and Zach thought I was cheating on him. He printed out the emails and brought them to school and threw them at me and started crying. This was like 7:45am or something, and class didn't start until 8:10am... and I tried and tried to tell him it was nothing and explain it to him, but he wouldn't listen. I was devestated that such a stupid thing could blow up and cause him to think I didn't care about him, when that was absolutely nothing to me. I went through class all day and at lunch time we went out to his car to talk and he said it was okay and we were okay, that he loved me and all that. I think that shook his trust in me seriously for years to come. I don't think he came to terms with it or the thought that I was going to cheat on him until a few years ago. While he's been away at school though I never once thought that he might be unfaithful.

I don't know if I'm making the right choices as far as my school is concerned. Right now I'm majoring in Mgt Info Systems.... and I don't enjoy any of this stuff... I hate accounting/economics and I hate programming.... all I want to do is just fix and build computers... I'd love to open a computer repair shop that fixes and builds computers and sells computer parts... I don't want to program in Java or C++ and all that stuff. I also really enjoy English classes, but wtf are you supposed to do with a degree in English? If I were to switch my major then it would almost be like I was switching because I couldn't hack it and that would be such a cop out... and part of me wants to be lazy and just do it, and the other half of me knows if I try hard enough I can stick it out and make it.

I honestly question whether or not I will/can graduate from college. I have 63hrs so far... after this July session I'll have 66hrs.... and that's way too much to just stop. But I guess I just have this crazy self destructive thought that I can't do it. If I do it will be the HUGEST confidence boost. If my mother who dropped out of high school and was able to graduate with her bachelors degree, and was just a few hours away from her Masters, I have got to be able to do it. I just have to.

Zach said we aren't getting married until I graduate. I don't know if he said that as an ensentive.... or ultimadem or ... just because. Truthfully I don't know whether or not he was serious or not,... but I know I couldn't live with myself if I didn't graduate.

My mother and grandmother are driving me crazy about being engaged. I went down to see Corgan on the 8th and my mom told me to tell Zach she was expecting me to come home with a wedding ring... and Zach said "but.. but... I don't have a ring for you..." all sad like. It's really rather insane because no one wants to be forced into this, and if he doesn't want to then I certainly don't want to make him. My grandmother gave me her wedding and engagement rings to get married with... and I told him, hey we've got her rings, so you don't have to worry about it, and that's really great because it's got sentimental value... He told me to tell my mom he's going to ask me the night of his graduation in front of his family at his party thing...we've been together 7 years as of this september... I don't know. I'm honestly not all that concerned about when it happens or what not, but my family is jut going apeshit saying he doesn't want to commit to me and this and that. I just wish to God they'd leave me alone about it. I know he loves me and wants to be with me... I don't really want them bugging me making me think things that aren't there and such.</font>

Originally posted by smashingjj
even worse, my former (female!) roommate caught me once when i just had my pants down. she even knocked on my door and i still don't know why i said "enter!" when i meant "hold on...!"


oldest trick in the book

jeori.

you are older than me by three years less one day.

i own an 80$ mahjong set i've never ever used. i still don't know how to play

and that makes you pretty cool (along with the crazy avatar).

this thread was fun to read.

five stars.

Originally posted by Blue*Carbonite
-i masturbate at least 3 times a dayTMI

Originally posted by Oranjes
TMI
oh you want more?

-i shit blood the other day. a lot.
-i haven't had anal sex in a few months
-jon licked the inside of my nose the other day and it was HOT
-i enjoy the taste of semen

Originally posted by Blue*Carbonite

oh you want more?

-i shit blood the other day. a lot.
-i haven't had anal sex in a few months
-jon licked the inside of my nose the other day and it was HOT
-i enjoy the taste of semen oh ok.. I guess I was wrong saying that.

Originally posted by Oranjes
oh ok.. I guess I was wrong saying that.

whoa we have a Stan smilie
:stan:

Originally posted by Blue*Carbonite

oh you want more?

-i shit blood the other day. a lot.
-i haven't had anal sex in a few months
-jon licked the inside of my nose the other day and it was HOT
-i enjoy the taste of semen im glad im not you.

I'm in a legal battle with my landlord and I think she's trying to stink me out of our apartment. Seriously. We went to the rental board so we could get an extention on our lease and not have to move AGAIN, since we really like our apartment, but it's being converted into condos illegally. The custodian is in the hospital and no one has taken out the trash since Friday. It fucking wreaks. I'm sick to my stomach and I'm SERIOUSLY considering staying in a hotel tonight and deducting the costs from our rent since we can't stay here tonight. I've thrown up twice since I've been home because of the smell coming in through the air vents.

Originally posted by pee pee colada
im glad im not you.
most people are

Originally posted by Lucy Sky Diamonds
I'm in a legal battle with my landlord and I think she's trying to stink me out of our apartment. Seriously. We went to the rental board so we could get an extention on our lease and not have to move AGAIN, since we really like our apartment, but it's being converted into condos illegally. The custodian is in the hospital and no one has taken out the trash since Friday. It fucking wreaks. I'm sick to my stomach and I'm SERIOUSLY considering staying in a hotel tonight and deducting the costs from our rent since we can't stay here tonight. I've thrown up twice since I've been home because of the smell coming in through the air vents.

<font color="dab9ea">That's horrible :(</font>

Originally posted by Sean Casey
alexthestampede, what was your user name on the korn board


firstnamelastname :erm i wasnt very wary of internet creeps i guess. all i did was flame people when they made threads about suicide or when 9 or 10 people complimented some ugly guy on how they looked

Originally posted by obscured01


<font color="dab9ea">That's horrible :(</font>

What do you think, should I go to a hotel tonight? Someone put fish in the trash receptical. On Saturday.

Originally posted by Lucy Sky Diamonds


What do you think, should I go to a hotel tonight? Someone put fish in the trash receptical. On Saturday.
why not couchsurf at a friend's house? it'd be cheaper?

i kind of miss all the suicidal threads now that i think about it though :/ netphoria's got its fair share of pain but the canned "my father molested and beat me when i was younger. i cut myself last night" topics were pretty good reading

Originally posted by Lucy Sky Diamonds


What do you think, should I go to a hotel tonight? Someone put fish in the trash receptical. On Saturday. why can't you take out the trash yourself?

we once had a situation when there was so much trash in the lower hall and no-one took it out. i just put the garbage bags next to public trashcans and they were gone next day

Originally posted by Lucy Sky Diamonds


What do you think, should I go to a hotel tonight? Someone put fish in the trash receptical. On Saturday.

<font color="dab9ea">I'm assuming it's like all the trash from the entire apartment right? If it's in the compactor... there's no where for you to take it out to, right? I don't know if y'all have dumpsters there, where like you can take the trash to the ally and then to the dumpster, or if you have to put it outside and wait for the garbage men to come pick it up.

Anyway... do you have a friend or something you could stay with? If it's so nasty that it's made you puke you don't need to stay there because you'll just get sicker, and there's no use in that. At least I wouldn't stay. If you don't have anyone you could stay with, yeah I'd go to a hotel.</font>

i feel like this thread has brought us all closer together

Originally posted by alexthestampede
i kind of miss all the suicidal threads now that i think about it though :/ netphoria's got its fair share of pain but the canned "my father molested and beat me when i was younger. i cut myself last night" topics were pretty good reading

<font color="dab9ea">Alex, shut up.</font>

Originally posted by neopryn
i feel like this thread has brought us all closer together i guess.

i still think obscured01 is kind of boring.

Originally posted by pee pee colada
i guess.

i still think obscured01 is kind of boring.

<font color="dab9ea">I am boring. And I'd be the last person to despute that, but I'm content with my plainness.</font>

Originally posted by Lucy Sky Diamonds
I'm in a legal battle with my landlord and I think she's trying to stink me out of our apartment. Seriously. We went to the rental board so we could get an extention on our lease and not have to move AGAIN, since we really like our apartment, but it's being converted into condos illegally. The custodian is in the hospital and no one has taken out the trash since Friday. It fucking wreaks. I'm sick to my stomach and I'm SERIOUSLY considering staying in a hotel tonight and deducting the costs from our rent since we can't stay here tonight. I've thrown up twice since I've been home because of the smell coming in through the air vents.

2. Eviction to divide the dwelling, enlarge it or substantially change its nature

The landlord may evict the tenant for the purposes of dividing the dwelling, enlarging it, or substantially changing its nature. In this case the landlord must notify the tenant six months before the expiry of the lease that the lease will not be renewed. In the case of a lease with no fixed term, this must be done six months prior to the date of eviction.

The notice of eviction must provide the reason for, and the date of eviction.

The landlord must pay an amount equal to three months' rent as well as reasonable moving expenses to the evicted tenant. The tenant may apply to the court to have it set the amount payable by the landlord.

The amount (excluding moving expenses) is payable at the expiry of the lease; the moving expenses are payable on presentation of receipts.



maybe this could help (http://www.cmhc-schl.gc.ca/en/bureho/reho/yogureho/fash/fash_011.cfm)

i give new definition to the word boring. they should make a different kind just to describe me.

Originally posted by neopryn
i give new definition to the word boring. they should make a different kind just to describe me.

oh me too. i'm apathetidull. its got a nice ring to it.

<font color="dab9ea">I guess the best way to describe it is boring is stable... and I would consider myself one of the most stable people in the world. But yeah that is boring... but that's okay.</font>

i'm surprised and so happy this thread turned out the way i was hoping. this is wonderful :love:

i'm finding being vegan is really fucking easy. i feel better, and the fact that i have the willpower to not eat shit i crave is one of the coolest things i've ever seen myself do. i really fucking love hummus and i couldn't have done it without, i don't think.

one of the happiest moments of my life was having a psychologist tell me i had amazing ideas and he wanted to work with me even though he's not technically allowed to. i felt so validated and full of life. i don't have the marks for a masters even, but i know at one point, i'm going to end up with my own practice and a phd. i simply can't imagine doing anything else anymore.

i have a really, really bad phobia of bugs on my skin. i see them crawling all over me a lot, and over my things. i sleep with the lights on on top of my blankets sometimes and i itch myself raw rarely. it's quite scary but i'm not about to go into some invasive therapy for it, yet.

i worry about fucking EVERYTHING. there is hardly ever a time when i'm not obsessing over what the next thing to go wrong will be.

apparently i have this hard edge to me while still being girl-ish that a lot of people think is really cool. i went through some shit when i was younger, so i tend to radiate this "dont fuck with me" vibe while still being joking and chill. i guess thats cool
i am in LOVE with vintage everything. clothes that don't fit right, furniture i pulled from the side of the road, ugly costume jewellery, all that shit. i don't buy anything new because malls give me half panic attacks and i tend to develop sentimental feelings towards the ugliest vintage shit. i make up stories about who wore it last and what they were like.

i talk to myself all the fucking time. i talk to trees, animals, tables, anything, very quietly. i live in my head a lot more of the time than anyone knows about. i'm ALWAYS daydreaming and coming up with a new idea.

i sing at the top of my lungs to the most random songs, and i slide around on the floors and prance like a retarded ballerina. i can't sing and i have no rhythm, but i enjoy it. also, music is completely my lifeblood.

i love drugs more than i probably should. i don't do them to get fucked up- i do them to see things differently and to give my friends new experiences and to bond them to each other.

i'm known for being both wild and really into partying, and the experienced person people come to when they want to try something. many people have told me they have mad respect for me because i have a good job, i'm in school, and i have things together no matter how much i'm throwing down on the weekends.

i have a half sister i have nothing to do with. my mom raised me by herself, and then she hooked up with a catholic priest and had his kid by accident. most of my teen years were spent hiding at various friends houses or in screaming sobbing fights with my mother. or listening to her tell me she had this kid because i was a failure and at least she had another chance. consequently, when i moved out i don't go back there or converse with them if i don't have to. it's not that i hate them, i just really don't have anything to say.

i take care of the people in my circle of friends. i'm sort of a surrogate mother to my roommate sometimes, and i'm always the first chasing someone crying out of the room and hugging them until they're okay. i think its selfish on some level because when i love people i feel loved.

i really, REALLY have grown to dislike my stepmom. just because she has no views or opinions of her own. i don't like it, but i can't help it. she's just flat. lifeless. makes me angry.

i really only meet guys on the internet. i'm too awkward to approach anyone, i think everyone hates me, and i need a certain type of personality that i'm not willing to sit through dates to find.

Originally posted by homechicago


2. Eviction to divide the dwelling, enlarge it or substantially change its nature

The landlord may evict the tenant for the purposes of dividing the dwelling, enlarging it, or substantially changing its nature. In this case the landlord must notify the tenant six months before the expiry of the lease that the lease will not be renewed. In the case of a lease with no fixed term, this must be done six months prior to the date of eviction.

The notice of eviction must provide the reason for, and the date of eviction.

The landlord must pay an amount equal to three months' rent as well as reasonable moving expenses to the evicted tenant. The tenant may apply to the court to have it set the amount payable by the landlord.

The amount (excluding moving expenses) is payable at the expiry of the lease; the moving expenses are payable on presentation of receipts.



maybe this could help (http://www.cmhc-schl.gc.ca/en/bureho/reho/yogureho/fash/fash_011.cfm)

Condo conversions are illegal in this region of the city. So not only is their attempt to evict us illegal, but the procedure they've undertaken is also illegal. They haven't offered to pay our moving expenses or 3 months rent, they've just said, "You're out by this date."

The trash is in large bins in separate rooms, one per floor. There's no dumpster in the area, and no trash collection in the alley. In fact, it's a $100 fine per garbage bag in the alley, and yes, they do have people pick through the garbage to give these fines.

All of my friends are out of town right now. GAH.

<font color="dab9ea">Yeah I'd go to a hotel. That really sucks.</font>

if i lived in montreal, you and your army could crash here to stage your housing coup. bad landlords need to be punished for their crimes against the humble tenants.

my slumlord in ireland got hers when myself and the other housemates had all our friends call collect internationally (the phone only took incoming calls) in retrobution for locking up the hot water closet controls, the trash in the locked porch, and a whole host of other things.

not into property damage, but a huge phone bill i can live with.

Originally posted by homechicago
if i lived in montreal, you and your army could crash here to stage your housing coup. bad landlords need to be punished for their crimes against the humble tenants.

my slumlord in ireland got hers when myself and the other housemates had all our friends call collect internationally (the phone only took incoming calls) in retrobution for locking up the hot water closet controls, the trash in the locked porch, and a whole host of other things.

not into property damage, but a huge phone bill i can live with.

Well I wrote her a letter stating that if the problem is not rectified by Friday, building inspectors will be called.

Originally posted by Lucy Sky Diamonds


Well I wrote her a letter stating that if the problem is not rectified by Friday, building inspectors will be called.

i wouldn't have been so lenient

Originally posted by Lucy Sky Diamonds


Well I wrote her a letter stating that if the problem is not rectified by Friday, building inspectors will be called.

that's the spirit! good luck.

Originally posted by ammy


i wouldn't have been so lenient

Should I change it to 24 hrs? I spoke with her this afternoon....

well if you already said it, you already said it. :p i'd just go at her with all i had if i didn't like her to begin with (do you like her?)

Originally posted by ammy
well if you already said it, you already said it. :p i'd just go at her with all i had if i didn't like her to begin with (do you like her?)

I haven't given her the letter yet (I want Lucas to spell check my French and he's not home yet). I don't like her, but then, I haven't liked a single landlord I've had since I moved out. I think I should just buy a home!

nice getting to know some of you.


i am engaged to a wonderful and beautiful, girl. despite what many of you think, we are not freaks OR losers in real life.

i play the guitar. i used to be very invovled in the local rock scene in vancouver.

i live in a suburb of vancouver. i shall not name it.

worked in a record store for 5 years.

i have played in about 6 different bands.

i have 3 cats and 1 dog.

i have recently gotten involved in taekwondo

i will eventually be an english and history teacher.

i was a professional rollerbalding instructor. i got skillz on blades.

i played ice hockey for 10 years.

i didn't smoke pot for the first time until i was graduating from high school, and i rarely drink.

Originally posted by Voice Implodes

i dont think you're a loser or freak. i happen to like you. f all them h8rs.

Originally posted by yo soy el mejor

i dont think you're a loser or freak. i happen to like you. f all them h8rs.

thanks man. i like you too:cheers:

I played ice-hockey age 6-14.
I was taking accordion lessons age 6-10, I played piano, too, but these days I play only guitar. I want to learn how to play harmonica.
I wish I could really speak French.
I have a constant inner feeling I am running out of time, whatever it means.
Regarding my ********** and where am I coming from, I am kind of American Dream story. Yet all this is/was driven by constant inner fears of failure - and for some reason I think that if I stop worrying about these things, all what I have achieved so far will be gone.
I do believe my parents are proud of me.
The only moments where I had a feeling am fully alive, living every moment to its fullest, fully aware of everything, were while I was travelling.
These days I usually get to bed around 3-4 am at earliest.
I have milked way over 11,000 liters of milk in my life.
My favourite book is Walden by Thoreau, second Infinite Jest by David Foster Wallace.
I had a fucked up relationship age 14-18 that seriously screwed a lot of things inside of me more than I am willing to acknowledge. I wish I could take time way back.
I am constantly being torn in two completely different directions I'd like to live my life - academic career and the work with cows high in the Swiss Alps. The gap is growing everyday.
The most satisfying sex I have had while traveling with girls I got to know that day, with them being gone the very next day. The knowledge that there's no real comittment needed/asked for and that we'd never see each other ever again was probably the major factor.
I really don't know where I will be in 3 years, where I should go to when the Canada affair will be over. I am fully aware that if I wouldn't go back to CZE at that time, I will most probably never make it back again.
Sometimes I really feel like I am ready to start the family.
I hate small talk - I am basically incapable of it, but this doesn't stop me getting into it with new people for my own personal amusement how clumsy am I and how the other person must think I do suck
I prefer staying home or meeting friends at their places rather than going out.
I am getting less and less interested in meeting and making new friends, yet at the same time I am constantly losing my old ones because of the lack of contact.
I am really afraid I will never get to know my father's real personality before he dies.
I am not interested even slightly in most of Netphorians, but if I do, then I really do care a lot what you say and what you think ( I probably stole this from someone)
I come here mostly for the same reasons Jerome does, plus in my case it's the issue of practising English as well.
I think that's enough for this thread - it was a good one.
I will probably do some edits later on, so read before I do so.

I am, most certainly, not a Jew.

man, talk about digging up an old thread...



no. really. talk about it.
what the fuck?

Originally posted by ammy

no. really. talk about it.
what the fuck? I was looking for something.

and I also usually like to take my time. How was the shower?

it was three hours ago, and nice!

just watched second hand lions. sappy as fuck, but it left me smiling :)

Originally posted by ammy
it was three hours ago, and nice!

just watched second hand lions. sappy as fuck, but it left me smiling :) with another bottle in your hand i suppose?

this was a good thread. i'm glad it got revived! well done Ropey..


AMMY, you done well too. YARR

I feel really stupid writing this because I'm not at all established here, I feel really vain and thread-hijacker-y and like I'm clogging up the board. But I guess narcissism overrules good sense, much to my chagrin. lame

-I know what changes would make me happy, but am too fucking lazy and scared and stuck in a rut to do anything about it. And I hate myself for this. I don't know how to <i>get out</i> of this
-I have been lurking here since 2000
-I have no willpower at all, and test myself by not eating for 2 or 3 days and then eating until past the point of physical pain, almost to the point of vomiting, just to see what I can take
-I am hyperselfconcious of everything I say, especially "I"/"me" all the time, but that doesn't stop me from doing it, making me even more ashamed
-Even though I know it's bullshit, I can't shake the whole "Life will be perfect when..." thing. And am always disappointed when the timeline passes and everything is still the same
-I am rarely insync with people. Either I'm being too smothering or feeling extremely smothered and panciky by their presence.
-I get irritated and hurt really easily, but try to hide it because the only reason people keep me around is by being "the nice one". I think everyone would be disgusted if they could read my thoughts
-I am seventeen and am really sick of being a virgin. I think I may be pressuring my boyfriend for sex.
-Incredibly frustrated by lack of willpower/diligence/motivation/etc.
-I wish I was talented, feel like I was supposed to be, like I'm letting people down beause of my crushing mediocrity
-I have been an insomniac since babyhood, and really look and feel like shit now because of it. Nothing works.
-Haven't slept in 3 days
-I can make myself see the brightside of anything
-It takes me a long time to do things and I need a lot of reassurance
-Unwavering interest in crime+the paranormal+girly Disney things
-Love love love driving on the highway and making personalized cards for people

Originally posted by bad_alias
-I am hyperselfconcious of everything I say, especially "I"/"me" all the time, but that doesn't stop me from doing it, making me even more ashamed
-Even though I know it's bullshit, I can't shake the whole "Life will be perfect when..." thing. And am always disappointed when the timeline passes and everything is still the same
I feel the same way.. hEh

bad_alias, your post was very interesting. feel bettttttttttter.

Originally posted by Oranjes
I feel the same way.. hEh

bad_alias, your post was very interesting. feel bettttttttttter.

It's stressful and irritating, huh?

and thank you:)

Originally posted by bad_alias


It's stressful and irritating, huh?

and thank you:) yes. btw, i think i'm misrepresenting myself. i said i feel the same way about saying "i" this and "i" that, but usually i just worry about saying something wrong. which i do often. i think my brain does it in spite of my will. i dont know why i quoted that part of your post...

i guess im too tired...

ah nah.

p.s. i hope you get over your issues someday, somehow! i know i already said that, but i mean it. i'd preach to you, but im not in a position to..

I hear ya.

and thanks. this is mostly just wangsting, but i appreciate it. especially from another modest mouse fan!

Originally posted by ammy

i believe in karma, ghosts, and dragons.



Karma I can understand.
And ghosts I can excuse too.
But dragons???

What, are they hibernating? Wouldn’t we have seen the fuckers some time ago? Bloody Dinosaurs with wings stomping around the place, might draw some attention.

Originally posted by barden


Karma I can understand.
And ghosts I can excuse too.
But dragons???

What, are they hibernating? Wouldn’t we have seen the fuckers some time ago? Bloody Dinosaurs with wings stomping around the place, might draw some attention.

http://www.ru.ac.za/affiliates/am/paranth.html

Originally posted by Sean Casey
i hate my life
i hate myself
i'm never going to accomplish anything worth talking about to anyone
i can't communicate with people anyway so it doesnt matter that i have nothing worth talking about
i have absolutely nothing to offer the world
i'm a slob
i'm extremely lazy and want everything i want to be handed to me
i'm exceedingly bitter and mean to everyone either blatantly (on here) or in real life, passive agressively
i'm fat and have very little motivation to lose weight because i've done it before and think i'm hideous anyway
i've never had a friend for longer than a few months, this is usually because i get into fights over stupid things and or because im so horribly unconfident and dont believe anyone likes me or wants to have anything to do with me and only hangs out with me because i'm pathetic and they feel sorry for me so i never make plans with people and usually my feelings are confirmed by the fact that they stop seeking me out to do anything
i think i'm stupid and feel completely out of place when i try to comment on anything beyond "this sucks" or "yeah that's pretty good" and i dont bother to learn more about things because i think i won't understand anyway
the only thing i really like doing is sleeping because even when i'm keeping myself occupied i'm still depressed and insecure and upset in some way
i'm pretty awesome
i have no self control (spending and eating)
somehow, despite all this, i'm pretty hardcore arrogant
my speech patterns are influenced to a pathetic degree by owen wilson, boogie nights, and the online comic Achewood
for some reason, i'm writing two different movies, one of which suddenly became pretty good after i recieved some harsh criticism from another board member and i completely revised the plot (in my head) while keeping a lot of the dialogue and situations that i thought were pretty hilarious and yeah, i'm seriously going to be doing a short film in canada this fall, or winter, or the start of next year. either way it'll be done since the person i'm doing this with has necessary equipment and experienced friends.
i seriously sometimes sincerely wish i was gay
i'm a hardcore athiest and i try to be polite about it but most of the time i think to myself that everyone who believes in that shit is just a complete idiot including Einstein and then I feel like a huge dick
i'm obsessed with final fantasy. i seriously tear up thinking about my first experience with a couple of games in the series and i almost cried when i saw the chicago Dear Friends performance. Horrible. they're just as good as pretty much any great novel or movie you can think of and it pisses me off that so many people still don't take the videogame medium seriously.
i sometimes wish i was gay. like i really need just one more strike against me.
i wear really boring and generic clothing because i worry that fat people look ridiculous when they wear anything stylish and i dont want to draw attention to myself. but inside theres a fucking model just waiting to burst out and youll all see when ive lost weight. i'll be so eye catching and ill constantly stop while walking down the street to check my reflection out in the store windows

this all still applies

Originally posted by Sean Casey


this all still applies you're a consistent man

anime > japanese video games:D

i like to drink
i love to go out
i smoke fairly often
i like to eat
i don't like to clean


what else/

i used to fancy a certain girl that lives a few thousand miles away.
but i have learned to let go.
i finally figured out what to do with my life.
i recently went back to school after a 5 year haitus.
in the past 5 years, i've done many things.
i've toured around the country. playing my music, and admiring others.
i might be joining a punk band.
that would be a great departure.

Originally posted by barden

What, are they hibernating? Wouldn’t we have seen the fuckers some time ago? Bloody Dinosaurs with wings stomping around the place, might draw some attention.

i won't explain myself. already went through that with this place. whatever.

Originally posted by RopeyLopey
I was looking for something.

and I also usually like to take my time. How was the shower?

i was wondering who bumped this thread, and i read what you wrote. pretty interesting stuff. now i feel bad for not reading the other 8-9 pages... i just want to say that i guess what you said kind of clears up the mystery surrounding you, from my point of view at least :) and, btw, if you read this, do you want your Dvorak CD back?

Originally posted by spring


and, btw, if you read this, do you want your Dvorak CD back? oh - is that you wanting YOUR CD back?

I was thinking that if Winter Equinox are coming soon, we can trade them, then. Or they are not coming?

Otherwise some other occasion - there are Dresden Dolls coming I guess on 25th October. I want to go - would you go?

If none of those two above applies, yeah, we can meet sometime next week at the same place (that council building) or somewhere more in downtown so that it'd be more convenient for you.
let me know.

I'm in town on the 25th, i'd love to go to see the Dresden Dolls. And yeah, WEQ aren't coming any time soon...:( I still haven't seen them play the songs on their new cd live yet.

Anyway, we can meet before that, if you'd like. I am going to PM you my new phone #.

Originally posted by spring
I'm in town on the 25th, i'd love to go to see the Dresden Dolls. And yeah, WEQ aren't coming any time soon...:( I still haven't seen them play the songs on their new cd live yet.

I've never seen them before - but I still remember Sean Casey was recommending me to go when they were here last year.
Anyways, they are selling tickets in Rotate This (16.50$) - so if you are really decided to go, I can get you a ticket, too (I have it closer than you) - let me know.

-i can eat more than any girl i've ever known, and i'm always hungry

-i'm manic-depressive (type 2)

-i usually can make friends, even though i am very insecure a good deal of the time

-i count the calories in everything i eat

-i am mostly intuitive, as opposed to logical

-i am an only child. i was very spoiled and sheltered.

-i want to be in love, but i am very fickle and independent

-i am nocturnal

-i drink a lot of caffeinated beverages

-i like to do everything the hard way, just to prove that i can

-i am very disorganized, messy, forgetful and have terrible penmanship. i am also generally uncoordinated and awful at sports, though after you get a few drinks in me, i am a pretty decent dancer.

-i'm a borderline alcoholic

-quiet places unnerve me

-i have a lot of nervous habits, like touching my arm or my hair

-i was a very creative, kinda weird child. i was gifted and a total teacher's pet. i was very nervous about disappointing anyone. i also played classical piano.

-there are probably a lot of things i'd be good at, but the working environment of those things scares me

-i am fairly obsessed with clothing and overall trends. i love being able to predict things.

-i am scared of becoming too comfortable w/ mediocrity. i need to do something SOON, or i think this will happen.

-i feel like a jackass talking about this, since it just proves how self-involved i am (in case you weren't already aware)

Is your family wealthy?

Originally posted by gpub
Is your family wealthy?

no, not really. my dad makes good money, but nothing spectacular.

why are you depressed? Who wronged you in life?

Originally posted by gpub
why are you depressed? Who wronged you in life?

nobody, it's genetic


my childhood was great